Camy's diary

Went to work today, came back ate, will relax for an hour, then go swimming. Allround good day!

Food:
breakfast: 200 ml of juice, 3 tiny bananas
Lunch: 1 bowl of cucumber salad, 2 and a half scrambled eggs and spinach mix, some chocolate
Dinner: mangu chicken curry with rice (did not finish the rice), half a portion of icecream (got bullied into it)

Exercise:
40 lanes swimming, 40 leg press ups

camy
 
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11th of september, here I come!

I absolutely have to be skinny by the 11th of september, that is the day when I can finally (and just through my being skinny and beautiful) get back to all those bastards who bullied me last year. I know revenge is not the ideal goal, but it is so very motivating. Last evening i thought about how those bitches treated me, like I was a piece of garbage, and what is worse they made me feel like I was not worth anything, they made me feel like a piece of garbage.
So when I see them again, a year later, I need to be self conscious enough to face them and stun them with my looks, with how I got to be a better and more beautiful person (inside and out) and they are still just spiteful bitches, who have nothing better to do than to pick on people.

While I was thinking about this I made a master plan:
the following 2 weeks I will do intensive swimming, 40-50 lanes each day five to 6 days a week, plus some toning, I won't go to the gym I don't think, because by now it is not even worth it, but I will do weights here at home with water bottles, and do press ups and sit ups, etc...
Then I have 2 weeks of holidays (one in italy, one in spain, I will walk as much as possible those weeks and work hard on not eating bad stuff).
Then I am doing a 2 week intensive dance training, 3 hours a day of dance (hip hop funky break-dance I think), I am looking for schools right now. I will be spending those two weeks with my brother at home and we might do this together. Plus sit ups, press ups etc...
Then back here another 2 weeks of intensive swimming followed by 4 weeks of travelling.
Finally 1 more week of intensive swimming.

This coordinated with my food in which I will decrease heavily on chocolate (yeah I was overdoing it), and I will not drink sodas from now on until september. I will control my food, because I have a clear goal. A very very clear goal.

Plus I am working to keep myself beautiful from the inside and out, I am taking daily vitamins with my morning juice, and I am using a quite expensive Palmer's body lotion for after swimming to tighten my skin and give myself a bodily treat. Plus I will increase my water intake to hopefully 3 l a day (we need to drink more here as we sweat a ton), and I will drink a cup or two of fennel tea a day, after dinner to aid my digestion (and because I like it).
All this combined should lead me to my goal on september 11th, the day I finally get back at them!!!

Food of the day:
Breakfast: 200 ml of juice (orange/multivitamin)
Lunch: spinach and 2 scrambled eggs, with a side of green beans
Dinner: chicken breast with tomato sauce, side of mashed potatoes

Exercise: 40 lanes swimming, 40 leg press ups

Camy
 
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hey camy, glad to see your psyched to kick some serious butt! lol! gosh, i don't know who those peeps are that your talking about....but i think everyone in life has them. these days i say i'm doing this lifestyle journey for me....but sometimes i'm like i can't wait to get to my goal and knock on peoples doors (people who treated me like sh*t) and be like look who's laughing now b*tch...lol!

but i think with every step of this journey i'm learning to let the old stuff go, i really used to hold on to it but the more emotional stuff i let go the better i feel and it makes me feel great.

i saw some of your pics and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT! and i'll be cheering you on on september 11th when your at your goal because i know you'll do it! all the best hun xoxo:cheers2:
Camy said:
11th of september, here I come!

I absolutely have to be skinny by the 11th of september, that is the day when I can finally (and just through my being skinny and beautiful) get back to all those bastards who bullied me last year. I know revenge is not the ideal goal, but it is so very motivating. Last evening i thought about how those bitches treated me, like I was a piece of garbage, and what is worse they made me feel like I was not worth anything, they made me feel like a piece of garbage.
So when I see them again, a year later, I need to be self conscious enough to face them and stun them with my looks, with how I got to be a better and more beautiful person (inside and out) and they are still just spiteful bitches, who have nothing better to do than to pick on people.
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"They" are the girls who pretended to be my friends and then bitched about me behind my back and bullied me. They believed someone who said that I was spreading evil comments (which I wasn't) and that was it, one of them hit me and then high fived her friend because I got bruised, they excluded me from meals, so I had to sit all by myself, etc...
I guess I was a pretty easy bullying target because I was not very selfsecure, I felt really "lucky" these people were my friends and I really liked one of them (the queen bee(tch)). Plus I was a fat little dumpling, so making me feel like crap was fairly easy (and the queen bee knew since she was my gym buddy).
I know this is more for myself than to show them, because they will be like "wow" and that is it, but still, it will feel so good to see their eyes pop out when they see me.

Camy
 
I agree with Cherry, it's good to let things like this go, but I think you'll definitely find some closure to this issue once you see them in September. I can imagine the look of envy on their faces! Be sure to tell us all about it :)
 
heya...just to let you know i'm joining you in the 100 days to being drop dread gorgeous...lol! of course i'll still have a looong way to go after that but i'll keep checking in on you to see how things are going for you...ymcachick saw your post in my diary and says she's also signing up coz she has a hot halloween outfit she wants to wear....i say the more the merrier! xoxo
Camy said:
"They" are the girls who pretended to be my friends and then bitched about me behind my back and bullied me. They believed someone who said that I was spreading evil comments (which I wasn't) and that was it, one of them hit me and then high fived her friend because I got bruised, they excluded me from meals, so I had to sit all by myself, etc...
I guess I was a pretty easy bullying target because I was not very selfsecure, I felt really "lucky" these people were my friends and I really liked one of them (the queen bee(tch)). Plus I was a fat little dumpling, so making me feel like crap was fairly easy (and the queen bee knew since she was my gym buddy).
I know this is more for myself than to show them, because they will be like "wow" and that is it, but still, it will feel so good to see their eyes pop out when they see me.

Camy
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I am definitely signing up for the 100 day challenge with you girls! And I don't know if my halloween costume is hot, lol, I'm the bride of Frankenstein, BUT the wedding dress thing is cool and I cant wait to wear it. I also have a roadtrip that I'm taking in the first part of August with some friends to Colorado, I'd really like to be below 200 by that time, but I guess we'll just have to see what ends up becoming of that!

Best of luck, ladies. Let's kick some ass.
 
Yey, I am happy you are on board ymca! The more the merrier, definitely!

I had a terrible eating day yesterday, I mean honestly, it was bad, I will never manage to do my 100 days like this, but I will be stronger from now on. I will I will I will.
Today was better, although I did have a small ice cream and a coke, but well, rome wasn't built in a day. I will be extra good this week hopefully.

Yesterday's food (embarrased):
Breakfast: apple and juice (I was doing good here still)
Lunch: some rice and then popcorn (going off track here)
Snack: mars bar (bad!!!)
Dinner: 1 ginger ale, 1 pineapple juie and french fries (grrrr... I am so weak!)

Today's food:
Breakfast: tea (with 1 sugar cube in it, slowly losing the sugar in the tea), 1 apple
Lunch: chicken thigh and french fries
Snack: vanilla ice cream
Dinner: steak with vegetables or salad we will see

Exercise: swam in the sea for about an hour, fighting the waves, might not count as real exercise but wore me out!

Camy

ETA: tomorrow is my first official 100 day weigh in, I was like 132 last time I weighed myself (so 5 pounds over my lowest ever weight), I am hoping for 130 or lower tomorrow... fingers crossed! Haha...
 
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Ok, so weigh in wasn't as good as expected... 131 pounds... which means I have 16 to lose. Doable but hard, considering how slowly I lose weight. By next week I hope to weigh 129. That is my goal for this week. And I am working hard.

I have the most terrifying sugar craves, I didn't have this when I first started changeing my diet and excluded sugars for a good long time, but right now, I am practically tempted to suck on a sugar cube. Oh, but I have to be strong, they will get less and less if I am just strong and pull through.

Another little stone in my way, last wednesday I bumped my foot, the little toe, against a rock (we had new AC installed in our room, the landlady wanted that, and the buildres left stones lying everywhere) and I think I broke my toe. It is nothing major and I can even swim, but it hurts like hell when I walk (not when I swim though). Damn! I was getting x rays today to confirm that a) i is broken and b) it is not displaced, but I didn't manage to go, will try to go tomorrow...

Food of the day:
Breakfast: 50 ml of juice, 4 tiny bananas (I'd say they make up 2 whole bananas)
Lunch: 2 scrambled eggs, broccoli, 4 pickles, 1 apple, 1 cheese triangle
Snack (I was not planning on this, but I was starving before swimming...) 2 rice cracker cheese sandwiches (they did not go down well, eating shortly before swimming not such a good idea)
Dinner: 1 bowl of rice with some tomato sauce

Exercise: we will go swimming, so 40 lanes plus 40 leg pull ups

Camy
 
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Ouch. Sorry to read about the toe.

I think you're being very realistic with your weight loss. As you said, it's hard, but definitely doable. Us girls will have to go at it together!

BTW, 130 is my dream weight. lol

If you don't mind me asking, how tall are you?
 
I don't mind you asking at all, I am 5 foot 4 (ish). I have a really really light frame though, not just small although probably quite small frame too, but my bones weigh nothing. because of my disease (coeliac disease which was undiscovered for 7 years) my body could not absorb the right nutrients and I had a huge calcium deficiency. I once broke 3 bones in my wrist just by hitting a volleyball!
So while most people at my weight and my height look great I don't because I have very light bones and that is why I need to get down to 115!
I thought maybe we should have a thread in the club part.. the 100 day thread, where we write just what we did in terms of exercise, etc. I will probably open it after I finish this post so come looking for it!

I got a big pimple on my nose! It is so ridiculous because I have completely clear skin, not a single zit and then this big thing on the tip of my nose! I am very unhappy about it! I will do some walking today, as I didn't go to work (it was just too boring) and I am going to the hospital later to get my foot x rayed, so I get something to do right there. Work is getting worse, or maybe I am just worse at standing it, I mean it was always boring but now it is beyond all words. And some days are really stressful (and those are the "goood" days) but a lot of days I am just not being used, the fact that I have a medical degree doesn't seem to matter, I just sit there and feed babies round the clock. And since I have chosen my specialty and this has nothing to do with it, I don't even NEED the piece of paper that states that I did one year of rotation there, so I think I will just go 3 or 4 days a week.

Food of the day:
Breakfast: 1 bowl of dry cereal (cornflakes), 1 apple
Lunch: 1 serving of rice pasta, with broccoli, and baby corn
Snack: 2 small bananas
Dinner: big salad (we may be invited to a dinner tonight, not sure yet, if we are I will get fish or seafood as it is paid by my man's company... yum!)

Exercise: 40 lanes swimming, 40 leg pull ups

Camy
 
This was the plan for food yesterday:
Food of the day:
Breakfast: 1 bowl of dry cereal (cornflakes), 1 apple
Lunch: 1 serving of rice pasta, with broccoli, and baby corn
Snack: 2 small bananas
Dinner: big salad

This is what really happened:
Breakfast: 1 bowl of dry cornflakes
Lunch: small packet of cashew nuts, fruit mentos (half a pack), greek salad
Snack: 1 bowl of dry cornflakes, 1 apple
Dinner: artichoke with mozzarella cheese, fish with mashed potatoes and spinach, mousse au chocolat

Oh dear! So today I am on a fruit and veg fast to recover from yesterday's excesses!

Breakfast: 200 ml of juice, 1 apple
Lunch: green bean, broccoli and broad bean salad
Snack: bananas and tea
Dinner: large green salad

Also the swimming didn't take place yesterday, so today I will try to swim 60 lanes instead of just 40 and do 60 leg pull ups!

Camy
 
Geez that is crazy about breaking the bones in your wrist just from hitting a volleyball! Well, for what it's worth, judging from your avatar, you look beautiful. I imagine hitting your goal weight will just enhance your looks and from the sounds of it, your health too!

I'll go find the 100 day challenge thread. I'm real excited about it. I need these sorts of things to keep me motivated, especially on the not-so-great days.
 
It's not going so well... I ate very differently from what I wanted to eat, I don't know why I can't even be strong for 2 damn weeks. Such a loser!
Plus I am pretty sure I have a depression coming on, I hate being here in Ghana, I want out, I hate my job, I only see my friends like twice a week, I spend half of my day (or actually almost ALL of my day) in my apartment, alone. And I know that it is a problem of attitude, if I had a more positive attitude it would be way better, but I can't seem to get one. I just feel unhappy about everything and I don't think it is helping my weight loss program either. I thought one hand would wash the other (I'd feel happier as I lose weight and I would lose more weight when I felt happier), but it isn't really happening.

Anyhow, I am once again not at work, I can't be bothered. I will go tomorrow though and tell them I was sick for most of this week. And work consistently the last week here. I mean I already have a ticket back, I don't see why I am still upset!

Food of the day (plan)
Breakfast: 200 ml of juice, 1 apple
Lunch: medium sized tuna salad, fruit smoothie
Dinner: chicken breast in tomato sauce and vegetable rice

Exercise: 40 lanes swimming, plus leg pull ups

Camy
 
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Actually after typing that out yesterday the day was quite ok, not as low feeling as usual, I got myself a project (wrote out a plan for when my in laws are visiting in 2 months time, including all hotels and restaurants we will visit with them) and had quite an ok afternoon and evening.
I ate fine and I learned to do this thing in the pool, you lay on your back and just by sort of using your abs you "wiggle" across the length of the pool. It is so hard on the abs (and therefore good) and it is the base for fly style so my man will, once I have perfected this move show me how to do fly (he is quite good at it). I am all sore today from yesterday's workout, but happily so.
I did weigh myself and I am down nothing, which makes me a bit sad, but whatever, slowly slowly. I have also not been very good with my foods, so I guess that is what I get for it.

Today's food:
Breakfast: 200 ml of juice, 1 apple
Lunch: big healthy salad, with broccoli, beans, cucumber, tomatoes
Snack: ? maybe a couple of small bananas
Dinner: hummous with meat and veggies

Exercise: 40 lanes of swimming, 5 lanes of ab swimming, 40 pull ups

Camy
 
Not doing so well eatingwise or exercisewise... dunno what's wrong, had a pretty bad few days, a lot of crap was eaten yesterday and friday night after being good all day I ended the day at a party drinking a liter of coke.
Whatever... will post more this evening hopefully.

Camy
 
I haven't done so hot either and now I've started my period. Hopefully the worst of the cravings is over. I'm going to do my best to have a good day today. You try to do the same!
 
Today was a slightly better day, although the weigh in was a disaster... up a pound or two. Ugh, no surprise there. I have also had a bit of an upset stomach the last few days, so I need to stay off lactose and excessive sugar for a few days, today I already managed to got to the smoothie place and not have a dairy smoothie. Will go swimming and then watch a movie this evening I think.

Food:
Breakfast: nothing (bad, but didn't feel like it, bit nauseous)
Lunch: vegetable omelette (large), fruit and only fruit smoothie (banana, watermelon, pineapple)
Snack: 4 pickles
Dinner: salad with beans

Exercise:
swimming
 
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