Ash's Weight Loss Diary

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ashdiamond

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So here I go. A weight loss diary for inspiration. If nothing else, writing things down will help.
I'm 19, about 5'6"

SW: 185
CW: 179
TW: 140

For now, I'm going to go 10 pounds at a time. So my short-term goal is 169. Eventually I want to reach 140, and see where I am when I reach 140. I'm going more by size, so I'd like to be in the single digits, a size 8, and maybe shoot for a size 6 ultimately. I don't want to be really skinny, just healthy. Slim, but not sick looking, or muscular.

I've been calorie counting, trying to eat less, and healthier with a few snacks in between.

Lots of yogurt w/ fruit on the bottom! Yum!

Obstacles: I'm unhappy at college right now, so I get depressed. Working on maybe transferring, hoping for a new start. Also, I eat compulsively. I've noticed I can go for about 3 days before I binge. I'm seeing a counselor. And I'm trying to figure out what triggers my binges. I think it's just overall unhappiness.Trying to work on that.

I need to start exercising. Definitely will work on that.

One small step at a time, and right now I'm working on eating.

So food goals for today:
Yogurt and cereal in the morning
Salad w/ grilled chicken for lunch
Hamburger for dinner
100 calorie pack of popcorn for evening
and 60 calorie piece of dark chocolate

I'm an apple shape, so I have a large stomache, and really big thighs, and a large chest. I tend to gain all over, so I'd like to lose fat in my stomache, thighs, upper arms, chest, face, and this is strange, but I'd like to lose some muscle in my calves.

So, I've officially started losing weight, I hope everything goes well. Wish me luck!
 
Hey Ash...Welcome to the forum! Sounds like you are doing great! I know how u feeel about binging, just trying to get myself out of a cycle at the mo. If you want someone to talk to feel free to pm me or anything and hopefully well both be slim and sexy soon lol!
 
Welcome to the forums!

Sounds like you have a GREAT start. I love that you have small goals and have different things worked out(such as talking to a counselor). You are going to do great!

You have come to a wonderful place :D You'll love it! Welcome again!!!
 
Welcome to the forum! I agree as well that you have a great start, and know where to go. keep the small 10lbs goals is a great idea. Keep up the great work!
 
Hey!! I'm glad I found somebody with similar weight loss lifestyles :) Do you have a screen name? It would be cool to have a weight-loss buddy sort of person.

Good luck!! I CANT WAIT to hit 169.5!!:D
 
So I binged yesterday. And yet, I woke up this morning and had lost 1.5 pounds. Not sure how that works. Perhaps I was retaining water yesterday, and lost it today. I dunno.
Anyhow, I'm counting myself lucky and moving on. So here I am 177.5, and my next goal is to hit the 160's. So excited, I haven't been at the 160's in a couple years.

I had a beyond healthy dinner yesterday: sushi and miso soup. Yum! And so low-cal. I ate yogurt for breakfast and a serving of dry cereal. So all in all, I had about 800 calories before I hit my binge. One thing is nice about that, even when I binge it only takes me up to about 1500-2000 total, which is still a good calorie amount which won't make me gain weight.

177.5! I can't believe it...
I think I might go for a walk today, I'm so happy.
 
Ok, I've decided that my new target weight is 130. I think that is a healthy weight for my height. However, smaller goal than that is a 159 because then I will at the top of the healthy weight range for my height.
 
So I didn't eat anything today until dinner when I ate a salad with grilled chicken and half a piece of a very rich chocolate cake.

So I figure the salad was maybe about 250? and the cake was maybe about 700? I only ate half of it, a piece about the size of my palm, and an inch and half thick. So I'm hoping for it to be around 500 calories. SO total for today:
Salad w/ grilled chicken: 250
Cake: 500
microwave popcorn: 100

So total calories: 850
Seems a little higher than what I wanted. Hoping to eat less today. The actual calorie count could be higher or lower, though.
What do you guys think of my caclulations?
Guess I'll find out tomorrow when I step on the scale.
7.5 pounds so far! Tomorrow I'm gonna aim for 700 calories. I'm going for a pound a day. I'll see what happens.
Why did I eat the chocolate cake? I have no idea about how many calories are in it.
I thought about not eating at all today and see what happens, but I got scared about slowing my metabolism down. Maybe if I stop losing weight at 500-1000 calories a day I will try it.

Anyhow, my pants feel loser! So that's a start.
I was at 185,then I started seriosuly dieting and went down to 179, then thanksgiving came and I went up to 182.5 again, (which was good, considering how much I ate), then I started dieting again and am now at 177.5. Heading for 160's!
My heaviest weight was 188, and I don't ever want to reach the 200's, not ever. That is my life goal.

Obesity seems to run in my family. Actually, it's a bad lifestyle that runs in my family. My mom is very overweight, and so are many of her brothers and sister, but my uncle that works out and plays sports is in pretty good shape and pretty fit. So, at least I know it is possible.
I will be thin, no matter what. This will not be the rest of my life.
 
I know I keep writing a lot, but I need to. I need to remember the goal, and my desire to see the ticker make progress.
I LOVE the ticker thing, it taps into my OCD personality. Can't wait to change it. Hopefully I won't have to change it for the worse. 8 pounds, 8 pounds, 8 pounds. I can do it.
 
:D I love the tickers too. I seriously love stepping on the scale and seeing a change... cause then I can go and change my ticker! :D You are doing so well! Keep it up!
 
Ok, food for today:
1 turkey sandwich-250 cals
1 yogurt-150 cals
1 bag popcorn-100 calories
1 piece of chocolate-60 calories

so 560, whoa, way too few, Need to work on that tomorrow. My tendencey on a diet is to eat as little as possible. One good thing, my stomach is shrinking, eating that turkey sandwich really filled me up, almost too full.
And I've been drinking lots of diet pepsi, too much probably, but it makes me feel indulgent.
It feels like I'm binging when I eat popcorn, diet pepsie, and a piece of chocolate at night, but it's only 160 calories. It's great!

169.5! Getting closer...
174.5 now, the lowest I've been in awhile. I've reached the 10 pound mark. pounds left to lose have gone from 45 to 35, how motivating!
 
And another binge. I dunno what happened. I just got this hollow feeling in my stomach, like I was really hungry, and I couldn't stand it. So I ate a piece of pizza, then that turned into a piece of pizza, a sandwich, and a piece of chocolate pound cake. Shouldn't add up to too many calories. I'm not eating anything else today, cept maybe a 10 calorie jello if I get hungry. So:

yogurt: 150
jello: 10
diet hot cocoa: 25
pizza: 250
sandwich: not sure, it was a pesto chicken sandwich, so maybe, 800?

so 1235? not bad

might even still lose a little weight.
Anyhow, tomorrow I'm aiming for 1000 calories.
 
So, I woke up this morning, and the scale was still at 174.5, which may have been a subconscious reason for my binge. However, what I need to realize, is that 174.5 is still excellent. And also, so what if the weight is slow coming off? I've been fat a lot longer, and if I stop dieting because the weight is coming off slowly, I will be fat a whole lot longer. So what does it matter if it's slow, as long as it's coming off? Every day I get a tiny bit smaller. Anyhow, I know I will reach 169, and then I will have only 30 more pounds to lose. 30 is not so much. I can do it, it could be more.
 
past the binge and ready to move on.
Broke my rule about weighing myself, and the scale said 180, which I know is due to food and liquid. I only weighed 174.5 this morning. I really hope I don't gain any weight from today. I do NOT want to go backwards.
 
Doing well today. You know, I don't think this binge things is such a bad thing. It's not like I eat a ton of calories, and it happens about every three days, I don't gain any weight, and am motivated to continue.
Not really sure my weight right now, I didn't weigh myself. I weighed myself later in the day, and was 177, but that was after eating.
Also, I'm retaining water, I'm a tad dehydrated and need to drink a lot of water tonight to get rid of it. We'll see tomorrow.
 
If the binge doesn't have any side effects, like weight gain, then its probably your something your body needs and is a good thing. :)
 
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