Bellaryna's Journey

Holy Cow Super Woman/Mom!

**YOU GO GURL!** :hurray:

Sooooo sorry to hear about the scare/kids bein' sick. :(

I know you're busy-busy and I'm glad you were able to check-in!

:grouphug:

<3 Stacy
 
Ah thanks for the love girls.
Unfortunately this one is gonna be super short.
Both kids are once again running high fevers. High 101 to high 102 range. Trev's even got all the way up to 103 at one point. I swear if they are still going thru this tomorrow I am going to march them both back to the doctor and demand they do something. I don't care if they say that this is normal for this particular viral thingy.
IT IS NOT NORMAL FOR MY LITTLE CHILI DOGS TO HAVE TO KEEP TAKING TYLENOL AND MOTRIN FOR THIS MANY DAYS!!!
I mean for heavens sake.........we went thru and entire bottle of liquid Tylenol in just over 24 hours!!!!
Anywho just wanted to pop in on ya's.
Hopefully I can catch time tomorrow.
Oh and yeah Hubby's got it now too.
It's only a matter of time now before it hits me.
But I tell ya what I ain't going down without a fight! LOL
It'll have to take me kicking and screaming! :smilielol5:
Ciao
 
Well everyone at the house has recovered from the virus of the week.
I never did get it but everyone else in the house did. Including my 18yo stepson.
Don't know how I managed to dodge the bullet but glad that I did.
I have been having a really hard time with the eating.
Yesterday was not a good day at all.
Hotdogs, pizzas, tacos and burgers do not a skinny girl make.
I know part of the problem is that lately I am running from one thing to the other with barely anytime for myself in between. Add onto that lack of sleep and I have really been struggling.
I really need to get better organized. More of a time managment thing.
Anyway that is where things are here.
I am planning on Monday being a new start.
I know that I have said that alot here in the last week and a half. But really I want a new start, it's just getting my desires and my responsiblities to line up.
ciao for now
 
It's good to recognize your mistakes and weaknesses as to learn from them. Tomorrow is indeed another day, a new day! You can do it- you have before!
 
I don't know what to say.
Basically I have quit even trying to eat well here lately. I have to wonder if my meds aren't working so well anymore. Even though I am taking them ( I do forget once in a while) I have been feeling really blah lately.
And it is showing in just about every aspect of my life.
Not just the eating/exercise thing.
My house is a pit. So is the car. I got baskets and baskets of laundry to fold. Need to get to the store to get the essentials. And just don't seem to care about any of it.
I can honestly say that if it was only myself I would probably never get around to taking care of any of that stuff. But it is not just me and so since I have people relying on me to get things done I do get them done. Not in a timely fashion but eventually they are done.
Maybe I am just run down from working 6 days a week. Working Tuesday thru Fridays at the Y from 4:30 in the morning to whatever time (have to make up time if I go to classes during regular scheduled shift) and then working Friday, Sat and Sunday at the DC until whatever time is really getting to me.
I feel like I never have time to myself to do what I want. And all I really want to do is sleep.
Everyday I tell myself that today is going to be the new start of this journey. And everyday I bouce off that wagon again and again.
Not sure what it is going to take to get me back to that go-getter-feeling that I had when I first started this journey.
I have promised myself that I will climb the Sears Tower in November and I have made a point of telling several people my plans. This way I will have people to hold me accountable. Even if they don't realize that is what they will be doing.
I still have the weird desire to run. Or maybe it is a desire to exercise really hard. I don't know that I can explain the feeling. I just feel like I want to get going but never get from the wanting to the doing. Mostly 'cuz I don't feel like I have the time to give to get it done.
So I know that for the most part this is just the weird ramblings of a tired, over-weight, over-stressed (at times), guilt-ridden mom.
Feels good to just get it out of my head.
Maybe this is what I need. To just get all the thoughts down on the proverbial paper. So to speak.
I still have to be to work tomorrow at 4:30am at the Y, and since I am feeling soooooo very tired, I think I am going to go to bed right after I put my kids to bed. Which is in about 20 minutes.
Perhaps tomorrow I will wake up with a better view of life.
Perhaps tomorrow really will be my new day.
 
Venting is what us girls do best! It really does make us feel better to talk about it. We all have days where we are just fed up . . with everything. Being a woman, wife, mother in today's society can be overwhelming. You need to take time for yourself. If that means just taking a nap, reading a book, a long hot bath . . something to rejuvinate ya. I know, alot easier dais than done. We as women, always somehow seem to make everyone else a priority.

Finding motivation and holding onto it, has been my toughest struggle. It certainly helps verything fall into place easier when you have motivation and determination. Luckily for me, at this point/moment I have my motivation and am praying that I can hold onto it throught out my journey. But for the past 2 years, I have had and lost movitation/inspriation/determination dozens and dozens of times- which is why I have not had any permanent results. But enough about me LOL. You need to know that you deserve it, and you are worth it. Re-read your posts when you were doing really well and see if you can find what was motivating you then. Maybe even just reading about your previous successes will help get those gears a crankin'!

hang in there!

-Jen
 
Well, I've always said I thought you take on too much. Is there anyway to cut some of your obligations? Can Gil help you out around the house more? I mean, he can't possibly work more than you do, that's for sure.

Glad the family is over the virus--and glad you didn't catch it. :)
 
Thanks everyone for poppin in, stoppin' by, well wishin' and encouraging me.
Well the bullet that I thought I had dodged caught up to me on Wednesday.
Wasn't feeling 100% on Tuesday night when I went to bed. Apparently I was coughing alot as Gil got up and doctored me with some Nyquil. Probably more so he could sleep!!! J/K LOL I know he did it cuz' he loves me.
Ended up not going into the Y on Wednesday. Gil got the kids up and around on Wed morning as well as getting me more medicine. I ended up sleeping until 11am. Even though I was got up and was up for the rest of the day I felt like I could go back to sleep at anytime. I am feeling better today though I still have this nagging cough. And if I cough to much my head starts to feel like it is going to explode.
So as you can figure I have not done any working out for this week yet. And at this rate I may not.
I am still feeling a bit blah. But the weather here seems to have taken a turn for the better, which is putting me in a better mood/place.
I have to take my youngest to a specialist today for allergies. He gets hives all over his face and upper portion of his chest whenever he is exposed to "something". We don't know what the something is. And we have been dealing with this for about 3 years now. We were told when it first started happening that until he was past the age of 5 none of the allergy testing results would be conclusive. So we have put off having anything done. Hoping he would outgrow what ever it is. But last Saturday was the worst I have ever seen them!!! So I called the doc on Mon and was surprised to be able to get an appt so quickly. Hopefully we will finally find out what is aggravating the poor little guy.
I am going to attach a picture so that way if any of you possibly know someone who gets these could you please pass the info on to me. Right now any info would be helpful.
The 1st photo was the initial day of the outbreak. We think it was caused by either the pizza he ate for dinner or the fact that he slept on the floor of his room that night. (Him and sis were having a "sleep-over", which means they sleep-over in each others rooms on the floors.) The 2nd picture is the 2nd day. Worst I have ever seen them. They itch him like crazy and he hates how people stare at him 'cuz of them. Of course people everywhere automatically think he has ringworm but he doesn't. That pic was taken on Sunday morning. He was so self-conscience of them that he didn't want to go to church. The 3rd pic is the 3rd day. And the 4th pic is the 4th day. It has now been 6 days since the initial outbreak and he still has a bit of the rash/hives.
So if anyone has any ideas or info please pass it along to me.
Thanks everyone!
Ciao
 
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Sis, you need some serious alone time for refreshing. Wondering if the in-laws or someone at church can fill in for you?

I asked this in my journal but will ask it here...do you ever use scripture to keep you on track with weight loss? I remember when I first got started I would do this and ask God for inner strength of mind to stay on track with everything -eating, exercising etc (I would also ask Him not to let my food make me fat lol)...Ive noticed that as I've gotten away from doing this I've been rocky with my weight loss efforts.
 
Mamaz2ndbaby said:
Sis, you need some serious alone time for refreshing. Wondering if the in-laws or someone at church can fill in for you?

I asked this in my journal but will ask it here...do you ever use scripture to keep you on track with weight loss? I remember when I first got started I would do this and ask God for inner strength of mind to stay on track with everything -eating, exercising etc (I would also ask Him not to let my food make me fat lol)...Ive noticed that as I've gotten away from doing this I've been rocky with my weight loss efforts.
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I answered ya over in your journal but will reply here as well.
I agree that when we allow God to help us thru things we get thru them way better than we ever do on our own. Problem is we all think (eventually) that we can do it by ourselves. And that we got to our success' by our hardwork and effort. We forget and then we falter.
No matter what it is we are struggling with, we all are control freaks. Even if we don't want to admit it.
 
Well after having had a most gluttenous 3 weeks I decided this morning that the buck, errr overeating, stops here.
When people at work started mentioning this weekend that they hadn't ever seen me eat so unhealthy before I sat up and took notice. How embarrassing.
And I have no excuses. Just got lazy and didn't really care for 3 weeks. Let myself waller in all that trans-fat and sugar.
Not anymore!
This morning I got up and dug out my water bottle. I have already had 20oz.
Ate my good breakfast of eggbeaters just like I was before. Had healthy snacks of cheesestick and almonds and am planning a good for me dinner of chicken and veggies.
Tomorrow I will get back to the Zumba and start on my stair challenge training.
I may have fell off that wagon taking a hard bounce and a knock to the head. But I am back up on my feet now and got my thumb hooked out looking for the next wagon that comes along.
Onderland or BUST here I come. LOL
 
Update on my little guy:
What he has is a form of an autoimmune disorder. One that they haven't really been able to pinpoint down yet.
So basically he is allergic to nothing his little body just flips a switch when it wants to and voila hives.
He has been taking meds now for 4 days and NO HIVES!!! Yah!!
He is soooo much happier.
On the side of bad news my mom called me this last Friday right before I got to work to tell me that her Non-Hodgkins is active again.
Which means she has lymphnodes that are going out of control. This is the
3rd time in 6 years that she has had a flair up. We go to the cancer doctor on Friday to see what all is going on. If mom was correct in her hearing she says they told her that it was active in her neck, under her arm, in her abdomen, groin and legs. If all that is true than this is the worst that she has ever had it.
Of course she is getting down and I am trying to help her to keep her spirits up, but she doesn't really seem to want to have them lifted.
Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
 
Today and yesterday were good days as far as all things weight related.
Ate well both days though last night I did have about 4 small slices of pizza from the frozen section. Did well the rest of the day so wasn't to concerned in the cal count as I know I didn't go over for the day even with the pizza.
Went to Zumba yesterday. Had a great time.
Have eaten well so far today. Got one of those $5 footlongs from Subway for lunch. Had 1/2 for lunch and am saving the 2nd half for dinner.
Went to Zumba again today as well as worked out on the Rower machine at the Y for 15 minutes (warming up for Zumba).
I am currently weighing in at 208 even.
I just seem to keep yo-yoing back and forth on the weight.
This week has been the 1st week in a long time that I don't feel pressed to be here and do that. So could be that since things are slowing down I am going to be better able to focus on my eating/exercising.
Here's to another day down.
 
I just seem to keep yo-yoing back and forth on the weight.
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Girl, I just realized today I've done the same thing for the last 4 months. It HAS to be the nutrition cause I'm getting the exercise in. Are you keeping a food journal? Maybe if we track more closely we can break this thing.

Your son is a trooper...will keep him and your mom in my prayers.
 
thanks to all who have popped in on me. currently i am unable to really type as i did somerthing to my wrist and now have to wear a brace for a few days. hopefully i won't be outta commision for to long.
i will update the weight though. as of ysterday and this morning i am weighing in at 206.2 so have dropped almost 2 pounds this week.
and yes, mamaz baby i do think my eating is the problem. i was keepin a jornal for a while but fell off the wagon and once i had skipped a few dayds i just gave up. i have started to get back to it but not 100% yet.
okay so thst really is all i can type with one hand! lol
catch up weith everyone later.
 
Bless yer sweet heart. :hug2:

SS to hear about your wrist/brace.

~*Get Well Soon!*~

*smoochies!*

I hope you're able to have A Goal Reachin' Monday!

<3 Stacy
 
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