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905mom

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it fluctuates to read 210 - 215lbs but hey who am I kidding...I weigh anywhere between 210 -215lbs because my clothes say so and so does the reflection in the mirror.

I'm new to the forums so please be patient with me as I learn.

My current weight is 215lbs and I my goal is to reach the healthy weight of 135lbs for my height. I will be 40 this year and my health has been the worst ever. 2008 was a bad year for me since I recently was put on high blood pressure pills due to my weight gain. More recently, I sat on the couch one day and watched as my 16 year old daughter cried and told me that I need to do something because she does not want to lose me as she would not know how to carry on if I died....

So here it goes...my 2009 New Year's resolution. I need to get my heath back in order, get active, and lose weight.

I've read many posts and I think I'm going to do it this time as I now know that I am not alone. Thanks to you all for sharing....

Wish me luck!!

Good luck to you all and I wish you all the best for 2009!! :cheers2:
 
Last night I finally went to bed with my CPAP machine and woke up with some energy so I made my bed, brushed my teeth, washed my face, and reached for my workout clothes for the first time in over a year....

I went downstairs to the basement and my first thoughts were..."How the hell am I going to do this?" I took a step back and thought why am I defeating myself before I even start? Started searching for a CD, put it on and hopped on the treadmill....I walked on it at an incline of 4 at 5.3mph for 20 mins....I DID IT sweating like mad. I felt good. I then started to get into the music and did my own aerobic workout for another half an hour....I DID IT AGAIN....woohoo!!!! :hurray:

I'm going to do this...I have made up my mind. Drinking more water, exercise, and eating better....

I'll check in later and let you know how the rest of the day goes...
 
It sounds like your starting off great!!! Way to go!! And I know what you mean about exercising and feeling defeated before you start.. thats the hardest part.. you have to start but once you get going it seems easy! Keep up the good work!!!
 
:waving:Hey way to go...I totally know what you mean about a self-defeating attitude....mindset has a heap to do with it! You're off to a great start and are doing it for all the right reasons! All the best!
 
Thank ladies...

Well I did it again tonight. This time did an extra "lap" on my virtual track on the treadmill and did a lot of dancing. LMAO - probably got carried away...you know thinking about "back then"....80's was my time and my old school music just took me back....I felt really good. By the time I was finished I was soaked in sweat and red faced....not the embarrassed look but the holy what a workout look....LMAO

This is great...to be able to share my thoughts with everyone.

Thanks for listening.
 
Got really busy yesterday and was unable to fit in some form of exercise....I know, I know...excuses excuses....looking back I could have a least put in 10 - 20mins somewhere....However this morning a got a good 20 mins workout, shovling the snow...I was sweating!! I hope this snow shovling counts for some form of exercise...hahaha

Okay going back to yesterday, I started a 7 day detox. It's not as bad as I thought it would be. There were some parts in the day where I was really hungry and was REALLY fighting temptations but I hung in there. :hurray::hurray: I think the key is to always have some of the drink available so that when you have thoughts of hunger you take a sip....it's also not that bad warm. I had that this morning not bad.

Wish me luck for day #2 and I promise that tonight I will definately put in my share of an excellent workout.
 
Put in a really good workout...but man was I tired. NO ENERGY after and I was freezing....don't know why?

I really had to fight off the "eat me demons" I was struggling really badly. Something inside was telling me to eat eat eat but another side of me was telling me don't don't don't. My God are these thoughts so hard to fight!!!!

I have pictures of myself not too long ago "back in the day" and I looked good and then I have pictures more recent pictures and I hate them but yet I can't seem to find the strength to pull me through. In the back of my mind so, long as I can't see myself (reflection in the mirror) then I'm fine??!! :banghead: WRONG, I'm not fine. I need help!!!

I'm sorry if I just seem to be so random and rambling but this is what is going thru my mind right now...

Day 3 - I'll keep in touch..
 
Major challenges last night....no exercise as I was too drained to do anything. Fell asleep and woke up at about 10:00pm hungry as can be...I had to fight off my "demons" once again....damn this is hard to do.

My 18 year old son came down the stairs and I guess noticed that I was in turmoil and gave me words of encouragement, "Don't give in Mom, you're doing great!"

It felt really good to hear that someone was noticing my efforts rather than my big self for a change...kids...they're the best!!!

I couldn't let him down so I opted for a drink of water and we sat down together playing video games...thanks SON for being there.

Today I will get some exercise in for sure.
 
Sorry for not writing for the last few days...busy busy busy. Good news is that, although I have not been writing, I have been good at staying on track with healthy eating. I feel pretty good.

I am however, disappointed in that I have not been exercising since Monday January 12th...I need to get back on track with that for sure.

One proper change I have made is, that I am now eating breakfast which I did not used to do before and since I have been eating breakfast I find that I am not as hungry as I usually am before lunch....gotta go because I'm at work but I'll check in again later.
 
Doing great!! and don't get too upset about not exercising.. just do it today and get back on track!! and I know how it is not to want to exercise just dreading it! So just start planning to do like a 20 or 30 min work out and usually went you get started you want to keep going!! Sounds like your doing great!! Keep it up!!!
 
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