A new me! (hopefully, with some help)

A9 pounds in three weeks is incredible, can't believe you had a fat day yesterday!

And your Mum is asking you for advice!!!! :D

Hows Rob getting on at uni? x
 
AAURGH GIRL!!!!!!! CHECK OUT YOUR TICKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry I haven't been checking up on you much lately, lovely! I'll be a better fat-forum-sista from now on! xxx
 
AMEANWHILE those pics are incredible! It IS amazing how much healthier and happier you seem! And you really have lost so much from everywhere!

And you really look SO beautiful in that dress! You should wear it every time you have the chance! GORGEOUS!
 
ADAY 94

Breakfast: 2 wheatabix
Lunch: Chicken salad with coleslaw
Dinner: A little bit of chicken pie with mash and brocolli with gravy
Snacks: 2 light Alpen bars

Exercise: 100 crunches, 50 bridges and weeks 2's C25K run thingy

Yesterday i put that Rachael had mentioned that someone had told her i was all slim. (oh, i've since found out that it wasn't Rob, it was Bec's fella)Well, i had a bit of a stress about what she will imagine me to look like when she comes home at christmas. I get nervous when i see people that i haven't seen for a while cos it makes me uncomfortable when they mention my weight loss, I thought ' what if she thinks i am gonna be slimmer than i am' and 'what if i have piled it all back on by the time she comes back' I hate being such a fucking headcase!!!!!! I mentioned this to Mark and he said that i won't pile it all back on because i have turned into a freak lol. He is confident that this is me now, he said he can't see me not reaching my target and staying there. Bless him. he also said 'you need to stop worring about what other people think, you have done this for you....nobody else!!!'

Went to lunch again with Bec's and little Austin. I mentioned to her about Rachael saying about me being super slim and she said 'oh, it was Dave who told her, i'm so sorry' I felt so guilty, bless her. I managed to perswade her that i didn't mind, i just need to get my head round it all. I am so annoyed with myself for stressing about it in the first place. Why the hell can't i just be happy that it's mentioned. 75% of the time i am but it really freaks me out the rest of the time and then i feel bad for complaining.

Went to the gym after work and did week 2 of my new C25K. it was 1 and a half min fast run/2 min normal run..X6. It was really quite hard towards the end and the last fast run felt like 1 and a half hours not minutes but i kept going!!! :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:
Gemma (i have mentioned her before, she works at the gym) is leaving!!!! :cry: She has been totally amazing and so encouraging. We have had some really long chats and she 'gets me' if that makes sence. She has given me her mobile number so i will definatly keep in touch. I think a night out with a few glasses of wine is must.

Ooooh, Me and Mark are going out on 28th oct. A really good friend of ours died last oct and a whole load of us are going out to celebrate him. (his funeral was the most amazing night, he would have loved it and we are going out to celebrate him again, he would be so impressed with that) It is also Marks birthday so i think i am gonna have to wear my Little black dress!!!!! Exciting. Other than being nervous about everyone commenting!!!!! God, i need to get over myself!!!!

Sorry for being a whinging old cow today!!!!

Ruthie Heya sweetie. Bobby is doing much better. He sounded much more positive towards the end of the week. He was just being really impatient with himself. He really loved the lectures he had on friday and had had a meeting with tutors so is feeling more confident. Can't wait to hear all about your second week :)
 
AJoh....You snuck that one in. I nearly didn't see it!!

Thank you so much sista!! I put them on for you :)
My ticker freaks me out.....I only have teens to lose!!! :hurray: exciting! I have to admit that i will probably move it down to about 150lb when i get there but i will see WHEN i get there. I never thought i would get anywhere near my goal when i started. But i know i will get there now. Freaky huh!!! It's weird that i am so confident that i will get there when in the past i have never aimed to actually not be fat anymore. I have always just wanted to be 'smaller than i was'

Thanks for your support sweetie. It really does mean a lot. :grouphug:
 
AIts lovely that you are se,ebrating your friend that passed away.I really think that its great and loving to do that in his memory!

As for you stressing on compliments , i havent felt like that, so i dont really know if i can help , but its ok just relax you know you looking great everyone else does too and dont be worried if you make healthier choices and just keep working out you will NOT gain it back!plus you are so determined i dont think you;ll let that happen!
 
ADAY 95

Breakfast: 2 wheatabix
Lunch: Ham, lettuce & light mayo granary sandwich. 97 cal crisps and a yoghurt
Dinner: Leftover small peice of chicken pie, mash and brocolli with gravy
Snacks: Light Alpen bar and an apple

Exercise: 100 crunches, 50 bridges, 10 min walk, 20 min interval running (wk 2 C25K) 3x12 chest press's on level 1, 3x12 tricep extentions on level 2, 3x12 bicep curls on level 2 AND 100 reps on the Abs machine!!

I'm still a stupid mental headcase but have talked to Rachel, the hygienist at work, today and Rob about it this evening. I feel better and i think that i am just gonna have to be honest with people if i feel uncomfortable talking about my weightloss. I am just gonna say that i struggle with talking about it and try and change the subject. I really don't understand why i am being like this. Maybe i just STILL struggle with attention, i have never coped with that. it's one of the reasons i have never married Mark, the thought of being the centre of attention on a wedding day totally horrifies me!!!
I will be ok again in a few days. It hasn't made me want to stop on my journey, i just wish it wasn't such a big deal for others. It's weird, I am fine with compliments from you guys and from people i love but i just can't cope with it from everyone else. Like i said......headcase :eek:

Talked to Rob on skype for an hour and a half this evening. He is getting well into his course and sounds like he is loving it. We had a really deep conversation about all sorts of random shit, including my messed up head!!! We are going to see him this weekend......Can't wait!!!!

Jess Thanks for being a sweetie. I don't think anyone can advise me on this one. I don't understand it myself. Hopefully i will be over it soon.
Freddie (our friend that passed away last year) was one of the loveliest people you could have ever met. His funeral was the first funeral i have ever been to that was actually a celebrations of his life. The most moving thing ever and the 'party' aferwards was perfect, just what Freddie would have wanted. It was really weird cos he had an identical twin brother so it was like he WAS there.

tomorrow i am not going to mention my headcase issues and hopefully i will never mention it again!!!!!
 
AYes, my lovely, you are a mental headcase, and you need to get over yourself :roflmao:!!!!!! Sorry.

I hate it if I bump into people when I have gained weight. Its like a white elephant in the room. And the elephant is me. Or was me. Soon being overweight will be distant far off memory to you and everyone else.

You are doing amazingly with your running and exersice!

You will look amazing in you lbd :) Its really nice that you are all meeting up again.
 
Very cool diary you got going on here Kate!


You've done such amazing progress, I'm envious fo you, and happy! :D Gotta share around your tips and secrets haha.


Hope you get around all the attention thing, and stop stressing about it.. you've done amazingly well and still are :)
 
ADAY 96

Breakfast: 2 wheatabix
Lunch: Ham, lettuce and light mayo granary sandwich. 97 cal crisps and a yoghurt
Dinner: 3 beaded chicken strips and salad with light ceaser dressing and some courgette relish
Snacks: 97 cal crisps, 2 apples and a light Alpen bar

Exercise: 100 crunches, 50 bridges, 10 min walk, my 20 min C25K interval running, 3x12 chest presses, 3x12 tricep extentions, 100 reps on the abs machine, 20 weight exercise for hips and a 10 min hip workout that i found on youtube.

I had a much better day today. I saw someone i use to work with at the old practice and she said 'wow, you've lost so much weight' and i said 'yeah, thanks.' and changed the subject and i was fine with that. :hurray:

The gym was really hard today. I so nearly gave up with my run on my second to last sprint run but clenched my teeth and pushed on thru. Not sure why it was so hard, maybe cos i have been running every day for 4 straight days now, i can't go to the gym now til next monday cos i'm away this weekend so wanted to get lots in before i went (i know.....freak!!!) Gemma showed me how to slightly change the stuff i am doing on the machines to get maximum results......boy did they hurt!! She showed me what to do to help my hips reduce too as they seem to be stuborn in getting smaller compared to the rest of me.

Oh, oh, oh.........Big confidence moment today. I sat up after doing my chest presses and infront of me the wall is one giant mirror, which i never look at. Well, today i caught a glimpse of myself and didn't screw my face up in discust and look away like i usually do. I actually looked at my body and thought 'wow, you look like a normal person now' How is that for getting there with acceptance!!!!

Ruthie Yep, i know i am a mental headcase :) It really helps being able to express my 'issues' on here and to have you guys laugh at me, it makes it all seem better somehow. ROTFLMFAO?? lol i'm glad i can entertain :smilielol5:

DMR Cheers for stopping by. 'cool diary'?? i just see it is my insane rants, excited squealings and lots of help and love from the awesome people on here that have given me the encouragement to continue with my journey.
And regarding sharing my tips and secrets, well, i don't have any other than i have turned from a mega fat lazy slob to a OCD freak who is obsessed with counting calories and going to the gym. I have no idea why i am doing so well, it's quite embarassing really, probably explains why i am not copeing with people commenting on my weight loss as i haven't found it a struggle and don't deserve to be doing so well.
I don't know if you have read my diary from the start, but i started off very differently. All these wonderful people on here are the reason i am doing so well. They rock. Stick with this forum mate, it can change your life too.
 
AWell one on persevering at the gym although it was tough. Glad you are liking what you see in the mirror ;)

What do you need to do to get your hips to reduce? I have the opposite problem and I want them to stay as big as possible in comparison to my waist so I don't want to do what your doing lol.
 
ADAY 97

Breakast: 2 wheatabix
Lunch: Ham salad with light salad cream and courgette relish, 95 cal crisps
Dinner: Tin of 'big soups' cumberland sausage and vegatables and a small bread roll
Snacks: A few softmints, a few polo's, light Alpen bar and a 97 cal bag of crisps

Exercise: 100 crunches and 50 bridges.

I have struggled with eating today, oddly, i was stuffed at luchtime so didn't have my yoghurt and i didn't finish my dinner either for the smae reason and it was only soup!!! I have felt bloated and fat today! Not sure why. Maybe i just need a rather large fart :eek:
We are going to my brothers for the weekend tomorrow and i'm not gonna be here to weigh on sunday morning so i will do it tomorrow morning. To be honest i don't think i have lost this week but i am cool with that. I know i can't lose every week and so far i have managed to. i haven't eaten badly i just think it's about time i reached this plateau everyone talks about. I am going to really try and still eat healthy while i'm away and i'm gonna take my laptop so hopefully i will still get to post my diary but if not then i will catch up when i get back.
I have bought 2 birthday cakes today!!!! one for my nephew, Thomas, and one for Bobby (they share the same birthday) i aim to not have any but who knows!! i only have 2lb to lose to reach 2 and a half stone so i will just have to keep thinking that.

Ruthie I wouldn't go as far as saying that i am liking what i see i the mirror. More like not being disgusted by it. Hopefully one day i will like it :) My hips are not all nice and rounded, they kinda look squareish. They look out of proportion to the rest of me at the moment but i'll get there, they just need work. The exercises she gave me were just holding weights in both hands and bending over sideways, i supose it's like a waist strech.
 
AJjjay!!! Where have you been?! I've missed you

It's all going really good, still going strong :)

I am LOVING round 2 of my C25K. I finished it once. I did my first 20 min run on my birthday (11th aug) and it was amazing!!! Take a look at the post that day in my diary, it will make you laugh. I was so so excited. I Am doing it all again but this time i am running on speed 11.0 (i ran at 9.0 before) and instead of walking i run on speed 9.0. it took me a good few attempts to be able to do it faster but i finally managed it last week. I am on week 2 now so i'm doing 1 and a half min on 11.0 and 2 mins on 9.0, 6 times. I'm loving the challenge and boy is it a challenge.

I am so glad you are back, hope everything is going well with you.
 
Ahave a grat time at your brothers!and take care of the evil b.cakes....They are really evil....trust me...
hope you can post while away and also tell us your weight tommorow!
 
AHave a good time :D

I feel extra fat today as well. The scales have gone down 3 pounds. I think its my face though, I feel all fat faced and horrible.
 
ADAY 98

Breakfast: 2 wheatabix
Lunch: One peice of grilled bacon in one slice of bread, no butter, just a little brown sauce, 97 cal crisps
Dinner: spagetti meatballs with weight watchers garlic bread
Snacks: Alpen bar, apple, about 6 mints (i seem to be addicted to them at the moment) 3 glasses of wine! Whoops....No choc birthday cake though!! YAY :hurray:

Exercise: 100 crunches and 50 bridges

Usual day at work and then manic shower, pack and off for a 3 and a half hour drive to my brothers. Had dinner and NO CAKE. Thomas, my nephew was well impressed with his birthday cake. A few glasses of wine and a damn good catch up with my bro and sister in law. Off to spend the day with Rob tomorrow. Hopefully i can have a good food day then cos i have had about 1500 cals today. 300 more than i should :( but hey ho!!

I didn't do an official weight today cos i got on the scales in the bathroom this morning and they were up by 1lb (i think, i can't remember what they were last sunday, they are all over the place) so i didn't wanna piss myself off by doing an official weigh in on the Wii. It is two days early so i am just gonna miss this weeks and wait til next week.

Jess Yay!! I didn't have any cake and it was next to me for about an hour too!!!! Didn't even pick any smarties off it!!! :hurray: :hurray:

Ruthie Yay 3lb loss :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: Fat faced??? i think we all get days like that. Some days i look in the mirror and think 'OMG i look so different' and other days i think 'OMG i look so fat and bloated and wrinkly. You will feel better soon.....Well done on losing 3lb of the weight you had gained, that's like half of it!!! Well please for you girly. :)
 
Hi Honey

I have been playing hooky for a few weeks and just spent the last hour catching up on your diary, girl you are INSANE!! FUNNY!! HYSTERICAL!! NUTS!!! and LOVELY!!!


WELL DONE!!


My pooch is snoozing on the couch near by and she gave me a couple of "looks" when I laughed out loud or when I nearly fell off my chair when you wrote "Maybe i just need a rather large fart :eek:"

Oh my I laughed till I cried!


You look gorgeous that dress is perfect on you - you definitely should should start "doing dresses".




After catching up with your diary I read your first post and I cannot believe that it was written by the same person, you have come such a long way!


In one of your posts I can't remember which you said something like I used to be such a Lazy person etc etc. Do you feel like this applied to all areas of your life or just to the excersize part of it?

The reason I ask is because sometimes I feel like I have chronic lazyness and not only when it comes to excersize also when it comes to other stuff in my life, I just don't have the drive to move my butt and do stuff that i WANT to do, It doesn't make sense! I feel like it must all be connected. I noticed that you keep pretty much a daily diary here - do you feel like that helped, the process of logging on and recording your food and thoughts every day? I have a food tracker that I fill in and it definitly helps but I suck at keeping diaries so I guess we should add lack of staying power along side chronic lazyness.


Any way I hope that you are having a lovely weekend away and enjoying seeing friends and family.

you are an inspiration keep strong.


xxxxx

:hat:
 
ADAY 99

Breakfast: 2 sheadded wheat
Lunch: .............uuum a sherbert lolly!!!
Dinner: Some nacho's, 2 breaded deep friedd prawns, 2 deep fired onion rings, 2 potato wedges, 2 small peices of garlic chiabatta (whoops!!!)
Snacks: A huge cappachino, a pink of lager and a few boiled sweets, oh and some of Bobby's birthday cake!!! 2 glasses of red wine (oh god, i really don't wanna think about todays cals!!)

Exercise: bugger all!!!

Ok, so not a good food or exercise day but i am not gonna beat myself up about it. I had an awesome day today. It was totally lovely catching up with Rob, we just wandered round Winchester, drinking coffee, beer and eating food. I have had a awesome day. really loved it. And didn't worry too much about food. I loved just hanging out with Rob and talking. He is sooooo on my wavelength, i have missed him so much!! We all had a great day. Got back to my brothers and have sat up for hours chatting too, this weekend has been amazing, so so lovely and we have another day tomorrow :)

Gareth, my brother, is supose to be waking me up early tomorrow to go for a run.....We shall see, we are both a bit worse for wear in the alcohol department lol. My neice has a triathlon in the morning which we are going to go and watch then we are all going out for lunch before we drive back home.

Silash Your post made me proper laugh out loud, You are so sweet and funny. i will reply properly when i get home and have more time. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my diary. :)
 
Hey Kate, glad you had an awesome day!! Who cares about a naughty food day every now and then, in the real world it happens! You barely have them anyway.


Glad to hear your running is getting EVEN BETTER! Woooooooooooooooooooo who knows, maybe one day you'll be doing a triathlon yourself :coolgleama:
 
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