its 1:00 am here..and i just put my son to bed  after doing some chores, i am tired as hell
i was up 8 :00 am this morning and since then i am  just running around the house or taking care of kid,i dont  get much time for myself

now finally he is asleep and i have some time to spend with myself...but iam so tired to even think what to do now
i really want to do 30 minutes on Tm and  weights but i have got no  energies

it  feels like i am letting down  the person who gave me the  program to work on!

i wish i had a colone who could do the rest of the work when iwas  busy exercising,eating was   a bit too much again
ate 5 apricots and another 200 grams of rice
i will never be there  where i want to be

i am just sick of my busy life...and inability to workout..aaaahhh
sorry had to vent..but i know i will never be able to get that body i desire...
and btw smoked 5 cigretts today ,and i am so stressed out for last  couple of days that i have got this huge bile on my forehard,very uncool:|