A new me! (hopefully, with some help)

Sounds like we're all a bit out of whack. Maybe the moon and the stars are out of alignment. When we lose we'll all lose, but lose we will!!! xoxo to you Kate & Jess, xoxo Cate
 
ADAY 277
Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and marmite (147 cals)
Lunch: Porridge & Muesli (325 cals)
Dinner: Roast chicken, dry roast potatoes, carrots, peas, brocolli, cauli & gravy (306 cals)
Snacks:Granola bar, german friendshipcake, mini breaks
Total calories = 1222

Exercise: 6 mile run

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DAY 278

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Chicken, salad, coleslaw, yoghurt, grapes and 95 cal crisps (403 cals)
Dinner: Porridge & muesli (340 cals)
Snacks: 3 kiwi's, 97 cal crisps, 4 small peices of cake!!!, 3 chocolate biscuits!!!! (979 cals)
Total calories = 1902

Exercise: Stressing and being generally really nervous!!

Big time food fail today!!!! Well, i was fine until the end of lunch break. This afternoon i have been so so nervous about my induction at the new practice tomorrow. I can't help thinking 'what if they dont like me?' And i have definalty comfort ate. Pretty annoyed with myself :(

I really need to get this under control! I just wish i wasn't such a headcase.

i dont want to wish my life away but i would like to just forward about 2 months, i would be all settled in my new job and wouldn't be so anxious about it and get upset that i am going to miss Mo and my patients.

I'm super busy too, we are going away this weekend and i am frantically trying to organise a surprise retirement party for Mo. It is all coming together now but still lots to do.
 
Hi sweets, Food failures happen occasionally because we're not perfect. Once upon a time, in our old lives they were the every day thing. Put it behind you sweetie, but, hopefully not literally, :smilielol5:-just kidding! I feel like a big fat-arse today! We'll get there, because we are determined & strong. Soon you will be settled in your new job & all will be well with the world! Lots of love to you sweetie, but STAY AWAY FROM THE CAKE!!! xoxoxo Cate
 
ADAY 279

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Granola bar, 97 cal crisps, yoghurt & grapes (402 cals)
Dinner: Chicken salad with coleslaw and beetroot preserve (213 cals)
Snacks: 3 kiwi's & mini breaks (191 cals)
Total calories = 986

Exercise: None :(

I have had a great day today!! :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

My induction was really good and they are all so lovely :) I feel such an idiot for being so nervous. I can't wait to start now :)

Going to the new practice this morning gave me a real boost food wise for some reason. Sarah (one of the nurses at the practice i'm at now) brought a plate of flapjack, shortbread and tea cake this morning and i thought 'oh for fucks sake, i am gonna have another fail day' BUT.......when i got back from going to the new practice i had to walk past the plate and i didn't want any and actually thought 'nope, i am back on track. I promised Sarah and Cate' and i have had a great food day. I know i am way under my calories today but i had such a fail yesterday i didn't think it would matter too much.

At the new practice we have to wear navy trousers and they provide uniform tops. I tried some tops on and now have 2 that actually fit rather that hang off me like a sack (the one i wear at the moment is a size 20) I went into Barnstaple after work and got some trousers....I got a size 12 :) They were £5 each!!! Bargin huh but when i went to the check out they were actually only £2!!!!!!!! I bought 2 little skirts in the sale too. One looked tiny when i went to try it on and i thought it was the wrong size. No, it was a 12. I then thought 'this is gonna piss me off and be stupidly small' (Sometimes the sizes in this particular shop can be a bit off!) But........It fitted and i look tiny!!!! It is tight but will fit lovely when i lose that last bit of weight :) I got another little skirt and that is lovely too :)

I really can't believe the difference in me today. Such a change. I am really looking forward to the future, ok the money is less but i just know that i am going to love working there :)

Cate I forget that i ate like that every day before. I was so angry that i had a day where i just felt the need to eat, eat and eat more. I wasn't hungry. Anyway a new day today and such a difference. :)
I felt like a big fat arse yesterday too (i love that phrase by the way :) ) It's weird how we can feel horrid and bloated one day and wake up feeling proper skinny the next!
I promise to stay away from cake. Today i am in such a good food place that i am not having to argue with myself about staying away from it :hurray: About bloody time too. Lets hope it lasts :)
 
Well done on a great day Kate!! We all worry too much & things almost always work out well! Silly us :blush5: Look at you, wearing size 12!! :hurray: It's lovely hearing how excited and happy you are with your slim self Kate & for resisting cake! WELL DONE!!!! I'll do the same today. Yesterday I had a piece of cake in town with my MIL.( Cake-:smash: ) I'm OVER cake! It gives me a belly ache, nightmares(gluten) & is too many calories! Today I'll resist, just like you did. Mwah!! xoxoxo Cate
 
im so please for you and having a great day!!!!!Thats it girl!!!!The Kate i met is here again!!!!

See i really think it was all the stress you went through,As soon as you actually felt good about stuff you didnt need the food!Its ALL IN OUR BRAIN

YOu did really well ,passing by the cakes today and NOT trying to talk yourself out of eating them!!!Thats fantastic thats will power!!!!


I LOVED the way you described the skirts and using the TINY word im so happy you SAW yourself like that today!!!!!!!!!

CANT WAIT FOR HTE PICS OF THOSE when you feel like it of course:rolleyes: no presure!!!!!:rolleyes::biggrinjester:


Now can i say I TOLD you SO>?that you are going to be just FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sending you LOTS OF LOVE!!!!!!
 
ADAY 280

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Chicken salad with light salad cream, 97 cal crisps & a yoghurt (432 cals)
Dinner: Chicken salad with coleslaw and a small bread roll (282 cals)
Snacks: 3 kiwi's & mini breaks (191 cals)
Total calories = 1085

Exercise: Ya know what, i am gonna give up fitting in any exercise this week and next!!!!

I have had another great food day :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: I am soooooo back in the grove at the moment. I am really annoyed that i just don't have time to get any exercise in. I have had such a busy week and it will carry on till the end of next week so i really think i am just going to not worry too much about it. If i find i had some spare time then i will go but i think i am just going to have to wait until i start the new job and then i can get some 'routine' back into my life.

Work was good today...i walked past cake lots and wasn't tempted at all :) I had to go to the shop after work and Jack asked me to get him a chocolate bar.....I got him one and one for Mark too :) Get me!!!
I got a card from a patient today and i nearly cried. It said 'Just wanted to say goodbye, it wont be the same without you' and had a picture of a cute puppy waving on it :cry: They had written some lovely stuff inside it too. God, these next few weeks are going to be so hard. I just keep telling myself to concentrate on how excited i am about the new practice and not the fact that i am leave a great staff, awesome patients and a 'second mum'
The reason i have been so busy this week is that i'm trying to get everything sorted for the party next weekend and my break this weekend. I am now starting to worry that i am going to be a blubing mess at Mo's party. I really really hope i can hold it together. It really doesn't help that it's the day after my official last day.

I was really hoping to catch up with everyone's diaries this evening but yet again it's late and i haven't had chance :( I am so so sorry i am so rubbish. I promise that once my life settles down again i will the model forum buddy :) I PROMISE!!!!

We have to pack, take dogs to mums, take rabbit to a friend of mines etc tomorrow after work as we are leaving on fri morning. I will post my diary tomorrow evening but after then i wont have internet connection til i get back :eek: I might get it in the cafe at the holiday park but not sure.

Cate Thank you Cupcake :) It did feel good being back on track and even though it's been a bit stressy today, especially this evening i have felt in control :) I don't think i will ever get use to the fact that i'm a size 12. You would laugh if you heard my thought process as i tried them on in changing rooms, i am such a headcase lol

Jess Yes, ok, you can say i told you so. I still don't understand how it has all fallen into place so well for me.
Yeah, i do feel like i'm back, just a little bit more stressed but that is cos i have loads going on at the moment. I will push on thru this weird part of my life and not use it as an excuse to eat crap!!!!
Regarding the skirt...It is bloody tiny!!! I can't believe i can get it over my (i am thinking 'fat arse' but know you will shout so i wont say it) arse!!!! I don't get it, i really don't. You should have seen me holding it up when i was in the changing room at the shop, my brain told me that i wouldn't get one of my legs in it let alone my bum lol

Thank you so much guys for all your support :grouphug:
 
Kate, I so wish we could all get together & hang out. You & Jess could get me going running and we could go to a gym & have coffee.........*sigh* Thank you Kate(& Jess) :beating: for making me feel better about everything this morning. It's the mutual support & encouragement that helps strengthen our own resolve. I laughed sweetie at you talking to yourself in the change room. I, too, am such a head case! Today it's "Cate, you are going way under your cals today, to make up for yesterday, fat arse!!" I had a glitsch day, rather than a "fuck it" day! :blush5: Get me, blushing because I used the f word! OLD!.....ish!

Lots of love, xoxo Cate
 
ADAY 281

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Chicken salad with coleslaw (280 cals)
Dinner: Dry roast aubergine, peppers, mushrooms, onion and new potato (198 cals)
Snacks: 3 kiwi's, mini breaks, pretzels and a granola bar (470 cals)
Total calories = 1128

Exercise: No comment!!

Another manic day. At work i bypassed cake and chocolate biscuits!!!!! I told quite a few patients that i was leaving today. I am blown away with how gutted they are.

Nearly packed and ready to go in the morning. I am so looking forward to this break. Not sure how it will go food wise but i will get straight back on it when i'm back.

Sorry it's such a quickie :( No doubt i will have lots to tell you when i get back :)
 
Hey Kate,

Love the new profile pic! You are rockin' it Girl!!

I can imagine that your days are going to be manic for a few weeks to come...but just imagine how great working in your new job will be with your friends! Thanks for all your support at myfitnesspal...it's really helping me to stay focused!


Take care,

Sarah
 
ADAY 286

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Salad with coleslaw, bag of rice cakes (162 cals)
Dinner: Piri Piri chicken with salad and coleslaw (337 cals)
Snacks: 3 kiwi's, banana and mini breaks (263 cals)
Total calories = 942

I had a great holiday :) but i had such a bad food holiday......That bad that i don't want to talk about lol but totally back on track today, especially after the telling off i got form the scales this morning :eek:

Today has been manic. Worked my last day with Rachel and then went straight to the new practice to sit in on reception. I am really looking forward to starting next week, they are all so lovely :) On the way home i had to do some shopping, pick up the dogs and take them home then go get the rabbit, have dinner then bag up and deliver Ann Summers stuff and finally clean out the rabbit cage. I finally sat down at 9.30!!!!

This week is going to carry on as it started....manic, manic, manic. I can't wait for things to calm down.
I will try and catch up with diaries as soon as i can.

I'm putting my ticker up but it is soooooo wrong, i know it is retention but i still weigh a bloody ton!



 
So glad you had a good time!!!!! Eh you over indulged, but really what damage can you do in a few days?? A lot of what you weighed in at would be fluid from eating naughty food (and quantity if you ate a lot) You'll see it gone in a week or so.
 
Welcome back sweetie. It feels like AGES that you were away. Those extra lbs will disappear almost as fast as they came as you are back on track & are awesome young lady! Manic? Manic burns up calories surely, when combined with eating well! Pft! That's what's going to happen to those pounds! xoxo Cate
 
ADAY 287

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Salad & coleslaw, yoghurt and bag of rice cakes (211 cals)
Dinner: Chicken, salad & coleslaw (307 cals)
Snacks: 3 kiwi's, pineapple, 2 flat bread and a bag of mini breaks (351 cals)
Total calories = 1049

I woke up with a cold this morning :( I felt rubbish last night but put it down to being really tired but i have a really impressive sore throat and feel rubbish. Took lots of pro-plus and cold drugs and just kept going.

Plans for this party are going well :) I just need to get that out of the way then i can chill and let my body recover.

Had another good food day today :) I know i am way under my cals for the last few days but i have been way, way, way over them for 4 days over the weekend so i am trying to balance the damage. Luckly i don't really feel like eating with this cold so thats a good thing. Sometimes when i'm not well i eat cos i think it will make me feel better.

Lucy Ummmmmm....I can do 7lbs of damage!!!!!!! 2 of it has already gone but still 7lb!!!!!!! That's mental.

Cate I had felt like i had been off here for ages and i'm gutted that i still don't have time to catch up with everyone yet either!!!!!!! Hopefully manic burns cals!!! Cos i have been manic, i can't wait til life calms down some. They have Wifi at the new practice so i will be able to keep up with diaries on my Ipad at lunchtime :)

Missed you guys.
 
Missed you lots Kate i too have had a few really buisy days sorry to hear you have a cold.

You know when we are really stressed about stuff our imune system is affected aswell(sound like a doctor!!!)you should really take things a bit slow seems you are running around all day for days now,i know you cant though....keep taking vitamins at least anddrink lots of water as well to clean everything out....(sounding like your mum now!!!!!)

i have been wanting to ask you for ages...What is a Ann summers party????i googled it and got pics of ladies in underwear but still i didnt get it!


Dont worry about any gain!You are right back on track and you know it!
 
ADAY 289

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Granola bar, yoghurt & 97 cal crisps (334 cals)
Dinner: Pork steak, potato, green beans, brocolli, cauliflower & gravy (323 cals)
Snacks: 3 kiwi's, go-ahead bar, pineapple and 4 chocolate biscuits (646 cals)
Total calories = 1483

I've had a chocolate biscuit fail today :( i did really well all day but failed this evening. I'm feeling really insecure and in need of comfort. I feel like a child right now lol

Today has been a really emotional day :cry: My sore throat is better but am now really snotty and have a blocked head :( They gave me a card and a beautiful orchid at work today, which made me cry. I got lots of hugs and best wishes for alot of patients today and more cards from them too. Tomorrow is oficially my last day and it is really obvious that both Mo and i are really trying hard to hold it together.

Once i get thru tomorrow i then have to try and not cry at Mo's party. I have been using the stress and organisation of that to stop me thinking about everything and how hard it is going to be to leave but it is like here NOW and i'm not dealing with it very well. I know i have got a great new job that i'm starting next week (actually i am going in for a few hours after work tomorrow to cover as they are short staffed!!) but i'm struggling.

Jess Hopefully i'll get to chill a bit on sunday or monday and hopefully get to catch up on everyones diaries. I have barely had time to even write on my own these days!!!!
An Ann Summers party is an underwear party. I go to ladies houses and take some samples and catalogues, play silly games and they order stuff.
 
Sorry you're feeling crook & stressed Kate. Remember there is no reason for you not to catch up with Mo when you are no longer working together. I am sure she would want to continue the friendship, because that is what it is- a friendship, not just a working relationship. Hope you are feeling better soon sweetie. Crying is nothing to be ashamed of . You are an affectionate, caring human who feels & shows emotion. there's nothing wrong with that. Lots and lots of love xoxo Cate
 
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