Always will be a fat man.........but

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I was never bullied, I was even liked (even though my memories from school pretty much exclusively feature me and my 2 friends... we were sort of "strange" because we liked to read), still I always always since about 8th grade, was thinking "one day we will have a reunion and I will be so pretty and so amazing that all of you will die of jealousy/fancy me to death!"
I think I resented that I was not one of the popular girls... I am not sure if that qualifies though!

I also still dream about going over to the jerk who I loved in high school and show him how beautiful and amazing I am and how much he lost by not dating me!!!!

The third "I'll show you" I did a year ago and it felt so goooooooooooooood!! My sister's friend's mom, used to use me as a bad example for her daughter (she would say: if you don't stay on top of your work you will end up like Camy!) because I did worse in school than expected (I was expected As in all 13 subjects, and I only got them in like 8... shame on me!!!).
Well last year I went to my sister's graduation and I looked very nice, I had a hunk of a boyfriend with me and a newly acquired medical degree, so I found this woman and told her all this, in a sweet sweet voice, then french kissed my boyfriend in front of her and did a wonderful theatrical exit.
She later told my sister "oh, your sister has done wonderfully, hasn't she!!" Mwahahahahaha!!!
Best feeling ever!! I am still waiting for my school reunion to happen! And until then I need to be married and skinny!!!
Camy
 
I don't think my high school reunion will ever happen- school closed in '98 or so I think.
I did go to my grade school Reunion for some yet to be figured out reason- why do they have 10 year reunions anyway for grade school- we were all only 24. I brought my wife and generally just sat there looking smug while all the clichés reformed and people generally slapped each other on the a** again. I then left and was actually quite happy that I was never a part of the crowd.
It actually felt pretty good to not fit in.
I do like that story Camy, and I do want to go up the the girls who made fun of me- in oh so many creative ways- and show them everything they missed out on. I really am a nice guy- cynical as hell and older than my age but a nice guy!
Oh an Mal- I rarely saunter, it would honestly take quite an event to saunter. I slink- it is more my nature.
 
brian the "bigguy" ooh did my my just wander on that one... :D could have a website and going to classmates.com - we could make sure that the links were placed appropriately - wide angle of course :)

Photoshopping if needed.. :D

Let 'em eat their hearts out...

their loss is your wife's gain...
 
This eating well thing is amazing.
I just cooked up a stir fry tonight that was outstanding. 3 kinds of peppers, an onion, garlic, bean sprouts and shrimp. The whole thing was around 550 calories. I really have no idea why I always ate either fast food or some kind of processed crap.
I consider myself lucky. I enjoy eating all types of food, not an issue if it is healthy or not. I prefer whole grain stuff rather than the bland alternative. I have a good sense of taste so I can cook decent, cant bake worth a darn though.
Went to the gym after work tonight-. Total body workout with 40 minutes of arc trainer interval cardio. The good thing about being big= read: fat- is that you burn more calories than smaller people doing the same thing. I know the counter is not 100% accurate but still- it gives you a boost to see 900 cal burned or something like that.
Thanks to the 'funny things you see in the gym thread' I am now looking around my gym. Lot of really odd people there- sure many of them will be featured here in the coming weeks.
 
Which incidentally- if anything i say in here is offensive to anyone I apologize in advance. I am well aware I am not perfect- well aware.
Most likely I am featured in someone else's diary on another site, or this one, regarding irritating people at the gym or in life in general.
My understanding is that this space is mine, within the boundaries of good taste of course, and I shall use it as I wish.
Please comment if you wish as you wish- that is not an issue to me. I have thick eskin and can take almost anything.
Thank you
 
Why does TV suck?
Not a good show to be had tonight.
Read or type all night I guess- least I am not eating.
 
So good morning and good day to all:

I have come to the realization that getting healthy is all about the choices made. I know some people have known this all along but I think I am just figuring this out. For example- I could have had a bagel that was in the office- and still are damn it- but I am choosing not to. I have decided that for today at least the calories in the bagel are not worth it to me. I do not believe in depriving myself anything, I do believe in choice. Tomorrow I may have something high in calories and oh so tasty, I do not know. But as long as I give myself the choice then I am doing right by myself.

The same goes for exercise. I have not been sleeping good for almost 2 weeks, not sure what this is all about, and was quite tired yesterday. I made the choice to go to the gym. I know I could have blown it off and driven right by it pretty easily but I did not- went in and had a pretty good workout actually.

I know all of life boils down to choice, I just really never applied this to losing weight and getting healthy until my drive into work this morning.
 
Does anyone else have the annoying person in their office that talks to them even though they clearly do not want to talk?
Oh my lord do I want to pop her head off, it is only 730 am and I want to pop her head off.
Literally the most annoying person I have ever met.
 
I always support a person's right to choose :)

Nice realization... :D

and there's nothing wrong iwth indulging in a high calorie treat if it's something you want and tastes good... it's only a waste of calories if you get no enjoyment out of it
 
Bigguy said:
Does anyone else have the annoying person in their office that talks to them even though they clearly do not want to talk?
Oh my lord do I want to pop her head off, it is only 730 am and I want to pop her head off.
Literally the most annoying person I have ever met.
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hey allI said was good morning jeesh don't have to get all pms'y on me :D
 
But did you stand over me asking about my night, asking about my dinner, asking about my drive in, asking about why I am eating oatmeal, how you hate oatmeal, how your son likes oatmeal, you had a dog in orlando named oatmeal.....?

Not before my second cup of coffee. By 8 I can handle anything, give me and hour and a half and I am good.

Good morning mal.
 
Some people are only alive because it's illegal to kill them... That's way too much conversation before my 5th cup of coffee...
 
Little something about my old eating habits, pretty sure I have not posted here about them.......

My eating used to be completely horrible. I would not eat anything until 5pm or so when I got home form work. I would then consume a very impressive amount of food between 5pm & 10pm. Binge eating at its finest. If Binge eating was a sport I would have been one of the best in the world. Or of course I would do the opposite and eat huge quantities of anything I came across throughout the day. I used to drive long distances for my job, still do on occasion but it used to be every week, and would eat fast food in the car & hotel. My body never was put on a regular schedule for eating.

I now know that this was pretty horrible for me- go figure. I still do not know how my cholesterol is as low as it is. Exercise was sporadic and done without a purpose or goal.

This has changed now and while I am still learning how to eat I am doing so much better- I think. Should start posting food here..........
 
BTW- avatar picture is of Harold. Harold is my cat, 5 years old.
I want one week in the life of that cat- just one, I am not greedy.

My wife has a second cat, that one is not worth mentioning further as she is evil to all except her.
 
Alright-

I think I am starting to figure some things out here again. I am in some sort of funk. I do not know if it is the weather- frickin snowed yesterday- or just too many changes in too short of time. In 3 months I have gone from smoking 2 pack a day, weighing 260 lbs and eating crap to not smoking, 233 lbs and exercising 5-6 times a week and eating as well as I am able to right now.
I am leaning toward too many changes but 35 and snow on march 27th cannot be helping my mood.

Yesterday was good overall- 2465 calories with nothing hurtful included. Just good stuff, kind of large dinner.
45 minutes in the elliptical- no wt yesterday.
I have noticed my balance is getting better. Not that it was ever horrible to begin with- but now I can use the elliptical for an extended period of time without holding onto anything. When i first started using it I could not- this has to be a good thing right? Working the core and helping balance and all that crap.

Playing golf on Saturday- I do not care if it is going to be 45- hopefully that lifts me out of this semi-funk I am in.

All in all not bad but it sure as hell could be better.
 
it can always be better - you did great though...

and being able to use the elliptical without holding on is fantastic progress balanceis an important thing to have and tough to work on getting...

Have fun playing golf... :)
 
Thanks Mal.
Just need to work on my complete lack of flexibility now and all will be aces.

I shall enjoy golf regardless of the weather!
 
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