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WooHoo Jjjay!!! You sound sooo happy! Way to go on the weight loss.
Love the confidence your feeling! You are awesome!

And if I were you....just go for Mr. X. I bet if he's that responsive to your phone call, he'll be just as eager for a coffee or something. Unless hes got women all over him 24/7, I bet youve been on his mind alot more than you think. Sometimes guys hate failure and are afraid to take a chance. It's devastating for the male ego.

You have nothing to lose....besides...you'll have em lining up at the door in no time....beatin em off with a stick. And it won't be your physical looks that get them crawling...it'll be that confidence and happiness that will glow all around you.

(I'm not superstitious or into gobbly gook spirits and stuff....but I believe everyone has an aura, that we cant see with our natural senses, and you sound like you are starting to glow like a hot ember!) Awesome!

Have a great day!
 
Yay for meeting people on the internet! Me and my Yank met online :D I loves it! And man up and arrange coffee with Mr X!!!! Doooooo eeeeeettttt!! *pokes*

You're doing FAB. I'm also hoping to loose numbers and inches from the ol' breastal region so keep me updated with that! I'm still swinging around DD's!
 
Thanks Heather! Things are going GREAT! I think its because I am now a lower weight than I got to back in 2008 when I had my first big push to lose...I then put 1 1/2 stone back on...and now I'm back down again, so in unchartered territory - all the great clothes I bought back then now fit again...and I'm looking forward to seeing how being thinner and thinner feels!

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WooHoo Jjjay!!! You sound sooo happy! Way to go on the weight loss.
Love the confidence your feeling! You are awesome!

And if I were you....just go for Mr. X. I bet if he's that responsive to your phone call, he'll be just as eager for a coffee or something. Unless hes got women all over him 24/7, I bet youve been on his mind alot more than you think. Sometimes guys hate failure and are afraid to take a chance. It's devastating for the male ego.
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heheh Flumes :D The confidence and aura is spot on - some people just "have it"...I'm taking a little time to find "it", on good days, I glow..yes, EVEN over the telephone ;) and on bad days I feel like hiding!! BUt the trick is to increase the good days and decrease the bad days!

As for Mr X...things are a bit more complicated as we both have to maintain a certain amount of professionalism! So slowly slowly! I did mention us meeting up for a coffee or lunch when we are both in the same city and he was enthusiastic - no response time or thinking about it, just said a resounding yes. But...its translating that into "so when are you next here" or "I'm coming over your way" (hahah unlikely for a while but I could make a special trip for no other reason and just pretend I had business there ;) )...its more the logistics of it that are difficult...

You are right though. Logically, no he doesn't have women all over him 24-7, he's not that kind of guy, plus I am at least 10 years younger than him and NOW looking pretty good :D so yeah, you are probably right, I probably am on his mind more than I give myself credit for.

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Yay for meeting people on the internet! Me and my Yank met online :D I loves it! And man up and arrange coffee with Mr X!!!! Doooooo eeeeeettttt!! *pokes*

You're doing FAB. I'm also hoping to loose numbers and inches from the ol' breastal region so keep me updated with that! I'm still swinging around DD's!
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:D I have met some really really great people over the net - some people I have known for like 15 years now but never met in RL. Hahaha "man up"...I will, I will! I'm running out of "business" reasons/excuses to call him so gonna have to move it into a new arena soon.

As for the busty bosum region...god, I can't wait to shrink - I have some of the nicest lingerie sets that I used to wear in a 36DD with size UK 14-16 bottoms which I CAN'T WAIT to bring back into use. It is of interest and confusion to me how those parts of the body gain/lose weight so will monitor the situation and let you know!
 
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As for the busty bosum region...god, I can't wait to shrink - I have some of the nicest lingerie sets that I used to wear in a 36DD with size UK 14-16 bottoms which I CAN'T WAIT to bring back into use. It is of interest and confusion to me how those parts of the body gain/lose weight so will monitor the situation and let you know!
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Yesterday I tried on this bra I bought some time ago...DDcup...let's just say the cup was running over HAHA

jjjay I didn't know Mr. X was 10yrs older than you! That makes this more fun :-D When I was single I preferred older guys--my hubby is 7 yrs older than me. Although the age difference appears to be more than that lolol because I look younger than I am :p so naturally I make him look older than he is :p.

I am so excited for your next meetup with Mr. X :-D
 
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Yesterday I tried on this bra I bought some time ago...DDcup...let's just say the cup was running over HAHA

jjjay I didn't know Mr. X was 10yrs older than you! That makes this more fun :-D When I was single I preferred older guys--my hubby is 7 yrs older than me. Although the age difference appears to be more than that lolol because I look younger than I am :p so naturally I make him look older than he is :p.

I am so excited for your next meetup with Mr. X :-D
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heheh - I tried on some of my old (as in haven't fitted into them for years but they still look new and nice!!) lingerie sets (36DD) and whilst it wasn't a good fit...there is hope for the future!

Mr X is at least 10-15 years older than me...but I would say that he looks/acts probably a good 5 years younger than he is - he's probably late 40s, looking early-mid 40s. I've always preferred older guys even when I was in my 20s - a man in his 40s with peppered grey hair...does it for me every time!! Not sure what I'm going to do when I get to my 40s?!? Maybe time to start liking younger men!?? Hehe.

I have a meeting tomorrow mornign with 10 people from his organisation and thinking about it, in our conversation last week he was VERY interested to hear what meeting and who was going and where it was...so I will fall off my chair laughing if he decides to gatecrash it!! Unlikely I know...but he was asking a lot of details about it and it would be the sort of meeting that he could attend without anyone being too suprised.

I have had a GREAT bank holiday weekend - really really lovely. I stayed at one of my best friends' house last night and we sat up drinking wine until 2.30am talking about everything under the sun and then I got up at 8am this mornign and went for a 4.5km run around her local area - again, another first for me...I took my gym gear, intending to go for a run in the morning, got up with a bit of a hangover...like a zombie, put my gear on and even though she lives in a pretty hilly area and I don't know it at all, just went running off in one direction.

I ended up doing a circuit that took around 10-12 mins x 3 and finished with a massive hill climb back to her house each loop I did - it nigh on killed me as I'd never run up a hill before like it...probably like a 20-30% incline on a treadmill - a REALL killer hill! But I stuck at it and didn't stop running for one moment for the whole 3 loops that I did. I say run, but it was more like a jog!!

When I got back to her place, I was dripping with sweat but wasn't out of breath and could have probably gone round once more but it would have done me for the day!

We then went shopping (and walked around 3km according to the pedometer on my phone!) and everything I tried on pretty much fit me...i was SO PLEASED! I bought a beautiful top to wear that evening, some great new work shirts and tried on a stunning evening dress (I have a black tie ball in July to go to) but it was far too big and they didn't have the next size down. I'm goign to go back and buy it in mid June when I know what size I'll be in time for the ball but it LOOKED UNBELIVABLY GOOD!! W00H00!!

I then met my old PhD supervisor for dinner (he's a very nice looking youngish professor - late 40s...see a theme here girls?!?) and had a real real laugh with him - we've been friends for over 10 years and always flirt a fair bit although we've never got together and he said I was looking really good! So that made me feel quite chuffed :D

So foodwise:
2 slices of toast (200 cals)
1 jacket potato with small serving of cheese (350 cals)
1 latte (150 cals)
1 smallish scallop and bacon risotto with green salad (??!?! 500 cals?)
1 latte (150 cals)
1/2 treacle sponge and custard pudding (although the prof managed to snuffle far more than his half as I was savouring every little mouthful!) (300 cals)

Total *best guesstimate* = 1650

Best thign...weigh in day tomorrow and although I've just eaten and drunk dinner, I weighed in at 194lbs when I got home...so hopefully tomorrow mornign will be 193...or under!
 
Good luck on the 'meeting' meeting tommoz Jjjay!!! Hope it goes Aces for ya!

And well done with the running. With a hangover at that! Very determined!

And I want first dibbs on the movie rights about your Mr. X chronicles. Gonna call it X factor....shit thats taken....hmmmm X-men...darn. (Thank gawd there isnt three Mr X's lol...that'd be too steamy!)

Have a great nite!
 
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Good luck on the 'meeting' meeting tommoz Jjjay!!! Hope it goes Aces for ya!

And well done with the running. With a hangover at that! Very determined!

And I want first dibbs on the movie rights about your Mr. X chronicles. Gonna call it X factor....shit thats taken....hmmmm X-men...darn. (Thank gawd there isnt three Mr X's lol...that'd be too steamy!)

Have a great nite!
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LOL I should had called him Mr XXX! Not sure there's much of a movie to make...all talk and no action!!

Had a great meeting today (no suprise guests (!) but some very interesting people there and made good contacts which should be useful networking for me).

I'm SO into this running business - I went and bought some more runny clothes now that I am a size smaller... :hurray: I want to go for a run tonigth but I'm not feeling very well - cough, sore throat and a bit queasy so bed bed bed for me. Just not feeling that hungry either - had to force some lunch down as I knew without it I would just have NO energy.

What else? Food ok today:
1 slice of cheese on toast (200 cals)
1 mini-pastry at my meeting (150 cals)
1 mini-chocolate roll (95 cals)
3 cups of tea (30 cals)
1 subway club wrap (400 cals)
Chicken, tomato and pitta bread (450 cals)

Total - 1325
 
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URGH.

I feel ill!! I want to just go back to bed but I have a review to do at work that we promised we'd go back to the client this afternoon on and one of my team is doing a piece of work to report to me this afternoon as well. So, I'm going to have to crawl in. :( I need :grouphug:

I also have a dentist appointment tomorrow morning which I think I'm going to cancel as I don't want to go and have a filling replaced whilst coughing and spluttering (how unpleasant that must be for dentists too!!).

I have no energy for any exercise and whilst my stomach rumbles like its hungry at the bottom, in between there and my mouth is a great big lump of not feeling like I want to eat anythign at all. Last night I woke up at 1am and couldn't get back to sleep, even after taking some cold remedy so I sat up for a bit, so now I am also super tired...heheh Having a right old moan today!!! :nopity:

I am chuffed with my new running clothes though - I got some super tight leggings, a long sleeve special wicking-fibre thingy running top and a BRIGHT PINK windbreaker/waterproof which again is breathable and specialised Karrimor running gear. it was all down by 50-70% at the discount sports store I drive past on my way to work and is my first proper running gear (apart from my trainers) as Ive just been running in normal gym trackie bums and t-shirts. Mainly because they don't tend to make running gear larger than a size 16 (UK) becuase they don't expect anyone that size to be running!!! I might wear it for my updated before and after photo when I hit 190lbs.

I can't believe I'm nearly 50lbs down the line from where I started in 2008. I know I had a 12 month break and ended up having to lose 15lbs plus of it again, but BLODDY HELL that's a lot of weight. Its like...quite a large child - maybe a 7 year old! Getting under 190 will be quite a milestone for me too as I can't remember when I was last in the 180s - probably 8 years ago? I'm trying to think back as to what clothes I could wear and when but its hazy so it must have been a long time back!!

Mr X's assistant was meant to call me yesterday and didn't. Hmph. I might leave it until Friday and then call to chase (I don't think she works on Fridays so I'd probably end up having to talk to him...!). Especially if I don't manage to get into work tomorrow - I might work from home or just take the day off ill.

At least I don't feel like stuffing my face with chocolates and other treats to make me feel better. Going to sort out my marathon application today too - even though I dont'; think I'm goign to have the energy to go running for the next few days, at least that will feel like progression.
 
Aw poor jjjay! I am so sorry to hear that you're unwell and wish you a speedy recovery!

Congrats on the new work out gear, I can't wait to see a piccy of them!
And also kudos for attempting any kind of marathon! Even if you don't end up doing it, the fact that you've not only lost 5olbs and back yourself by running a marathon is tremendous and I am so incredibly proud of you friend!
You've been such an inspiration to me since i've been back on the journal and I'm so glad I have your posts to look forward to :)

Take care my friend!
 
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Aw poor jjjay! I am so sorry to hear that you're unwell and wish you a speedy recovery!

Congrats on the new work out gear, I can't wait to see a piccy of them!
And also kudos for attempting any kind of marathon! Even if you don't end up doing it, the fact that you've not only lost 5olbs and back yourself by running a marathon is tremendous and I am so incredibly proud of you friend!
You've been such an inspiration to me since i've been back on the journal and I'm so glad I have your posts to look forward to :)

Take care my friend!
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Awww thanks Bedsy! I struggled into work today because I had some urgent deadlines and conference calls but my reward is that I am going to work from home (or rather "work from bed") tomorrow to recooperate whilst still getting some things done. Luckily my boss is the coolest (although he's my boss/line manager, we work together as a team really) and allows me the flexibility to do stuff like that.

The new workout gear is indeed very nifty!! I don't actually mind being seen in public in it!! I look very "runny"! I've been looking at the marathon application forms today and I have to commit to raising £2000 sponsorship in order to potentially get a place - I guess via sponsorship this should be doable...and work will match up to £250, plus I think my friends at work would all rally round and do a bakeoff to raise cash if I am short. Worse case scenario, I could just pay some myself!! Its kind of gathering momentum now into something I actually really want to do! What a challenge! IF I get a place, I will definitely do it - even if it all goes wrong and I have to walk to the finish. I am not the sort of person to drop out once I've told people about it. I'll just find a training plan and slowly but surely get there over the 6-8 months of prep.

You are very sweet to say I am an inspiration...not quite how I'd describe myself....obsessive?!? single minded ?!?! bloddy minded?!?! hahah Slightly insane>!>! Something like that.

So...Today...Good day!
Food:
ham sandwich for breakfast (285 cals)
tuna and sweetcorn sandwich for lunch (325 cals)
1 small aero chocolate bar (156 cals)
200g of blueberries (74 cals)
1 skinny latte (135 cals)
WW chicken lasagne for dinner (320 cals)

Total - 1295 but I might eat a little snack before I go to bed tonight (had a slice of bread and a slice of low fat cheese so 160 cals = 1455 total)

What else? Still not been for a run as I feel ill and drained. However, I was zooming along in my little mini, with the windows down and the stereo loud, sun shining, hair down, shades on...and I had no less than 3 guys check me out, make eye contact smile/wink/wave etc... on the drive home! W00h000 - such a nice little ego boost!
 
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At home today...got my urgent work done, now re-cooperating so I have some energy for tomorrow and guests at the weekend. Still not been able to go for a run - I just know I wouldn't be able to do it and would get even more frustrated.

Food so far:
Brekkie - 2 slices of cheese on toast (2 x 92 cals bread, 170 cals cheese = 354 cals)
3 cups of tea (30 cals)
Low cal chicken sizzler meal for lunch (297 cals)
potato snacks - 97 cals
pineapple - 150 cals
small bit of chocolate - 90 cals

Total so far: 1018 (small dinner for me tonight I think!)

Feeling a bit down today - I think its because I'm hovering around the 193lbs mark and I'd like to shift downwards again - I'm so geared up for getting under 190 that its easy to forget it won't happen over night and have unrealistic expectations! I'm sure that given a week or two, I'll get there but I WANT IT NOW!!

Plus, I do feel grotty at the moment - sore throat, cough, sore chest when I breath in deeply, tired, spotty, dumpy, lethargic. In fact, the ONLY positive thing is that I'm not eating like mad!!! This would usually be the mood that would result in me stuffing chocolate down like there's no tomorrow.
 
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jjjay, you'll rock running. i started out with the couch to 5k program and it has helped me tremendously- to build endurance and to challenge myself. if it had not been for the program I wouldn't have been able to run. Start out small, and in a few weeks you'll have built up so much endurance.

Have a wonderful weekend.
 
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jjjay, you'll rock running. i started out with the couch to 5k program and it has helped me tremendously- to build endurance and to challenge myself. if it had not been for the program I wouldn't have been able to run. Start out small, and in a few weeks you'll have built up so much endurance.

Have a wonderful weekend.
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Thanks Juni, I too started out on the Cto5K - its a great program - I got around half way through before I felt that I could just jump to doing longer runs without a problem. I now run 4-5k maybe 3-4 times a week before work mostly with one run at the weekend and LOVE IT. I can do that in around 40-50 mins so I got to work on increasing my speed a little bit but I was amazed at how once I'd got over the stage of being able to run for 15 -20 mins, keeping on going for longer and longer wasn't really a problem. I think if I really pushed myself I could run for 60 mins or maybe a bit more at the moment so am on the verge of getting into "longer run" territory.

I'm definitely addicted to this running lark!! and am filling in my application for a charity place at London 2011 Marathon as we speak (eek!!). I've been SO FRUSTRATED with being ill and having no energy these last couple of days and I hadn't realised just how much I'd miss the running!!
 
OMG, you are gonna soooo rock that marathon. I hope you feel better real soon. Do you live in London. I lived there for a year (junior year abroad) and visit often. I just love the city. So jealous you are living there. It must be so nice there right now.

Hope you are feeling better today.
 
Hey guys, a better day today - I'm feeling like I'm on the road to recovery and did a full day at work but came home and jumped right into bed for 2 hours I was so tired.

Foodwise, did ok:
Brekkie - 1 wholegrain bagel toasted with spread - 250 cals
100g of dried pineapple - 145 cals
2 cups of tea - 20 cals
Lunch - wrap with chicken, advocado and cheese - probably around 450 cals
1 apple - 50 cals
crab sticks snack - 70 cals
WW chicken lasagne meal - 320 cals
1 small slice of roast beef - 50 cals

Total - 1355

Really pleased that I am cutting down on the snacks at work - its because I'm busy, the hours rush by without feeling the need to eat. Still not had the energy to exercise but I'm thinking of getting up tomorrow morning and going for a run...even if I don't do as much as I'd usually do, I feel I actually NEED to go and pound it out and think about stuff - really miss that time to churn stuff over in my mind.

Still feeling a bit down today - gone spotty and whilst I haven't weighed myself for a few days, and I know I haven't done anythign to put on weight, I don't feel like I've been going down either. The paperwork concluding the deal arrived from Mr X's assistant today and whilst I know I should feel great that I did such a good job on this one, I feel sad that its all over. I should have anticipated this I guess. Like I said, I need to go for a good run and get a load of stuff out of my system.


Okayyyyy back after a 45 min run - managed 5k in that time which I'm really pleased with as I'm shaving time off of my circuits every time. It was stinking hot and humid as well so like running in a sauna but I'm very glad I stuck with it - feel nicely tired but relaxed now and able to be a lot more philosophical about things. Canoeing tomorrow hopefully which always clears the rubbish out of my head too - nothing more relaxing that paddling round the lake and taking time to think...
 
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OMG, you are gonna soooo rock that marathon. I hope you feel better real soon. Do you live in London. I lived there for a year (junior year abroad) and visit often. I just love the city. So jealous you are living there. It must be so nice there right now.

Hope you are feeling better today.
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Thanks Juni. I think as long as I manage to get a place...and raise some sponsorship, then actually running it...well the training will take care of that...even if I have to walk/hobble it to finish, I will do so.

I grew up in London but have now moved to the north of England (which I LOVE). I miss some bits of London I must admit, but overall, living up here is wonderful.
 
Have a great weekend jjjay. The canoeing around the lake sounds soo peaceful!
Please wear a lifejacket....love to see ya back here on Monday! :)

Take care!
 
OMG sooooo exciting you are going to run a marathon for charity! You must be sooo stoked! Geez I miss your diary for a couple of days and look at the news! I have to catch up.
 
urgh urgh urgh.
Friends visiting for the weekend so eating has been dreadful! Plus i've drunk more this weekend than I have in months. So, I think the last two days are a big write off and I am on salads and soups for the next week to make up...Everyone is asleep so I'm sneaking out for a run. I think I might start keeping a tally of how many km I get throug each week now that I am starting to pound out the distance.

Again, got to get my mojo rattling...feel like I've lost some motivation and I need to stay focused!

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Just back from a 3.2km run (in 30 mins so...6.5k/h compared to 5k in 45 mins yesterday = 6.6km..so pretty standard pace I'm working to here outdoors = usually do 7-8k/h in the gym). Feel knackered and my knee was hurting a bit but then again I did run 5km yesterday morning and walk around 4km during the day according to my pedometer. Off canoeing later on if the rain holds up.

I need to get back to 192lb and seeing some weight come off in order to get back on a positive track. I was 195 this morning (but did eat and drink a fair bit yesterday so think it is temporary fluctuations rather than I've literally eaten 3lbs onto my weight this week). All the same, its the lbs going down that makes you feel YEAH!

I've picked an avatar out now I'm hanging around here for good :D I'll get there....one day!
 
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