For some reason, I can't show people that I care about them, things, or anything. It always sounds like I don't care about anyone but myself but it's the complete opposite. David thinks I don't care about anything, but I really do. It's frustrating me cause I feel ugly inside, like I'm not a nice person.
I am a nice person! I want so badly to show everyone, but no matter how hard I try.. I always end up being the bitch! o.o
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Slept over at Dave's last night. We fell out a lot, and made up at 3 am when we started to kiss and have sex on the floor. Sex without a condom, during TOM and while very tired and after just crying from arguing is very.. uncomfortable. I couldn't control myself.. but I had that close feeling with him that I've not had in a long time and instead of getting right to it and not appreciating anything, it was like when we first did anything sexual with each other.
I definitely need to sort myself out. Inside and outside.