Bianca V's Weight Loss Diary-WEEE!

Congrats on the weight loss and sticking to the diet!! I'm so proud!

I live in Columbus (the smaller version of Chicago haha) and I ride my bike in the city (I live downtown) and it is scary sometimes. It is always the people from out of town who don't know how to share the road, one time I almost got clipped by an old lady in a Buick that was WAY TO BIG for her! Good job getting out there and being active!!
 
Ohh noo

im sick...again!!

ugh. the doctor said i have a head cold but i feel its more than that cause my tonsils hate me. i think nature just hates me.

yesterday i wanted to work out and clean the apartment since i had a day off..i didnt wake up till 1 i was so tired and weak. i went straight to thedoctor and when i got back at 6pm....i knocked out. woke up at 6 am this morning.

i feel horrible. my throat hurts, my ears hurt, my head hurts. ugh i hate this. i feel so tired and weak but i have to go to school. i have two tests today.

right when i get home im gonna go to sleep and wednesday im gonna rest all day. looks like no exercise for me this week. i didnt even eat yesterday and im still not hungry.


waahhh
 
i went to the doctor twice. the first time, they said it was just a cold. ater 4 days and i was getting worse, i went back. found out it was strep throat.


i loathe you strep throat.
 
Guess whos back?

So.......I am back.


Wow, its been forever since I did this. and I think its good I get back into this.

Well, I guess its been two years? I have gained some, lost some, gained some. but for real this time, I need to get rid of this. Its been putting a huge strain on me phsyically, emotionally, and mentally. in ways I am almost obsessed with my weight and I try not to just concentrate on that cause I need to concentrate on school work. But also, for the past year i have been in a relationship. and i want to lose weight to look better even for him as well. i know he accepts me as me but he would like me to lose some too. i dont know, i guess i just dont feel confident enough, probably because hes such a good looking man, i feel like people wonder what hes doing with me. I just sometimes feel like I dont look good enough to be with him. but I also want to lose weight because I am getting older. im 21 now, i want to get in better shape so when its time for me to settledown and have children, i wont get too big. so, im gonna try work out more, harder, longer, and pay close attention to what i eat even if i dont eat a lot of bad stuff. i noticed lately i get sick if i eat too much greasy bad food. went to a baseball game and had stuff there. at the end of the night i just wanted to throw up.

well, i hope i can achieve something. really could use some self esteem boosters. =( i have none. i never feel pretty anymore.
 
Sept 13, 2010, I am restarting this journal

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I don't have the internet so I don't ge to post often.

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This is for today

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Woooooooooooo!!!!!!! Im excited!

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Hey Bianca, I just started back here too. SOunds like you're off to a great start well done. It's great when you can find some exercise you like doing.

Ana
 
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quick update.

since monday I have been going to the gym regularly. 30 mins on the treadmill or ellpiticle. dont like the bikes. and then I switch day to day from upper body to lower body. today is my upper body but i won't be going to the gym today.

I am a little upset right now because my boyfriend and I broke up. we have been together for a year and even though he makes me extremely happy, i feel like we have done stuff to each other that makes us feel bad. im sort of needy when it comes to him. i just like to feel wanted and i put too much pressure on him to always talk to me. and same here, i felt i had a lot of pressure to always look good for him. hes busy with school and trying to make money and im busy with school. we want to see each other as friends and hang out, but I feel it would be too hard for me. I love him very much and he came over last night so we can talk, i made him dinner, and this morning made him breakfast. Now, I feel sad cause who am I going to make mickey mouse pancakes anymore? =( I dont feel like we are completely through, I think I just need time to myself and take care of myself mentally and physically. a lot of it is my fault as well, and I am hoping with all of my heart that maybe we can try again, because I do love this man very much and hes my bestfriend. i dont want to let go of him right now, it just doesnt feel right. I'm gonna try not to cry so much. I can do this. I really hope we'll get back together and we can work things out.

I will start on my food diary again tomorrow.
 
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