Bellaryna's Journey

Hmmm, not exactly sure what I can say to help on this one. I do know the first thing to do when trying to come up with a solution is to know the problem, and at least you know what it is. How to help, not quite sure yet, but you bet I'm going to be thinking about it and hopefully I can come up with some suggestions that might help.


One thing is for sure, you dont have lock downs every day, so you won't have to worry about this happening all the time. And like you said you did really well those few days at work and didn't use the vending machines. It sounds more mind over matter really. Having money available does make it easier to run through a drive thru, but maybe what you can do instead of going through the arches you can run into Subway or something like that instead, less tempting for the high calorie stuff.

Like I said I'm going to try and figure some solutions for you, so I'm not giving up. :)

Try to get some rest, and hopefully that pink eye will be gone in a few days.
Have a good evening and start fresh in the morning, I'll be checking in on you Later.
Hugs
Kim
 
Thank You Kim darling~
It really does help to have someone there who no matter what is willing to encourage me.
You know I didn't even think about Subway.
*Smacking self in the forehead* :svengo:
I really think that the lack of sleep is what got to me the most yesterday and today.
And your right. It really is a mind over matter thing.
I remember when I first started out nearly 2 years ago, I was able to have my birthday cake sit on the counter for just about 2 weeks without ever taking a single bite!
And I do believe that I really do need to start planning the meals that my family eats.
Next week will hopefully be a better week as far as planning a menu would go.
Just seems that for some reason this summer is so jam packed full of things that are going on that I am rarely if ever home long enough to make a meal let alone plan a whole week of them.
:biggrinjester:~~~~~:biggrinjester:
Just to update you since I don't think you are aware.
My birthdaughter Laura contacted me in April. Since then I have seen her quite a few times. In fact my avatar is a picture of me, her and my youngest.
Since April my life has become even more busy (if that is possible) 'cuz I am always trying to make time to visit her. She lives in Grand Rapids, MI (same place as Kimberly) so it is a 3 hour drive to visit.
So on the days when I have nothing at all scheduled I am usually trying to work it out that her and I or her family and my family can get together. Once summer is over I know that we won't have nearly the time we do now to visit. She will be attending college and I will for the most part be "chained" here due to the kids' school schedules. And since I work on the weekends it will make it next to impossible to coordinate days with her.
By the way she is Beautiful!
If you want to see more pictures of her, I am on Facebook and have quite a few over there. Just PM me and I will give you the nescessary info to find me.
Ciao for now.
:)
 
okay since I will have no time what-so-ever tomorrow to post I am going to put my thoughts down now.

I am taking the kids up to Michigan tomorrow. To the very same beach that we went to last week when we were camping.
Laura and her parents are camping there this week and have invited us up to visit. Especially since last week was a total bust for the beach.
Tomorrow should be a gorgeous day for sand, sun and swimming. I just have to remember to keep applying the sunblock all day or we will be lobsters for sure. lol

The kids still don't know that we are going, (of course by the time that most of you read this we will already have been long gone).

I think that overall tomorrow should be a great day for staying with-in my water, fruit and veggie guidelines.
And even though Laura's mom and dad will be providing both lunch and dinner I WILL show restraint! Darn it all!!!!
Sitting around in my swimsuit looking like an oversized beach ball ought to jog my memory enough to know why it is I don't want to eat, eat, eat!

So that is the plans for tomorrow.
Hopefully I will be able to update sometime on Thursday. Hopefully.
We are getting a new 'puter and it is being delivered on Thursday. But that does not mean that it will be up and running on Thursday. hahah
Especially since we are going to the Distribution Center's company picnic that day. The booked us at the zoo. So it ought to be lots and lots of fun.

Catch ya'll later.
Ciao!
:seeya:
 
I don't know what to say except that I seem to really be struggling this time around.
I know I should pop on here more often but honestly I just don't feel like I am at a place where I can be encouraging other people when I feel like I am failing so miserably.
And I certainly don't expect anyone to have to lift me up out of my doldrums on a continuing basis.

I did have an appt with the doc today and was taken off of all my depression meds. Actually i took myself off of them about 2 weeks ago. I just really felt that they weren't helping me like they did when I first starting taking them.
And now I feel that most of my "sadness" if that is what you would call it, is more due to the fact that I have gained so much of my weight back.
My doctor did put me on a prescription to help with wanting to eat all the time thing.
I know that most of the problem lies with-in my head but truly once I thought of something to eat I swear the "hunger pangs" would just hit full force until I ate the food.
And knowing that I have been overeating and stretching my stomach out waaaay beyond what it should be did not help when I tried to cut back the intake. Because then it was lots and lots worse.
Already today I have finally felt like I am in control.
I was able to pick up cookies that the kids had and not eat them. Not even a bite. There wasn't even an inclination to. As well as cheesie curls. Which I love! haha
So hopefully I will only need to take this medicine for a short time. Maybe a month of two at the most. I just need to get myself back on track. need to get a really good jumpstart to this whole process.
I know that losing weight and maintaining it can be a lifetime endeavor. But trying to lose the same 30 pounds over and over, losing and gaining it back again to only try all over again is not what I imagined for this diary.
The destination for this journey of mine should have been met long ago.
 
STOP IT RIGHT NOW!!! STOP! I don't want to hear you put yourself down anymore!!!, even if you are not doing well on the weight loss front. Don't feel like you have to come to your diary to uplift people or give advise, you don't have to do that. But..... you do need to keep coming in if just to post your thoughts for the day, Your in a slump, it's normal we all have those. Look what Blancita went through for several years she couldn't lose anything, she struggled so badly and felt so bad I thought she was going to give up on the forum, then BAM it happened for her, she found her mojo again, she found what finally is working and she's at it full force.

You will get your mojo back, you will find that drive again! Maybe the switching of the meds is what you need, since you just changed it up, give it a shot it might take a week or so to get going, but don't pressure yourself about it, just never give up on yourself. I'm not giving up, so you shouldn't either. I to thought dang I lost all those months of not working out and not losing weight, I was MAD at myself, but you know what??? I'm not going to give up on myself, I'm still the same Kim, I'm still a great mom! I'm still a happy wife! And the rest Is a work in progress, I'll get back to my hot momma days, it just might take a little bit longer than I expected, but I'll figure it out and I'll get it done, maybe not this month, but I will! And I want you to believe you will too!

I need you to come to your diary, I need to hear about your week, and I look forward to it, so please don't stop. It's one day at a time sister, one pound at a time. Slow and steady will win the race it will. Take your time, you can get rid of those 30 and then some, YOU CAN and YOU WILL slowly and steady. I'm even willing to do a little ummmm not race.... but motivation with you. Let's see if we can each lose a pound a week starting next week. Are you up for the challenge?? This is between you and ME!! I'm willing, and let's just say after a month the one who loses the most will get a little something special in the mail. How's that?? You want to go for it???

Let me know, I'll be waiting for your reply.
Kimmers!
 
Seriosuly!
How did I luck out and get such a great friend?
I don't know how it happened but I am not giving you up for NOTHING!!!! :biggrinjester:
Thanks Kim.
I really needed a kick in the proverbial pants. There is no one here at home who will do it for me. Sweetiepea is gone for the summer and I miss her awfully. And hubby, well he struggles with his weight just like I do.
So it is hard to use him as an accountability partner when we each enable the other! hahaa
I don't know that it would be fair for us to have a challenge between the 2 of us under the circumstances. ( I wouldn't want to whoop ya by false measures!)
Now that I have started on that medicine I am doing GREAT!
I have not over ate at all since Monday. And the real kicker is that I haven't WANTED to!
I don't feel like I am depriving myself of anything. I just don't want it.
Yesterday I actually let my kids finish my lunch for me instead of the other way around. How's that for turning the tables? :smilielol5:
And get this my step-son asked me to pick him up a Blizzard at Dairy Queen and I was able to go thru the drive and not only not buy anything but
not want anything! GASP!!! :svengo:
I just need to remember to drink my water.
I know it is not much but since Tuesday when they weighed me at the doc's I have lost 3 pounds.
It is hard to get excited (or overly excited anyway) when I have lost those same 3 pounds countless times before.
So you see I don't know that a "weight" challenge would be fair. Perhaps we can think of something else.
How about who ever execises the most or something like that.
You exercise like a fiend and I don't exercise at all. So that would really give me motivation. If I was to actually put in as much time as you do.....man I think for sure that I would drop HUGE numbers.
What do you say?
Let me know.
And if you don't hear from me until Monday it is because I am off working in the Frozen Tundra. What I lovingly call my job...hahaha
Thanks again Kim!!
Really you are the best.
*So what kind of prize are we shooting for anyway?*
 
LOL okay Your ON!! I love the working out hours thing, that would be Awesome!! You know I need something to kick my butt back to the gym on a REGULAR basis, this would be just the kick I need!

Okay, so let's say judged by time of working out, could be anything from walking, going to the gym, something that gets your heart rate up of course. And after a month the one with the most time spent exercising will win, and of course it will be exciting to see the amount or rather "percentage" of weight loss we both had during this time.

And as for the grand prize! hmmmm maybe if YOU win I will think up something special to send to you and if I win you can think of something special to send to me, we won't tell each other what that thing is, so it will be extra special when it happens. I have some great ideas, and maybe we can keep it health or fit related you think??????


OOOOOHHH I'm so excited to get started on Monday, sound good???

maybe these meds are working for you and helping you curb that appetite, FANTASTIC!!

And to pass up a blizzard, HOLY SMOKES! with the heat here lately, anything cold is hard to pass up, but I need to break down and buy some freezer pops only 15 calories each and they are so good. I'm going to get my behind to the store and stock back up on my veggies and fruits, I want to see some huge results in the next 30 days.

So we will start effective Monday and go for 30 days. :coolgleamA:

Let me know if you need me to wait until Tuesday and I will. I'm so excited, I can't wait. Hope your weekend is a good one!!! Don't work to hard

Hey and on the 3lbs loss, take it and be happy with it, because I said so!! What I wouldn't do to "Lose 3lbs" again. Seriously! :smilielol5:

Talk to you soon!
Hugs
Kim
 
Jeankers!
I almost forgot to come in here before we left on our camping trip.
Okay scale showed this morning that I was now down 8 1/2 pounds from last week. Yeah!!!!
Now I just want to see if I can continue to lose. Not nescessary at that rate but a good steady one would make me happy.
~~~
Kimmers
Your on! I am planning and hoping to get lots of walking/hiking in this week. So be prepared to go to the gym.
I wish I had more time to update everything else going on in my life but I literallu gotta run.
bye!
 
YOU GO SISTER~

I'm holding you to it. 8 pounds, DANG I better rev it up or I'm going to be left in the dust.

Hope you have a FAB camping trip. Talk to you when you return.

Kimmers
 
Hey~lo
Well I survived the camping trip. lol
It actually went very well. It was one of our best camping trips yet. As the kids are getting older and better able to entertain themselves things are getting easier and easier.
I did get out and walk by myself one morning. Headed around the campground partway to a trail they had that led to the beach. It was so beautiful at the beach. The were no waves at all. Just a gentle lapping of the water. Seagulls overhead doing their thing. So Peaceful.
Think in all it was about an hour. I felt bad leaving hubby with the kids to deal with in the morning. So I hustled back as soon as I could. I rode bikes with my kids around the campground a few times. (Man I need a bigger seat on that bike! My rear end still hurts! lol)
Luckily for me my bike has a speedometer and odometer on it so I am able to keep track of how far and how long I am on it.
Going around the campground just once was over a mile and a half and it took us about 20 minutes. I couldn't go the usual speed that I would since my kids would never be able to keep up otherwise.
We went to the beach everyday. (Camped at Lake MI) So I am counting the walking, more like hiking, up and down the huge dune to get to the beach as exercise.
Luckily the fine folks of MI made a sidewalk that goes part of the way down (helps control erosion of the dune) so it wasn't one of those take 3 steps forward slide down 2 deals. Well at least for the top half of the dune it wasn't. lol
It usually took me about 15 minutes to get all the way to the top. I was usually lugging a cooler, towels and a chair when we went to the beach. Just for the record hubby lugged stuff too. But we have to be extrememly careful with his knees since they are bad and prone to twisting. So I did most of the lugging.
I would love to say that I "swam". But you don't really swim in Lake MI. You usually just frollick around in the waves. Which the first night there was like none at all. The second day was pretty much the same as the first night except as the sun got closer to going down it started getting rougher with the waves. And the finally day that we went to the beach the waves were wild! I mean like ocean sized ones. The kids loved it. I did not. haha
We did hit a local ice cream place that was the absolute best ice cream ever!!! And I am not kidding. They make all their ice cream right there in a factory attached to the store. They had over 40 flavors and the amount of ice cream they gave you was UNBELIEVABLE! I got a SINGLE dip Caramel Cashew Crunch waffle cone. I watched the guy make it. He packed the ice cream all the way down the cone and then put like 6 more BIG scoops on top! :svengo:I was like "what did I get myself into?"
I wasn't able to finish it. Well let's put it this way. I could have finished it but not only would I have made myself sick I would have regretted big time having eaten the whole thing. I only ended up eating just barely over half before I threw it away.
I think if we ever go there again I will only get the baby scoop in a cup. I saw that one too and it was like a normal size serving! haha
You had to take a number when you got there. We got number 17 and they were only on number 4. By the time that we left they were up to number 59! And that was at 9 at night! On a Tuesday! I have to wonder what it is like on a weekend night.
All in all I ate well. I never overate. I did have some s'mores. But who doesn't when they go camping?
Woke up this morning and weighed myself hoping to have just held my own and not gained anything.
I lost another 1 1/2 pounds!!! I couldn't believe it! I thought for sure that I would have been equal. Not losing anything. Especially after having that ice cream! haha
In all I think I "exercised" 2 1/2 hours. Could be more but I would rather round down than up.
Oh and before I forget! My little guy was in a contest at the local fair last Saturday. He Won!!!
He was Little Mr. Noble County for the week of fair. Got to ride in a parade, throw out candy, hand out ribbons to winners and help crown Miss Noble County as well as he himself got a trophy. Also when we go to the fair (which is free since he won) he wears a sash thingy that says he is Little Mr. Noble county and he gets announced at the GrandStand events if he is there.
I wanted to attach to picture of him with his trophy but the system won't let me.
 
Sounds like a fantastic camping trip~! I love camping, and I love camping when it involves hiking, swimming, boating, just about anything around the water and wildlife, I'm an outdoor fantatic!

Sounds like your weight loss is going down, down, down. YIPPY!!!! I'm so happy right now, you deserve it!

I'm still not giving up on this challenge you know, we still have three weeks left to go. LOL LOL

Your going to wamp my bootie! And I honestly can say I would be rather happy if you did. LOL good luck this week!! I plan on blowing out the calories in a good way and busting that scale, after I purchase a new one, I still need to do that. LOL

Check in on you soon!
Kimmers
 
So Dawn, no pudgie pies attacking you without warning on your camping trip? Good job! Gotta see if maybe my wife would consider camping again. We used to have a good time, but it has been years...
 
I don't think I've ever not been able to finish an ice cream..lol What was the name of that place?? Might have to make a trip...:drool5:

I know what you mean about swimming in Lake Mich.lol

Congrats on the continued weight loss! :party:
 
Thank You Margaret!
I know I haven't been over here much. Just seems that Facebook and life keep getting in the way.
I appreciate that you have not forgotten me. :)
 
I know naughty me!
I am doing well. Things got kinda hectic there for a while. Of course in the process of being hectic I gained back a few (more than a few actually! haha) pounds.
Just seemed like most of all my buddies were falling to the wayside here. And unfortunately I am one of those people who really really need to have a good support system all around me for me to succeed.
So as time went on (and I found Facebook! haha) I started coming in less and less.
But I have no problems with coming back if I know that a few of my friends are going to still be sticking around.
Sorry to have worried ya.
That is one of the bad things about making internet friends. You just never know why you suddenly no longer hear from someone.
 
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