bluehats diary

1 dollar bag of chips 780 calories

i know
not the best choice
but i needed to free
up some money (in this case 4 bucks freed up)
to buy the many things
needed to make foods
at home myself
like soups which need
a few spices
 
Better to have some food in your stomach than to go hungry, even if it's not the "perfect" choice.
 
doing better today
despite bad mouth pain
starting some antibiotics again
the 7th batch in 11 months
doing better because i know
they will help in a few days

new food plan--
i like fasting and i know
how to do it safely with my
insulin
so i wanted to try a 12/12 hour one
to eat every 12 hours
omad was a little difficult for me

the dilema i first had to solve
was at what time to eat
i get up late due to pain issues
and hourly bathroom trips
so im not ready to eat til noon
this makes it noon and midnight

now i need to figure on a quick meal at midnight
not with a long time of cooking but Soft too
and not high in sugar or carbs
but at least 500 calories
any ideas?
 
flat round breakfast sausages 4@190 cals. each
1 can of beans
total 1254 cals.

at the 12 hours later will be--
2 bottles of meal replacements 500 cals.
teeth way too sore from the sausage
 
was hoping to get off so much processed foods
sometimes it feels gross to eat
and i want it back out of my body

but how to do this?

veggies have to be canned (no freezer) so not too great with all the salt
limited veggies available canned too
canned meats loaded with salts and nitrites
cheese is ok but i cant seem to limit it then end up needing assistance to poop
(laxs are bad for me to go near)

eggs seem to be an unprocessed food
um maybe eggs and soymilks
pretty boring

sometimes i think a mono diet / mono foods
may be simpler to
prevent all the food thoughts
and always trying to come up
with a plan i can live with

it would be easier to just eat when hungry and
not think about it
but
when you have no sense of fullness
you need some parameters around food
some sort of limits
 
very hungry today.
on a liquid diet
per dr instructions.
(too much pain to eat)
but no help for the
nutritional drinks
he said to have.
The cheaper ones were
sold out today and
not going to be able to
check again til friday
(presurgery appt,)
can a diabetic last that
long?
maybe if i dont take my insulin?
it requires food with it
or at least liquid carbs.
i tried the food bank but
was told they cant look for
anything specific for ppl
maybe when i go to the
appt. on friday someone will
have mercy on me?
its at the hospital.
its so unavoidable to
have a person have to be like this
a few pain pills for a few weeks
so they can eat normally til surgery
o well
heres to hoping i stay on my feet
until friday
and not faint
 
nothing yet
inquired a few more places
but nothing
feel pretty dizzy
though
it stops when i go to bed
near midnight
last food on sun
last meal drink thingy mon or tues night
i cant remember now
i did remember what day mon or tues
o well not important i guess
appt. tomorrow

if im up to it
i may come back and tell what happened
 
extremely sad
no agencies in my town
would help

i guess i dont deserve any

i have truly lost any faith i had in mankind
i will never ask for help again
 
There is nothing much I can offer from where I am. I can’t imagine where you must live & I can’t imagine people letting you starve. I am so sorry that this is happening. Of course you deserve help. There must be someone who can.
 
You absolutely do deserve it. It's just that the system you live in is fucked up so you're not getting what you need.
 
eating broth
the chicken and beef broth i managed to get
and it doesnt hurt my teeth
its only gotta be til month end

then i follow a cup plan
my recommended cup amount
is 5
but of liquid and soft foods still
as the surgery was put off again
looking like maybe may or june
in apr its been a year waiting
covid restrictions keep interrupting
i only hope with the repeated infections that
the antibiotics keep working for me
ive already had a superbug that was antibiotic resistent
 
so im back
1 week and 1 day post surgery
no teeth just pain
so far only able to drink boosts
there was no help with getting them
but without it i can manage 24 servings a month
so whats 6 days of not eating?
maybe i can spread them out
i dont know the math on that?
to spread out the 6 days?
 
i really like walking outdoors as exercise
it does not seem like exercise
i dont do it because in the winter its too icy
but yet in the summer my feet swell too much to
wear running shoes
walking in sandals are too loose and end up
cutting into my feet
its too early to exercise right now
as my head even still hurts with movement
but
hoping someday to go walking again
right now is a good time of year here too
as my feet arent swollen yet
but its still icy out
i have to catch that time period right between
the ice and the swelling
the other part is that i hate only exercising
for one season because then its hard
to get started again
all the improved shape you get in is lost
its like starting all over again
and again
with never any increase in conditioning
but its the only thing free and enjoyable
ah o well
 
2 weeks and 1 day post surgery(rest of teeth removed 17 of them plus the broken ones)

trying to eat pureed foods
but its awful completely awful
i hope that goes away soon
or im screwed

but at least the pain is way down
and
lost more weight
without trying
maybe i will list my foods

today--
1 boost
later maybe a can of zoodles
since they may not need pureed they might not be so gross
if i can manage them
 
Glad to hear the pain is going down a bit at least. Canned zoodles sound... interesting bit I could see them tasting nice in some veg stock.
 
managed the zoodles last night
not pureed
thank goodness

today (hoping for)--
ground beef in crockpot for many hours
with a pk of dry spaghetti sauce mix
and water added

really really hoping to manage some
not pureed

sneezed last night for first time in many many weeks
wow
did not expect that pain
u can bet im doing all i can not to
sneeze again
at least for a few more weeks
please
 
Will you be fitted with dentures when your mouth heals? I hope you can not sneeze for a while. It must be awful with so many extractions :grouphug:
 
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