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Camy
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You bet wishes!! I even take my ring off! And I get depressed that I can't see the numbers on the scales without my glases because who knows maybe without them I'd be thinner!!!
My mom had another craze and I sort of triggered it (she is mentally a tad unstable, I think it might be borderline personality, she goes from the very best to the very worst in split seconds). It was a silly thing and I apologized but it may take days for her to come around and she (or I, or both of us) has spoiled my dad's birthday. He is so good to her, didn't even blame her for it, just smiles through it all and says thank you for everything even though it was his birthday and he should have had a wonderful day instead of a family that would not talk at dinner time.
I am really afraid I have inherited this, I mean I do get out of my mind upset sometimes like she does, but I can control it better, but still... she behaves like a small child, honestly I have seen 5 year olds who can control themselves better. This is the second time in 2 weeks I have been here, that she has pulled this on us. I am glad I am leaving soon, but sad that our last few days are overshadowed by this.
Dammit!
Well, the dinner was ok foodwise, I never feel like eating when my mom is like that but starving myself would not do anything to make the situation better either so I ate a lot, but had no dessert and just some unsweetened tea.
Camy
My mom had another craze and I sort of triggered it (she is mentally a tad unstable, I think it might be borderline personality, she goes from the very best to the very worst in split seconds). It was a silly thing and I apologized but it may take days for her to come around and she (or I, or both of us) has spoiled my dad's birthday. He is so good to her, didn't even blame her for it, just smiles through it all and says thank you for everything even though it was his birthday and he should have had a wonderful day instead of a family that would not talk at dinner time.
I am really afraid I have inherited this, I mean I do get out of my mind upset sometimes like she does, but I can control it better, but still... she behaves like a small child, honestly I have seen 5 year olds who can control themselves better. This is the second time in 2 weeks I have been here, that she has pulled this on us. I am glad I am leaving soon, but sad that our last few days are overshadowed by this.
Dammit!
Well, the dinner was ok foodwise, I never feel like eating when my mom is like that but starving myself would not do anything to make the situation better either so I ate a lot, but had no dessert and just some unsweetened tea.
Camy
Ankebuzz
Well-known member
Your mom sounds similar to mine... read my diary a few posts back 
She has "episodes" and also gets childlike in her psychosis.
I also worry that I've inherited it, and do display some of the tendencies, but like you, I seem to be able to cope better than her. I think that having to have dealt with her illness over the years has made me a lot more emotionally strong and robust than she is. Hmm, interesting.
Anyway, hope the storm calms soon.
She has "episodes" and also gets childlike in her psychosis. I also worry that I've inherited it, and do display some of the tendencies, but like you, I seem to be able to cope better than her. I think that having to have dealt with her illness over the years has made me a lot more emotionally strong and robust than she is. Hmm, interesting.
Anyway, hope the storm calms soon.
Camy
New member
Anke, when I have some more time I will definitely read what you wrote about your mom. Mine apologized today, so something at least!
I feel pretty rotten, headache, blocked nose, sore throat plus some nausea, diarrhoea and stuff (which I think is because I ate some soy sauce (with gluten) yesterday. Dammit!
My mom and sis have had this and it went away pretty quickly, but still annoying.
Have to pack now and I am flying to London tomorrow morning, then to Ghana on Sunday. The man was throwing up today, I so don't feel like going back, but I will... I miss him, but I don't miss a lot of stuff that is going on there. The heat, the people, anything really right now! But I only have a few months to go, and then hopefully I can leave. Sad because about a year ago I was so excited about this and I do think it is a great experience. Just not an easy one!
Food of the day:
Breakfast: 1 apple, 200 ml of juice
Lunch: some spanish omelette, salad
Dinner: some cuttlefish and veggies, later 1 scoop of icecream
I will write again once I am back in Ghana. Have a wonderful weekend everyone, Camy
I feel pretty rotten, headache, blocked nose, sore throat plus some nausea, diarrhoea and stuff (which I think is because I ate some soy sauce (with gluten) yesterday. Dammit!
My mom and sis have had this and it went away pretty quickly, but still annoying.
Have to pack now and I am flying to London tomorrow morning, then to Ghana on Sunday. The man was throwing up today, I so don't feel like going back, but I will... I miss him, but I don't miss a lot of stuff that is going on there. The heat, the people, anything really right now! But I only have a few months to go, and then hopefully I can leave. Sad because about a year ago I was so excited about this and I do think it is a great experience. Just not an easy one!
Food of the day:
Breakfast: 1 apple, 200 ml of juice
Lunch: some spanish omelette, salad
Dinner: some cuttlefish and veggies, later 1 scoop of icecream
I will write again once I am back in Ghana. Have a wonderful weekend everyone, Camy
Camy
New member
I still have this cold (maybe pig flu?? hahaha), but now I am back in Ghana. My head still aches, my nose is UBER blocked, my throat still sore and I sound a lot like a frog. I can't go to work until this has all cleared out, because obviously I can't work in intensive care like this. I hope by thursday I am all better.
Also I want to start working out because I think if I work out daily my immune system will get a boost. I have a great plan for my immune system by the way:
- work out 5 days a week
- take some vitamin tablets (I am usually against this, but right now I think I need it!)
Also I think I have decided on a food plan (sort of).
Breakfast will continue to be fruit, 2 small bananas and half a pineapple I think is the most doable version. The pineapple I will have at home, the two bananas in the hospital at midmorning. For lunch I will make myself one of these: salad with beans, or salad with egg, or salad with tuna, or an omelette (or if it is "cold", spicy soup with rice noodles). I want to get a lot of protein in for lunch, but it needs to be a very easy meal I can make in like 10 minutes because I am usually too tired to make anything else after work.
Then I will work out in the evenings from about 5 to 7 (between 5 and 7 not for 2 hours... probably, trying to do cardio and weights 3 times a week and just cardio twice a week), then dinner will be whatever we decide together, probably most days a full meal, although at least once or twice a week I am sure it will be just salad.
After I made my wonderful plan, I am already not following it on the very first day (great!), since I am sick and do not feel like leaving the house I will eat what we have here, which is rice crackers and tomatoes and possibly eggs and apples...
Plus no working out for today. But hopefully on thursday I can start my full plan!
Woohoo, Camy
Also I want to start working out because I think if I work out daily my immune system will get a boost. I have a great plan for my immune system by the way:
- work out 5 days a week
- take some vitamin tablets (I am usually against this, but right now I think I need it!)
Also I think I have decided on a food plan (sort of).
Breakfast will continue to be fruit, 2 small bananas and half a pineapple I think is the most doable version. The pineapple I will have at home, the two bananas in the hospital at midmorning. For lunch I will make myself one of these: salad with beans, or salad with egg, or salad with tuna, or an omelette (or if it is "cold", spicy soup with rice noodles). I want to get a lot of protein in for lunch, but it needs to be a very easy meal I can make in like 10 minutes because I am usually too tired to make anything else after work.
Then I will work out in the evenings from about 5 to 7 (between 5 and 7 not for 2 hours... probably, trying to do cardio and weights 3 times a week and just cardio twice a week), then dinner will be whatever we decide together, probably most days a full meal, although at least once or twice a week I am sure it will be just salad.
After I made my wonderful plan, I am already not following it on the very first day (great!), since I am sick and do not feel like leaving the house I will eat what we have here, which is rice crackers and tomatoes and possibly eggs and apples...
Plus no working out for today. But hopefully on thursday I can start my full plan!
Woohoo, Camy
Camy
New member
I am already feeling much better I might actually go back to work tomorrow (woohoo!) and therefore start my work out plan tomorrow too. I am really excited. Just hope that I can maintain this excitement once the novelty has worn off.
Now the man wants to go back to Europe (yet again) in 3 weeks. That would kind of not work so well with my work out plan, but I really want to go. We would visit his family mostly but I would get to see mine for a few days... hard choice. Well he has to talk to his boss in any case, so I won't worry about not working out for now.
I weighed myself and I weigh 130 or 132 even (it is in kg, and my conversion is usually a tad off), but I should get my period really soon so I think I might be a bit bloated. I will officially weigh in next monday and then update the ticker. I mean it most probably will go up this firt time since I did eat a lot at home and exercised little (or nothing at all, plus the 127 were my most absolute low, after soem diarrhoea, so maybe a bit fo wishful thinking there too!). Just 4 or 5 pounds up is almost a miracle! 15 pounds to go. I really really want them gone so badly!
Food for today:
Breakfast: 150 ml of juice (multivitamin), 4 rice crackers (the square kind, taste awful!) with some jam
Lunch: 2 salads, 1 cucumber, 1 tomato and french beans
Dinner: ? probably rice and vegetable stew
No exercise once again, but tomorrow... yes tomorrow. Monday, wednesday and Friday I will do indoor cardio and weights, tuesday, thursday and possibly a weekend day i will swim (so outdoor cardio). Need to upload my ipod with some new songs before tomorrow!
Camy
Now the man wants to go back to Europe (yet again) in 3 weeks. That would kind of not work so well with my work out plan, but I really want to go. We would visit his family mostly but I would get to see mine for a few days... hard choice. Well he has to talk to his boss in any case, so I won't worry about not working out for now.
I weighed myself and I weigh 130 or 132 even (it is in kg, and my conversion is usually a tad off), but I should get my period really soon so I think I might be a bit bloated. I will officially weigh in next monday and then update the ticker. I mean it most probably will go up this firt time since I did eat a lot at home and exercised little (or nothing at all, plus the 127 were my most absolute low, after soem diarrhoea, so maybe a bit fo wishful thinking there too!). Just 4 or 5 pounds up is almost a miracle! 15 pounds to go. I really really want them gone so badly!
Food for today:
Breakfast: 150 ml of juice (multivitamin), 4 rice crackers (the square kind, taste awful!) with some jam
Lunch: 2 salads, 1 cucumber, 1 tomato and french beans
Dinner: ? probably rice and vegetable stew
No exercise once again, but tomorrow... yes tomorrow. Monday, wednesday and Friday I will do indoor cardio and weights, tuesday, thursday and possibly a weekend day i will swim (so outdoor cardio). Need to upload my ipod with some new songs before tomorrow!
Camy
cherrygarcia
New member
heya,
just thought i should stop by and say thanks for popping over my diary. i just read your last few posts and you live one hectic life wow! and lots of travelling too! i guess it must keep things pretty interesting.
otherwise sorry about being sick...hope you feel better soon. xoxo
just thought i should stop by and say thanks for popping over my diary. i just read your last few posts and you live one hectic life wow! and lots of travelling too! i guess it must keep things pretty interesting.
otherwise sorry about being sick...hope you feel better soon. xoxo
Littlebitnorth
New member
Hi Camy!
My GOsh! You are doing so good. I just wanted to stop in and thank you for everything you said in my diary. It was very motivating. You are motivating. Look how far you have come! Oh I can't wait!!! Seeing someone else so close to the end result just kicks my butt into action. It makes it real. It makes it possible. Congrats! It must feel amazing! Maybe the old you inside has to pop out once in a while to make you see how great the new you is. When you see where you've come from it makes all the work you did and are doing worth it. Check you out Girl!!
I want to keep watching.. I want to see you do it!
My GOsh! You are doing so good. I just wanted to stop in and thank you for everything you said in my diary. It was very motivating. You are motivating. Look how far you have come! Oh I can't wait!!! Seeing someone else so close to the end result just kicks my butt into action. It makes it real. It makes it possible. Congrats! It must feel amazing! Maybe the old you inside has to pop out once in a while to make you see how great the new you is. When you see where you've come from it makes all the work you did and are doing worth it. Check you out Girl!!
I want to keep watching.. I want to see you do it!
Kori
New member
Hi Camy,
so sorry to hear you are not well at the moment, I hope you feel better soon! It must be very draining for you! You have been doing so much, all that travelling, and returning to working in a 3rd world country.. it is not really surprising that you have picked up something nasty!
Take care hun - Sending you a bowl of Virtual Chicken soup and sending you to bed with a hottie
so sorry to hear you are not well at the moment, I hope you feel better soon! It must be very draining for you! You have been doing so much, all that travelling, and returning to working in a 3rd world country.. it is not really surprising that you have picked up something nasty!
Take care hun
- Sending you a bowl of Virtual Chicken soup and sending you to bed with a hottie
Camy
New member
Thank you Kori, LBN and Cherry for the visit,
obviously my meal plan did not hold... well not so obviously but anyhow. Breakfast was ok, then I had some chocolate, then I had my salads but they were very low in cals so I had soem chocolate (can you see a theme?) and then for dinner we went out for pizza, since I don't eat pizza I had an ice tea and a small bag of chips and then later at home 2 pieces of cheese and 2 slices of salami. Oh and some chocolate!
I didn't go to work, had a really bad nightmare and didn't feel like it, I know bad... but tomorrow I have to go because our cleaning lady will be here and I really don't like being in her way. I am going to the gym today though!
Food of the day:
Breakfast: 200 ml of multivitamin juice, some chocolate (I should have bought something else but now it is too late... plus the faster I eat all the chocolate the faster I can't eat any more!)
Lunch: rice pasta with tomato sauce
Dinner: I think beef and side salad... not sure yet, otherwise maybe a big salad with tuna!
Exercise: we will see!
Camy
obviously my meal plan did not hold... well not so obviously but anyhow. Breakfast was ok, then I had some chocolate, then I had my salads but they were very low in cals so I had soem chocolate (can you see a theme?) and then for dinner we went out for pizza, since I don't eat pizza I had an ice tea and a small bag of chips and then later at home 2 pieces of cheese and 2 slices of salami. Oh and some chocolate!
I didn't go to work, had a really bad nightmare and didn't feel like it, I know bad... but tomorrow I have to go because our cleaning lady will be here and I really don't like being in her way. I am going to the gym today though!
Food of the day:
Breakfast: 200 ml of multivitamin juice, some chocolate (I should have bought something else but now it is too late... plus the faster I eat all the chocolate the faster I can't eat any more!)
Lunch: rice pasta with tomato sauce
Dinner: I think beef and side salad... not sure yet, otherwise maybe a big salad with tuna!
Exercise: we will see!
Camy
Camy
New member
Thank you ymca,
very very frustrating day exercise wise. We went to the hotel where I used to be a member and my man is a member right now and they informed us that we cannot have a 3 month membership, I need to get a year olng one that is ridiculously expensive (500 dollars). I am only going to work out for 2 months at best because of frequent travelling and I am not going to pay 250 dollars a month to work out. We talked to management, explained that I am only in ghana for a few months, that I was already a member, nothing the stupid manager bitch just said she could nto make exceptions.
So now I will have to find another gym which sucks, because this was the little quality time we spent together (I work 8 to 2, he works 9 to 5, we'd go swimming or gymming from 5-7 together and then spend the evening together), if I go to one gym and he (because he already has a membership there) goes there we will only see each other for like 3 hours a day. Sucks sucks SUCKS!
I know of a gym, it is about 20 walking minutes from the house, I can go there, I am reluctant and afraid I won't go if he is not coming with me but you guys have to keep me accountable! And I'll just go swimming a couple of times a week and pay the ridiculous 12 cedi (like 8 dollars) daily fee when I go.
Why does life have to be always more complicated in Africa? Why can't they continue to have 3 month memberships like they used to? It makes no sense.... we poorer people won't be able to afford their stupid gym anymore that is what is gonna happen.
We had chinese for dinner, I am so angry... I guess tomorrow I will go and check out this gym, the sooner I start the better, maybe I can turn my anger into energy and work harder cause of it.
Grrrrr, Camy
very very frustrating day exercise wise. We went to the hotel where I used to be a member and my man is a member right now and they informed us that we cannot have a 3 month membership, I need to get a year olng one that is ridiculously expensive (500 dollars). I am only going to work out for 2 months at best because of frequent travelling and I am not going to pay 250 dollars a month to work out. We talked to management, explained that I am only in ghana for a few months, that I was already a member, nothing the stupid manager bitch just said she could nto make exceptions.
So now I will have to find another gym which sucks, because this was the little quality time we spent together (I work 8 to 2, he works 9 to 5, we'd go swimming or gymming from 5-7 together and then spend the evening together), if I go to one gym and he (because he already has a membership there) goes there we will only see each other for like 3 hours a day. Sucks sucks SUCKS!
I know of a gym, it is about 20 walking minutes from the house, I can go there, I am reluctant and afraid I won't go if he is not coming with me but you guys have to keep me accountable! And I'll just go swimming a couple of times a week and pay the ridiculous 12 cedi (like 8 dollars) daily fee when I go.
Why does life have to be always more complicated in Africa? Why can't they continue to have 3 month memberships like they used to? It makes no sense.... we poorer people won't be able to afford their stupid gym anymore that is what is gonna happen.
We had chinese for dinner, I am so angry... I guess tomorrow I will go and check out this gym, the sooner I start the better, maybe I can turn my anger into energy and work harder cause of it.
Grrrrr, Camy
Camy
New member
I may have found a gym, it looks awesome on the website (yeah they have a website, awesome!!!!), seems to have plenty of machines of all sorts, and even classes (even dance but on weekends and we travel most weekends. darn it!).
I will check it out this afternoon and report back!
Food of the day:
Breakfast: 1 apple
Lunch: vegetable omelette (large), fruit smoothie
Dinner: large salad with tuna
Camy
I will check it out this afternoon and report back!
Food of the day:
Breakfast: 1 apple
Lunch: vegetable omelette (large), fruit smoothie
Dinner: large salad with tuna
Camy
ymcachick
New member
Oh best of luck in finding a new gym! The dance classes sound fun. Maybe you can ask them (since you'd be a new member) if they dole out a limited number of free "guest" passes. If they do (which makes good business sense), perhaps you can have your man join up with you on those weeks where you might not get to see him as much as you'd like.
Anyway, keep us posted
Anyway, keep us posted
Camy
New member
We couldn't find the gym, a girl I know is going on tuesday so I will join her and check it out, the hotel pool boy has said that I am welcome to come swimming any time since I used to be a member, so I think I will go swimming 3 times a week and to the gym just twice, as I can go swimming with the man (although right now I don't like him so much...).
I might go this pm swimming, but I am definitely getting my period either today or tomorrow (I am already late and I have cramps...), so we will see. Tomorrow we are going to the beach with soem friends, I will try to swim a lot on the beach, go for long walks and eat carefully.
Monday we will go swimming I am sure and the tuesday hopefully gym...
Food of the day today:
Breakfast: 300 ml of juice, 1 apple, last bit of chocolate (finally it is over, no more choc in the house)
Lunch: rice pasta with tomato and black bean sauce (I am calculating that it will be 350 cals, since the pasta is under 250)
Dinner: ? we might go out, who knows
Exercise: ?
Camy
I might go this pm swimming, but I am definitely getting my period either today or tomorrow (I am already late and I have cramps...), so we will see. Tomorrow we are going to the beach with soem friends, I will try to swim a lot on the beach, go for long walks and eat carefully.
Monday we will go swimming I am sure and the tuesday hopefully gym...
Food of the day today:
Breakfast: 300 ml of juice, 1 apple, last bit of chocolate (finally it is over, no more choc in the house)
Lunch: rice pasta with tomato and black bean sauce (I am calculating that it will be 350 cals, since the pasta is under 250)
Dinner: ? we might go out, who knows
Exercise: ?
Camy
Littlebitnorth
New member
Oh Camy, I hope you get feeling better. Did the cold pass? I know its so frigging annoying when your trying to get healthy and you catch something but it passes. Look at all you have done! Size 4's baggy. That must feel like heaven!!
PS. And if you dont like that guy... trust your instincts!
Wow you sound like you live such an interesting life. I love reading your posts.
Take care and get feeling better.
PS. And if you dont like that guy... trust your instincts!
Wow you sound like you live such an interesting life. I love reading your posts.
Take care and get feeling better.
Camy
New member
"That guy" is my husband of sorts (we are not married but we are practically married, living together for years, we live off his salary at the moment...), so I am not going to leave over a fickle little fight. Today everything is good anyhow!
I woke up with excruciating period pain, the type that doubles you over and leaves you unable to even think. I took some really strong painkillers (Naproxyn), but nothing. Hours later I was still crying in pain (literally! Tears!!), he rushed out to a big pharmacy and got me some paracetamol, codeine and something else, a real cocktail and the pain subsided an hour after taking that. I don't understand it, every now and then I get one of these ridiculously painful periods, the last one I didn't even need a basic painkiller!!
So the good news is that I found a girl who would like to come to the gym with me and she doesn't live far away, so in a couple of weeks she will start tagging along (she needs to get her salary first). I am going tomorrow to check it out, I am pretty sure that I will go there, talked to someone who is there and she loves it.
So the new fitness plan is to go to the gym tuesday to thursday and swimming monday and friday (that suits my man the most).
This weekend we went to a really nice beach resort, it was really lovely, we swam, took a 2 hour walk on the beach on saturday and swam some more on sunday.
Food on saturday:
Breakfast: coffee smoothie
Lunch: half a cheese omelette, 5 or 6 french fries
Dinner: 1 soda, fish and rice
Exercise: 2 hour walk on beach (sore legs!!), swimming in sea
Sunday:
Breakfast: veggie omelette, fruit with some vanilla icecream
Lunch: small side salad, 1 bitter lemon
Dinner: beef stew and rice
Exercise: 1 hour of swimming in sea
Monday:
Breakfast: 200 ml of juice
Snack: 1 mars bar
Lunch: half a small bowl of pasta (60 g of rice pasta, couldn't finish it)
Dinner: popcorn I think (we are going to the movies)
Exercise: we were going to go swimming but it rained all day, so nothing
Camy
I woke up with excruciating period pain, the type that doubles you over and leaves you unable to even think. I took some really strong painkillers (Naproxyn), but nothing. Hours later I was still crying in pain (literally! Tears!!), he rushed out to a big pharmacy and got me some paracetamol, codeine and something else, a real cocktail and the pain subsided an hour after taking that. I don't understand it, every now and then I get one of these ridiculously painful periods, the last one I didn't even need a basic painkiller!!
So the good news is that I found a girl who would like to come to the gym with me and she doesn't live far away, so in a couple of weeks she will start tagging along (she needs to get her salary first). I am going tomorrow to check it out, I am pretty sure that I will go there, talked to someone who is there and she loves it.
So the new fitness plan is to go to the gym tuesday to thursday and swimming monday and friday (that suits my man the most).
This weekend we went to a really nice beach resort, it was really lovely, we swam, took a 2 hour walk on the beach on saturday and swam some more on sunday.
Food on saturday:
Breakfast: coffee smoothie
Lunch: half a cheese omelette, 5 or 6 french fries
Dinner: 1 soda, fish and rice
Exercise: 2 hour walk on beach (sore legs!!), swimming in sea
Sunday:
Breakfast: veggie omelette, fruit with some vanilla icecream
Lunch: small side salad, 1 bitter lemon
Dinner: beef stew and rice
Exercise: 1 hour of swimming in sea
Monday:
Breakfast: 200 ml of juice
Snack: 1 mars bar
Lunch: half a small bowl of pasta (60 g of rice pasta, couldn't finish it)
Dinner: popcorn I think (we are going to the movies)
Exercise: we were going to go swimming but it rained all day, so nothing
Camy
Camy
New member
Updated my before and after picture thread, go and look!!
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/before-after-between/21607-camys-before-between.html#post609598
Camy
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/before-after-between/21607-camys-before-between.html#post609598
Camy
Camy
New member
Another day in paradise... or not, well, whatever. I am again not at work, tomorrow I am going back, I promised myself, it is so bad because the more I don't go, the more I dread going. My excuse today is just that, an excuse, I will at least get soem NGO stuff done and some housework, so I have been somewhat productive. I am still waiting to hear from my specialization centre, I am literally biting my nails here, I want an answer (a positive one) so badly.... I don't even have alternatives if I don't get it, so I am pretty sure I won't get it, because that is how life works for me (ok, yeah great positive attitude here).
Food today:
Breakfast: 200 ml of juice
Lunch: spinach omelette and cucumber on the side
Snack: 1 apple
Dinner: ? probably a salad
exercise: ? we will see
Food today:
Breakfast: 200 ml of juice
Lunch: spinach omelette and cucumber on the side
Snack: 1 apple
Dinner: ? probably a salad
exercise: ? we will see