A new me by Christmas

Hi,

after a long weekend at my boyfriend's I am back and guess what.. I tried on the dress and I fit PERFECTLY into the size 14!!!!! HOW COOL IS THAT :D :D :D :D

Sooo hopefully I *might* be able to be a 12 by July 2nd.. maybe!! I don't think I will cos it's a whole dress size in a little over a month but I will try - but I won't get upset if I can't because the 14 looked really nice on me and you cannot tell that I have insanely fat thighs or a big arse :D eeek I'm so happy!! I'll deffo post some pics up after prom for you all to judge ;)

Anyway I have been good this weekend. Did lots of walking Saturday (2 hours of shopping plus half an hours walk to and from the shops) and Sunday (wandered around a nice seaside town for 4 hours, involved some uphill stuff too) and didn't eat too much! I ate about 1500 cals today though because I had 2 of those chocolates (oops :() but on the rest of the days I've eaten between 1200 and 1400 cals so I think I am doing ok.

Howeverrr I have got a UTI and I feel really crap but trying to keep positive.

Going to weigh myself in the morning for the first time since Friday. Just 1 lb would be great, 2 would be FANTASTIC :D If I have gained then I will be incredibly annoyed :cuss: since I thought I have done well, if I have maintained then hey, can't have everything ;)
 
Q&a

1. What is your current height and weight?
5'7'' and 188 lbs

2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
140 lbs

3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
160 lbs

4. Why do you want to lose weight?
I have always been known as 'the fat one' in my school since I was 11 so I want to start university in September as 'the one with the curly hair' or 'the tall one' or 'the one with cool makeup' rather than a fatty!! I was bullied (spat on, beaten up, got a broekn jaw and was stabbed in the ear) by other teenagers because I am fat so I want to change that too. Also, my health and sex life is deteriorating and I am PETRIFIED that my boyfriend of over 3 years is getting sick of me looking so disgusting all the time. I would also like to wear short dresses and skirts without tights like everyone else.

5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or
reunion? If so, when is that event?
Just life in general!!!! But my leavers' prom is soon and also my 18th birthday and my holiday to France so that is an incentive.

6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
Temptations like chocolate and wine.

7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
I eat too much and don't exercise at all.

8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
Being more positive because I am soooo pessimistic and that doesn't help my willpower.

9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to
help you lose weight?
I have starved and purged what I did eat 2 years ago and that lost me 28 lbs in 2 months but NEVER AGAIN - I gained it all back and more and I lost my period too.

10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the
weight back?
Laziness and getting depressed = comfort eating.

11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to
lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
Don't know really, have to have a think then get back to this one.

12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given
period of time?
Yep, I use to note my food intake.

13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
I cook a lot and make my own breakfast and lunch, mum mainly makes my dinner though but in September I am moving out so I will have to fend for myself. For breakfast I typically have a mushed up banana or muesli or both (if it is a small banana!) or on a special day I might have a slice of toast and avocado. Lunch ranges from a big fruit salad to a normal veggie salad, maybe rice. I try to keep breakfast below 300kcal and lunch below 500kcal.

14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
I hardly ever do. Last time I did was before my diet. OH WAIT on Saturday me and the boyfriend got a McDonald's and I had a happy meal of 4 chicken nuggets and a fruit bag with diet Pepsi go me :D

15. What are your three favorite foods?
It changes. Lately it's been avocado, cheese on toast and chocolate!! But I don't eat the last 2 since my diet (maybe the odd choccie here and there).

16. What are your three favorite restaurants?
Chinese ones, fish and chips ones and kebab ones LOL.

17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
For my diet? I just use less of the bad ingredients or change them e.g. no sugar in my cereal, if I have a craving for chocolate have a 40 calorie hot chocolate instead, if I want a biscuit then just have half of one.

18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want
it, what would be different?
Bigger tits, less arse and smaller thighs with no cellulite!

19. Do you eat when you are not hungry?
Yep but been trying to change that.

20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
I used to. I could eat 5-6 packets of crisps on the trot.

21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
Sometimes.

22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
Not really. I CAN'T eat if I'm nervous or sad lol.

23. Do you eat as a reward?
No.

24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
Yes.

25. What do you normally eat for a meal?
For dinner - meat, 3 types of green veg and potatoes. Occasionally pizza or a takeaway but try to stick to the healthier stuff.

26. What type of snacks do you eat?
Fruit or cereal bars.

27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
Fuck all.

28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym?
N/A.

29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
Dancing!! Dancing!!!!! DANCING!!!!!!!!

30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards
your goals?
I dunno, I just feel good after not eating much cos I know I am being good and getting thinner.

31. Do you have rewards for certain goals?
No, no rewards til I am thin.
 
Well done you!!!! :party:

You will look stunning in the dress and you must be soooo pleased abt fitting into the size 14 PERFECTLY! Just shows that all your hard work is paying off :D Bet u will fit into the 12 no probs by july :hurray:

Sorry ur not feeling too good at the mo, hope u feel better soon.

Well done again!
 
Just read thru ur Q&A and i cant believe that you were so badly bullied...you are much braver than i could ever be, it sounds awful. You have come thru so much that i def think you will reach your goal weight...its a walk in the park after being so brutally attacked.

And Im sure your bf thinks you are beautiful whatever you weigh!
 
Pft I just think well the bullies were sadacts who had nothing better to do with their time and I'm not gonna let them make me scared of going out or being me! I got bullied for having curly hair ffs! Lol! I feel nothing for them, I honestly don't feel angry or sad anymore.. I just think that people like that are too subhuman for any human feelings about them. Meh.

Anywayyy about the size 14 dress.. I think the reason it fit so well is because I have a small chest size but if I was in proportion to the rest of me (which I think would give me maybe D or DD size breasts) then I wouldn't fit. I don't know :( I can't believe that after a 4lb loss it would enable me to fit into a dress size smaller than usual? I think that if it were jeans or a fitted shirt it would be a different story!! :p

:( My bf didn't get me an anniversary card or present (it was our 3 years on the 19th of May).. to be honest I did say please don't get me anything and I wasn't expecting anything but looking back I do wonder whether he thinks I'm not worth it? I don't know.. meh! Skinny bastard.
 
:( still at 188.
I said I'd be okay if I had maintained but to be honest I'm not now that it has actually happened..
Today I am going to aim for less than 1250 and more than 1100. So far I have had a banana for breakfast.
 
sorry about the slow progress... when are you weighing yourself??? is it on an empty stomach... because i know from experience that even drinking a bunch of water can make it seems like you've actually gained or maintained...
 
As soon as I wake up I go to the toilet then get nekkid and weigh myself.
I have one of those old style scales though with the needle, it's not got a digital screen which I wish it did because then I could see exactly how much I lose! Might look into getting one off eBay or something.
 
yeah... i have about the same routine...

we own a digital one... and i guess i never thought about how much more accurate it is than a needle scale...

ebay is probably a good place to start!
 
OI YOU! Stop the negative talk young lady!! You had a goal to fit into the size 14 dress and you did it! Dont take that away from yourself...for all you know that 4lbs could have been stopping the zip from going up before!! You never know abt the size 12...it is still possible but even if it doesnt fit will you really let a 2inch difference in size affect your night in a gorgeous dress??!

Your weight will fluctuate, i went through a week where i put on 4lbs from nowhere...next week it was gone along with 2 more lbs. If your cals are too low it wont help that much - just means that you might go into starvation mode (not good)

Done be too hard on yourself...tha scales are only one side of the story! Measure yourself and keep a note of ow your measurements are changing. This gives a great indication of how you are reallygetting on.

Oh yeah and :iagree: def get some digital scales! You can pick them up in Argos for abt £15 :)

:waving: Allie x :waving:
 
Hi! I'm Anke. That really is such a gorgeous dress.

I agree with Tink, you are much too hard on yourself. Whether or not you "actually" fit into a 14 or not, doesn't matter! Your goal was to fit into the size 14 dress, you did perfectly! And if you're wondering about your real size, go try on some jeans or a fitted shirt!!!

Also, I started taking measurements and it's awesome to see the changes! The only thing is I get water retention around my period so I get all puffy... affects the measurements somewhat, so I don't worry too much for that week!

I would rethink the "No rewards until I'm thin". Are you only doing this for the thinness? Or are you proud of the health changes too? Coz you should be! And maybe, a little reward will motivate you for the last stretch... Just a thought.

Cheery bye :)
 
Hey Anke :)

I am very hard on myself but only because I am very easily led into temptation and I know that if I say "well one chocolate won't hurt" then I'll eat 2, or 3 or 4 etc until I eat a whole packet (then be sick and feel stupid, haha). I think that reward wise I will probably reward myself maybe every 10 lbs? Or 14 lbs? I dunno. Just not with food.. then again I am a poor student so I can't afford anything exciting really. I suppose I could put a few pounds into a money box every week then buy makeup or something each time I lose a certain amount? Not clothes though because *hopefully* I will just shrink too much to fit into them again :p

As for the other question, I was rushing in that questionnaire and to me being thin is important because I have pride in my appearance (not that you'd be able to tell if ya saw me!!) but I am also very conscious of my health and I do want to be healthier. My mum had pre-eclampsia with me and my younger sister (she is 15, 16 in November..growing up too fast I tell ya!!!) and I have read that it is more common in overweight women so that is also an incentive for losing weight. Not that I'll be getting pregnant any time soon because I am only 17 but my boyfriend and I would like to have a baby or two in the next few years when I have finished university and can provide for a baby :) Even though there is no family record of it, I am conscious of diabetes and heart disease and I do not want to be at risk of getting them because I have a lot of ambition in life and I would like to live for as long as possible to fulfill my goals!!

So perhaps I am too hard on myself. I will take your advice about the rewards :)

Eurghh I am on my period at the moment and I feel FAAAT! On a lighter note, I did however manage to lose either 1 lb or 1.5 lbs (I'll put down 1 lb on my ticker to be safe) so that's good :)

And on an even lighter note, I visited my future university yesterday and OMG I fell in love with it. Have a look - - it is lovely. And I am extremely nervous about living on my own but hey it's an adventure!!
 
Oops sorry Tinkerbella I only just saw your post.

I will def. start measuring. I did use to measure my waist etc but it just got depressing haha. My waist seems to shrink after only a few lbs lost, but my hips stay quite large and my ARSE :eek: omg.. yeah it's huge. Defo need to start toning up down there!!

I'll ask my mum if we can get a digital scale from Argos cos that's pretty cheap, I thought they'd be at least 30 quid! X
 
Oh wow, that university does look great! What are you going to study?

I am glad to hear that you DO seem to have your head screwed on okay :p (jk!)

And living on your own is going to be awesome, I'm so excited for you!
 
I'm doing a BA Hons in English and American literature.. SCARY!! I am good at English and I get mostly A's and B's at A level (I dunno if you have that in S Africa? Btw some of my family live in Cape Town and I am 1/8 S African :D) but I do find it incredibly difficult sometimes so I really hope that it is manageable!!! After I do the 3 year degree I am hoping to do a post grad in teaching or education and then become a teacher :) and I want to be a headmistress by the age of 40. I have lots of ambition but ya never know, my ideas may change! I have dabbled with the idea of journalism which I would like because I could be self employed but hey, got 3 years to figure out what I wanna do with an English degree so it's all good :)

I'll shut up now. Seriously once I get going I do NOT shut up! Haha.
 
Well that's fine by me, coz everyone else on the forum is dead quiet today!

I went to do a BA Journalism last year. I was always good at english at school as well ("Matric" is our highest school grade, it's in-between O and A levels). The english at varsity was certainly more of a challenge, but doable. As long as you are always endeavouring to learn more and open your mind, and willing to put in the sheer HUGE amount of work they shove at you, you are on the right track.

If the university is as good as it looks, there should be tons of things to help you on campus as well, and MAKE USE of their facilities. I went to a counsellor when I was struggling with my workload, and I eventually came to the conclusion that I had actually left hard work and studying much too late, there was no way I would make the year.

Pretty lame story I guess, but I really wasn't ready. I now have a job as a technical writer (writing user manuals for computer software) with opportunities to grow and study further. The next course/ certificate/ program I do will be done with conviction and my best effort.

Hope this at least makes you aware of what will be required of you at varsity. But otherwise, it's a ball! Soooooo many new people to meet, things to do, places to go! Damn, I'm almost jealous! :)
 
I suppose I'm more worried about the difficulty of the work rather than the actual quantity of it; I actually enjoy working and researching things and I do have a real interest in the subject, but if I find something difficult I find it difficult to speak to a teacher. That's probably because my English teacher at sixth form was a complete bastard, he took the piss out of me loads because I was very shy (and intimidated) so he picked on me a lot. But I think that at university I will be different because nobody will know me so it's an opportunity to kind of change if you know what I mean and come across differently than what I am now. I think in school some people thought I was moody because I naturally have 'one of those faces' and also I was just very shy because I have so many insecurities about myself - that is something I am hoping to change with my weight loss. I think that knowing I look good will help me with my self esteem issues. I'm very excited about the campus - it has loads of bars and a really big night club which looked good - good selection of drinks and once I'm 18 (which will be 2 months before I go to uni anyway) I can drink without it being illegal hahaha. I just hope that I get an en suite room because I have huge issues with sharing toilets/showers with people other than my family and close friends. My mum and boyfriend think I have OCD - lol!
 
Oh yeah also I was gonna ask.. I have small boobs (well not TINY, but they're a B cup) and last time I lost weight (I got down to about 160 lbs) they shrunk LOADS. Any tips on how to not let them shrink that much!? I am planning on getting silicone implants when I have lost all my weight if I need to but I'd prefer not to because I have bad reactions to anaesthetic :/
 
There's no way of making one part of your body lose more or less than another, it's going to do what it wants to! One of the reasons I don't want to go down to 130 like most people my height, is that I don't want to lose my boobs. I don't want to be thin, so being somewhere within my healthy range is perfect for me.

I have considered maybe one day getting a boob lift, maybe after kids... They really don't sit where they used to!

Oh, about finding it difficult to ask teachers (or lecturers at varsity!). When I was there, for each subject there would be the normal lectures, and then an extra "tutorial" class as well. This "tut" was led by a 3rd year or honours student with really good marks in that particular subject, plus a passion to teach. It's a lot easier to ask someone your own age stupid questions! :)

I know what you mean about being able to be totally different at varsity. It really is like that though, you can be whoever that person was that you always wished you were like at school. There are no limits here, so think about it carefully and decide on your new identity... it's fun! It's still you, just the way you want to be!

Hehe, my boyfriend is exactly like you about toilets/ showers. He's pretty much a hygiene freak though. Some people just feel more strongly about it than others, and it does make sense. When I went to varsity, I went to stay in a commune. It was a double story house, and 13 of us lived there, sharing 3 bathrooms and a kitchen and lounge. It was really awesome for the friends, but that bathroom just gets scummier and scummier.... showering in your own shower with flip-flops (sandals) .... shouldn't be necessary. Even just living with my parents and my brother now, I get so irritated by the way they leave the bathroom sometimes... I'm more of a neat freak than clean freak that way though!
 
Eurgh showering in flip flops - I had to do that on holiday last year. Me and my boyfriend and some of our friends went camping in a surf town on the west coast of England and the showers there were DISGUSTING!! I know it's expected because it's a campsite but still :ack2: I won't go into details :puke: I don't mind it when it's not pristine, that's to be expected (especially with students) but when people leave their hair all over the place or when the toilet hasn't been flushed or when the toilet roll hasn't been replaced I hate it. It's rude AND gross. My sister shares a bathroom with me and it's fine cos she's my sister and pretty clean but the only thing she does that gets on my nerves is not throw away the roll when it's finished and just leaves it on the hook thing. ARGH! Haha!

I'm going to be myself at uni but just push myself to be more outgoing and try to do something with my face so I don't look moody - I really am not! In fact I'm really happy most of the time (although stressed at the moment) but my face just looks angry aha. My mum has evil eyes too though so I think it's just my genes :p

I think we are going to get tutorials at uni, just as long as the lecturer is approachable and doesn't make me feel stupid like my damn English teacher then I will probably be fine. It's just when someone is unapproachable where the problems start!

All this talk about university is making me exciiiiiiteddd :hurray: :party: :jump: (and I love smilies).
 
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