Alee's new way of life!

Chicago is an awesome area to be in - lots to do - lots of opportunities... and you don't need to drive... :D but only move if it's right for you -- you always take yourself with you wherever you go...

I just do not see myself doing anything with my life here( not just because there isn't much to do here anyways ) ... I am sure I will miss my mom, and stuff. I can always come back home though. So I don't see the problem with moving and trying something new that has the possibility of helping me. At this point I really have nothing to loose.
 
Hi everyone! .. Yesterday I went to the doctor. They gave me more refills of my medicine, and a prescription for Provera =X So fun fun. I have lost 20 lbs (according to their scales) since my last doctors appointment in mid July=] They were excited about that.

I am going to start my GED classes at the college( since I think it will help more!) Monday. Actually, I take the placement text Monday. Also! I am about 85% sure I am moving to the Chicago area in a few months. =]

I am also getting my haircut Friday night!!! =] I will look up a picture of how I am getting it cut, if I can find one! I am getting the ends razored=]

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So thats the good things this week..but you can't have good without the bad right? :cry:

Well, my dad lives about an hour away. He was having a grill out Sunday, and was inviting alot of people- and really wanted me to come. He is going through a bad divorce- and he is one of those people who think he is going to die if he is alone. I am totally opposite. I loooove having my alone time.

Anyways. So my brother comes to pick me up- I have no clue how to get to my dads house, it's in BFE. I get in my brothers truck and this chick is sitting there. I have never seen her before in my life! So we start driving. My brother says. Nikki this is Hayley.. Hayley this is Nikki. You guys are related in a way. I was thinking oh another cousin( suprise!) but then he said. You guys are sisters.

Wait.... what??:eek2:

Now. I would not have been mad at all if my dad would have told me before hand, or maybe if he even told me HIMSELF. This is all just silly. On top of other things, she is YOUNGER than me. Which is no suprise he would cheat on my mom( when they were married.) I already have two half brothers, one he had before he married my mom( he was 17 when he married my mom.......) and one during thier marriage. Now another AFTER I was born? So I have 2 half brothers, 1 Half sister. 1 "full brother" and 1 "full sister". My family is all sorts of screwed=X

On top of everything else. I think dad is doing drugs again, I know for sure he is popping pills. I have a feeling I met this new sister because her mom and dad are doing drugs again. Thats who he use to do drugs with=X

I love my dad to death, and I want him to make it through this. I just wish he would have told me this himself, and before I was just thrown into all sorts of akward situations. I sat in his living room, in a different room from everyone. Until I called my real brother to come down their.

Dad wrote me a email, saying how he was sorry for anything he done, and how he loves me and stuff. I just don't know if thats enough. It took me years to forgive him for everything he done to our family, and my mom. Now this- I just don't know if an apoligy is enough at this time....

Am I wrong for feeling this way?=/


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Anyways.. I just wanted to update everyone. I have been off track a little but I will get to it :D Hope everyone has a good week!
 
So, tonight at 7 I am getting my hair cut =D MAYBE I will post pictures!.. I hope it turns out the way I picture, or at least look decent ! haha ...

I finally hit the 180's ;) I am excited about that..

I also wrote my dad an email, and he hasn't called me or wrote back since.. It wasn't a mean email it was an honest one about how I felt about the situation( see my long post about 2-3 posts above this one..)... I guess there is not much more I can do... =(
 
Another pic of my hair.. better quality.. but I have such chubby checks! haha

Long time NO see!!!Sorry it's been a while since I have been here!I am bad
about stopping and say HI to people I am trying to get better!Anyway you
look great it must be in the air I got my hair chopped off to and they taught
me how to get my hair to stick out using a str8 iron I didn't even own one now I love it.My hair is str8 as it is but if you take it to the end of your hair and turn it up it gives it a cuite layered look.
Anyway you look great and how have you been doing lately??
Hope you have wonderful weekend,Tammy
 
Long time NO see!!!Sorry it's been a while since I have been here!I am bad
about stopping and say HI to people I am trying to get better!Anyway you
look great it must be in the air I got my hair chopped off to and they taught
me how to get my hair to stick out using a str8 iron I didn't even own one now I love it.My hair is str8 as it is but if you take it to the end of your hair and turn it up it gives it a cuite layered look.
Anyway you look great and how have you been doing lately??
Hope you have wonderful weekend,Tammy

Yea! I have been posting a little in the diary, and updating the challenge thread.. but thats all! Yea I love my hair now =] It was such a mess before haha!

I have been doing ok =] going to start my GED classes Monday ..
 
Wow congrats on starting on getting your GED i need to do that!!
OMG your ticker has moved so far I almost forgot to mention it.
Congrats,Tammy
 
Well, I started my GED classes yesterday. I scored perfect on the English/Reading placement test.. but I made a B overall due to the math section.. I already knew that! heh.. Soon as I get my GED, I am going to IL to look at apartments with Jamie. Then soon after I am moving. Things are finally starting to look up =]

I haven't lost weight, TOM is here due to my medicine.. First time in a long long time. So yea.

I hope everyone has a good Halloween..
 
:hug2: CONGRATS ON 180'S! Lol I just noticed the hair style you wanted was from hottopic I LOVE THAT STORE and the hair!Are ya going to put some pink in there?I had hott pink a couple years ago and by week 2 it was cotton candy color lol.Gl with school,keep an eye on dad ,my dad drunk his self to death do to depression.How is your sis and you hitting it off?Tammy
 
Aleeeee... long time to bullshit, girl. :D Congrats for hitting the 180s, babygirl! wooohoooooo!!! Keep me updated when you take your GED. I'm glad things are finally taking a turn for the best. You're in my thoughts as usual. Happy Halloweenie, mami.

-Sheryl
 
hii everyone so sorry I haven't been on.. I fell of the wagon with all this schooling & getting ready to move, but right now I am getting back on track! I have been guilty of fast food and junk lately, I have maintained 180's but I am back up to 189. I must stop before I let this get out of control:(

I have skipped a few classes too.. geez.. I am disappointing myself. Starting right now I am going to do better. So I need some support:( Its been really hard lately.

I am going to look at apartments in IL, the first 2 weeks of December. So if anyone wants to hang out in that area, my boyfriend and I could arrange something :p I don't bite!

Anyways, I hope someone reads this and tell me how they are doing doing// whats going on. I haven't had to much time to read up on everyone..


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Well, I havent updated in awhile! Sorry guys Im still here! I am maintaining atm.. I gained 2-3 poinds back over the Holiday. It's ok though I am getting things straight.

I leave for IL this weekend for two weeks. =] So I have been packing. I admit I am nervous to meet Jamie's family, this may sound crazy but I am afraid they won't like me or think I am good enough because I a big. I know its stupid to think that. sigh.. anyways. I hope everyone has been doing well. Love ya guys!

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Well, I gained back some weight on my trip! I had so much fun though. I really love IL, I am going back in February- I am flying this time though! I am going to set myself a birthday goal. I am really excited for 2008, It will be a great year.
 
Grr.. I went back to my better eating habits since I got back from vacation.. but I am still gaining. I am going to keep track of my food here- maybe you guys can help me!

On other news, I did some research on makeup and such, because I suck so bad at it right now! I tried some new things, here are some new pics!


I don't think that pink is right for me.. and I am kind of iffy on the gold eyeshadow, but the liner looks better- someone told me to try out a brown liner.. I might do that
 
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