A new me! (hopefully, with some help)

AMorning all

I lost 2lb!!!!!!!! I am well chuffed with that :hurray: I've lost 51lb now. I have been stuck at 50 and just above since the middle of December!!!!!

I've just had a slice of christmas cake!!!! Yep, for breakfast lol. Off for my sunday morning run now. The weather is being kind to me, it has warmed up a bit and isn't raining!! :hurray:
 
Whoot!! Well done Kate!! You've jumped another hurdle sweets. :smilielol5:That's a crack-up that you had Xmas cake for breakfast! We had our Sunday night chocolate & enjoyed it, but I think your cake would probably have been even nicer. Go, Kate, go! xoxo Cate
 
Congratulations Kate! My kind a girl for having cake for breakfast!! You go girl!! I love it that you run right after that!! Over that hurdle now...no looking back!

Sarah
 
ADAY 219

Breakfast: Christmas cake!!! 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and jam
2nd breakfast: Another 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and jam (624 cals)
Lunch: 4 flatbreads with cheese and pate (360 cals)
Dinner: A bowl of beef stew (356 cals)
Snacks: 3 coffee's, kiwi's, banana cake and 4 biscuits...........so far!!! (621 cals)
Total calories = 1961!!!!!

Exercise: My usual sunday morning run :)

I've had a lovely day today :)

Starting with a 2lb loss and christmas cake!!!!! Oh boy, have i been waiting to eat that lol I did my 6 perfect day so i had some :) I might have a bit more in a bit, that or some chocolate. I have decided that sundays are going to be maintenance days which is 2000 cals (that's right, yes? Please tell me if this is wrong) and i burnt 746 cals on my run this morning. So i have up to 2746 that i can eat today :hurray: If i find that i am not losing then i will rethink. I am still going to count my calories, i think i have to so i don't go totally mad and spend all week losing what i have gained.

Our run this morning was awesome. The weather was really quite plesant :) I spent all day yesterday thinking 'if the bloody weather tomorrow is like this then i am so no going' We have been really lucky, i dont think that there has been a sunday that we haven't be able to go because of the weather :) Last week we did 2 min walk/2 min run interval all the way up and ran all the way back because it was my first run after my surgery. Today we did 2 min walk/4 min run interval up and ran all the way back (it's 5 miles, 7 if we go past the pub onto the car park but we didn't do that today) Next week we are going to do 2 walk/5 run up and run all the way back and we are going to aim to do the full 7 miles!

When i got home i had my second breakfast and a bucket of coffee :) I just totally love my second breakfast!!!! Then Mark and I made beef stew and put it in the slow cooker then made another batch of banana cake! We had a giggle being silly while we were baking, flicking mixture at each other like a pair of 5 yr olds lol. This lot was even nicer than last weeks :) I tidied up my clothes and had a shower. I then chilled on the sofa snuggled in a furry rug reading a book on my iPad, (I have downloaded loads of free books on it!!! it's just totally awesome) and even had a snooze. :)

Cate I know everyone says it but Africa was totally life changing for me and i'd like to think that i kept up with the changes my visit had made on me. Jack was so so proud of what i did out there and he took a photo album to school with him to show everyone. I struggled to talk about it when i got back but i did talk to him about it. I wanted him to understand what it was like there. It took me quite a few weeks to talk about it and to be honest i only really talked to family and close friends. I just couldn't talk about how it affected me, it was very personal. My close friend, Rob had worked in Africa a few years before and he was a total rock for me to offload my feelings of anger, sadness and frustration which really helped me deal with it.
Regarding the Dr, when i was 14 i went to see him because i had tonsilitus and he gave me a lecture about my weight and i left in floods of tears and swore that i would never see him again but i had to take Jack to see him a few times and was really impressed with the time and care he gave Jack and i started seeing him again (20 yrs later lol) So it was an extra special moment for me having him gushing over how well i looked after what happened when i was 14, which to be honest was one of those 'scared for life' moments!
And i AM weighing every day Cupcake :eek: I found that when i wasn't i would think i was doing ok so i could eat this or that and this week i have seen no loss on the bathroom scales every morning and it has really kept me on track all week and Yay i have lost 2lb and actually gone past that 50lb mark for the first time since mid dec!
AND.......My christmas cake was just the most perfect thing to eat this morning :) the best starter for breakfast ever!!

Princess I'm glad you like my photo's :) We went to Benin (it's between Togo and Nigeria) and we went with a charity called 'Mercy Ships' It is a christian (my boss is a christian but they are happy to take people of all religions) charity group that has a huge ship kitted out with operating theatres, wards etc that docks along the south coast of Africia, 10 months at a country before they move on (they are in Sierra Leone at the moment). The dental team went in land to work each day but lived on the ship. I went for 2 and a half weeks but there are people who have been there for years!!! Take a look www.mercyships.org

Sarah You are very welcome :) that's what we are here for. I thought i was going crazy and felt ungrateful for my acheviement when i had my 'moment' I'm glad i can be of help to you my lovely :)
Regarding Africa, My boss is going again this september and i was supose to be going with her but i couldn't commit because i don't know what is going to happen job wise. If i have to find another job, i can't really turn round and say to them that i am going to need a month off (that's how long we were going to go for this time) If it turns out that i have still got a job where i am now then the chances are that they will still let me go, fingers crossed.
I've never had cake for breakfast before! I've had left over pizza, indian, chinese etc in the past but not cake.....I might keep that as my pre sunday run tradition :)

I'm gonna aim for another 6 perfect days this week!!!!!
 
Your run sounds like so much fun Kate. I really enjoyed reading about your Sunday. I think it does us all good to have a day off or one where we allow our-selves some indulgences. I think that if I had done it when I was 36 kilos heavier I may never have made it to goal weight, but now when we are within cooee of our goal weight it just makes it feel more long-term. It's what most slim people do I think. The difference with me now is that it has to be only once a week & then the rest of the week I must keep under my calorie allowance. I think I'm going to weigh myself every day this week as I need to be really focussed. It seems like every time I up my exercise I put a kg back on. Your family seem so sweet & understanding Kate. It's lovely to feel supported & loved, xoxo Cate
 
ADAY 220

Breakfast: 50g porridge and blueberries (201 cals)
Lunch: Beef & veg stew and a yoghurt (238 cals)
Dinner : Beef & veg stew and 2 small slices of wholemeal toast (468 cals)
Snacks: 4 coffee's, 2 kiwi's, granola bar and a ricecake (361 cals)
Total calories = 1268

Exercise: None today.

Perfect day 1 done.....5 to go!!

I've had an average monday today :)

I had a great idea!! I thought it would be cool to put a film or episode of a series i watch on to my iPad so i can watch it while i run on the treadmill at the gym!!!!!! I can run for ages when i go running on a sunday and i think it's because it's pretty and i have someone to chat with. I really do get bored at the gym, I start the day thinking that i will do a long run that evening on the treadmill but when i am there i always come up with some excuse to stop after about 20 mins. But......It takes hours to convert them to mp4 files to put them on my Ipad so i am doing a load of them tonight and tomorrow after work i am going to go to the gym to watch 'Vampire Diaries' So excited!!!!! It's a 45 min episode so i will get a 45 min run in :hurray:

The back of my knee was sore again this morning. It's fine now but maybe not going to the gym tonight is probably a good idea.

Cate I totally know what you mean about not being able to have a 'day off' for most of our journeys. I knew that if i did it every week then i would struggle getting back on track the next day. Now i am so close to my target that i think i need to be able to control what would be close to normal food days when i am maintenance. I looked at MFP app and it says that i am to eat 2060 calories a day to maintain!!!!!! That, to me now is just shit loads!!! I have spent 7 months eating around 1200 cals a day. It will really be a learning curve getting it right. I know i am still going to have to count!!!
Weighing myself everyday again has really given my motivation a boast! I think i need to do it to keep me on the straight and narrow!
And yeah, my family are awesome. I am incredibly blessed and i have some totally wonderful, caring friends too :)
 
First let me say YEAH!!!!on you weight loss!!!!!!!!you are the best i love your attitude and all

1the way you love to work out and the way you achieve your goals!!!!!

I have had a really bad week , you know all about it sorry for not coming on here.I am feeling loads better , and reading your diary makes me think that "shit happens and we get through it" it was just now that you where recovering aswell from surgery and not thank goodness look at you!!!Getting ready for a 45 minute run tommorow

so i do feel a bit more possitive , hate feeling sorry for myself.I am a HUGE baby when ill.....


You doing the perfect days again!!!Great!you rock!
you always do and im so sure you are not obnly gouing to loose the pounds but going to be so super fit for you upcoming marathon!!!!!Cant wait for that to come!!!

Loves and kisses:grouphug:
 
Kate, I think I'll count my calories forever as I think that I will always have the tendency to regain weight easily. I'm ok with that though. The option of getting fat again is just NOT an option! I found maintaining much harder than losing, after completing Cohen's, but it was really only when I started feeling that my weight had stabilised that I relaxed my guard & gradually ate more & more, without weighing myself & whammo, a few kilos went straight back on, I 'comfort ate' whammo, a few more & so on until I had regained 10.5kg!! It has to be a lifestyle change & a permanent one. We must not go back to our old habits. We can do it! Losing weight slowly is so much more a learning experience, one that should set us up for the long term. With you being a runner you will blitz maintenance! xoxo Cate
 
Yay, congrats on the loss!!!!!!!!!!!! :hurray:


I'm still stuck around/ slightly more than I was a week before Christmas too, hopefully I'll break passed that while I'm on hols!!
 
ADAY 221

Breakfast: 50g porridge with blueberries (221 cals)
Lunch: The last of the left over beef & veg stew (178 cals)
Dinner: 4 breaded chicken strips with salad and light salad cream (378 cals)
Snacks: 2 coffee's, 3 rice cakes, 2 kiwi's, slim-a-soup, 97 cal crisps, banana & 100 cals of chocolate (505 cals)
Total calories = 1282

Exercise: 15 min walk & 45 min run!!!!!

I have spend all day desperate to get to the gym and do my run while watching an episode of 'vampire diaries'. I was so excited!!! But i was a bit worried that my iPad wouldn't sit on the treadmill properly or something else would stop it from actually being what i want it to be (if that makes sence) Anyway........It was freaking awesome!!!! :hurray: :hurray: I just ran and ran while i watched something i wanted to rather than watching the rubbish on the TV's there or staring at the wall!! and i didn't clock watch or have any little excuses pop into my head telling me i should stop!!! It was just perfect. i thought an episode was 45 mins long but it is only 40 mins so i just watched the first 5 mins of the next one. My iPad rocks!!
I did notice that the bottom of my right foot was aching for the last few minutes and my side too (the bit that has hurt before) but it wasn't too bad. I will try and be a good girl and not run tomorrow, i will do 40 mins on the cross trainer, or maybe even do some on the bike instead. Either way i get to watch my iPad while i work out now, it will make such a difference with keeping the bordom away :) I did get a few people look at it and at one point i had a girl, who was walking on the treadmill next to me watching it too but it's all good :)

I had a patient at work say to me (in a stern way) 'don't lose anymore!' and i just smiled and said 'ok' lol it was so easy to lie to her!!! I hate lying but that didn't dount lol

JessHeya sweetie. As always, you always say something to make me blush :blush5: You are so sweet :) Glad you are feeling better my lovely :)

Cate I think the key to actually succeeding at this weight loss lark is to realise that it IS for life! I have come to realise that i will need to count calories for the rest of my life because i know that if i don't i will slowly slip back into my old eating habits. I am cool with that though, Ican see now that it is do-able to stay at a healthy weight :)

Lucy Thank you sweetie :) Christmas has got soooooo much to answer for huh!!! But, i look at it as we haven't just let it all fall apart, ok we haven struggled a bit but we have kept going. :hurray:

Therealme :blush5: Thank you :) I really don't understand how everyone finds me inspiring but i do love it when my silly ranting can inspire people. Thanks for stopping by :) Xx

I've been really busy this evening, for the last few days really, so haven't had chance to check out other diaries, sorry. I WILL devote tomorrow night to you guys :)
 
Hey Kate,

As usual, you are doing awesome! 45 minute Run...you go girl!! I don't have an ipad...got an ipod touch that I use to just listen to music and do the chinese lessons..I'm glad you are rockin' to your ipad! Sounds great! I saw the blueberries on your post and I immediately could taste fresh blueberries...I'll be looking forward to them when they hit the stores here in China!

Keep up the good work!!


Sarah
 
ADAY 222

Breakfast: 50g porridge with blueberries (201 cals)
Lunch: 50g porridge with blueberries & a yoghurt (261 cals)
Dinner: Beef & veg stew (356 cals)
Snacks: 2 coffee's, 2 ricecakes, 2 kiwi's, banana & 2 nice biscuits (493 cals)
Total calories = 1311

Exercise: 27 mins on the cross trainer.

I am sooooooo hungry right now. I Have gone over my 1300 calories a little bit and i am probably going to have something else too so today is not a perfect day :( I guess it is just one of those days and i am going to go with it.

I intended to go on the cross trainer for 40 mins but my legs went shaky and i felt propper wobbly and a bit sick so i stopped. To be honest i have never ever done more than 30 mins on the crosstrainer, so my challenge is to build up to the amount Sarah does!!!! If that's possible :) I have had period kinda pains this evening so maybe i am going to have my period finally!!!! That might explain the hunger too.

Again a totally crazy evening so i haven't been able to read any diaries. i was on the phone to a friend in need for over an hour earlier and Mark isn't too well so i had to go and fetch Jack from Drama....Hopefully i will get chance to read diaries tomorrow.

Sarah I was getting bored with music, it just didn't keep me focused on the treadmill, i love music when i am out running but my iPad makes such a difference at the gym :)
I totally love blueberries and they are just awesome in my porridge, i put them at the bottom of the bowl, below the oats and then put the water on before i stick it in the microwave and it all bubbles up thru the middle so i have purple porridge!!!! Just love it!!!!
 
AHHH!!! You're doing so awesome, yay for getting over that 50lb mark!! That's so exciting!!


Those pictures are unbelievable! and so humbling -- what an amazing experience, thank you so much for posting them! I have to admit though, the one of you giving a filling a made me all squirmy :p It's awesome that the office you work in is so sensitive to people with fears about dentistry! Do you hear people's horror stories all the time? Are you sick of them? Weeeellll, since I can't hear your answer, I'm just gonna tell you mine anyway! ;) When I was 10 I had a cavity so my grandparents took me to go see a kids dentist, he started to put in the filling and about halfway through I was in a lot of pain so I told him and he said I didn't know what I was talking about, it was just pressure, but then it kept hurting to the point I was in tears and he told me to shut up. When my grandpa picked me up he said my face was white as a ghost and the dentist told him that since I was "carrying on" so much that he only put in a temporary filling. So fast forward two years later when I was way too scared to go back to the dentist and so found that same tooth needing a root canal. I told the doctor about my previous experience and he said he would make sure to numb me up really well. We got about half way through and I started to feel everything that was going on, when I told the doctor, he said we were too far in and that he couldn't give me anymore novacain and I would have to tough it out. So there I was feeling every little needle he stuck in my gums, hands clutched around the chair arms, butt completely off the chair, tears everywhere -- hands down the most painful thing I have ever experienced in my life (and I've had some pretty impressive injuries! ;) ) And now, I can not even get in the doorway of a dentists office without shaking. Pretty sure the next time I have to have something done, I'm just gonna have them knock me out, I can't handle it.. I think I have like dentist's office PTSD!! Anyway, I applaud you for working in dentistry, it's not something I could ever do.


Sounds like your iPad is a handy little workout companion!! I'm not jealous at all, either. :)icon_bs:) Oh, and I'm super proud of you for calling it quits on your workout when you felt that you had done enough! :) And I think 27 minutes is plenty impressive!!!
 
ADAY 223

Breakfast: 50g porridge with blueberries (201 cals)
Lunch: left over beef & veg stew and a yoghurt (238 cals)
Dinner: bowl of oxtail soup and 2 small slices of wholemeal toast (278 cals)
Snacks: 3 coffee's, 2 kiwi's, granola bar, rice cake, banana, 200 cals of chocolate (608 cals)
Total calories = 1325

Exercise: 15 min walk & 25 min run

Kate is grumpy and is probably gonna rant!!!!!!!

First off i have to confess about the pig out i had after i posted last night! I had some christmas cake, chocolate and biscuits!!!! I don't know what's wrong with me. I was totally fine all day but was just 'i need sugar' and caved and i am exactly the same today. :banghead:

I woke up this morning and weighed on my bathroom scales. (On my Wii scales i was 11st 10lb and i was 12st 2lb when i first got my scales back in the bathroom so i knew that they were very different) The lowest they had got was 12st and i was going up and down between that and 12st 5lb. Anyway i was a bit nervous about getting on them after last night and saw 13lb (i tend not to look at the stone number) and i was about to shout and swear ' what!!! i can't have gained like 10lb over night' when i realised that it actually said 11st 13lb!!!! I was so excited, i even went back into the bedroom and jumped up and down on a sleeping Mark lol. So it was a good start to the day. Work was fine. I wasn't going to go to the gym but i thought i better had due to last nights pig out so off i went intending to do another 45 min run BUT.......I was hurting. It is always in the same area, where i asume my right ovary is. I had to stop at 25 mins cos it was really quite painful. Do you think it is just still healing or whether there is something wrong? Or is it because i must be due my period? Oh, i don't know. Gggrrrrrrr!!!!! It doesn't hurt unless i am exercising. Maybe very occasionally at other times but mainly then.
This has made me feel really down and grumpy. I am hoping that it is due to my period being due but that was due over a week ago. I did have some bleeding after my surgery so i don't have a clue when now. I just hope it is that cos that wont mean that i am losing it and the wheels are falling off cos i really want to scoff biscuits right now!!!!!!! I'm wishing the sugar craving is hormones!!!

Ok i am gonna shut up now cos i am rambling. I am gonna try and read some diaries but i might not have anything constructive to say. I am a total waste of space when i feel like this. Sorry :(

Rosie Hello my lovely :) Glad you liked the photo's. I will definatly go again it's just a matter of when.
I'm so sorry you had to go thru that, it was totally un-necessary and avoidable!!!!!!!!!!! I really hate it when dentist's are rude, I have had to work with a few occasionally over the years but the dentist i mainly work with is great, we make a good team. We never shout or rush our patients!!! Having treatment done is not the most plesant experience in the world but it is our job to make it as easy as we can. If you didn't live soooooo far away i would say come and see us, we would make you see that it doesn't have to be like that! I do recommend asking people you know who they see and what they are like. And then go see someone that has had good feedback and just sit there and be honest with them about your fears and if you don't feel comfortable then you can just leave before they even look in your mouth. It is you right to see someone you can trust :)
I do love my job and like i said, the best bit is getting people over their fears and it is awesome when they are so grateful for the time, care and understanding we give them :)
 
Kate- it sounds like hormones to me, especially with those cravings! It totally sucks how they can rule our lives for so many days & years of our lives! Hormones are something I do NOT miss! I love hearing about how you & the dentist are so caring. We are really lucky to have a lovely dentist & I am never nervous when I go. I had similar nightmare stories from my childhood but am totally over it now thanks to him. The only thing I ever get nervous about is the bill!

I like the sound of your breakfast. I'm going to ask the Naturopath about oatmeal next Monday & I am missing my berries! Lots of love sweetie, xoxo Cate
 
Aw Kate I'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time!!!! Big squishies!!! :grouphug: I agree, I think it could be hormones. Hunny you eat WAY below maintenance anyway, why not up your calorie intake to 1500 or something for a few days until it passes? And if you're feeling pain in your stomach (I'm guessing that's from running/cardio) I suggest switching to weights for a few days (no ab exercises though!) If you feel the need to work out, I'd suggest hammering the leg press or doing some squats, maybe some assisted chins or lat pull downs, do some push ups, hip bridges, shoulder press. If you feel the need to do some cardio, go over to an elliptical machine and put your feet on the sides and just use the arms- really push and pull and make it hard for yourself! You'd be surprised at how high you can get your heart rate!! Or if your gym has one of those hand-cycle things jump on it! (I can never remember what they're called- it's like a bike, but you cycle with your arms). If you still get pain that you're worried about doing these then stop, it might be ok though because it's not full body.... still getting your heart rate up though!!

Unfortunately our bodies are not always going to be ok doing the same thing, so if you have to modify food/exercise for a few weeks then do it! Otherwise you might end up putting more stress on your body and yourself because you don't feel like you can stick to what you were doing before.


I know you can do this!!!!!!!!!!! :hurray:
 
Hey Kate,

Sorry you are having a tough time right now...I agree with Cate and luzdafuzz..hormones girl! Sucks!! Sounds like you might benefit from a brisk walk...nothing high impact. Weights could be good too...We love you...ranting or not, so stay with us!!


Sarah
 
ADAY 225

Breakfast: 50g porridge with blueberries (201 cals)
Lunch:...................
Dinner: Lamb steak, roast potatos, carrots, brocolli, peas and gravy (430 cals)
Snacks: 2 coffee's, 2 kiwi's, granola bar, yoghurt and a rice cake (371 cals)
Total calories = 1002

Exercise: Rest day.

Again i have coffessions of last nights extras.......chirstmas cake, banana cake, taxi choc biscuit, penguin choc biscuit and about 4 biscuits!!! :piggy:

I woke up feeling really low and grumpy again today and was quiet all day at work. I was looking forward to getting the shopping done then go home and curling up on the sofa festering in my own self pity BUT..............
When i got home Mark was watching a TV program and wanted to see the end of it before we went to do the shopping. My stomack felt all horrid and bloated so i filled the hot water bottle, got undressed and got into bed with it resting on my tummy in a hope of easing the pain, i nodded off and had a lovely snooze and when Mark came up he just got under the duvet with me and we snoozed some more and ya know what. I felt soooooo much better afterwards :hurray:

I was feeling so rubbish i thought i would just post my food and write 'grumpy' underneath it and leave it at that. I didn't want to go on about how rubbish i felt but i don't have to do that now as i feel better :hurray:
We had a lovely dinner together this evening and we confirmed our holiday booking!! :hurray: We are going to Torquay (seaside town in south Devon, we live in North Devon, it's about a 2hr drive away) We are going on 27th April for a nice long weekend :) So that cheered me up even more.

I still haven't had my period but i am feeling better mentally so it's all good.

I can't remember if i told you but i have to pick up my glasses (i haven't had to wear them before) tomorrow and i had a horrible dream the night before last (i have had some weird horrid dreams the last 3 nights) where i was being laughed at about them, kinda like school kids are if that makes sence, so i'm a bit nervous about getting them now :(

Do you remember me saying a while ago about a guy that Mark works with who has run the London marathon and that he had been congratulating me and giving me advice on running? Well, yesterday he text me and asked how my running was going and after a few texts back and forth i somehow managed to agree to go running with him on monday nights!!!!!! (not this week as he is away) What am i doing?? Ok, it will do me good to run with him so i improve and definatly get up to doing 10 miles properly but OMG the guy is a bloody machine, he has done a 26 mile marathon!!!!!! I must be bonkers!!! I'll let you know how hellish it is when we go :)

Ok, todays food has been good and I am not going to eat anything else this evening :) I am going to try and be awesome tomorrow too but Bec's is coming round to cut and colour my hair and that always involves a bottle of red wine :) I will try and keep my cals down during the day so hopefully i can till stay under. It's weigh day on sunday and i will be so so happy if i can manage to have not gained. After the last 2 days i know i will not have lost.

Thank you so so much guys for your loving support. I was really scared this morning. I don't think i have ever had two days straight of binge eating since i started my journey!! but reading your posts really helped. Thank you so much :grouphug:
 
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