Ain't nothin gonna break my stride
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Julie3
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Hi everyone!
Hope you are doing well.
I am doing so much better from a weight and mental standpoint. I am at the lowest weight I have been at since I was 12. I still have a ways to go but my goal is to be done with weight loss (then move on to maintenance) by Dec 31st.
Contemplating whether or not I want to count macros or not. The only thing is I am not sure what breakdown to use if I do haha.
Also I am potentially thinking about being grain free, but still looking into it. I do need to cut out wheat and especially oats- I binged on oatmeal to often (as strange as that sounds, it was bad). In some ways I do feel like a recovering addict, where any normal person could have just a little of something, whereas I need to avoid all triggers.
On a seperate note, the very emotionally needy person in my life is guilt tripping me again for not wanting to live with them right now, and saying this is a betrayal . It makes me so frustrated, sad, and angry. And it makes me sad almost all my interactions with this person now seem to be either sad or negative. And it makes me upset they have the power to make my day worse.
But honestly in my day to day life I am the happiest I have been in years. Actually, maybe ever. I miss people from where I used to live but have people here now.
Getting healthy had been a huge part of that. Here's to a binge free, happy life guys, we can do this.
Hope you are doing well.
I am doing so much better from a weight and mental standpoint. I am at the lowest weight I have been at since I was 12. I still have a ways to go but my goal is to be done with weight loss (then move on to maintenance) by Dec 31st.
Contemplating whether or not I want to count macros or not. The only thing is I am not sure what breakdown to use if I do haha.
Also I am potentially thinking about being grain free, but still looking into it. I do need to cut out wheat and especially oats- I binged on oatmeal to often (as strange as that sounds, it was bad). In some ways I do feel like a recovering addict, where any normal person could have just a little of something, whereas I need to avoid all triggers.
On a seperate note, the very emotionally needy person in my life is guilt tripping me again for not wanting to live with them right now, and saying this is a betrayal . It makes me so frustrated, sad, and angry. And it makes me sad almost all my interactions with this person now seem to be either sad or negative. And it makes me upset they have the power to make my day worse.
But honestly in my day to day life I am the happiest I have been in years. Actually, maybe ever. I miss people from where I used to live but have people here now.
Getting healthy had been a huge part of that. Here's to a binge free, happy life guys, we can do this.
Julie3
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Heyyy everyone,
Hope you are all doing well! I've had a bunch of ups and downs but my current mood is very positive
Saw some old friends today which was great. And as a bonus I got a lot of compliments on the lost weight.
I don't really see it yet tbh. But hopefully soon. So it is weird when others compliment me.
So, there are exactly 13 weeks left in 2018 today and I really want to reach my goal body by then. I have 5.5 kg/ 12 lbs to lose, and a bunch of fitness gains I'd like to make.
Also - goal - no binging! I am going to give myself a few cheat meals, never did that before I'll see if it helps.
Hope you are all doing well! I've had a bunch of ups and downs but my current mood is very positive
Saw some old friends today which was great. And as a bonus I got a lot of compliments on the lost weight.I don't really see it yet tbh. But hopefully soon. So it is weird when others compliment me.
So, there are exactly 13 weeks left in 2018 today and I really want to reach my goal body by then. I have 5.5 kg/ 12 lbs to lose, and a bunch of fitness gains I'd like to make.
Also - goal - no binging! I am going to give myself a few cheat meals, never did that before I'll see if it helps.
with LaMa re the lack of correlation with body image. Glad you dropped in xo
Julie3
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I am really struggling currently, food and otherwise. I am the primary caregiver to a family member who deals with chronic depression and pain.
I have lived with them my whole adult life until a year ago when I moved out. I still support them financially and call and visit but they have been very upset during this last visit, clearly thinking I have betrayed them by leaving, that my love is meaningless because I see they miss me but I don't want to come back to live. There have been a lot of tears.
It is really negatively affecting me. Ive been a 6 day binge bender. The constant tears from this person are extremely depressing and making me feel really bad about myself and very selfish for not wanting to move back.
But this past year is honestly the first time in my whole life I think that I have been genuinely happy. I know if I move back i myself will become really depressed, and gain the weight back and be miserable. I hate to say it but this but as much as I love them, they are also a heavy burden to me. I can feel myself closing of emotionally to distance myself from this and it makes me feel like I'm cold unfeeling and selfish.
And at the same time I'm angry with them for making me feel this way because I feel like shouldn't I be allowed to do something that makes me happy without feeling like trash as a result. I feel like, haven't I given enough? Does this have to be my whole life?
Anyway, I'm very torn, and can't wait for this visit to end. Which makes me feel bad saying
I have lived with them my whole adult life until a year ago when I moved out. I still support them financially and call and visit but they have been very upset during this last visit, clearly thinking I have betrayed them by leaving, that my love is meaningless because I see they miss me but I don't want to come back to live. There have been a lot of tears.
It is really negatively affecting me. Ive been a 6 day binge bender. The constant tears from this person are extremely depressing and making me feel really bad about myself and very selfish for not wanting to move back.
But this past year is honestly the first time in my whole life I think that I have been genuinely happy. I know if I move back i myself will become really depressed, and gain the weight back and be miserable. I hate to say it but this but as much as I love them, they are also a heavy burden to me. I can feel myself closing of emotionally to distance myself from this and it makes me feel like I'm cold unfeeling and selfish.
And at the same time I'm angry with them for making me feel this way because I feel like shouldn't I be allowed to do something that makes me happy without feeling like trash as a result. I feel like, haven't I given enough? Does this have to be my whole life?
Anyway, I'm very torn, and can't wait for this visit to end
. Which makes me feel bad saying I´m sorry to hear you´re struggling. Do you have a support system for yourself when you get home? The amazing Captain Awkward says (something to the effect of): There is no mental health issue that´s made better by having loved ones sacrifice themselves. I sincerely hope your relative gets support from a trained professional but I also hope you are getting the support you need. Both in setting boundaries with your relative and in talking through your frustration and anger. You deserve better.
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