A new me! (hopefully, with some help)

Kate, I totally agree with Rox! Wow, you look sensational!! Go with the long-sleeved, fitted one(middle photo.) I also hope you do see how great you look. If not, we're sure going to have you blushing, :blush5: when we start cussing! :cuss: My goodness, you look wonderful young lady!! GO KATE!!!!!!! xoxoxoxo Cate
 
I'm with Rox & Cate...the shorter bolero thing, you're rockin it!...And by the way, your hair looks great in that little "up do" you got going! The dress really defines your waist...and you look just great!

You go girl! I think you should now start having photos taken...this could be your "coming out"!

Sarah
 
Kate!


Your pics are sensational!!!


Wow :) You look truly amazing! I pretty much agree with every sentiment shared in your diary!


Wanted to send you some good, froggy vibes! :p You're doing awesome and I look forward to more updates (and pics)! hehe :]
 
ADAY 258

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo wholemeal sandwich, 97 cal crisps, yoghurt & grapes (425 cals)
Dinner: Small bowl of spag (466 cals)
Snacks: 4 coffee's, 3 kiwi's, melon, alpen light bar and i'm gonna have a small tub of choc ice cream in a minute (563 cals)
Total calories = 1634

Exercise: 6km run and 2km walk

I have had a weird day. It has been lovely working with Rachel but it has been a emotional rollercoaster. The practice manager gave me a hug and so did one of my patients. Over all i think i coped well with today. I didn't cry until i got home and found 2 good luck cards from my mum & dad and bro & sis in law! Bless them :)

My mum came round this afternoon in a right state. I don't know if you will remember but sometime before christmas i mentioned a thing about my mums side of the family being nasty etc, well, there was more of that today. It's all got to do with my nan's will and my aunt actually my mum's sister (she is no relation of mine anymore) I wont go into details but mum was in tears because she had got a letter from the solicitor. I really don't understand how she could be like that to her own sister, she has bullied my mum all her life. I just wish it would all be over so mum can move on and get this evil woman out of her life!! Ok rant over...that probably didn't make any sence, sorry.

Ok, onto the 'interview outfit' I am going to go for the long sleeved one :eek: I can't believe i am going to wear that!!!! scary! and, no i really don't see what you all see :blush5: sorry.

I read your posts this morning and was blown away with how you ALL said how 'tiny' i was!!!! So i put one of those photo's next to my first one i took (the one where i had lost 10lb) and i have to admit that it looks like 2 different people. Oddly though, i don't see it as me. I know i am a headcase. hopefully i will see it one day :)

Seeing as you have all been awesome with your advice on what to wear and you have been hassleing me for 'before & after' photo's. Here ya go. The first one was when i had lost 10lb and the second one was sunday :)

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/image/id/352125/width/284/height/700http://weight-loss.fitness.com/image/id/352126/width/350/height/530

I'm now gonna curl up on the sofa with a furry rug, watch a film and try and chill, my brain is all over the place and i need to try and switch it off.

Thanks again for everything. I'll let ya know tomorrow how it went!




 
First of all, I am LOVING the "before and after" groove you're in. Those are some impressive pictures, girl. I could look at them all day! I do srsly love me a good before and after. LOL!

You have to admit, it's a really big transformation and your hard work was what did it!


You are going to look SO good at your interview (and sound even better, because you'll be so confident!!)



Secondly, you are rocking the exercise these days! You're so good, srsly! The only way I'd run was if starving wolves were chasing me and I had no gun.


And finally- I'm sorry that there's bad family drama out your way. That kind of thing sucks so much.... family is supposed to support and love- NOT bully and be nasty:)
 
Hey Kate,

I'm glad you've made your choice...the most important thing is to be comfortable in your own skin and that will exude confidence. I think you told me once that it takes awhile for the brain to catch up with your body...well, I have to say the same thing back to you sweetie...your brain is not letting you see what the rest of us are seeing...a drop dead gorgeous woman who is petite and who looks not alot like the lady she started out being...at least on the outside. My brain hasn't caught up either...it still doesn't believe my eyes...but that's not stopping me...and it hasn't stopped you! So very proud of you Kate and you just strut your stuff girl!


Sarah
 
GAHHHH! I can't stand the suspense Kate!!!!!!!!!!!!! So hopeful for you!!!!!! xoxoxoxo Cate
 
Awww Kate, you look so fantastic and professional - and soooo pretty with your hair up! I love your final choice, think it looks very sharp and insanely good on you! Sending you good thoughts, can't wait to hear about your day!
 
ADAY 259

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: 97 cal crisps (97 cals)
Dinner: oven baked fish and oven chips & peas (569 cals)
Snack: 3 coffee's, 3 kiwi's, 97 cal crisps, 2 small bags of light pretzels, choc bar and small tub of choc ice cream (716 cals)
Total calories = 1562

Exercise: Stressing!! :eek:

Well, i felt pretty positive when i came out but the more i think about it the more i am worrying about the fact that i think i was soooo nervous that i waffled too much!! They were really nice and the practice was nice too. There was one woman before me and another one after me. He said that he would let me know within the next few days.
I was a good girl and wore my dress with the long sleeved bolero, i did wear a pretty scarf cos it was cold and to be honest i knew that i would feel self concious of my belly 'folds' and it gave me that little bit of confidence. He is a keen runner and we talked about running and he was really interested in my Africa trip. Oh I dunno, i really don't. The more i think about it the more i think i haven't got it. I was me, i didn't put on any false front and all i can do is be me so we will see.

I will let you know as soon as i do.

I'm gonna dedicate tomorrow evening to replying to your lovely posts and catching up with diaries. Love to all :grouphug:
 
Kate, I am so glad that you felt that you were you in the interview. Most people are sick of bull shit. The fact that you felt confident when you came out is a huge plus. Don't think so much young lady! I'm sure they would have been impressed sweetie. Did you like them? Sending you all the best wishes I can possibly muster, lots of kisses & a great big hug!

xxxxxxxxxxxx

O

Cate

:grouphug:
 
ADAY 260

Food: who cares? (I have actually been really good.....so far!)

I didn't get the job :( he said that it was very close and it was a hard decision. I asked him why and he said that the thing that did it was my tattoo :eek:

I am gutted, totally gutted. I was just about to sit and spend the evening ready thru diaries when he phoned and i am some what of a sobbing mess right now. I'm soory, i just can't face it. I'm gonna curl up and feel sorry for myself :(
 
I'm so sorry Hun. There's not much else I can say but just wanted you to know that I'm really feeling for you! Much love, xoxo Cate
 
AOh no, that's shite. There is some camoflage make-up you can use to cover up tattoos for next time.

:eek2: FUCK ME, YOU LOOK HOT!!! I mean, really really amazing!!!!! Look at you wearing Small cardigans and size 10 tops!!!!! You have done SO WELL, I haven't seen a photo of you in so long in my head I still just remembered you like you were in your first photos even though I know you have lost more weight since then, if that makes sense. Now don't go and ruin it all by eating any more cake!!!! x
 
Kate,

I'm so sorry about about job...I know you feel crappy right now and it's normal...you have every right to...so just focus on the fact that there was something wrong with this job...it was not for you...and I suggest you ask God (or whatever you consider a higher power) to help and say this simple prayer: "If not this, then something better". You are so totally worth it and and looking so good...continue to be you...you are a great dental nurse and some practice somewhere really needs you! Hang in there and don't spaz out with chocolate cake! Go for a good relaxing run and re-group.:Angel_anim: Saying a little prayer for you now.


Sarah
 
Kate- I don't have a lot of time right now, so this is just a quick message to send my love and support.

I'm SO sorry about the job!!!! Stay strong and know that something better will come along!


( And next job interview, use Covermark body makeup so stupid people can't foist their silly prejudices on off you)


lots of hugs!!!!!!!!
 
ADAY 261

Yesterdays food:
Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread & marmite (147 cals)
Lunch: Chicken salad oatmeal sandwich, yoghurt and snackajacks (423 cals)
Dinner: quiche, salad, coleslaw and couscous (360 cals)
Snacks: 3 coffee's, 3 kiwi's, 97 cal crisps, a few spoonfuls of Ben & Jerry's ice cream and a choc biscuit (474 cals)
Total calories = 1404

Exercise: .......Ummm, crying!

I managed to not eat too much else so didn't wreck the day food wise. I was so so upset last night. I felt really hurt :(

Todays food
Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and jam (185 cals)
Lunch: Pasty!!!, 97 cal crisps, banana and go ahead bar (589 cals)
Dinner: Chips from the chip shop!!! (375 cals)
Snacks: a coffee and a small chocolate bar (210 cals)
Total calories = 1359

Exercise: putting up a shed!!

I woke up really early this morning and thought about yesterday for a while but.........I thought about what Mark said yesterday.....'you're tattoo's are who you are and if someone is shallow enough to not employ you because of them then they are not the sort of person you want to work for' and he is right :) I was really surprised that Mark said this as he has always said he doesn't like them much and doesn't get (well, i thought he didn't) why i have them but he does know me and he knows that they are me...who i am!!! And if people are not going to accept me for me then that is their problem. I am happy with me (especially now) and i wouldn't change or cover up again for others!!! I spoke to my practice manager this morning and when i told her what he said she said 'what tattoo?' and when i said where it was she said that she had never noticed it and i have been working with her for a year now!!!!! It is a small tattoo on the inside of my wrist and my gloves (i obviously have to wear surgical gloves at work) cover it.
I did tell him this when he said about and i also told him that i had consulted with Mo about it when i had it done and she ok'ed it. he thought it went up my arm as all he saw was a glimpse of the end nearest my hand. He actually said 'oh, i see' in a thoughtful way. It kinda did sound like he reaslised that he was making a bigger deal about it than he should. But hey.......His fucking loss!!!!

Everyone has been totally awesome and all think he must be a 'total dickhead' lol and i am better off not getting it. Anyway.........After having a think about it this morning i got up feeling good :) and i have had a lovely day :) I rang mum & dad as i was in tears on the phone to them yesterday so they wouldn't worry, they were so releived that i was ok :)
We then went up to the allotment and built the new shed. Marks brother is down from London (hence the crappy food!!) and he helped, along with Marks step dad. Mark wanted me to pop up to mums to get some wooden boards and i came back with them and a.......................................Baby Rabbit!!!!!! My dad gave him to me, Mum had bought him at the market where they sell their chickens. Mark was very unimpressed but i love him....he is soooo cute. He is very chilled and loves cuddles. The dogs and cats seem ok with him (lola wants to love him to death but she will calm down hopefully) I have called him 'Stu' Mark actually said that he should be called that as in 'rabbit Stu' lol

One of my best friends, Bec's is taking me out for a bottle of red, some nibbles and a damn good gossip tomorrow night :) and i am going to wear my tiny little black sequiny dress :eek: I'll try and remember to get Mark to take a photo :)

Thank you so so much for your lovely words of kindness :grouphug: I am not going to cover it up at my next interview. i am not going to hide, i have spent my entire adult life trying to hide myself but not now, no more, i have worked hard and come too far. I will explain that gloves cover it and that i had consulted with my previous employer when i had it done. Thanks again for your love, it really does mean alot to me.
 
Great attitude Kate!! It is their loss! Good on Mark! You have a keeper there sweetie! So glad that you have it in perspective. Have a ball with Becs sweets- can't wait to see that photo! Lots of love, xoxo Cate
 
Now there's the Kate, we all know and love! What a great bounce back after a day of hurting...you are so right girl..you are who you are and it makes you great! Keep your chin up and be proud of the person you are! You have come so far in the weight loss...and your brain is starting to catch up with your body! That self confidence is starting to peek through! You go girl!

Sarah
 
Ok Kate, I had to take some time to comment on your diary, because when I first read about why you didn't get the job I was spewing all kinds of expletives and I didn't want to fill this box up with them! But, basically it went like this: :icon_bs:. Complete and total. It's funny though because I thought the same thing, you don't want to work for a guy like that anyway and he really missed out on a great nurse. I am convinced something even better will come along for you!


Glad to hear you are feeling better, pretty sure there isn't a problem on earth that can't be fixed by the sight of a baby bunny ;)


Hope you're having fun on your night out, I know you're killing it in that dress!
 
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