Brittany's Diary


Hi,

Sorry I haven't been around. :doh: I doubt that anyone ever realized that I was gone, but I'm not sure that I'm gonna come back.

I'm struggling way too much. Eating whatever I want. No gain or loss, but it's still frustrating. I can't do it.

Sorry guys!


 
Oh Brittany, don't give up sweetie. You can do this. Have you seen anyone to help with the self-esteem/ psychological aspects of your life. I did about 7 years ago, for the first time in my life & it really helped me. We all have different reasons for becoming over-weight & talking to a counsellor helped me over-come my self-doubts & insecurity. When I see signs of regressing I now have strategies to beat it. Think about it but know that we will be here to support you if you need us. To best build rapport it's best to go around other people's diaries & let people get to know you a little bit more. It's a great community & you are very welcome, xo Cate
 
I've seen various counsellors for my diagnoses of PTSD and depression, but I've never really talked about my overeating or self-esteem. I'm too shy and self-conscious to talk about my eating problems. When I struggled with bulimia, I never once brought it up until I was hospitalized for something else. Now, I'm overweight and in extreme crisis in regards to that. Everything else in my life is struggling because of my weight. I'm now experiencing physical pain and cannot get around easily. It's becoming a huge problem in my life. I've never once felt like this before.

I'm struggling so much. I've derailed completely. I have not gained any weight and I have not lost any weight, but I'm losing emotionally due to my current weight. As of yesterday, I am 206.6 pounds. I'm eating so unhealthily. I demolished an entire container of ice cream. I keep drinking soda. I have no self-control.

I think I'm going to look up counsellors who specialize in self-esteem and eating issues. I've done all of the trauma work and I'm mentally at a good place with my PTSD diagnosis. Now, I have to battle this overeating problem, and if a professional can help me with that then I will be happy to accept that help. I need help. I want to change and be fit again. It's horrible when I cannot even walk up the stairs without feeling like the wind was knocked out of me.

I'm really sorry that this is a really negative entry. I hope this is okay. I want support so I'm putting myself out there.

Thank you for supporting me. I'm sorry I've been absent lately.
 
I'm sorry to hear this Brittany. I'm glad that you're strongly considering getting some help. Sometimes that is exactly what we need. That's great that you have decided to take control of your health. I believe in you! You can do it!


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No need to apologise for being open & honest Brittany. I think seeing a counsellor for help with your self-image is a really good idea. You have had the positive outcome with your PTSD already, so that is a good foundation. Don't be ashamed or embarrassed sweetie. That's their job. I think you can overcome this & if I can send you some encouragement & strength & support you along the way I will happily do so. Don't apologise for being human. Your diary is a good place to share how you're feeling. Sending you lots of love, xoxo Cate
 
Dear Brittany, you so DESERVE TO BE HEALTHY AND HAPPY!!!

Take that step sweetie, seek help and do not be ashamed of it! I am so sorry that you are going through such a hard time with this, but I promise you...once you work with someone, talk about your life long relationship with food, and come to an understand on the reasoning behind the binge eating and stress, then hopefully you will shift to a healthier coping mechanism!

We are here for you...to support you, to encourage you and to say that we believe in you, in good and bad times! Sending you a big hug! Xoxox
 
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