Ashys Diary
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Deliriouslysane
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Just checking in on your diary! (I haven't in awhile 
) It looks like you're doing great 10lbs down woo hoo! Congrats..on your weight loss. Over a month on your lifestyle change is awesome. Keep up the good work. I agree with Tamnix, its been awhile hope everything is okay!
) It looks like you're doing great 10lbs down woo hoo! Congrats..on your weight loss. Over a month on your lifestyle change is awesome. Keep up the good work. I agree with Tamnix, its been awhile hope everything is okay!
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Sunshine8z40
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Awww. I'm beginning to think you've given up posting We MISS YOU! COME BACK!
We MISS YOU! COME BACK!
ashy
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took me a while to find my diary. Yeah, I gave up. I think it was the visit to my parents house a while ago. I was doing so well. I gained back all the weight I lost and then some. But I am back in the saddle again. I am going to give it another go.
Honestly, this weight makes me want to cry so bad. Its so hard for me not to beat myself up over it. I look at some of my older pictures when I was "pretty" and I hate that I can't be like that right at this moment. I hate how much time its going to take, but if I don't stick with it I will be stuck like this forever. I really need to keep making an effort to change.
One thing I know is that I have a misconception about others. The women who are already skinny. I think to myself "oh how lucky they are to be able to stay so thin." I know that they probably have to work at it, but I tend to discredit that.
Anyone else know how that is?
Outside of this "weight" issue I have been doing fine. School is getting closer and closer to finishing.
Any of my old comrades still around here?
I see that a lot of you have made some awesome progress. You are my inspiration. Please keep it up and share the knowledge.
I have enrolled myself in a course at school (im a psych major) called "behavior modification" and well, one of my behaviors that I am going to pick up is exercising. Its a project that I have to do. My goal is to exercise a minimum to 3-4 times a week for a minimum of 30 minutes a day. Its a gradual process and I will start off slow.
I am looking forward to it.
I am trying to use the same tools that I am learning in that class to combat my eating behaviors. I have learned recently that I am def. an emotional eater and that I eat when I am bored.
I'll probably be posting a bunch on here, but not so much what I ate as I did before, just my progress and other things I think are significant.
But enough about me! See you ladies/gents soon.
Oh and all of the World Of Warcraft people. I finally quit playing. Thank god. I wasted 2 years of my life on that game, and I blame a lot of my sedentary lifestyle on it. I have been making changes in that dept. and I am so glad that I am.[/COLOR][/COLOR]
Honestly, this weight makes me want to cry so bad. Its so hard for me not to beat myself up over it. I look at some of my older pictures when I was "pretty" and I hate that I can't be like that right at this moment. I hate how much time its going to take, but if I don't stick with it I will be stuck like this forever. I really need to keep making an effort to change.
One thing I know is that I have a misconception about others. The women who are already skinny. I think to myself "oh how lucky they are to be able to stay so thin." I know that they probably have to work at it, but I tend to discredit that.
Anyone else know how that is?
Outside of this "weight" issue I have been doing fine. School is getting closer and closer to finishing.
Any of my old comrades still around here?
I see that a lot of you have made some awesome progress. You are my inspiration. Please keep it up and share the knowledge.
I have enrolled myself in a course at school (im a psych major) called "behavior modification" and well, one of my behaviors that I am going to pick up is exercising. Its a project that I have to do. My goal is to exercise a minimum to 3-4 times a week for a minimum of 30 minutes a day. Its a gradual process and I will start off slow.
I am looking forward to it.
I am trying to use the same tools that I am learning in that class to combat my eating behaviors. I have learned recently that I am def. an emotional eater and that I eat when I am bored.
I'll probably be posting a bunch on here, but not so much what I ate as I did before, just my progress and other things I think are significant.
But enough about me! See you ladies/gents soon.
Oh and all of the World Of Warcraft people. I finally quit playing. Thank god. I wasted 2 years of my life on that game, and I blame a lot of my sedentary lifestyle on it. I have been making changes in that dept. and I am so glad that I am.[/COLOR][/COLOR]
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ashy
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Well, so far so good. I am at school waiting to be interviewed for the honors program. I am confident that it will turn out well. I'm doing very well on my diet. I am sticking to 1550 cal's a day, and lately I have been falling just a bit under 1550. I have been on my diet for over a week now, and I have lost a couple of lbs. Doing good.
Its almost snack time. Since school started I have been so busy. I've been so busy that if I happen to have a break I have no idea what to do with myself. Anyone know what I mean?
Anyways, see ya later.
Its almost snack time. Since school started I have been so busy. I've been so busy that if I happen to have a break I have no idea what to do with myself. Anyone know what I mean?
Anyways, see ya later.
*tiffany*
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Hey Ashy.
Girl, I so know what it is like to mourn the time when you are thin and pretty. I know what it is like to loathe the fact that you can't look and feel like that now...and to dread how long it is going to take to get there. But as you already know, you have taken the new first step to a new you. You can do it...I know you can...and I will be here cheering you on!
I just wanted to let you know that I am also back and can't wait to get back to chatting with you. Have a great day and I will talk to you soon!
Girl, I so know what it is like to mourn the time when you are thin and pretty. I know what it is like to loathe the fact that you can't look and feel like that now...and to dread how long it is going to take to get there. But as you already know, you have taken the new first step to a new you. You can do it...I know you can...and I will be here cheering you on!
I just wanted to let you know that I am also back and can't wait to get back to chatting with you. Have a great day and I will talk to you soon!
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Risty
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Ashy, I think you're pretty no matter what!
Sorry I haven't written in so long, I gave up myself. I tend to do that. I'll do well and then something will happen and I'll just give up. I always get right back on though. I'm glad you're giving it another shot. It's definately not easy, but that in the end will make us stronger.
Honestly, I wish I had skinny pictures to look back on so I know what I can look forward to, but I've always been overweight. I mean my average was only 5 pounds less than now, which isn't HUGE, but it's not thin either. I've always had fat to lose around the stomach, thighs, butt and arms. HA, basically everywhere. But the worse were my thighs.
So to me, I feel like I can never be thin like everyone else. When I think that way I try to force myself to think, just because I've never been thin and fit like that, doesn't mean I can't do it now. It's hard to think that way all the time.
So yeah, we all go through struggles, but don't give up. Giving up definately won't get you where you want to go. So kick some butt and show that butt who's boss! (I don't know about your butt, but mine can use some kicking lol).
Good job on starting your weight loss again and losing some pounds, that's awesome!
Sorry I haven't written in so long, I gave up myself. I tend to do that. I'll do well and then something will happen and I'll just give up. I always get right back on though. I'm glad you're giving it another shot. It's definately not easy, but that in the end will make us stronger.
Honestly, I wish I had skinny pictures to look back on so I know what I can look forward to, but I've always been overweight. I mean my average was only 5 pounds less than now, which isn't HUGE, but it's not thin either. I've always had fat to lose around the stomach, thighs, butt and arms. HA, basically everywhere. But the worse were my thighs.
So to me, I feel like I can never be thin like everyone else. When I think that way I try to force myself to think, just because I've never been thin and fit like that, doesn't mean I can't do it now. It's hard to think that way all the time.
So yeah, we all go through struggles, but don't give up. Giving up definately won't get you where you want to go. So kick some butt and show that butt who's boss! (I don't know about your butt, but mine can use some kicking
lol).Good job on starting your weight loss again and losing some pounds, that's awesome!
ashy
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OK... I am back AGAIN. I am so glad that I came back to see a couple of messages in my diary. They are just what I needed to hear. I've gained a good bit of weight since the last time I was here. So... I am at the end of my rope.
This is the only place that I can talk about this stuff and feel comfortable. Otherwise, I feel like I am bothering people about something they can't understand.
But here I know there are people who understand how it is to get on the wagon and fall off. Well, this time I wanna glue my butt to the wagon. I wanna be the wagon... lol. I just need to. Because honestly, every day that I don't do something the more I can't stand the way I look.
So.... my biggest problem right now is this... The first couple of weeks are the hardest in my opinion because you get that hungry feeling in your stomach and I just can't stand it. What do you guys do?
But before I end this particular diary entry... I feel the need to state my commitment to write in my diary everyday. I need to do this. Even when I feel like everything is going well. And I think this time I need to be brutally honest with myself. Of course being positive is a goal, but I think its a pretty safe bet to say that I am an emotional eater. So I need to see what triggers this. I want to do it publicly so that others may point out things that I may not see. I would appreciate it as long as it is constructive.
Anyways, I am back. Everyday till the day I maintain my goal weight. I wish i was like wishes.. I hope I can stick to my goal. It seems so far away.
This is the only place that I can talk about this stuff and feel comfortable. Otherwise, I feel like I am bothering people about something they can't understand.
But here I know there are people who understand how it is to get on the wagon and fall off. Well, this time I wanna glue my butt to the wagon. I wanna be the wagon... lol. I just need to. Because honestly, every day that I don't do something the more I can't stand the way I look.
So.... my biggest problem right now is this... The first couple of weeks are the hardest in my opinion because you get that hungry feeling in your stomach and I just can't stand it. What do you guys do?
But before I end this particular diary entry... I feel the need to state my commitment to write in my diary everyday. I need to do this. Even when I feel like everything is going well. And I think this time I need to be brutally honest with myself. Of course being positive is a goal, but I think its a pretty safe bet to say that I am an emotional eater. So I need to see what triggers this. I want to do it publicly so that others may point out things that I may not see. I would appreciate it as long as it is constructive.
Anyways, I am back. Everyday till the day I maintain my goal weight. I wish i was like wishes.. I hope I can stick to my goal. It seems so far away.
ashy
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So Far So Good
Ok I forgot to post yesterday so I am gonna post 2 times today.
This post is just about yesterday....
So, We woke up and went to subway. I got a turkey foot long and he did too. We both ordered water to drink.
Then we went to the grocery store.
I bought a ton of healthy choice cause they were on sale. We got some skinless boneless chicken that was on sale too.
I got some yoplait 100 calories key lime pie. Yum! It tastes just like keylime pie! And some 60 calories Dolche de Leche Pudding snacks. Those pudding snacks are sooooo rich that you won't want anything else sweet after that.
To put it short we found a lot of good healthy stuff. But the one thing I refuse to give up or to go low fat on is sour cream and cheese. I'd rather not eat it at all you know?
I've been drinking a lot of water and reduced sugar tea that we make at home. I am not even contemplating soft drinks or diet soft drinks. I think with me its best to cut out soft drinks entirely because the diet ones just remind me of the real ones and make it harder on me to resist.
I don't plan on drinking liquor a lot, but if I do drink thats the only time I'll have diet sprite.
It seems that these forums have slowed down a bit. Maybe its just the weekend. I hope thats all it is.
I'll come back and talk about today later on. See ya!
Ok I forgot to post yesterday so I am gonna post 2 times today.
This post is just about yesterday....
So, We woke up and went to subway. I got a turkey foot long and he did too. We both ordered water to drink.
Then we went to the grocery store.
I bought a ton of healthy choice cause they were on sale. We got some skinless boneless chicken that was on sale too.
I got some yoplait 100 calories key lime pie. Yum! It tastes just like keylime pie! And some 60 calories Dolche de Leche Pudding snacks. Those pudding snacks are sooooo rich that you won't want anything else sweet after that.
To put it short we found a lot of good healthy stuff. But the one thing I refuse to give up or to go low fat on is sour cream and cheese. I'd rather not eat it at all you know?
I've been drinking a lot of water and reduced sugar tea that we make at home. I am not even contemplating soft drinks or diet soft drinks. I think with me its best to cut out soft drinks entirely because the diet ones just remind me of the real ones and make it harder on me to resist.
I don't plan on drinking liquor a lot, but if I do drink thats the only time I'll have diet sprite.
It seems that these forums have slowed down a bit. Maybe its just the weekend.
I hope thats all it is. I'll come back and talk about today later on. See ya!
ashy
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The beat goes on.
Yep. Doing well. Four days and zero soda. Four days and zero sweets. I've been eating healthier for the most part. I'm easing my way into this one. Nice and slow. Kudos to moi.
So.. Today I went to work as usual. Came home. I thought about exercising but I was so sleepy. I took a relaxing bath and I feel a little better, but still pretty tired after todays work. I think my plan is going to be working out on Wednesdays after work since its a short day. After a while I'll add another day of exercise. I really wanna lose weight today, but I think this has got to be a slow and forgiving process. I want it to stick. I think after I've been doing this for a while it'll become natural and progress faster on its on.
I hope all of you have had a good day.
ciao!
Yep. Doing well. Four days and zero soda. Four days and zero sweets. I've been eating healthier for the most part. I'm easing my way into this one. Nice and slow. Kudos to moi.
So.. Today I went to work as usual. Came home. I thought about exercising but I was so sleepy. I took a relaxing bath and I feel a little better, but still pretty tired after todays work. I think my plan is going to be working out on Wednesdays after work since its a short day. After a while I'll add another day of exercise. I really wanna lose weight today, but I think this has got to be a slow and forgiving process. I want it to stick. I think after I've been doing this for a while it'll become natural and progress faster on its on.
I hope all of you have had a good day.
ciao!
ashy
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Yarrrrr.
I had one mishap today. I had banana pudding for a snack, even though it was damn good I know I should have made a better choice. I am still soda pop free though! I will never throw in my towel on that one!
I'm feeling really good right now.
I'm thinking I probably should have brought a snack with me to school because I was starving at the point where I got the pudding. I was in need for something I could scarf down in 15 minutes.. So i had to eat it as I was walking to class.
Ah, the life of a senior in college.
I had one mishap today. I had banana pudding for a snack, even though it was damn good I know I should have made a better choice. I am still soda pop free though! I will never throw in my towel on that one!
I'm feeling really good right now.
I'm thinking I probably should have brought a snack with me to school because I was starving at the point where I got the pudding. I was in need for something I could scarf down in 15 minutes.. So i had to eat it as I was walking to class.
Ah, the life of a senior in college.
ashy
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It has been way too long!!!! The last time I put anything on here was 2007. Since then I have graduated with my first BS degree and had a baby. I have also packed on some more weight. My pregnancy was very difficult. I was put on bed rest for the last 2-3 months of it. It was not my idea of fun. My husband and I have decided that if we are to have a 2nd child we both need to get into shape so that maybe my next pregnancy will not be as difficult and that I have a better chance at living a longer life to see them grow up!!! So I am back. I am serious. And I have a plan.
1500 Calorie diet meal plan. And gradual exercise. I have to be realistic this time. I have to be patient. And I have to stay motivated.
Who is with me??!!!!
I hope to see some of the faces I saw years ago, but I hope make some new friends too. Please give me a wave.
Today, I had 5 small meals and one to go. They all have been from the major food groups with no empty calories. My beverages have been 1c of milk 1c of black coffee and water water water. I mowed the yard and did my daily chores. Next week I'll start adding the exercise in, but this week I want to focus on committing to a better diet.
1500 Calorie diet meal plan. And gradual exercise. I have to be realistic this time. I have to be patient. And I have to stay motivated.
Who is with me??!!!!
I hope to see some of the faces I saw years ago, but I hope make some new friends too. Please give me a wave.
Today, I had 5 small meals and one to go. They all have been from the major food groups with no empty calories. My beverages have been 1c of milk 1c of black coffee and water water water.
I mowed the yard and did my daily chores. Next week I'll start adding the exercise in, but this week I want to focus on committing to a better diet.
ashy
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Good morning from Atlanta. For breakfast I had 1c milk, 1c black coffee, 2 pieces of reduced calorie whole wheat bread (35c a slice), 1 med banana, & 1 boiled egg. (400 calories).
I am on a high. I feel great. I have growing confidence already. I am excited to be on this journey. I can do this! For myself, and for my family.
How are you today?
I am on a high. I feel great. I have growing confidence already. I am excited to be on this journey. I can do this! For myself, and for my family.
How are you today?
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jasper1
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hi ashy!!!I read some of your diary(not all cause i've got to go upstairs to my baby,hes getting ready for his blow-up pool!!)I saw you had ups and down, it happens its ok
This time should be the last!and maybe you ll be needing motivation so here we are!!!!all of us here for the same reason!!!!
What is your starting weight and what is your goal?
I've also been on and off diets , ijust got to a point i cant stand any more.So im on a new eating way today is my 6th week!I find that posting im my diary and seeing all these peoples pictures of success keeps me motivated and strong!its in our heads most of it you know!and its up to us!!!
So good luck to you and try to pass by every day you'll see it does help!!!
This time should be the last!and maybe you ll be needing motivation so here we are!!!!all of us here for the same reason!!!!
What is your starting weight and what is your goal?
I've also been on and off diets , ijust got to a point i cant stand any more.So im on a new eating way today is my 6th week!I find that posting im my diary and seeing all these peoples pictures of success keeps me motivated and strong!its in our heads most of it you know!and its up to us!!!
So good luck to you and try to pass by every day you'll see it does help!!!
ashy
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Hey Jasper. Yes, I was reading my previous posts from a while back. I think my attitude has changed a lot since then. I mean dieting has always been a struggle, but I am focusing on now & today. Today is what matters. If I come into a problem I will find a resolution, and I may need some of you to help me find that! I just feel that I am a bit more optimistic this time around because I have a strategy. I think where I have failed before is just going through my diet meal by meal counting calories as I go along. It makes too much room for error and I end up hungry because I don't eat filling foods. This time I have my weapon.
Right now I am 213. My goals are going to be in sections. My first goal is 175. My second goal will be 150. My final goal will be 125. But I am going to focus on pieces of it because it will be more rewarding.
Congrats on your success! 6 weeks is really a milestone. If you can do it this long you have shown yourself you are a committed to your goals and new lifestyle. Way to go! Be proud.
Right now I am 213. My goals are going to be in sections. My first goal is 175. My second goal will be 150. My final goal will be 125.
But I am going to focus on pieces of it because it will be more rewarding. Congrats on your success! 6 weeks is really a milestone. If you can do it this long you have shown yourself you are a committed to your goals and new lifestyle. Way to go! Be proud.