A new me! (hopefully, with some help)

ADAY 297

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, 97 cal crisps, yoghurt & a cupasoup (374 cals)
Dinner: Fish pie (273 cals)
Snacks: 3 kiwi's, pineapple, go-ahead snack & a cereal bar (396 cals)
Total calories = 1223 I have gone over but only by a little bit!

Exercise: Bugger all again :(

I've had a really good day at work today. I worked with Chris (Rachels husband and the owner) this morning and John again this afternoon. I'm totally loving it there, i really am :) I also said no to 'large triple chocolate cookies' today :hurray: :hurray:

But........This evening i am totally knackered and a bit grumpy. We did the shopping when i got home from work and it was 8.30 by the time i had dinner. I think i had left it too long and got over hungry. I think i am going to have to have more of a snack before i come home from work and maybe less for lunch, i dunno, i'll figure something out.

I really really did feel like having a 'fuck it' evening but have managed not to......so far!!!!!! Fingers crossed i can keep myself under control.

Rox I am definatlely gonna aim to crack on with the abs exercises!!!! I dont think i will ever be able to get mine to look like yours but i will see what i can manage.
 
Possibly you are so close to goal that 1200 cals is too low for you Kate. I would think about upping it to 1400 just for a week (knowing you don't have to eat that much) & see what happens. A banana is a really good snack when your energy levels are low. I think adding some calories & then making sure they are really healthy ones would probably improve your energy levels. Having less for lunch or breakfast wouldn't be good. I count my exercise in MFP so almost always eat over 1200. I would imagine you are burning lots of calories, even though you are not doing "planned" exercise.

I'm so glad that your new job is so good. You'll adjust to the travel & the times but it will be better when you can have Wednesday's off. That can be Kate Day. I'm declaring Wednesday's Cate Day. For me that will mean no mothers & probably stay at home all day. :biggrin:

You really did make me blush btw yesterday, but also made me feel really good about myself. Thank you :beating:

Hope you didn't end up having a FI evening as I don't want you to be doing this :banghead:

Lots of love sweetie, xoxo Cate.
 
ADAY 298

Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and lemon curd (185 cals)
Lunch: Banana and a cereal bar (188 cals)
Dinner: Crustless green veg quiche with salad and cous cous (317 cals)
Snacks: Yoghurt with granola & a skinny cappuccino at Costa Coffee, cereal bar, light snacks, 3 bourbon biscuits (705 cals)
Total calories = 1395

Exercise: 60 crunches, 60 bridges and 30 mins of hoovering :)

I have taken Cate's advice and have upped my calories. I have changed my app to only wanting to lose 1lb a week so i can have up to 1500 a day. I will definately find that easier. I will get my butt running and exerciseing this week so i will burn more. I am not overly worried about my weight i am more concerned at how wobbly i have become these last few weeks. The difference in my body already from not working out is really obvious to me.

I've had a nice day. We went into Barnstaple to get suits for Mark and Jack for the wedding :) Mark doesn't own one, he works and lives in jeans lol. They both look awesome. I am going to go in next saturday to find a dress, there is no way i was going to look for one with those two, can you imagine it?!!!! I did see one pretty dress, a very tight, short dress and thought that there was no way that i would get the 12 on so took a 14 to try on too. The 12 fitted except it was tight over my boobs and the 14 was too big!!! Looking at them on the hanger holding then against me i was convinced that the 14 would be too small too. I really must still have a distorted image of my body in my head!

Cate Thank you for your advise hun :) I am going to take it. I think 1200 is too hard to stick to for me right now. I seem to be craving food all the time.
I can't wait til i get my Kate days, It's not gonna be for a while, about mid June. I will also, like you said, get use to getting up earlier and longer days.
Glad i made you feel better about yourself and so you should. You are just totally awesome with your wonderfully kind, wise words. I am constantly blown away with how totally bloody awesome you are :) :beating:
And.....i did have some biscuits last night but not a complete FI time.
Big hugs my lovely :grouphug:
 
ADAY 299

Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and lemon curd
2nd Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with mashed banana (355 cals)
Lunch: Ham & cous cous salad with light salad cream, 97 cal crisps, cereal bar & a small chocolate bar (541 cals)
Dinner: large bowl of porridge with muesli ontop (460 cals)
Snacks: 2 Cereal bars and 3 bourbon biscuits (367 cals)
Total calories = 1723!!

Exercise:
60 crunches & 60 bridges
70 min interval running
3 hours of gardening
Total calories burnt = 1288

Yay!!! I managed to do some bloody exercise :) I aim to do a 30 min walk in my lunch breaks at work each day if it's not raining from now on :) so even if i dont get to the gym in the evenings then i still manage to get some exercise in. Also, i have set an alarm for each morning to remind me to do my crunches. Get me being all organised :)

I have put my exercise into MyFitnessPal and even after eating 1723 cals it still says i can eat another 1075 calories!!!!! I won't though.

I've had a lovely day. I did my first run for 3 weeks this morning :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: And i totally bloody loved it :) I did interval running (2 min walk, 5 min run) as it had been so long and i still have the left overs of my cold but i managed it really well :hurray: I had forgotten how great it feels out running and how totally awesome i feel when i have completed it :) I always have ideas and make decisions while i'm running. I love the head space i go into when running. Today i decided on what i was going to do for Bec's wedding present :)

Had my second breakfast when i got home, got changed and went straight to the allotment where i worked really hard digging over beds and mowing the path etc listening to banging tunes on my phone :) . I seem to have caught to sun quite a bit but i did go up there in a strappy vest top and short shorts :) I love that i dont feel too self concious wearing that now :) It will be nice if i can have a bit of colour for the wedding.

Snoozed on the sofa when we got back which was nice.

I can't believe it's day 300 tomorrow!!!!!!!
I didn't weigh this morning, i know that i am about 3-4lb up and don't wanna piss myself off by seeing it on my official weight. My aim is to lose that by the wedding on 4th June.
 
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh day 300 is today. Such an achievement sweetie. WELL BLOODY DONE. You are such a hardworker, and such a motivator for me not to eat my bag of jellies and chocolate haha.



I am so proud of you Kate:) Also another well done for all the exercise ya trooper



Hope you enjoy today


xoxoxox
 
ADAY 300!!!!!!!

Breakfast: 50g porridge & blueberries (201 cals)
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, yoghurt, cupasoup and 97 cal crisps (379 cals)
Dinner: Homemade carrot & coriander soup with toast (334 cals)
Snacks: 2 kiwi's, pineapple, grapes and a rice cake (260 cals)
Total calories = 1174

Exercise:
60 crunches & 40 bridges
30 mins walk
Calories burnt = 175

I am writing this a day late cos i was soooooooooo tired when i got home from work i had dinner, a hot bath and dozed on the sofa until i went to bed!!! I couldn't even bring myself to pick up the laptop lol
It was the first monday i had done at the new practice and i worked with the hygienist, Sharon. She has 20 min appts all day from 8am to 5.30pm I was bloody knackered!!!!!
 
ADAY 301

Breakfast: 50g porridge and blueberries (201 cals)
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, yoghurt, 97 cal crisps and a cupasoup (358 cals)
Dinner: 100g porridge with blueberries and muesli sprinkled on top (481 cals)
Snacks: 2 kiwi's, pineapple, grapes and 20g wispa mini bites (340 cals)
Total calories = 1380

Exercise:
40 crunches & 20 bridges
3 hours of cleaning!!!
Calories burnt = 527

Another knackering day!!! I blitzed Chris's surgery this moring at work.....It looks awesome. I kinda went bonkers and cleaned bloody everything!!!! I was supose to nurse with him today but he was off sick so i cleaned.....lots :)

This new place is as bad as the last one with 'evil food'!!!! Lots of cookies and wispa bites and i just couldn't resist but only had a few of the bites and didn't touch the cookies. I have found that i am soooooo much more hungry with these longer days. It really is gonna take some time to get use to. Tomorrow would normally be my day off but i am working a full day at the old practice :( It'll be nice to see everyone but i just want a lazy day!

I came home this evening to a phone bill for Jack's mobile................£146!!!!!!!! Mainly texting a girl lol He's lucky i saw the funny side of it. I have now changed his tarriff to unlimited texts lol

Irish Hello my lovely :) I can't believe i have done 300 days!!!!!!! I haven't managed to lose this year at all but i haven't gone back the other way either so it's all good. I hope to have got to my target for 365 days but not massively confident. Thank you so so much for your lovely comment :) Much love sweetie Xxx
 
Hi sweets, Your new job sounds exhausting but you are doing really well food-wise. You might have to try to switch those snacks around to fruit platters! You do so well to resist them though. Ouch- Jack's phone bill!! It is funny though & sweet. Perhaps "If it goes over x amount that comes out of your bank account" would make a difference. I know it will be bitter sweet but soon you will have Wednesday's off to re-charge your batteries. Lots of love to you sweetie, xoxo Cate
 
ADAY 302

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, 97 cal crisps, yoghurt, grapes and 95 cals of chocolate (478 cals)
Dinner: Cottage pie (380 cals)
Snacks: 2 kiwi's, 95 cal crisps and a flat bread (232 cals)
Total calories = 1270

Exercise:
10 mins on the cross trainer
10 min walk
20 min run
2 sets of 3x12 chest press
2 sets of 3x12 peck flye
2 sets of 3x12 back extentions
2 sets of 100 reps on the abs machine
Total calories burnt = 463

I worked at the old practice today and it's kinda messing with my brain really. My head kept thinking that everything was back to normal now, does that make sence but then i realise that i have to go to the new place again tomorrow. I don't think it is good for me but hey ho that's what i have to do.
Everyone was lovely at work, they had really missed me and were quizing me about how i was doing at the new place. I got another card and a present from one of my patients too :) Annette made a bloody cake, she makes the best cakes ever AND it was a chocolate one but i was a good girl and didn't have any :hurray: :hurray:
I'm on a course with Mo next wednesday but am working my last day with her the following week and they have told me that they are doing a small leaving thing after work on that day!!!!! Also we are going out in June for a proper leaving thing!!!!

I'm still massively tired and spent all afternoon trying to convince myself not to go to the gym. But.......I actually went :hurray: :hurray:
When i did my run my whole body felt like it was really really badly wobbling!!! I was mortified :eek: It was a really good kick up the bum (a very wobbly bum at that) I'm gonna go again tomorrow :) This blobby body of mine is gonna tone up and lose some fat :)

Cate I am knackered but i will get use to it soon and i feel so much better this evening for going to the gym so hopefully that will help. Maybe i was so tired cos i haven't done anything for about a month now.....That is all gonna change :)
Love and hugs mum :beating:
 
Hi Kate, I find it amazing how quickly our bodies do lose condition. When I was sick after xmas it took me ages to feel even slightly fit again, let alone feeling like I did last year. We'll get there! Determination/commitment/determination/commitment....! You'll get through this topsy turvy time sweets & life will settle a bit soon. In the meantime you are doing REALLY well with both exercise & resisting cakes! Thanks so much for the daughterly hugs & love. Because we are ahead of the UK by 9hrs it's the next morning that I read your posts & that was a lovely start to my day, xoxo Cate/Mum
 
ADAY 303

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Veg soup with bread & butter (375 cals)
Dinner: 2 small chicken, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich (460 cals)
Snacks: 2 kiwi's 1 satsuma, 2 punnet from graze box, banana & 110 cals of choc (561 cals)
Total calories = 1576

Exercise:
15 mins Walking
15 mins running
200 reps on the abs machine
Total calories burnt = 245

I've had another lovely day at work, managing to avoid double choc chip cookies (i looked up the cals on my app and they are 335 cals each!!!!!!! that made sure i didn't have any) One of the girls at work was eating one when i looked and she was horrified!!! Do you remember me saying that i thought one of the girls didnt like me? well, she is lovely, we get on really well now and she wants me to help her lose weight too so next week the three of us are on a mission :)

I haven't been to tired at work today, i actually felt loads more allert today until late afternoon and i was then really tired and hungry. I still haven't managed to stop the ultra food cravings of an evening and oh boy do i ache after my session at the gym last night!!! My arms, chest and legs totally hate me :( This evening at the gym was a bit of a fail really, didn't manage to do much at all especially feeling hungry. No worries though, i'll get back to the old fit me :)

OK, i'm off to dose of the sofa with the cat, who is hassling me for cuddles :)
 
AI am going to start again!!!!!

New beginnings........I will weigh tomorrow and regardless of what it says, that will be my start weight. I have been rubbish all year and need to do something different so I'm gonna have a break from thinking about everything that goes into my mouth this weekend and start from scratch.
I'm quite excited about it :)
 
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My new start!!!​

DAY 1

Breakfast: Bagel with peanut butter.
Lunch: English muffin with lemon curd.
Dinner: Chicken salad with light salad cream.
Snacks: Bag of snack a jacks & 2 cereal bars.

Exercise: 5 mile run.

calories eaten = 1041
Calories burnt = 652

Weekly aim
Lose 3lb
don't eat any chocolate

Things to feel proud of
Starting 'again' today instead of tomorrow.
not picking anything, like bread when making the guys lunch or any of Jack's chips at dinner (i have done this kinda thing lots recently!)
Not having enchilada's for dinner as was planned and had a salad instead :)
Really pushing myself on my run this morning :)

I weighed myself this morning and i am 7lb up from the last time i weighed on the Wii :eek: and i had gained 4lb then too!!!! :eek: :eek: So in total i am 11lb up from the lowest weight i got to, that's near on 5kg!!!!! :svengo:

I had a bloody good rant to Jane this morning about how bloody terrible i have been lately :cuss: and it really did me good, i know my life has been all over the place this year but it's no excuse to eat badly and i have been using it as one . I was gonna have another day off today and start tomorrow and then decided to eat what we had planned to have but try and keep it as controlled as possible, no extras and then i thought NO you have to stop this NOW!!!!!!! I am so angry with myself for letting everything slip. I had convinced myself that i was doing ok (obviously not!!!) i would finish logging on MFP and on here and then eat things i shouldn't and i had already posted so i wasn't lying to your guys :blush5: I am totally hanging my head in shame!!

BUT........I hope i have turned a corner. I have 2 weeks until Bec's wedding (ooooh, by the way, i got a beautiful dress yesterday for it :) ) and i know it's a hard ask but i want to have lost that 7lb by then!! i will be happy with 5lb but really want that 7lb back off asap!!!

I have decided to have weekly challenges and aims and also i'm gonna write down everything that i do each day that makes me feel proud. I need to see this as a positive rather than the long hard slog that it is.

I have even done a new ticker with a new target and i'm starting it at todays weight.

Total fresh start :hurray:
 
Way to go Kate! I know how it is to delay, but starting today is the best idea! I'm starting again as well. I have eaten TERRIBLE this past week and I know it is coming back to bite me! I like your weekly goal idea and think I'm going to try to incorporate it myself. I need something to feel good about at the end of the week and fulfilling goals is one way to do that! :)
 
Hi sweets, I'm with you on this. We have had that evil little self-sabotaging demon inside our heads lately I think. I have done the same as you with the logging my food, clicking on the complete the day tab thinking that's enough & then snacking on something afterwards. You have not been alone on that. I, too, have felt so guilty about it & this must stop. It's Monday morning here & I am making a fresh start as well. Unlike you, I was too scared to get on the scales. This is what had my weight creeping up before so tomorrow I will get on & face the music! We can do it sweetie. You know you can, I know you can so let's do it! xoxoxoC
 
Hi Kate! :)


Wow. Ok, first thing is give yourself a pat on the back for your renewed focus! It's not easy to bounce back when facing difficult times, especially with weight loss and how easy it can be to just say 'Ah, screw it.' and go for the junk food to comfort yourself - since we all know how wonderful eating like that can make us all feel here on this forum. It's something we all share in common. It really is like a drug, because I was indulging in it quite a LOT today! :(


For some reason, it sounds like a majority of us are always in sync to a degree. I've noticed quite a lot of people on the forums struggling with stress all at the same time. Then, last year, there was a period of time when we all seemed to be doing well on our regimens, but not losing and/or plateauing.


Now, it seems like a lot of us are under some kind of unique pressure in our lives and it's really testing our resolve. I've put on a significant amount of water weight myself, just recently - on top of what I already had been dealing with! Erg :[


However, I know how powerful the support is on these forums. I've seen similar struggles from other very successful people. Hell, we're already all so successful. This is more about learning the proper techniques to maintain it after we hit our goals if you think about it :)


We know what to do to lose the weight, which is difficult. But, maintaining it is ALWAYS the hardest part. Maintaining the weight loss, then maintaining the success.


We'll get there, Kate :)
 
wow!!!you already did a 5 mile run????thats a long run!!!!

How long did it take you to finish it?????You are great!!!!I like the weekly targets and i really like the to be proud of!!!!

I am waiting to see that dress when your ready on the wedding day!!!!

You will loose what you gained and feel fantastic about that.!!!!


How did you feel running>?you said you pushed yourself,meaning that you felt tired?Im really interested in learning more about it!!!!Did you think of other things or focused only on making it through?

Whatever it is though i belive in you i really do!even if you have bad days now and then,we all do but we dont give up we continue to try our best!
 
ADAY 2

Breakfast: 50g porridge & blueberries.
Lunch: Chicken salad with light salad cream, cup-a-soup & a yoghurt.
Dinner: Chicken, carrots, peas, cauliflower, brocolli & gravy.
Snacks: 3 kiwi's, pineapple & an aplen light cereal bar.

Exercise: Rest day.

Calories eaten = 947
Calories burnt = 0

No chocolate consumed :hurray:

Things to feel proud of
Waking up still motivated.
Avoiding tripple chocolate chip cookies and wispa bites at work
Ignoring an open bag of 'Cadbury's giant chocolate buttons' that were waving and singing to me from the top shelf of the fridge door every time i went into the fridge. I kept pushing the top of the bag down so i couldn't see the contents but every time i went back they were open and waving at me again!! I totally love them and could quite easily scoff the whole lot in one sitting. So, well proud of myself :)
I took 2 light cereal bars and a bag of snackajacks as 'incase i get really hungry' to work. Recently i would have eaten them because they were there but today i only had one of the bars as i was really hungry just before i left work at 6pm :)
Cooking a proper dinner when i got home from work even though i was really tired, hungry and couldn't be bothered :)

I know i am really low on my calories but i'm not hungry and i have spent months eating for the sake of it so i decided to only eat when my stomach rumbled rather than my head saying i was hungry, i don't believe my brain any more!!! My tummy started rumbling just before break this morning and i had my kiwi and pineapple then it rumbled just before lunch. I normally have another snack at about 4pm but didn't today as no rumbling, it didn't do it til about 5.30 which was when i use to get home and have dinner when i worked at the old practice. I had a cereal bar and then dinner at about 7pm. I was tired towards the end of the day at work but it really is a long day and i'll get use to it soon. After dinner I had a bath and then lay on the bed for about half an hour just listening to music and i fell much much better now :) And i'm not hungry :)

We had a once in a life time experience today...........All three of us watched the Olympic torch being carried :) I Watched it go thru Braunton (where i work) Mark watched it go past his works just outside Ilfracombe and Jack went down and watched it go thru Ilfracombe with the whole school. I really wasn't bothered about the Olympic's but we are all proper excited now. I was gobsmacked with the amount of people who turned out to watch the procession :)

Munch :seeya: Hi, thanks for stopping by. I'm really pleased that i didn't put it off another day. I think i would have kept putting it off!!!
I could have quite easily had some of those 'choc buttons' and counted the cals today but didn't because i have banned myself from choc this week :) I think it will help having little weekly aims. I also spend time today thinking about putting 'proud feelings' on here rather than thinking about food. That REALLY helped :) I haven't struggled with the old Kate's inner voice at all today :)

Cate How funny that you have been doing the same as me, finishing our MFP and then eating more :eek:.........We are too much alike :smilielol5:
I HAD to get on the scales, i knew it was bad and the longer i put it off the worse it would be. I'm feeling good and motivated so i am gonna just really try and stick with it. I need to be OCD about it again, there really is no middle ground for me.

Greg Heya buddy. Cheers for stopping by and i totally agree with you, i think a lot of us are struggling but at least we are still posting and still fighting.....We will prevail :) And also cheers for your support with my stressful life right now, i guess you totally know what it like, your's is pretty similar. We will get back to some normality and routine soon :)

EDIT......

Jess You sneaked that one in while i was writing my post........I suppose it took us about an hour to do 5 miles. We interval ran up the railway line (it's an incline and hard as hell) 2 min walk, 5 min run and ran all the way back. the whole thing is 5.8 miles.
We ran faster to make it harder, we really pushed ourselves. Not too fast that it was too hard but fast enough that we struggled to 'chat' which is what we use to do. You will get there hun, dont forget ive been running for months :)
Ooooooh and congrats on getting married :grouphug:
 
"Cate How funny that you have been doing the same as me, finishing our MFP and then eating more :eek:.........We are too much alike :smilielol5:
I HAD to get on the scales, i knew it was bad and the longer i put it off the worse it would be. I'm feeling good and motivated so i am gonna just really try and stick with it. I need to be OCD about it again, there really is no middle ground for me."

Yep me too!! I have hopped on them & am back to 80.5. I had to know too, this morning. We are very much alike sweetie, but that's not a bad thing. I have to be really strict or I let things go altogether & I can't & won't let that happen. It's good to be self-aware. The little demon has gone from my head though, which is good. Feeling out of sorts today- just woke up that way so will skedaddle out of your happy diary. Lots and lots of love & hugs, xoxoxo Cate.
 
ADAY 3

Breakfast: 50g porridge & blueberries.
Lunch: Ham salad with light salad cream, yoghurt with blueberries and pineapple.
Dinner: Chicken, carrots, peas, brocolli, cauliflower & gravy.
Snacks: 3 kiwi's, light alpen bar and a bag of snackajacks.

Exercise: Nothing :( too knackered.

Calories eaten = 985
Calories burnt = 0

Things to feel proud of
We are getting new uniforms at work and i dont need the largest size :) I am actually having the next to the smallest!!!!! Others have to have up to three sizes bigger than mine. It feels really odd being one of the smallest people at work. I'm not the fat one anymore and that feels good :)
Still cookies, wispa bites and choc buttons at work....still didn't have any :hurray:
Stood and had a conversation with Richard and Jo while they scoffed buttons and wispa bites :hurray:

I am so so tired and feel so drained. I am fine all day until about 5pm and then i feel like i've been hit by a bus. I am longing for my first wednesday off. I am on a course tomorrow (i have to leave at 6am!!!!) i'm working at the old practice next wed and then the morning at the new one the following week so i have a while to wait. :(
Oooooooooh, i have just remembered that i have next tuesday off!!!!!!!!! Mo is taking me and Rachel out for lunch. Wow, that's not too far away, i can have a chilled day to myself :) Can't wait.

I'll try and check out everyones diaries as soon as i feel up to it :)
 
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