As for where I've been...well...basically I've been avoiding my diary. I have some hard truths to face and have not wanted to face them. In 7 weeks, I am down less than 3 pounds. I'm not trying hard enough with my diet (it has to be diet, as my exercise is good due to the challenge), I'm letting in to many extras. I've not been doing WW or any plan for about 3 weeks, and I have not been counting calories, but I estimate over 1800 on an average day, with weekends even higher. I've even been having sodas which I cut out over a year and a half ago. Dumb to start again, and have to relive caffeine withdrawal. I should have been eating better for the sake of my teammates, but could not even bring myself to do that. I've been beating myself up over that for awhile now.
I've been depressed and unmotivated in even trying to diet the last month or so. My husband and I only seeing each other twice a week (except in passing) is a big part of that. I'm used to him in my life, my rock. Now...I feel alone a lot. But this is an opportunity he has wanted for a long time so I am dealing with it for now. I know once school is out May 30th, I can see him everyday again. I need that.
Another big part of it is my brother having a baby (ok, his ex had it, he just sired it). My brother is...well, unmarried, only been out of jail less than a year, only been off drugs less than a year and is living with an 18 year old (he's 25). The mother, who he was with for 15 months, broken up for 7, back together for 3 during which she got pregnant and then she disappeared for 9 months, came back with this 4 month old and asked for a DNA test...she's also a druggie, a high school drop out and has three previous children who the state has removed from her care.
This is not a good situation to bring up a kid in. It drives home the unfairness of it all to know that people like that can make a baby without trying, yet all the medical intervention in the world will probably not give me one.
To make it even harder on me, she used the name my husband and I chose 7 years ago for our first son.
I feel so whiny even talking about it, but fact is, it hurts. It hurts physically, and it makes me cry. It makes me want to sleep and tune it all out. I'm depressed. I know it, and I can't deny it. I just hope it passes soon. (I've had minor bouts with depression before, I've seen doctors about it, but with my liver problems I am not a candidate for medical therapy).
Before anyone gets too worried, I am NOT suicidal and never have been.
Anyway, tomorrow I am going back to the dietician, setting up a good plan and sticking to it. I am done with WW for now, I need the support I get in individual visits. I have an appointment at 7 am. I've got to get back on track.
Blancita- CORE on WW is a list of basically low GI foods, you do not count points and you eat only from the list until you feel satisfied. I tried it. I overate. Went back to points. Did not eat very healthily and tend to allow too much junk. Long story short, WW is amazing for some but is simply not a good program for me and my limitations.
The no dairy thing was over 27 or so days after it started, as it did not help and I enjoy dairy too much to eliminate it when it does not solve the problem.
I can completely understand why you feel the way you do. That was harsh. And it's not like Sage is such a common name you could get away with naming your child that anyway. However, I have found that my fav names for babies change rather frequently. So maybe by the time you need to come up with one, you'll find another you like even more than Sage. 
Soon you'll be in Onederland!!!!!!