Again... but for the last time!!!

little_star

little_star

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Here I am... AGAIN!
I am getting really tired of myself. I really wanna get rid off "just" 10 kilos. I can do damn everything but this. I am tired of myself! ARGH!
This time IT WILL WORK. I won't eat at all if necessary (not really, I am just mad at myself), but I will make it.

This time I have a "90 days program"... which basically mean I will count everyday what I eat for the next 90 days. It´s just 3 months. I can do it!!!

DAY 1

I have had a banana and a cheese sandwich with cucumber. Tonight I will have boiled eggs and tomato. If I really get starving I will have an other banana or an apple.
 
hey, probably not what you're thinking of doing, but you should probably be eating more. Healthy weight loss isnt really eating less, its eating less calories than you burn, but doing it properly, which is balanced meals, and also not *too* little. I'm also trying to lose 10ish kg, (although I'd be happy with 5) and you really should try to get atleast 1200 calories a day, although probably a bit more than that. I'm aiming for 1500-1700 (and I barely exercise)

a banana, cheese sandwich, cucumber, boiled eggs, and tomato is only about 600 calories if you're having 2 eggs and a large cheese sandwich. Just saying :) but good luck
 
Thanks for your post. Hahahaha yes, you are right! That is probably what I would have replied too if someone else would have written my post. :) I wrote so because I was angry at myself for not being enough focused on my diet. I have being wanted to loose those 10 kilos since always and I am really getting tired of myself saying "Yes, I can do it, it´s just 10 kilos, it´s not so much, blablabla". I would wanna be strong enough and just do it. Less talks, more actions and see SOME RESULTS.
Let´s hope this is THE TIME.
I know myself and I know even if I write or say I EAT ONLY salad I never would do that (for many reasons, mainly because it´s unhealthy).
But thanks so much for your post. It feels like someone, somewhere cares :) it is sweet.

Just to make it clear today for dinner I had some meat with onions and garlic, cucumber, tomato and a tiny piece of bread.
 
Day 2
w: 63.7

So far I had one banana and hot white tea with milk (<3) for breakfast. I was thinking what to have for lunch and dinner.
I checked what I have in the kitchen. I think for lunch I will go for some pesto pasta (gnummi gnummi) and tomatos (did I say I love tomato?!). For dinner I was thinking about fishfingers and some grilled vegetables.
If I get hungry at some point in the day I will have yoghurt or a banana.

Today I really feel optimistic (just like yesterday XD hahah). I weighted myself and the scale said something really nice. :) It's a good start.
 
nice! I'm glad you know about the healthy ways and all lol. I also have a journal here if you'd like to follow :)

are you counting calories or just trying to eat healthy? I think calories are really a good way to see if you're really doing well or not (not having too much or too little) but are really such a hassle to count! well I have too much free time on my hands lol so I do it xD
 
So, after a weekend spent eating too much I am here again.
I forced my boyfriend to "personal train" me.
He will check what I eat, the exercise I do and everything. <3 I am optimistic!
 
So, again:

Day 1
For breakfast I had ruisleipä (it's a kind of bread - 70kcal), milkcream (an other finnish thing I am not sure how to translate - 70 kcal), cucumber and a tomato. So for breakfast I had about 150 Kcal.
I decided that I will have about 1200 kcal for day. So for today I still have about 1000 kcal to go.

I decided to update this journal very often, even more times a day, otherwise I tend to forget it and with it my diet. Arghhh!
So, today I had in plan of going for a walk with my dog. Yesterday I had 1 hour walk with my dog in the first morning, it made me feel much better. But today it's such a rainy day that maybe it's not a good idea to take such a long walk with her. In stead I was thinking of going 1 hour biking. And once back study. I think it's a good plan.
Now I get ready and take my ass out :D
 
Hi Little star,

You are off to a good start. May I ask how tall you are? What do you plan to do for exercise? I am the same weight as you are and want to lose same number of kgs/lbs.

Good luck with the rest of the week!

Juni
 
Hi Juni.
First of all your nick is really really nice. <3 Is it also your real name?!
I am 165 cms long.
My problem is not the start of diet. The problem is that I am not continous. Argh! Plus I live with my boyfriend, who is very skinny and has no weigh problems at all. He eat whatever he wants without worry. This upsets me a bit :p When we eat the result is always him having super caloric food, and me... more or less a salad (not really. But he has more YUMMI things than me for sure).
How tall you are?! And what is your age? And where are you from?!
I am so curious. Since we have the same "path" ahead (same starting weight and same goal) it would be interesting to support each others :)
 
You are taller than I am- I am about 162 cms, 28 years. Originally from NH but for the last few years I have been living in India (I work here). I am now planning on moving back to the states (New York) in August.

My problem is it is extremely hard for me to lose weight as it is to gain. I have been about 140 for the last few years and the only time I was down was a couple of years ago when I was extremely active (I went as far down as 125lbs for a few months).

I have started running again- c25k program (been a few weeks) and by mid June (when my life becomes a little bit more managable), I plan to also include some strength training.

I hear you on skinny boyfriend- I have one who seems to eat a lot and not gain anything (sooo unfair!), but we don't live together so I don't have to deal with feeling sad about myself day in and day out. Whenever he is visiting though, food is a constant challenge. I have been reading a lot of diaries (and I was here a few months back then fell of the wagon and was too ashamed to come back on until mid April this year) and have read journals of those who started out like us and gained their confidence, self-control and health back. I hope to be like one of them.

It is great to find someone who is almost your height and wants to lose the same number of lbs. Lets challenge and motivate each other!!

Hope your Tuesday is going well. Lets make this week an awesome one.
 
Great Juni!!!
I checked quickly what is the c25k program. I definitely wanna try to do it as soon as the weather is better.
I also went to read a bit your journal, amazing! We can definitely do it together! :D

About the biking, I was biking 1 hour. It rained most of the time, so back home I was totally wet and took a long and relaxing hot shower. Felt really great.
Sadly my dog made me an unpleasant surprise: he bit and destroied all the newspapers we had (she is still a puppy, so I forgive her). So I cleaned that andddd I just was looking outside... IT IS SNOWING!!!
I really feel a better person now that I went biking just before it started snowing. This is the spirit "never wait when you can do something immediately", especially when we are talking about fitness and get back in shape! :D
Now I should think about the lunch. I was thinking to have some vegetables, and maybe some cheese and milkcream.
Lets see! :D
 
So, for lunch I had vegetables + 3 little spinach stakes (150 Kcal), cucumber, cheese (100 kcal), milk cream (150). For a total of 400 Kcal. I am surprised how less Kcal I got since I am not hungry at all and I had the dish full. Well, it means for dinner I can have 600 Kcal. Yummi. :D

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And for dinner I had more vegetables (300kcal), cheese, milk cream, tomatos and some potatoes for a total of 600 kcal.
Pretty happy with myself!
 
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So, today I had:

Day 2
B: bread with cucumber and milk cream and hot tea.(150 kcal)

I have to confess something, yesterday I was so hungry I had to take a banana before going to sleep. I feel still sorry for it, and maybe it's because of that the weigh didn't change at all today. Well, weight changes can take a while and a banana is not that bad.
Today I am planning of going to the city because I have few things to do. I will be back at around 2 so I can give the dog food and I was thinking of going with her to the dog park and run a bit with her. After that, if the weather is still warm I will go also for a run. :)
 
Still as day 2 I had

S: apple
L: tuna sandwich with cucumber, milk cream and tomatoes
D: Potatoes, little pieces of sausage, tuna (the part I didn't eta for lunch, I felt it was already too much) and pepper. Yummi

Honestly this morning I felt a bit worried because of the potatoes for dinner... I already had my charboydrates for lunch and potatoes in evening... uhmm. I didn´t have so much, it's true. But still potatoes in evening for me ARE BAD!
Anyway, today the scale had a really good surprise with me. I was 63.6. YEAHHH! This really motivates me. For the beginning of the next week I will try to get 63.0.
I know my body and when I start a diet I usually loose all the water and other "junk" first very fast, it's like a depurate my body. We will see what happens now.
Anyway I really think the long walk yesterday (and the little run in the dog park) helped yesterday. We didn't go far in term of kilometers (my dog is still a poppy and still is a bit a problem when we walk on leash), but still we had 2 hours walk and that was good.

For today I am not sure what I will eat (I will try to avoid potatoes this time :) ).
Maybe we will have pasta, but for lunch and after that I will go for a long walk again (maybe not 2 hours because I am pretty busy today, but still). And also, I will take the bike for going to the grocery shop in stead of the car. :)
I just feel so sorry it's still so cold outside (+2°C) and cannot really go for a run.
I though I don't really care how the weather will be like but from monday I will go jogging. Let's hope I won't freeze :p
 
Day 3

I am not that happy of my day 3, I had way too much cairboydrates and just went for an hour walk, but still today am the same weight. So, no that bad after all.

L: Spaghetti pesto with Tuna and pepper (it was really good).
S: Carrot
D: Chicken sandwich with sweet onion sauce (?), origan, cheese and here I also had an half glass of fanta.
S: Carrot.

Today for some reason I feel much lighter than the precious days, especially before starting this diet. <3 Is it possible that already after 2 days I am feeling already a bit more in shape?!
Well, a little bit I think so.

So, tomorrow is the famous 1rst of May. Here in Finland is an huge event. Me and my boyfriend are going to decorate the house (today we are going to buy balloons and all decorations we need :D), cook together something and after eating walking to town (and back of course). The town is at about 7 Km of distance.
He though to walk there because at the moment we only have a bike and I think he knows I am trying to get in shape so... it was very sweet from him to ask to have together such an HUGE walk.
I am very happy about it and cannot wait. I love walking and... it's just nice to feel the way I feel now, which I cannot exactly explain. Lighter? less junk food in my body??
Dunno, but it feels nice. :)
 
Day 4

B: Strawberry Yogurt (I guess between 100 and 200 Kcal, not sure).

Today plans are biking and then have a long walk with the dog. Maybe of 2 hours, but in 2 times... let's see :)
 
Still talking about Day 4

For lunch I had 2 boiled eggs sandwich with cucumber and a really thin layer of butter. I think it was about 300 Kcal.
Then, for "dinner" my boyfriend and I were in town (I say "dinner" because it was about 5 and... well, for dinner I mean something in the evening and not afternoon :p) and he wanted an hamburger. Uhmm, I could have had a salad, but it was so cold outside I really wanted something warm. I though since I had so little lunch maybe an hamburger would not harm that much. I am the idea that even if you are on a diet, you can still eat what you want, but should balance what you eat during the day. If I would have had a BIG LUNCH there were no way I was going to eat the hamburger. Well, anyway at the end I had chicken hamburger, small french fries and a small glass of Fanta. I was so surprised how it was really hard for me to eat all. At the end I felt superfull. Really. Usually that kind of menu was ok, but now it's definitely too much. :) In a way I am happy. Anyone knows how many calories would be suck a meal?? (I didn't have any ketchup, mustard or anything in my menu).
On the way home my boyfriend wanted some little candy for the evening :)P As you can see he is exactly as a children... hamburgers, coca cola and candies. Lucky him he never put on weight). Well, however... yesterday and today is a national day so... why not? One little candy bar cannot harm.
I had a bounty, which is 400 kcal and something.

So, yesterday I definitely had more that 1200 kcal, but still... today the scale gave still a good news. I LOST a couple of hundreds grams. YUPPIE!!!! I think it's because yesterday we walked kind long.

So, Day 5
W. 63.3 Kg :)
 
B: carrots
L: Grilled vegetables and pork.

My boyfriend cooked today, it was really good. I am not sure how many calories it was, maybe about 600 Kcal, but I didn't eat all. I was full on the half way and didn't continue.
Did is an other trick I am trying to use.
STOP eating when you feel full or not hungry anymore. I have noticed I get full pretty soon and... well :) It feels good. Before I used to eat all I had in plate, but this is a bad habbit.
Anyway, it's true I haven't lost much yet, but all this "eating healthier" (except from yesterday :p) makes me feel lighter and also more active. :D
This diet won't be just a diet, but a beginning of new life, of a new me.
There are many things I want into my life, I just need to be more active :)
 
Ok, yesterday was a bit bad. The first may ment one day pause of my diet, but I anyway even if I had dessert I tried to keep myself from eating too big amount. :)

Today, Day 7

Weight: 63.4
Lunch: Sandwiches with cheese, tuna and bell pepper (400 Kcal)

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S: carrot and cheese

what I am loving the most is also that I am drinking a lot of water!!! This is also very very very important for a good diet!
 
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