Aleeluh
New member
4/25/07
I guess today is just as good as any day, to start trying to get my health back on track. I have always went off the path of it before, but today I feel a little different. =) Just taking little steps, my first goal today is to walk my block a few times.. I haven't really did that in awhile, and I its a nice day outside.
After I decided I was going to go walking today, I started wondering why I haven't done it everyday, why do I always put these things off. I always said it was because I didn't want to do it alone, but I do most of everything in my life now alone- so that is such a lame excuse. I finally come to the conclusion that I'm embarrassed about my weight, I'm sure most people feel that way. Every time I get ready to go out, I will not even look in the mirror. I feel so horrible about myself I just want to cry. I just have to push myself, and know that in the end it will not be like that.
I have always been bad with diaries, although I love to write. I will come back later this afternoon and post more about my day, and what all I have eaten. Seeing what I can change.