BikiniBound's Diary

[bikinibound]

Hubby hates football?! What a crazy guy!

My Saturday is pretty much dependent on Michigan winning... James will be all sorts of pissed off if they lose!

So - GO MICHIGAN!

The defense is playing really well so far. I just hope the offense can find a way to move the ball better.

 

[bikinibound]

Yes, my Sundays tend to be ruled by whether the Cowboys win or lose. I even have to hope the CB win when they're playing the NY Giants, the team I used to love about 20 years ago when I was VERY into football (and I always hated their arch rivals, the CB). Now I'm a traitor in the interests of H being happy and in a great mood! Ha ha. You sports enthusiasts are NUTS! No offense BB .

My H likes sports--just not the same ones I do..lol. He likes cricket, Aussie Rules footbal (kinda like rugby) and tennis. I do like tennis, but I like football, hockey and basketball as well. He doesn't mind hockey, but has no allegiance to any teams b/c of his nationality.

BB, it IS so hard to decide what to do when things are going along OK and with no arguments. Did you stop going to the counselor? Is it basically his career issues that get you the most or his lack of communication or what. What would be the main change needed to make things work?

Aside from his career issues, there is his lack of emotional support and I feel like he wants me to be something I'm not. He was very sweet this morning before he left, but I think it's b/c he knows he's in the doghouse. Sometimes I feel like he does the absolute minimum to stay in my good graces.

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

Did you read my rep comment? I swear... I hate self loathing cocksuckers. Tooot tooooooooooot!




Oh btw, I hope Michigan wins. If they do, I'm sure you're going to get into Kimberly the Boning Beast mode. HA! Love you, sugar tits! I hope you have a great weekend, doll.

-Sheryl

 

[bikinibound]

I am pleased that things with H are a little better. If you can communicate with him I would think that it can only help - even if just helping a decision to be made and a conclusion be reached. At the moment you seem to be in the purgatory "in between".

Yeah, I feel like I've been in purgatory for about 6 months!! It's getting really old.

The diplomatic opportunity certainly sounds like it is worth pursuing. I cannot see that you have anything to lose by investigating and giving an application a go. The questions sound challenging - and it must be very difficult / almost impossible to find reference witnesses. The only good thing is that all the other applicants will have the same impossible criteria imposed on their witnesses.

Yes, it is very difficult--hence the reason I've put it off for so long! I would like to ask you all to stay on my case about it this week--I need you all to remind me to keep on it, as I really need to submit it by the end of the week.

One thing that you know is true is that because of your weight loss project your medical results will be so good now. In the past your weight could have held you back but it should not now. You know that you are fit - you have done daily exercise for some time. Your excellent loss in inches should enhance your confidence for the interview too.

Yes, I'm still heavier than I want to be, but by the time the oral interviews came around, I should be 15-25lbs thinner. They don't expect you to be in perfect shape--they just want to make sure you don't have any health issues that could prove a problem in countries where conditions are stressful and/or far below Western standards.

 

[bikinibound]

Oh Sister You know I'll be rooting for your Boys all the way over here!! I'll try to scream REALLY LOUD when they get their touchdowns for you!!! GO WOLVERINES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kick some assss today!!!!

They need some serious help. The Mich D is playing great--it's the offense that needs to step up.

I'm so seriously syked over all those inches you've worked out, DAMN GIRL, do you REALLY see how great you have done??? Everything must be hanging off of you now. What I think makes me the most happy so far, is the shirts/blouses I'm able to put on and not feel like I'm going to rip it around the backside or around my upper arm area, that is what I loved about losing the inches. I was okay with most of my body, but my upper arms, I wanted them gone FIRST! Does your H ever tell you how wonderful you are looking?? I just wonder if he sees the transformation, he has got to, that's just to many inches not to see it.

I'm proud of you!! And I'm so happy to have had the opportunity to meet you on this website, you inspire me in a way you don't even know. THANKS!!
Twin

Aww...you're so sweet, Twin. I know how ya feel about tops fitting looser. I can't believe I've lost so much in the hips compared to other areas, though. It's funny. Yeah, H tells me I look good. That is one thing I have no complaints about. He's been very supportive about the weight loss. He's really impressed at how much I've lost. He knows how much I've struggled with weight loss in the past. So he's very happy that I've managed to drop 52lbs and stick with it.

I don't know how I could inspire you--you're so incredible imo. I can't tell you how much your support means to me.

 

[bikinibound]

Did you read my rep comment? I swear... I hate self loathing cocksuckers. Tooot tooooooooooot!

I just read it! Haha. I don't think you ever have bad days when you feel really down on yourself, but I know I sure do--so I can sympathize with her a bit. But she seems to be down on herself all the time--big difference.

Oh btw, I hope Michigan wins. If they do, I'm sure you're going to get into Kimberly the Boning Beast mode. HA! Love you, sugar tits! I hope you have a great weekend, doll.
-Sheryl

You don't know how much I want them to win--OSU has won 3 yrs in a row--so I want bragging rights back, dammit!!

 

[bikinibound]

Weight: 277.5 226
BMI: 42.3 36.6 -5.7%
Lbs of fat on my body: Start: 117 current: 83.5 -33.5lbs
Total inches lost: 27.25.

I've thought those stats were interesting. It's strange to me how my BMI has changed. I've lost 52lbs, but only 33.5lbs of fat. So does that mean that almost 20lbs of what I've lost is muscle?? God, I hope not! I have done strength training at least 3 times a week since late january.

I was down .5lb today, but that's all I've lost in the last 12 days. So, I'm gonna eat 2000-2500 calories a day this week (well, Thanksgiving day I'm gonna eat as many as I feel like. ) in hopes of raising the metabolism. I'm also gonna do more ST this week in hopes of maybe building some muscle while I'm eating more. So, I'm going to try my best to eat as least 140g of protein. For some reason, I find it really hard to eat more than 120g of it--even with protein powder.

Please feel free to post your thoughts on my plan.

 

[Trevor M.]

Michigan kicker really sucks...

Couldn't even make a 48 yard long FG. Hell, Even I can kick a ball about that long.

Haha, well none the less. I hope Mich kicks Ohio's ass!

 

[bikinibound]

Michigan kicker really sucks...

Couldn't even make a 48 yard long FG. Hell, Even I can kick a ball about that long.

Haha, well none the less. I hope Mich kicks Ohio's ass!

He's way better than the kicker they had at the beginning of the season..lol

Well, at the rate things are going, it looks like the Fuckeyes are gonna win again...

 

[Trevor M.]

Haha, Your disgust for the other team amuses me.

 

[daiseeangel]

The Fuckeyes! That's great!

 

[AmbaLove]

I'm sorry your team may lose...try not to let it ruin your day!!

As for losing muscle, some of it was, yes. Some is also fluid retention, generally. When you lose weight, unfortunately, it is never all fat. After you have a healthy body fat percentage, you can start building more muscle...but some fat will appear too...it's just a never ending cycle.

 

[bikinibound]

The Fuckeyes! That's great!

I can't believe I'm the only one who calls them that.

Trevor M.: Haha, Your disgust for the other team amuses me.

I don't know if you Texans realize the pure hatred Michigan and Ohio St. fans have for each other. It's a long, bitter rivalry. This game is THE game each year for both teams. There have been so many NC titles and Big 10 Championships that have ridden on this game--like this year for instance. We have foiled each other's chances repeatedly over the years. There is great respect for each other, but we HATE each other, nonetheless.

AmbaLove I'm sorry your team may lose...try not to let it ruin your day!!

Oh, it WILL ruin my day--there's no way around it.

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

I just read it! Haha. I don't think you ever have bad days when you feel really down on yourself, but I know I sure do--so I can sympathize with her a bit. But she seems to be down on herself all the time--big difference.

Hey... there are times when I'm down. HOWEVER, let's look at the stats here... is there really any sense for her to hate herself? FUCK NO. I'm sorry, but that's one of my major pet peeves at this site. If she really feels that way, then you don't need a forum... you need a psychiatrist. Plain and muthafuckin' simple. BAH! Damnitt, my ranting partner isn't around. Damn his drunken ass!! (yah... steve. LOL) oOOoh btw... congrats with the 1/2 lb down, ma ma. So... ummm can we see these jugs now? Sheesh!

-Sheryl

 

[bikinibound]

Hey... there are times when I'm down. HOWEVER, let's look at the stats here... is there really any sense for her to hate herself? FUCK NO. I'm sorry, but that's one of my major pet peeves at this site. If she really feels that way, then you don't need a forum... you need a psychiatrist. Plain and muthafuckin' simple. BAH! Damnitt, my ranting partner isn't around. Damn his drunken ass!! (yah... steve. LOL) oOOoh btw... congrats with the 1/2 lb down, ma ma. So... ummm can we see these jugs now? Sheesh!

-Sheryl

Well, I noticed she started a new diary with a much better title. I think I gave her tough love without being a bitch. Well, if you need a ranting partner, I'm it--I'm about to go on a big football rant...lmao

No pics until I hit 222.5--3 more lbs. Probably won't be this week, either since I'm eating more. God, I feel like shit today. Mich lost to OSU for the 4th time in a fucking row, my weight is just sitting there--a half a pound over 12 days isn't enough--and don't any of you try to tell me otherwise. It's bullshit--and you all know it. I'm so fucking annoyed that the weight isn't coming off faster. 11 months into this and all I have to show for it is 52 fucking lbs. I was expecting to be around 200lbs by this point. So irritating. I wouldn't be so mad if I had gone off the wagon--but I have had my nose to the grindstone the entire time. It just makes me so mad when I see other people lose it so quickly, and I'm here battling for every fucking half lb.

And, I'm sick of being poor and not having any money. I forgot to pay 2 bills, so I got charged extra....dammit! I am so bad at that. I don't know why I can't remember better. I need to get a system going--I know I need to do that, and I know exactly what I need to do. I just don't do it. What the hell is wrong with me? I'm really annoyed with myself today. I'm feeling like a huge disappointment. I think my problem is depression. There is very little in my life right now that is going well. And, I know I have no one but myself to blame for it. So there, Sheryl--now I sound like that other girl who pissed you off. And don't tell me to go to a shrink b/c I did that and it didn't work.

 

[ellebelle1]

Stopping in to say hiiiiii!
I don't know if your game is over with yet or what but I hope that it wasn't a complete massacre. :/
Have a great night!!!
xoxoxox

 

[AmbaLove]

I hear you about fighting for every pound lost! I definately do battle to lose weight. But, maybe that makes it even more rewarding when we do?

 

[niapage]

hOWDY kIMBERLY ARE YA GOING NUTTZS IN THE XMAS CHALLANGE YET LOL YOU HAVE WAY MORE THAN I DID.I MUST SAY YOUR DOING A GR8 JOB,HAVE A NICE SATURDAY TAMMY

 

[Trevor M.]

Well, Mich took a loss today. Not what I wanted and I'm sure not what you wanted.

Texas doesn't play today. Thats ok. As, Texas Tech is playing and winning!

Some times I wonder who's more my favorite. Texas tech or Texas long horns...Hmm...Well I'll be going to Texas Techs med school. But prolly get my bachelors at UT(Long horns)...This will make it hard for me to choose...lol

 

[daiseeangel]

Yeah, Tech is taking it to Oklahoma! Craziness!

I'm sorry you are feeling so stressed, and I'm sorry the Wolverines only added to it! Did you see (I'm sure you did) that Lloyd Carr is going to step down?