A new me! (hopefully, with some help)

[jasper1]

Kate its great you managed to take control at work and also its great you set a goal!!!!YOu always seem to be extra good when you have alittle goal to reach!

I am not worried a bit for you i am sure you are going to be amazing as always!!!!

Are you feeling better?It is really for your own good that you arent going to be moving around a lot!YOu know that~Dont you?So hopefully next week you will be strong enough to give that run a go!

 

[mady1]

AHi Kate, first of all, for all every time you passed over those cakes and sweets. That’s just like you to get back on track!!!!!!!
I’m so glad you took everyone’s advice and decided not to workout this week. This way your body will have time to heal completely and “without rushâ€.
And that goal of 9 lbs is so doable, you’ll have no problem reaching it.

 

[katehunibun]

ADAY 207

Breakfast: 50g porridge with a banana (270 cals)
Lunch: The last of the left over roast & a yoghurt (421 cals)
Dinner: Vegatable lasagne and salad with light salad cream (338 cals)
Snacks: 4 coffee's, 3 kiwi's, ricecake and a cereal bar (256 cals)
Total calories = 1285

Exercise: Banned

I've had a really odd day today. Went to work this morning and was really chuffed that i didn't need any painkillers and i felt fine
At coffee break i cut Rachel a slice of the chocolate cake!!!!!! when i cut it my hand holding the knife actually twitched it's was towards my mouth on it's own!!! i'm not joking, it was like i had no control over it. Luckily i realised just in time and threw it in the sink!!!!! FHEW!!!
I started to feel a bit tired and sore at about 12 so took some painkillers but by lunch time i felt terrible and a bit sick too and eating lunch didn't make me feel any better Rachel made me go home at 2. I had a hot bath when i got home and then cruled up on the sofa and fell asleep for an hour. I felt loads better then Mark thinks i shouldn't go to work tomorrow but i am going to go in and see how i get on and come home if i need to. I have spoken to my boss and she is cool with that. The problem with my job is that if i don't go in then patients have to be cancelled and that stresses me right out, i hate letting people down!

I've had a good food day. When i came home this afternoon i really wanted to eat crap thinking it would make me feel better, i'm so so glad i didn't

Cate Resisting the stuff at work wasn't too hard today (other than the knife thing lol) I even cut some cake for someone else and didn't have any but i really struggled at home. There is still so much here left over from christmas gggrrrrrrrr...I did it though, i didn't have anything . I'm so determined to lose that 9lb!!!! It's been a long time since i set myself a mini goal and it has given me a good kick up the butt!

Lucy Thank you sweetie i've managed 2 perfect days now. Feeling quite proud, i will reach my mini target!

Jess I do seem to do better when i have a mini goal to aim for. I don't know why i haven't set one since christmas, maybe cos i failed at that last one. I was feeling better this mornng and i am ok now but this afternoon wasn't so good. I am shocked at how impatient i am to be back to full health and how totally intollerant i am to not being able to carry on like normal.

Mady Thanks for the i deserved lots today as i cut some cake for someone else
I have resigned myself to not doing any exercise now seeing as i couldn't manage a full days work today!!!
Thank you for having faith in me reaching that 9lb target. I really want to do it

 

[Cate]

Hi hun, I know that you are dedicated & obviously a very reliable member of staff, but honey, your health is one of your most important assets & you must make sure that you are well. Please don't over-do it. It is very soon to be going back to work, after what is a major surgery, if you didn't have it via key-hole. I'm not sure which one you had but I know after my last operation at 42yrs of age (partial hysterectomy, but left with ovaries) I wasn't 100% for many weeks, even with key-hole surgery, & felt quite weak. Everything inside has to re-arrange.I think hospital stays alone knock me around. My tubal ligation was too long ago to remember! (I was 33- 25 yrs ago now! )

I think that it is great that you are really chomping at the bit to go running again as it means you are now committed to running & getting really fit. Just so long as you temper that with logic & wait until your body is ready & won't be damaged. 9lbs by March is a BIG mini-goal sweetie. Please don't starve yourself or you'll have no energy to run! I'm sorry if I sound like a nag. I don't want to see you have a serious set-back & am part of your cheer squad.

Big hugs & lots of love. Softly, softly sweet friend, xoxo Cate

 

[Sparked]

that being said,


Kate: 1 Cake: 0 !!!!!!!


I was totally reading your post like it was movie or something. First there was the setup, and I was like oh man, cutting an entire cake, this is a bad situation. And then there was the suspense scene where I was sitting here thinking omg, is she going to do it it?? and then my yelling, "No! Kate! Don't do it!!" And finally the happy ending! Fantastic job, looks like you are all set to put last week behind you!!!

 

[katehunibun]

ADAY 208

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: left over veg lasagne & a yoghurt (332 cals)
Dinner: More left over veg lasagne, salad with light salad cream (338 cals)
Snacks: 3 coffee's, 3 kiwi's, banana, cereal bar, snackajacks and 2 oranges (444 cals)
Total calories = 1294

Exercsie: Banned!

I only managed a morning at work today I came home had another hot bath and slobbed on the sofa for the afternoon. I do feel alot better now. Hopefully i can manage a whole day at work tomorrow. My boss was really cool today, she didn't make me feel bad at all.

I have had another good food day...That's three in a row now I'm pretty chuffed with that seeing as i'm feeling rubbish.

EDIT>>>> I am wanting to eat some cake or something now and there is nobody here to stop me GGgrrrrrr! I WANT CAKE!

Cate Heya Cupcake I had your voice in my head today when i said that i needed to go home at work. I know i need to put myself first but just hate letting people down.
I was only sterilised, ok, i had a general, they went thru my stomach but all they did was put bands around my tubes, i don't think it was that major. But i do know that i am being super impatient with myself and i will defintly ease up You are such a caring, lovely person.
I know that 9lb is a massive amount to lose by 1st march, especially seeing as i'm so close to my target but i am not gonna beat myself up about it if i dont reach it, i think i just need a huge target to make sure i dont eat spiced biscuits or christmas cake or anything else that i shouldn't. I will be a good girl and make sure i eat enough. I am eating over 1200 Can't have you shouting twice lol And you are so NOT a nag hun. You are a total darling

Rosie Kate:3 Cake:0!!!! Hopefully it will be gone tomorrow but that is 3 days now where i have walked past cake lots And the choc cake covered knife incident felt like an out of body moment, I love how you decribed it lol so funny!!! I could just picture you doing the 'NOoooooo' in real slow motion lol

 

[Cate]

"DAY 208" WOWSERS!!!!

"Total calories = 1294" WELL DONE YOU!

"Exercise: Banned!" Exercise: Post-phoned while I heal

"I have had another good food day...That's three in a row now

I'm pretty chuffed with that seeing as I'm feeling rubbish."

"Cate Heya Cupcake

I had your voice in my head today when i said that i needed to go home at work. I know i need to put myself first but just hate letting people down......But i do know that i am being super impatient with myself and i will defintly ease up

You are such a caring, lovely person......You are a total darling " Thank you sweetie!

"Rosie Kate:3 Cake:0!!!! Hopefully it will be gone tomorrow but that is 3 days now where i have walked past cake lots And the choc cake covered knife incident felt like an out of body moment, I love how you decribed it lol so funny!!! I could just picture you doing the 'NOoooooo' in real slow motion lol" I thought


I thought Rosie's post was a scream as well- very funny & so is describing the choc cake covered knife incident as being almost an out of body moment. That's hilarious & I can now picture it in slow motion as well.

Well done Kate on resisting temptation & also on going home from work. Having general anaesthetic the last time had me laid low for 6 weeks! I can't have it any more as I had an Asthma attack in the middle of the op. & they had to shove tubes down my throat. No-one bothered telling me about it at the time & I wondered why I had such a sore throat for weeks afterwards! My hysterectomy was done with an epidural. Sending you healing thoughts sweetie, xoxo Cate.

 

[mady1]

AHi Kate, congrats on 3 perfect days.
Super well done on that knife part, I don’t think I could have stopped.
As Cate said, recovering from general anesthesia takes more time and is slower than an epidural. So take your time to relax and heal.

 

[katehunibun]

ADAY 209

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: Toast with light spread and jam (320 cals)
Dinner: 3 fishfingers, 125g oven chips and baked beans (413 cals)
Snacks: 2 coffee's, cereal bar & yoghurt (202 cals)
Total calories = 1115

Exercise: Post-poned while i heal

I didn't have a perfect day yesterday i ended up having a cereal bar and 2 'option' hot chocolates!!!!! so ended up having nearly another 200 cals!!!! I felt i had to be honest and tell you what i did
But today i have had nearly 200 under to make up for it

I didn't go to work today. And i stayed in bed until after 2pm. I had a headache last night, still had it when i woke up to wee during the night and it was still there this morning so i thought 'ya know what, it's not worth it, i'm not going to work' My boss was totally cool when i rang her which made me feel better about not going in. I didn't sleep all morning but i did sleep alot of it, i must have needed it. I aim to go in tomorrow, we only work til 2pm on a friday so i should be ok.

I was good and lazy this afternoon too and curled up on the sofa and finished my book 'One day' It was an awesome book, if anyone hasn't read it it is a must! (don't watch the film, read the book)

Mark is watching 'the hairy bikers - best of british' it's a food program and they are making cheesecake..........OMG!!! not fair!!!

Cate Day 208, now 09 is mind blowing huh. I can remember getting excited about reaching day 50! And look, i changed my exercise! I think i have accepted that i went back to work too soon, i feel so much better this afternoon. It really didn't occur to be that it would take me so long to get over it.

Mady I didn't do 3 perfect days i had a bit of a blip last night but it wasn't too bad, i've done way worse. I am quite impressed that i have managed to stay under today, i am worse when i am at home on my own. I suppose i did stay in bed most of the day which kept me out of the kitchen lol. The knife thing was funny, it still makes me smile thinking about it. It is funny how we just automatically do things isn't it.

 

[Cate]

Hi hun, I'm having awful internet problems so will be quick. Hope you recover soon sweetie. Glad you spent the day at home, instead of going to work. You must have needed that rest, xoxo Cate

 

[luzdafuzz]

Hey sweetness, glad you are taking the time to chill out and heal properly. Your body will be thanking you for it!! I'm glad you've stopped being so hard on yourself because of it too. Sorry I haven't been posting much recently, been so tired and can hardly even be bothered updating my own really!! I am reading though!


Hope you feel better soon!! :biggrin:

 

[jasper1]

Kate its good you stayed home and rest,you do need to your body is telling you!I think that its great having such good food days even though you are feeling not so well still.You are doing great!!!!

Sorry i have been away a couple of days i was reading though just couldnt find the strenght to post , i was so tired.

Did you go in to work today as planned?Hope you feel better sweetie!Thinking of you

 

[katehunibun]

ADAY 210

Breakfast: 50g porridge (180 cals)
Lunch: 97 cal crisps, 2 kiwi's, cupasoup and a yoghurt (300 cals)
Dinner: 3 breaded chicken strips with salad, courgette relish and light salad cream (351 cals)
Snacks: 4 coffee's, snackajacks, toast with marmite & a slice of banana cake (496 cals)
Total calories = 1327

Exercise: Still resting.......

I went to work and worked right through until we finished Ok, so it was only until 1.30pm but i was fine I really was fine, it felt good being able to work, finally i am getting back to normal!! Yay!!
I am going to go for a run on sunday morning....Before you all start shouting at me, i am going to walk and do interval running and if i can't do much then i will just walk it. I will only do what i can do, i promise not to be stupid and push myself too hard Honest, i promise

I got home from work and expected to sit and read or something relaxing but instead i sorted some washing, cleared up the dog poo in the garden, tidied up in the kitchen a bit and made a cake!!!!! My nan keeps giving my mum lots of fruit that she doesn't eat and then mum bloody gives it to us!!! What are we supose to do with about 20 banana's????? make a cake!!! I don't make them normally cos i am rubbish at making cakes. I am a really good cook (or so i'm told) but i rarely make cakes so am not too good at it. Anyway i thought i have got to do something with these bananas so i made Banana cake. I thought 'i won't have any....i won't have any!!' Yeah right lol. Because we had sooooooooo many banana's i made a double batch so we have 3 loaves of it and OMG it smelt awesome so i just couldn't resist. I did have a small slice and it was awesome!! Yummy!!! I managed to keep my cals to just over 1300 so it's not too bad but i didn't want to go over 1300 at all this week and i have done it twice now

It really has been killing me that i haven't been able to weigh. I really think i am in better control if i have an idea of what i weigh so.....i got a battery to put back into my bathroom scales I couldn't quite remember what i weighed on them the last time i used them but i was 2lb lighter than i remembered so i was pretty chuffed with that. I'm not saying i have lost that amount cos i really don't know but i will just keep an eye on things with those scales. I have been scared to put my jeans on as my stomach has felt really swollen and bloated, i have been living in leggins and long tops, anyway, after dinner i tried them on and they were fine, even maybe a little looser than before My head thinks that i have gained alot so it was nice to see that hopefully i haven't.

Cate Hope your internet is sorted by now I think my sleepy day yesterday did the trick, i felt so much better today. I was worried that i would struggle to sleep last night as i had slept for a large part of the day but i fell asleep really quickly and slept all night, i must have needed it

Lucy Cheers sweetie. I really think i have turned the corner, i feel so so much better today.......i'm really chomping at the bit to go running now but i will wait until sunday, i'll take it easy tomorrow too. See i am being a good girl Hope you feel better soon and i'm sending you lots of energy vibes Xxx

Jess Don't worry about being away, i know how life gets. I just hope you are well and everything is ok Yay! I managed work today and was fine. So pleased to get back to normality. I have done pretty well this week food wise, not as perfect as i would have liked but not too bad seeing as my normal routine has been blown out the window and i have been grumpy and feeling crap. Hopefully i will have managed to actually lose some weight this week but i am not going to beat myself up about it if i don't, i know i have done no exercise what so ever for 2 weeks!!!!! Sending you lots of love and hope life eases up for you hun Xxx

 

[Sparked]

So glad to hear you are feeling better! I trust that you'll take it easy on that run walking combined with short, manageable run intervals because you know that you'll have to answer to all of us if you don't!

MMM banana cake, I don't blame you for not resisting, I couldn't have either, and I don't hate many things as much as I hate seeing food go to waste, so I forgive you 3 loaves is a lot to have hanging around though, maybe your neighbors would be interested in some delicious, homemade banana cake??

If you find yourself with more bananas, something I like to do is cut them up and freeze em and then throw em in a blender, it tastes just like ice cream! You could even add a little chocolate or peanut butter or something. Really good.


And ooo loose pant is such an awesome feeling, nicely done!!

 

[katehunibun]

ADAY 211

Breakfast: 2 slices of wholemeal toast with light spread & marmite (145 cals)
Lunch: Pasta & egg salad (estimate 381 cals)
Dinner: 3 breaded chicken strips with salad, courgette relish and light salad dressing (331 cals)
Snacks: 2 coffee's, granola bar, cappuccino, small peice of banana cake and 2 kiwi's (435 cals)
Total calories = 1292

Exercise: Roll on tomorrow......She is gonna be back to it

I went all day with no painkillers!
I have had quite a nice day Had to get up pretty early and do town stuff cos Jack had an eye test appointment in Barnstaple this morning. I managed the day pretty good, only had a few twinges in my stomach when i was walking around the shops. I'm not sure how running will go tomorrow but i will know when to stop! I will be a good girl.

I have something embarassing to tell you, another one of Kate's mental distortions Yesterday i mentioned that i had been scared to put my size 12 jeans on cos i was convinced that they wouldn't fit, well, I have to admit that when i got them i wore them for ages before i put them into wash (i only wore them when i went out and never worn them round the house etc so they wouldn't get dirty) because i secretly thought that the slight shrinking you get after washing new jeans would mean that they wouldn't fit anymore and burst my size 12 bubble and prove that it wasn't true and that i was just kidding myself thinking it!!!! What a total headcase huh!!!! I was overjoyed when i tried them on last night so this morning when i got dressed i decided to wear them and they are definitely looser They use to dig in a little bit around my stomach when i sat down before but i didn't have that problem today I don't feel smaller and i dont think i look smaller when i look in the mirror so maybe they grew in the wash lol

Tomorrow is weigh day and i'm really quite nervous about it, i really don't feel that i have lost anything and i know that i would be gutted if i have gained, i know i had a pretty bad week last week but i have really tried to be good this week. I haven't done any exercise for 2 weeks now!!!! Oh well, we will just have to wait and see. I will weigh on the bathroom scales too so i can keep track of how i am doing over the week.

Rosie Heya sweetie Yay i do feel better, a few twinges but nothing really and that was only after i had done lots of walking around. I will be a good girl and listen to my body when i go out for my run interval run lol. I totally know what a bollocking i would get from you guys if i over did it!!! I can't wait to go and give it a try, i have been so desperate for days and days now lol.
I did have a tiny bit of the banana cake today but i gave Mark and Jack a massive peice each so there is 2 loaves left, i reckon one will go tomorrow and i will put the rest in their lunches until it has gone. To be honest it didn't taste half as nice as it did yesterday when it was still warm so i don't think i would be willing to use up calories on it again, not when i have chocolate in the fridge!!!!!
I'm loving the freezing the banana's idea, i'll give that a go in the morning cos we still have about 6-8 left

Ok, i'm gonna go and check out everyones diaries and then i'm gonna watch paranormal activity I haven't watched a horror film since my teens, exciting I was always too scared!!!!!

Wish me luck for tomorrow.....weigh in and Run!!!!! Let's hope i can move that ticker in the right direction

 

[mady1]

AHi Kate, first day without painkillers , that means you’re on your way to a full recovery . But that doesn’t mean you are there yet. So please take it slow tomorrow and listen to you body. I know it’s been really hard for you not exercising these past weeks but Rome wasn’t built in a day . So, if you’re not going to be able to run tomorrow and just walk, don’t get upset. You’ll build up your endurance again slowly.
Sending you lots of positive vibes and wishes for a nice weather on your run walk

 

[katehunibun]

AMorning all

I have gained 1lb but i am actually ok with that!!! I know i have done no exercsie for two weeks and have eaten badly some days so it's all good.

Starting a fresh today I am changing my mini target to 7lb instead of 9lb to be a bit more realistic.

Off for my awesome run interval run

 

[katehunibun]

AI did it!!

We did 2 min walk/2 min run interval runs all the way up and then ran all the way back. I only had to walk for 2 mins after about 10 mins of running!!! And i was fine!!! I felt a few twinges to start with but all good I then did Sophies C25K with her and that was fine too.

I feel great!!!! So chuffed that all was ok.....I can get back to normal now

Just having lunch and then gonna have a long soak in the bath and chill for the rest of the day

I am not going to worry too much about cals today, I have burnt 760 and i'm gonna eat them lol

 

[mady1]

AHello sweetie, first of all, don’t beat yourself up for that lbs gained. I think you’ll lose it really fast since you’ve started exercising again. It’s really good that you revised your mini goal. If you think that’s more accomplishable, go for it.

Second of all, YOU MANAGED TO RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!


Way to go!!!!! You have all the reasons in the world to fell chuffed . You really are inspirational, motivational and all the other synonyms in the dictionary . This time, nothing’s stopping you to get ready for that running event in the fall.
Lots of hugs for you

 

[katehunibun]

ADAY 212

Breakfast: 2 small slices of wholemeal toast with light spread and marmite (185 cals)
Lunch: 4 small slices of wholemeal toast, half with cheese and half with jam (420 cals)
Dinner: Roast chicken, dry roast potato & parsnip, carrots, peas, cauli & brocolli cheese and gravy (356 cals)
Snacks: Granola bar, coffee, christmas cake, biscuits and 97 cal crisps (827 cals!!)
Total calories = 1788

Exercise: 40 crunches, 20 cherry picking (i have no idea if that's their real name but Sophie told me about them. You sit with your legs in the air a bit and reach either side of you like you are picking something off the floor by the side of your bum, they really work the side of your stomach and waist and are proper hard!!!) Oh....and lots of walking and running!!

Check out my naughty day lol I wanted christmas cake sooooooo badly so had some and it was heaven

OMG It's soooooooooooooooo good to be back running!!!! I have really really missed it. My bloody legs are really sulking right now though!!!! My stomach on the other hand is totally fine I am gonna go to the gym tomorrow but i am probably go on the cross trainer and do weights, i will try my hardest to not have a sneaky run

Had a lovely hot bath after my run to try and ease my achey legs and then just chilled and nodded off in front of the TV this afternoon. Bliss
I watched 'Paranormal activity' 1&2 last night!!!! OMG i am such a girl when it comes to horror, it scared me shitless lol. I really liked it and Mark thought it was so funny, me jumping out of my skin all the time. I sat and watched them on my laptop with headphones in while he played on the PS3! Aparantly i was rather entertaining!!!!!!

I am cool with my gain, weirdly, I know that i haven't eaten brilliantly and have done no exercise whatsoever. This week i am going to be awesome!!! I am going to have 6 perfect days this week where i don't go over 1300 for any reason!!! I am on it...

Mady Aww hun my run was awesome. I was pretty nervous that it would hurt but it was fine. I had a few twinges for about the first 10-15 mins but nothing that would make me worry. And we decided that we would try running all the way back down but if i had any problems then we would walk it. Jane is as bad as you lot, making sure i was ok all the time, bless her. It's funny how totally aware i was of my stomach, it was like i was waiting for it to hurt so the slightest thing worried me but like i said i was fine. I did notice how much flabbier i was and i could soooooo feel my belly bouncing while i was running. Gotta sort that and pretty damn fast lol