Brandy's Success Diary

Good Morning Brandy! Sorry moods are getting to you. I have mood swings too. Being a girl really sucks sometimes.
I saw BL too and I totally understand why Amy did that. I loved Coleen and was very sad to see her go but if Amy had voted Vicky off then she would have had an even harder time. She has to do what's best for her and getting the blue teams trust back is what's the best..... well at least I think. Vicky is freaking crazy!! Just have to hope she falls below the yellow line again!! She is such an ugly person. If she, Heba or Ed won I would be very sad! grrrrrr. See how bitter I am lol ;)
I hope you have a good day today and congrats on the good calories yesterday. Just take it a day at a time. If you don't get exercise that is ok. Your calories being good will make up for that. Just keep working!!
 
Why can't I completely manage my food???? Calories have been good, but the food hasn't! Neither has the exercise. I've been incredibly stressed out. I hate my job with the passion right now. My boss is a flaming bitch from hell. And I deserve much better then to work there for minimum wage at a job that I am very good at. And I have a lot of homework and projects due for class as well.... so pretty much I just want to sit on the couch and do pretty much nothing. Today I am picking up my sister and we are going to play together for a little while. I'm sure I'll be running around with her and such, so I'll get some sort of exercise today. I had a slice of pumpkin bread and a glass of milk for breakfast. Lunch is going to be a turkey sandwich I think. I am sick of the rut that I am in. Everything will be ok once my school semester is done with, and I can find a job that pays better. Then I won't have to worry about projects until late January; and I will be able to catch up on my bills. Life is so complicated right now. It always is, and it always will be. I just want to be more "comfortable" in it. This entry sounds so sulky. But I'm really not sulking at all. I am quite happy, I just have a lot on my mind.

Tomorrow's weigh in the for November monthly challenge isn't going to be good at all. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday were HORRIBLE eating days. Then monday, tuesday, and wednesday were bad food but ok calorie days. This morning I weighed 208! Tomorrow I can't see myself weighing less then 206; which means I gained at LEAST 2 pounds this week. I can do better. I will do better. I will figure my stuff out.
 
:hug2:Breathe deep sweetness, breathe deep! let it out. My November challenge hasn't been much to write home about either. Oh well, why stress about it? Lets move forward.

Here, have another:hug2:

As far as the boss thing is concerned, I guess there is a fine line between sucking it up, and being taken advatage of. Only you can make the call on that, but you have to weigh everything ... including the economy right now...
 
Cabbie: I will not quit until I have another job. I am being taken advantage of, but what can I do?? I have to be an adult :)ack2:) and do what I have to do. Thanks for the hugs.


207 today. yuck. I pretty much did NO exercise this week. Dan went to work, and usually when he goes to work for the night, that is my time to be productive. Tonight my list includes a variety of chores and obligations. lol. I need to do my nutrition homework (2 assignments), make a menu for my "restaurant" (a have an assignment in sanitation/facilities planning to make blueprints for a restaurant.), a 50 minute work out of Tae Bo that I found on youtube, and then taking a shower to relax.

Tae Bo looked pretty fun, so I decided to try it out tonight. Work tomorrow morning. 8 to 2 I think. I will suck it up. Then Sunday morning I will be applying to Panera Bread.
 
I don't have too long to update because I have to leave for work in 30 minutes. But yesterday I got only 15 minutes of Tae Bo worked in to my schedule because something came up, and I just never got back to it. I hope to get some in tonight because it felt great. Took out a lot of stress, and put me in a good mood. But I have a TON of homework to catch up on. I am working 8 to 12 today I believe unless she asks me to stay until 2. After that I have to come home and rake leaves. Then Dan goes to work, and I get to doing homework. :/ If I start right away on it, I should have time for some exercise later. Worse case scenario I will just go on a walk. This week is going to be a better week. I swear it will. It has to.
 
I survived work today. I am very exhausted right now. I plan on doing the Tae Bo video I found on youtube, then I have a lot of homework to get done. But right now... before I do much else I need to take a nap, or I won't be able to stay awake long enough to get through my homework. And I won't have energy for that Tae Bo work out.

Nap time!:sleeping:
 
I napped for an hour. And I feel better now. My body is dragging, so I'm going to let my body wake up-and then one it does I will do some Tae Bo. Then when I cool off I will do some homework, followed by a shower, and WAY more homework. lol.

I have quite a night ahead of me now.
 
Those are nice workout videos!! I hope your worked it out today!! If you do those every few days you can really get a workout in.

Sooooo you have something planned for this evening?? Does it involve your honey and dancing?? Burning calories while your out is always a great thing to do you know. LOL LOL

All kidding aside. I hope your evening is full of excitement and lots of calorie burning. Have a great time
Kim
 
Hey Kim. I got in 20 minutes of Tae Bo. And i was SOAKED in sweat. I felt great after that! I will probably do it again tomorrow night.
 
If you could all see my plate right now for breakfast.. you would be SO proud of me. I have 1 small apple, 15 GIANT green grapes. 3 medium stalks of raw celery, 1 tbsp of feta cheese, and 2 tbsp of low calorie and low fat italian dressing!

All that food for 246 calories, 42 carbs, 9 grams of fat, and 4 protein!!

I am very proud of myself. Lunch is going to be a salad with feta cheese and the same italian dressing. Dinner will be a turkey sandwich. I think I might add a half sandwich with my salad too. When Dan goes to work tonight I will get in another 20 minutes of Tae Bo... more if I can handle more I will do more. Then a lot of homework like usual. lol.
 
Nice work darlin'! I wish my weekend eating had been so good. It wasn't terrible, just not as clean as last weekend is all.

Looks like you're really staying on top, hon!
 
Yay!! Weekend eating is hard! You sound like you have a good spread for today! Hope you have had a good weekend and you got all that homework done!!
 
Thanks Karl and Michelle!

I have had a great day so far. I have gotten a lot of homework out of the way. And I only have 1 more thing to do... which I can get done in about an hour. Which makes me happy because its not due until midnight (for an online class) and I can start on some "more fun" homework for projects and such. I still have a long night ahead of me with all the stuff I have to get done, but because I DIDN'T put it off until the last minute, I will have some free time this evening too.
 
I will not do Tae Bo today. If I do something I like too many times in a row.. it will become repetitive and boring. (as far as videos come). I have also decided to follow sparkpeople's exercise plan for me. I'm sure there is some sort of mathematical equation behind it, so I will trust the website. I did the strength training plan they had for me, and I have to admit it made me feel pretty good. I spent about 30 minutes doing it, so I'm proud I got my minutes in today. My self esteem is plummeting. I need to do something to get it back up. I told dan today (when he got home from work) that I just CANNOT allow myself to have any excuses anymore. Every minute I triumph through, is another minute I grow stronger and leaner. So :p. I have also made a different weight goal for myself. I want to be 160 by summer. I originally was trying to reach my goal weight of 135 by summer, but that isn't going to happen!!!! I figured if I keep at it, 160 should be attainable by late july. That is only roughly 1.5 pounds a week. I gained weight this month, and I think it was because I had no self control because of stress. I thought my car insurance was going to be canceled, and I got it payed off today. Just in the nick of time. It was going to be cancelled tomorrow. I should be okay again. (I sure hope so anyways.) Exercise went very well. I feel pretty good and worked out after doing the strength training. I know every component it takes to get in shape... its a matter of having the willpower to actually put it all together. I have been trying long enough.. its time to SUCCEED.
 
I'm with ya on modified goals, hon. I wanted to b down to my final goal by next summer too. I'm just not seeing it happening. It's not out of the question... just not as realistic as I'd like it to be.

I guess I'm sort of finally looking at it like this; as long as I'm still working out, as long as I'm still doing cardio, and my eating doesn't get out of control, then my health is improving all the time. Ultimately, that's the real goal right?

Talk to ya soon!
 
Karl: you got it. As long as we are improving, then we are right where we want to be.

Well... :hurray: You will all be proud of me again this morning. I had a weird breakfast, but it was very healthy. I had 1 slice of wheat bread, 1 oz of green peppers sliced thinly, and 1.5 oz of sliced onion. And I kind of just wrapped it up in the slice of bread. (I sauteed the onions and peppers first. Until they were soft.) Then I had a 1/2 serving of reduced fat pringles (8 chips) and a glass of apple juice because I knew I had the calories to spare. And the vitamin C is good for me. After taking this nutrition class, and learning about each of the vitamins and minerals, I have learned that they are just as important as making sure you have enough protein.

After putting my foot down yesterday and stomping out all excuses, I have decided that there is NO reason I shouldn't be able to get in some sort of exercise during the day. The strength training yesterday made my body feel pretty good today.

Some stress is off my shoulders today because I got all the necessary homework done this weekend. PLUS as I mentioned yesterday, I got my bills paid in time. So I'm back in the swing of things today.

I am going to take a shower, then head out to Walmart and pick up the movie Wall-E, and maybe some low fat french or thousand island dressing. (I've been craving it lately, its strange because I don't think I've had it for years.) Then I have some major house cleaning to get done, followed by a bit of "fun" homework for my projects. Exercise today might be a video I find on youtube, or maybe a decent walk. But trust me... there are no excuses, and I'm going to get it done now.

Yesterday my breakfast was good... but then the rest of my day got out of control. But once again... no more excuses. I feel like I can look at this from another perspective now besides.. "yumm.... food" lol.
 
Hi Brandy! Yay fun homework. I am proud of you for not procrastinating and getting your work done. If only I had been that strong back in school;) I totally agree with you and Karl. Goals can be modified as long as your still working. There IS no reason you can't work out at least a little bit everyday. it's hard not to get sidetracked but having a good plan can help you do that. Is there a way you can get your exercise out of the way at the same time every day or do you do better just fitting it in as you go. I find that if I don't do it right away I find reasons to not do it:p grrrr excuses!
I hope you have a wonderful day today and have fun on your homework!! lol
 
My day ended up being: 1361 calories, 180 carbs, 42 fat, and 67 protein. :D :hurray:

It is almost 9pm, and I haven't exercised... but don't think "shame shame" quite yet. I will do something before I go to bed. I am not sure what I want to do yet, but I will definitely do something.

My boss called me today. She wanted to know if I could work tomorrow morning. Which is good I suppose, because now that I am not stressing about bills, I should save up so I don't have to worry again. I can't go in at 8am like she wants me to, but I have a plan. Here is my plan for the next 3 days....

Tuesday: I will wake up around 7 am, get myself ready for the day and maybe do some yoga or Pilates. I will leave around 8:40 to drop Dan off at work by 9am. Then I have to rush home and sign up for next semester's classes for both Dan and I at 9:30am on the dot. I will go straight to work after that, because I know there is a lot to do there. I will work until 2pm exactly, then I will leave to pick Dan up from work and drop him off at the house. If my boss still needs me I will go back to work until 7pm latest. Then I will go to my mom's house to watch The Biggest Loser. I will be home from my mother's house by 10:30pm. Then I will probably come home and go to bed.

Wednesday: I have to wake up early and get ready for work at 8am. I will offer to work late that day (because I haven't told them that I don't have school yet.) because I know they are very busy... all the Thanksgiving orders are being picked up. I will work until whenever that night, but I have to come home after that, CLEAN more, and bake a chocolate cream pie for Thanksgiving. Then it will be off to bed. I have to do some sort of exercise before bed that day too.

Thursday: thanksgiving. Dan's house (my house too) for dinner, then my uncle's house for dessert.


I will gladly take the hours at work. I would gladly take the money. I need to save up for future bills. I haven't heard back from Panera Bread, I think I will visit them in person when i get the chance because I only put in an online application.

YESSSSS..... so right now I am extremely poor. I hope in this next month I will be able to save up enough money to have a small little nest to lay on.

This is blabber blabber. But it felt good to write out. :) Maybe I can work Friday and Saturday at work too, and get a nice paycheck at the end of next week!!!!
 
eeesh! busy girl!!! You are doing so well Brandy! WTG on the 1300 cals...your working alot...i'm just really proud of you :D
 
Thank you Korrie. And thank you michelle. I like when people are proud of me. I like when I do something worthy of someone's recognition. It makes me want to do more.

I stuck to my word. I did 20 minutes of Tae Bo. And it is a lot of Fun. It is a fun video. I can't last all 45 minutes, so I do different sections each time. It is a Billy Blanks video. Tae Bo Cardio. I have sweat dripping off of me. lol. Today has been the first good day I have had in a very very long time. I actually stuck to my word and did the exercise, even though I had put it off until after 9pm. :hurray: I am very very very proud of myself. A good day?? Its the first in over a month I'd say. I did exercise, and made healthy choices all day! That "no excuses" thing has proved itself true, at least for today. Usually I would say to myself "i've eaten pretty well, so I don't really need to exercise". or "I've already ruined today with bad food, why even try to exercise?" But it felt great once I forced myself up to do it. So when I realized I was making excuses for myself, i said (in my own head).. "No excuses. There aren't any that are valid. What is 20 minutes of your time?" I did it... and in 20 minutes I burn 300 calories. Yes. I did it. Yes. I can do it. Yes. It will take a long time, but YES it will happen.
 
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