Casey's Lifestyle Change Journal

Whoohoo! You're doing awesome! 16.6 lbs lost already?!

About the soda thing, I used to drink about the same amount you did. It was pretty bad. I always regret all those empty calories I chugged down without thinking about it now that I look back...

I laughed when I read about your messy room. Mine is exactly the same way. I'm in the process of "spring cleaning" (a little late, but whatever ^-^) and it's going to take me daaayyyys... I've got my bed cleaned off so far and I found the craziest things in it (I tend to "store" things in my bed and forget about it later because I only sleep on one side) Like a frying pan (for when I tryed to kill a bee, lol, yes overkill I know) a hammer, 5 magazines, 2 plates, and the list goes on.

Anyway, keep up the good work! I've been slacking these last few days but you've inspired me to get my butt in gear again. I'll check in later to see how the weight loss is going :)
 
OKay so I've had a rough couple days. I have NOT been eating right, my calories have been about 2000 calories for an entire 3 days. I'm not starving myself. I promise. But, in the last three days I've lost almost THREE pounds. NOT good. I mean, well, yeah it is, but it's not healthy. It's okay though. Today I'm going to put in an honest effort to keep my calories up. I just know if I lose weight too fast the stretch marks are going to be horrid. and then I might gain it all back!
>> NUUUUUU ><
 
Ah ok well, i'm doing good diet wise and everything, have 11 lbs to shed before I meet my mini goal.

I'm under so much stress. I'm with this guy. Been with him for almost five years. and now.... I feel my mind wandering. Somethings he does drive me insane. They're annoying. I don't know what's wrong with me. I keep thinking of relationships that could have been, and it's like, I love my fiance, but... why am I not happy? I'm losing weight, I'm getting my life in order, and I'm NOT HAPPY. I hate this. Three months ago I was as happy as can be.

Then, about three weeks ago, I asked him to leave. I asked him to move out. He had everything packed. And I freaked and said I'd changed my mind, and he stayed. But, what if I want him to leave still??? What if he DOES leave, then I freak out and want him back? I'm just so confused, I'm so young. I'm only 19, i should still have a world of dating left. /sob

I dont' know what to do.

And I'm done ranting. Thanks for listening. /deep breath
 
WOW woman, I completely feel you on a lot of things. I've been with my bf too for 4 1/2 years, and we lived together the whole time too. I lost myself throughout the relationship and it took a toll on our relationship cause I was expecting happiness to come from him, not from me. That was the first issue, then I started working on that.....my mind too did wander....:reddevil:.....

...and the more it wandered the harder it became to deal with the issues cause they seemed bigger than life....

...NOW...I'm truly HAPPY...in January, I decided to move 1/2 my stuff out, and take 2 nights a week, (I pick the nights) away from him....and I stay at my moms' and it gives us mystery...and we miss each other, and it gives me time to think clearly and take up other interests in my life....

...I'm now running a 1/2 marathon Sunday...
...I'm almost a Fully Certified Hyppnotherapist...going to school
...I exercise....
...I make time for friends
...I meet new friends...meetup.com
...I worry more about ME
...And i let him worry about him

...and Now things are great!!!! we are happy...he gives me sweet gifts all the time again, he is adventerous again, we are taking tons of trips again, my mind stopped wandering, i truly appreciate him, and more importantly I TRULY APPRECIATE ME....and whether or not someone is in or out of your life....

..the MAIN point...is that YOU ARE IN YOUR LIFE!!! ...that's all we really ever need....I think throughout time we forget the real reason as to why we are with someone...and that is to spend time together in enjoyment...because we truly enjoy each other's time.

...I think it sounds like you need a little more space from him...honestly these 2 days away, sometimes 1 day away...has built my confidence again, to know that if I had to be single,....I love me enough to make that decision and stick to it!....because I enjoy being with me..even if there is no one else around.....you have to get there too....

...that way you can really really see if you two are meant to be together.

THINGS ARE MUCH MUCH BETTER WITH US NOW....I can't even tell you how finding and valuing myself has rubbed off on him too....valuing himself, finding time for his friends, building his business' as well, getting his work out on, :hurray:....seeing BOTH of us advance as individuals and spending time together because we enjoy each other is a BEAUTIFUL feeling....

...don't fear the space alone....CLARITY COMES WITH IT!! :grouphug:!...xxoxox
 
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...... Oh my god. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you. I really appriciate that, and it makes me feel much better. You know what? I think I'll start spending a night a week at my moms. That's a perfect idea. I can't tell you how much better I feel! All I can say is thank you so much. /crysobhug

That's what my friend said earlier too. And my mother. But hearing it from an outside source is amazingly clarifying.

Now, on topic.

I've been doing very well diet wise today. I had a big breakfast, which kept me full for twelve hours. Now I'm having a light dinner, with crystal light water and then I'm going to snuggle next to said fiance.


XXXX

Casey
 
Hello folks!!

Today's going well, breakfast was a chocolate slim fast.

OMG okay so remember me telling you all that my uncle was going to sponser a new wardrobe for me when I lose my weight? Well, he's on a new "health kick" (Which he needs because he's type 2 diabetic.) and he had the NERVE to argue with me about health food!! But of course I couldn't argue back, because I want new clothes... /rant

Ah. Well, first he said that adding crystal light (ten calories) is as bad as drinking a mountain dew. Um, yeah, I seriously doubt that. It may not be as good as drinking pure water, but it's a HELL of a lot better than soda.

And then, I said to increase his calorie intake when he works out, and he argued. He ARGUED! Omg, like, I've successfully dropped 18lbs, ON MY OWN, (Which I am SUPER proud of) and he tells me I'm wrong. ... /irritated.

I have this problem... Where when I know i'm right, I don't back down, even if it means a fight. But with him, I CAN'T DO THAT and it's driving me crazy. I mean, come on. Free clothes, or me being right... Hmmm... I think I'll be wrong for once.
 
Casey4588 said:
...... Oh my god. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you. I really appriciate that, and it makes me feel much better. You know what? I think I'll start spending a night a week at my moms. That's a perfect idea. I can't tell you how much better I feel! All I can say is thank you so much. /crysobhug

That's what my friend said earlier too. And my mother. But hearing it from an outside source is amazingly clarifying.

Now, on topic.

I've been doing very well diet wise today. I had a big breakfast, which kept me full for twelve hours. Now I'm having a light dinner, with crystal light water and then I'm going to snuggle next to said fiance.


XXXX

Casey
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ANYTIME FRIEND!!! :grouphug:!!!!...really...;) we all need it sometimes, and I understand Exactly what you mean about hearing it from the outside!!!
 
Casey4588 said:
Hello folks!!

Today's going well, breakfast was a chocolate slim fast.

OMG okay so remember me telling you all that my uncle was going to sponser a new wardrobe for me when I lose my weight? Well, he's on a new "health kick" (Which he needs because he's type 2 diabetic.) and he had the NERVE to argue with me about health food!! But of course I couldn't argue back, because I want new clothes... /rant

Ah. Well, first he said that adding crystal light (ten calories) is as bad as drinking a mountain dew. Um, yeah, I seriously doubt that. It may not be as good as drinking pure water, but it's a HELL of a lot better than soda.

And then, I said to increase his calorie intake when he works out, and he argued. He ARGUED! Omg, like, I've successfully dropped 18lbs, ON MY OWN, (Which I am SUPER proud of) and he tells me I'm wrong. ... /irritated.

I have this problem... Where when I know i'm right, I don't back down, even if it means a fight. But with him, I CAN'T DO THAT and it's driving me crazy. I mean, come on. Free clothes, or me being right... Hmmm... I think I'll be wrong for once.
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...exactly....FREE CLOTHES!!!.....:D!!!.....

...my BF made me the same promise as well lately!!...I just need to work harder, to get all those damn clothes & drowning in them....ahhhhhh I can't wait!!!!....Luckily I had a dream last night, that all of my clothes looked terribly huge on me...so much so that it looked like I was wearing someone else's clothes!! ...hopefully that's a sign :D....hahah...;) ONE CAN DREAM RIGHT!! ;)!!!
 
Wow. i'm beat. Today we went to this weird outdoor mall, and we walked a long time.... my feet and legs hurt.

what i ate today:

one strawberry slimfast (170 calories)

One reg. cheesesteak sub (490 calories)

One reg. lemon-lime gatorade (70 calories)

So if I stay around 1800 calories, I still have about 1000 calories left. And all I have left is dinner, so, yet AGAIN, I will be way under my calorie needs. /sulks

Why does this happen? Before, I ate TOO MANY calories, and now... no matter how i try i can't get enough. /sulks
 
Casey4588 said:
Wow. i'm beat. Today we went to this weird outdoor mall, and we walked a long time.... my feet and legs hurt.

what i ate today:

one strawberry slimfast (170 calories)

One reg. cheesesteak sub (490 calories)

One reg. lemon-lime gatorade (70 calories)

So if I stay around 1800 calories, I still have about 1000 calories left. And all I have left is dinner, so, yet AGAIN, I will be way under my calorie needs. /sulks

Why does this happen? Before, I ate TOO MANY calories, and now... no matter how i try i can't get enough. /sulks
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I've been having the same problem! It's crazy isn't it? Now that I'm not getting 1000cals a day from soda, I just can't seem to get enough calories in my diet. I've been purposely adding in a treat pretty much everyday to try to up my calories a little. *sigh* And I eat a TON of stuff! lol
I think it'll just take time and a little effort to find a good balance of over-eating and under-eating. I wish you the best of luck :)
 
Yeah, Pixie... We definately need to find a balance...

I just don't know what to do. I've been basically adding in treats every day also to keep my calories up, and still I'm under. With the slimfasts I've been drinking, I've been getting SO many vitamins. (Which is good, because before I was getting NONE.)

So it's not like I'm being completely unhealthy.

Well, this morning it's strawberry slimfast for breakfast/lunch. (Slept in.)
 
Mmmmmmmmmmm. OK. so I just broke up with fiance. Things weren't going so well, hopefully time apart will renew our love.

He's upstairs bawling his eyes out right now. I feel bad.

Life sucks. MEH. :rant:
 
Ok well, life sucks recently. Stuff going on with daddy, health related, and fiance moved out. I've never been alone.

I've been so upset, i've lost almost 5 lbs in three days. I haven't really been able to eat. This is so unhealthy. I've eaten MAYBE twice in three days. And even then, it was just a little bit. I don't want to be unhealthy but I'm not hungry.
 
Ah well okay. I finally got internet again.

(Finally, please, I only went two days without it.)

K. Well. Fiance and I have made up sorta. Now there's trust issues we need to deal with. Been eating again.
 
Oh sweety!! You sound like you have been having a rough couple of weeks, but you wouldnt believe how many ppl struggle from relationship issues when they decide to make lifestyle changes. For others it only strengthens the relationship. I have seen both cases up front.Right now you are doing something for you, a healthier you!
How rude of me, let me introduce myself. Hi Casey, I am kc! I just read through your diary and your enthusiasm is fantastic! I love your story about working out with your grandmother to Richard Simmons. Classic!! Chin up and just a tip for adding some more calories to your daily intake perhaps try snacking on fruit or nuts between meals to bump up your intake.I will drop in time 2 time!
kc :)
 
Thanks KC!! I appriciate that.

Well, i'm back from my hiatus. I've been a bad girl. I've been eating out a LOT and ... i've been... drinking... SODA... /sob


Ok. Back on track. I know everyone has setbacks, but this is just so hard!! Ok. Well. My life is somewhat normal again. Fiance and I have talked a lot and we have decided our relationship is definately worth trying to save. He's decided that he wanted to live with me again (Why, i have no clue.) and his mother is very very angry. /giggle.

Well, I haven't eaten anything today, so for lunch I'll have a slimfast.
 
Wow what a hiatus!!! I'm back with vengance. I haven't lost any weight, but i haven't gained any either.

Fiance and I are doing O.K.

Renewed some friendships. Now I'm back and motivated.
 
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