January 28
Okay, here goes. I gained 10 pounds over Christmas. Before that I was more "comfortable" with my weight, no satisfied, but comfortable. Everyone kept telling me I looked like I had lost weight. From what point of reference I don't know. I have weighed anywhere from 133-180 in the last 10 years. The most popular weights for me are 137, 145, 153, 163.
Do you know that even if someone is 10 pounds too heavy it can be just as miserable as 20, 30, or 40. Of course if you have been much heavier 10 or 20 pounds over weight are probably more painful.
I haven't been 137 in 5 or 6 years. And then it was only for a vacation.
Sweets are my friend! No. NO What a lie!
Okay, seriously. ON friday January 25th I weighed 164
I decided around 1,200 calories would be a good kick start. The only rules for this week is 1,200 calories. I will add more stipulations later. Also, I'm drinking lots of water. I lost 4 pounds on day 1. Must have been water.
So night number three I woke up in the middle of the night starved and got a russel stover christmas chocolate out of my sons stash. I ate one, and half of the second one. I woke up with half a chocolate melted and smeared all over my jammie's. I thought, "I'm like a junkie" Sat, sun I kept it under 1,500 calories but ate candy both times. I've eaten 950 calories today, 630 of which were candy. Yuck! Tomorrow I will eat no candy!!!! One day at a time.
Weight this morning: 159.5
Goal weight:133 I think
Okay, here goes. I gained 10 pounds over Christmas. Before that I was more "comfortable" with my weight, no satisfied, but comfortable. Everyone kept telling me I looked like I had lost weight. From what point of reference I don't know. I have weighed anywhere from 133-180 in the last 10 years. The most popular weights for me are 137, 145, 153, 163.
Do you know that even if someone is 10 pounds too heavy it can be just as miserable as 20, 30, or 40. Of course if you have been much heavier 10 or 20 pounds over weight are probably more painful.
I haven't been 137 in 5 or 6 years. And then it was only for a vacation.
Sweets are my friend! No. NO What a lie!
Okay, seriously. ON friday January 25th I weighed 164
I decided around 1,200 calories would be a good kick start. The only rules for this week is 1,200 calories. I will add more stipulations later. Also, I'm drinking lots of water. I lost 4 pounds on day 1. Must have been water.
So night number three I woke up in the middle of the night starved and got a russel stover christmas chocolate out of my sons stash. I ate one, and half of the second one. I woke up with half a chocolate melted and smeared all over my jammie's. I thought, "I'm like a junkie" Sat, sun I kept it under 1,500 calories but ate candy both times. I've eaten 950 calories today, 630 of which were candy. Yuck! Tomorrow I will eat no candy!!!! One day at a time.
Weight this morning: 159.5
Goal weight:133 I think
You probably need to eat more than 1200 calories a day. You binged on the chocolate, because your stomach was hungry. Don't miss out on meals or possibly two snacks during the day. Cut out the sweets slowly, throwing them away is an excellent idea, no temptation. Maybe fill your house with fruits, but even those contain sugar, but are much better for you than chocolate. Umm... I used to binge a lot, now I don't. Once in a while I will eat cookies or chocolate, but more often I don't have any craving to touch them...which is a good thing...because I was the real binger. Its hard to quit. I used to get chocolate all over the blanket and pjs. I would have smeared chocolate on my face. My bf would wake up and find chocolate on the blanket ..make a mockery of me in front of his roommates and we would clean the blanket. But it was horrendous. I was so ashamed and felt so ugly, disgusting. 
nothing will be able to stop me. I'm so tired of candy wrappers under the bed, all over the car. Feeling guilty, out of control. I will aim for 1,500 calories tomorrow. It will be hard b/c when I am eating healthy I'm not really that hungry. I will walk for at least 30 minutes.