ADAY 293
Breakfast: 2 slices of wholemeal toast with light spreat and marmite (147 cals)
Lunch: A small bowl of homemade carrot & coriander soup (72 cals)
Dinner: 4 breaded chicken strips with salad, cous cous and coleslaw (516 cals)
Snacks: 2 go-ahead snacks, pineapple & 3 kiwi's (460 cals)
Total calories = 1195
Exercise: 3 hours of housework
Calories burnt = 527 who would have thought it would burn that many
Ok, lets get the bad stuff over with first..........Still full of cold and i have a really stiff neck today too, i think it might be tension. I'm so so scared about tomorrow. I'm in knots, all anxious and insecure. You would think that i would be grateful that i have a job to go to and i am, i really am, but i'm so scared i want to cry
I managed to be fine about 'officially' finishing at the other practice because we decided that seeing as i will still be working there on wednesdays in may (wednesday is my day off at the new practice) then technically i am still working there. It's good in a way as it will ween me off gently but it could be just prolonging it really. i have refused to let them do anything as a leaving do kinda thing, i hate the whole centre of attention thing!!!!
I work from 7.30 - 6 at the new place mon, tues, thurs & fri and will still be working 8-5 on a wed at the old place for the rest of may so it's gonna be long hard weeks. I can't wait til i get my first wednesday off
i'm gonna go shopping with my mum.
Right..........whing over
I had a great food day!! 
I know i have had good days and bad days over the last few weeks, well months actually lol and i keep saying 'this is a new start'
Well, this time i aim to actually be able to do it! Tomorrow i start a new chapter in my life and i am going to make it a healthy one. I think if i get healthy eating as part of my new routine then i am on to a winner
Jess has really made me take a look at how shit i have been recently. I know my life is all over the place at the moment and i'm not mentally coping but it's no excuse to go back to what i was and if i carry on like i have been i will be there in no time at all. I read back over the beginning of my diary earlier and that really helped and catching up with everyones diaries has helped too. I am so so sorry i have been such a totally shit friend lately
It's been a few days since i replied to your comments on here, again sorry for being a shit friend..........
Cate Thank you sweetie
I wrote in Mo's card that she is going to be promoted from 'boss' to drinking buddy' which she liked
We have decided (all the girls at my old practice) that we are going to meet up on the first saturday of every month for curry or something to make sure we all stay in touch which will be lovely. I have made some great friends there.
Yep a whole loaf of bread with spread and jam. To be fair it was a small soda loaf but still 800 cals worth
I stood there putting two bits into the toaster and then eating them while another two bits were toasting until it was all gone. I really can't put into words how low i was feeling and of course it didn't make me feel better it just lay in my stomach like a bloody football lol
Sarah My last 'official' day wasn't too bad. We decided that my last day is going to be the last wednesday i do in may so that will be the hard one. We are going to go for a drink after work that day, which will be nice, probably tear filled but nice. Also hopefully i will have settled at the new place by then so it wont all come at once if that makes sence.
I really am trying to see it as a new chapter in my life. I really really want it to be a super healthy one too. God, i'm scared
Rox Thanks hun. I'm really embarassed about it lol a whole loaf of bread....that really isn't a sane thing to do is it. Thanks for stopping by
Jess Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!!!! That little telling off worked. You really made me take a long hard look at the direction my eating is going and it wasn't good. I
will get back on track and get this last bit of weight lost and then
i will maintain
You my dear dear friend are just totally bloody wonderful
did you know that???? Well you are
We are both gonna have an awesome week,....... month, rest of the year
We will do this hun.
When i was reading the beginning of my diary earlier i came across the bit when i started running and you commented that you wish you could run!!!!! Check you and your 30 min runs out!!!!! Who would have thought either of us could do it (well, i haven't run in over 2 weeks but i will this week......i promise
)
Joh Check you out shouting 'hormones' at me lol
Are you telling me that my uterus made me eat a loaf of bread?????? Brilliant
Ya know what, i really don't get how i can be an inspiration, i really don't. I have been a proper failure lately. But thank you my lovely, that's so sweet
Thank you all so so much for just being there for me during this hard chapter of my life. I can't find the words to express how grateful i am to you all other than to say.........
I love you...YOU ROCK
