A Little Lost... Cassy's Story

MotherOf2 said:
lol yeah I'm not a fan of half tops either.... but i do love halter tops! lol all i practically wear are halters and camis (or spaghetti strap shirt... all the same to me :p) aside from my occasionally worn tees, sweatshirts and button up shirts. If im absolutely freezing ill throw on a hoodie... I dont much like anything with sleeves or a callar, i dont like socks either... i tend to feel to resricted... lol its -11 outside -18 with windchill and im wearing pj shorts and a cami.
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I don't wear halter tops. I don't like my bra straps showing, I'm too cheap to buy a special bra for one, and I'm too fat to go without LOL. I'm happy with my tees though, and that's usually what I wear. I walk to school everyday and my winter coat gets me yucky and sweaty by the time I get there so I was having to pick my clothes wisely. (Now I just gave up and started changing my shirt there).

Bleh, my hair gets terrible if I sweat too. I'm hoping I sweat less when I'm not so fat.
 
i sweat a lot too... while everyone else was danging at prom i was trying to figure out what to do with my sweaty hair... any time theres an important event, usually when theres lots of people is the worst(either bc so many people makes a lot of heat or because im rushing around trying to make everything perfect, maybe both). i cant throw a a birthday party or dinner party without getting all sweaty and gross looking... i prefer my hair down but it ends up in a sweaty ponytail, my makeup melts and of course you've got your sweat spots in the pits... ill agree with you and hope with the weight the sweating goes away too...
 
I find it's easier to hide the sweaty under arms than if your back gets sweaty though. I cannot wear cotton because of this, which is unfortunate because there's already a huge lack of things someone my size can wear anyways.

Ugh ugh ugh@ being fat.
 
what do you mean theres a lack of thing a person YOR SIZE can wear :toetap05:. If theres anything i've learned that has been very benificial to me, it's that fat people look good too! you should see me sister in law, she easily your size or bigger yet she is always quite fashionable. I think, or at least in my case. you assume that because you gained weight or you are "fat" that nothing could possibly look good on you and dont even bother shopping... no, you can't necessarily be shopping at walmart (even i have a hard time) and unfourtunately plus size specialty stores can be more expensive. but that doesnt mean you cant. I try to buy things on sale for example this fall i bought some very well priced summer shirt for next summer... even if i do loose a ton of weight i can always take it in... Also I dont go shopping all that frequently maybe every couple of months but you buy one or two things here and there and before you know it you have enough exceptionally good looking outfits for every day of the week...
Strangly enough I find it's easier to stick to losing weight when you feel good about yourself as you are. maybe losing weight isnt the cure to your self esteem maybe your self esteem is the cure to your weight loss...
Curvie Girlie had mentioned to me that women who do yoga generally feel better about themselves... based on my own experience, I agree with her, maybe you should look into it... Being fat doesnt make you ugly or disgusting, it just makes you fat, and theres not necessarily anything wrong with that.
anyway i'm done being the motivational speaker for now lol
 
MotherOf2 said:
what do you mean theres a lack of thing a person YOR SIZE can wear :toetap05:. If theres anything i've learned that has been very benificial to me, it's that fat people look good too! you should see me sister in law, she easily your size or bigger yet she is always quite fashionable. I think, or at least in my case. you assume that because you gained weight or you are "fat" that nothing could possibly look good on you and dont even bother shopping... no, you can't necessarily be shopping at walmart (even i have a hard time) and unfourtunately plus size specialty stores can be more expensive. but that doesnt mean you cant. I try to buy things on sale for example this fall i bought some very well priced summer shirt for next summer... even if i do loose a ton of weight i can always take it in... Also I dont go shopping all that frequently maybe every couple of months but you buy one or two things here and there and before you know it you have enough exceptionally good looking outfits for every day of the week...
Strangly enough I find it's easier to stick to losing weight when you feel good about yourself as you are. maybe losing weight isnt the cure to your self esteem maybe your self esteem is the cure to your weight loss...
Curvie Girlie had mentioned to me that women who do yoga generally feel better about themselves... based on my own experience, I agree with her, maybe you should look into it... Being fat doesnt make you ugly or disgusting, it just makes you fat, and theres not necessarily anything wrong with that.
anyway i'm done being the motivational speaker for now lol
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I know exactly that feeling of feeling fat, and like uggg...I don't even want to go shopping cause everything is going to pop off, if let alone fit! But you know it is funny, how you mentioned about your mood, cause I believe it's so true....my mood has a lot to do with whether I think something looks good on me or not.....

....Positive affirmations about yourself do WORK....and I completely 100% believe what you said about "YOUR SELF ESTEEM IS THE CURE TO YOUR WEIGHT LOSS".......couldn't have said it better!!! :D:
 
MotherOf2 said:
what do you mean theres a lack of thing a person YOR SIZE can wear
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Between the sweat issue and them not making enough plus sized clothes (atleast that I can afford) there's not enough I can wear. It's not that I'm fat that I don't wear stuff (with the exception of bikinis, tube tops etc etc), it's that I literally cannot find stuff in my size to wear. The plus sized clothing selections I have are very limited, especially with my budget.


The one little section I have at Walmart doesn't cut it.
 
blah i remember i used to hate shopping so much because it came down to me trying on a bunch of things that didnt fit and to top it off i was sweating my ass off under those hot god damn lights! It' would just be very frustrating... the funny thing is, i havent even really lost that much weight... the secret? I started shopping in stores that had clothes that fit me and I discovered what my size is so that now when i pick something off a shelf i know it's going to fit... yeah it may have been an 18 at first, yeah the girl in the next stall was trying on a 6... but it fit me, and i knew it was going to fit me, and that made my shopping experience a million times easier. The worst thing i have to worry about now is style and price... Oh! and do they make my ass look sexy :p
 
LowFatMilk said:
Between the sweat issue and them not making enough plus sized clothes (atleast that I can afford) there's not enough I can wear. It's not that I'm fat that I don't wear stuff (with the exception of bikinis, tube tops etc etc), it's that I literally cannot find stuff in my size to wear. The plus sized clothing selections I have are very limited, especially with my budget.


The one little section I have at Walmart doesn't cut it.
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I can understand that... walmart doesnt cut it for me either... especially since 75% of their plus sized section seems to be made for 80 year old women... As if all fat people must want to wear sweaters with kittens playing with a ball of yarn on it....
 
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MotherOf2 said:
I can understand that... walmart doesnt cut it for me either... especially since 75% of their plus sized section seems to be made for 80 year old women... As if all fat people must want to wear sweaters with kittens playing with a ball of yarn on it....
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And the quality of some of their clothes too. You like the item, but it's not worth the $22 they want for it. And what's most irritating is that we have one tiny little section at the back of the our store where no one can see you and the normal sizes have multitudes of clothes they can try.

But I also find the old woman thing to be true at plus sized stores.
 
yeah if i buy anything at walmart it's usually one good shirt that caught my eye... i found a shirt i liked there for 10.00 and i decided to buy it in 3 different colours lol maybe just because it was so rare that i actually founf a shirt i liked there at a decent price...
as for plus sized stores i dont have the old lady problem... i shop at a store called Ricki's . I dont know if you have one where you live but they sell all sizes as well as different length in short regular and long which i find amazing since i have short legs and never find pants that are short enough for me.
It's my favourite store ever! they can be exspensive but I usually shop on the sale racks. I've gotten a sexy skirt for 6.00 a really nice halter for 7.00 and really nice camis for 2.50 each
 
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i bought this shirt on sale which i have pictures of me in a page or so back in my journal

I have the v neck version of this sweater which is one of my favourites which I love to wear my camis under so that the lace peaks out the top and buttom

I also got these pants

high waisted pants seem to be in now... a bonus about these is they have great tummy control. I also have a pair in pinstripe
These all seem pretty stylish and in to me... All of which come in sizes up to 4xl. I also think they want to flatter their customers bc when i was having a hard time fitting into a 18 or XL at walmart i had no problem fitting into it at this store...
 
weighed in this afternoon at exactly 200 lbs and my body fat percentage said like 43.5 i cant remember exactly... but its a lot better then the 49 or 48 percent i think it was at when i first got the body fat monitoring scale... i'll have to check my post on that... either way i am but days maybe hours away from standing on the scale a reading a number that starts with a 1... lol i feel like i'm making a much bigger deal about this then i should be but hey it's a mile stone and i didnt think i would ever even be this far... less than a month ago wasnt I ranting about how I'm never going to get lower then 205? ahh seems like ancient history at this point... YAY for counting calories and YAY for you guys for picking me up when I was down! I LOVE YOU GUYS!
 
Thanks guys! I'm really excited about it... Almost can't wait to weigh myself tomorrow afternoon to kind of "see if it here yet" lol it's like waiting for a long awaited present at this point... It's funny how numbers don't matter when they're bad but Are almost everything when they're good lol. Mostly I think the best thing is that I've found motivation in both directions... to try harder when it goes up and to want to keep going following the same path when it goes down... I owe this forum a lot for my changed attitude.
 
In other news my husbad brought up... i guess were going to have to have a party... for what? for getting out of the 200's... yes thats right... a party for fat lol... apparently I had said that when i get under 200 I'm going to have a party... I don't remember this but I'm going to assume that was within the mindset that it was never going to happen... back when I felt it was "impossible for me to lose weight"...
but yeah i'm like i'm excited... but not that excited...lol lets just invite all of my fat friends who cant seem to lose weight and get depressed about it and my thin friends who so totally don't care about weight, to a I LOST 20 LBS party lol... no...
I'll take a pat on the back and a well done instead lol
Or ill take gifts, gift cards or cash as a gift if you want to be really nice lol
 
In other, other news... i was going to post last week of my food diary like every other week, but since i eat generally the same variety of food throughout every week, it just getting redundant... lol when something changes, i'll let you know...
 
I'm really hoping that treadmill gets here soon... my workout routine is getting pretty redundant as well and i'm really looking to throw a new challenge into the mix... i see everyone doing all kinds of diffent excersizes every day on the challenge sheet and it's got me wanting to do more... but until better weather comes i'm a little limited... my husband swore by the end of the month i will have one... hopefully sooner then later because at least running offers a continuous challange trying to run faster and longer all the time... I wouldnt dare give up working out... but it's getting a little boring... maybe for now i should download some different music to work out to, to hold me off a while while i'm waiting...
I'm telling ya, that man has 2 weeks then i might have to fly off the drunken handle again... hopefully next time i decide to just go for a run it wont be so cold and wont hurt to breath lol
 
Still sitting at 200lbs 2 days later i have a feeling i'll have to wait till monday to reach Onederland. for some reason I always drop my weight over the weekend even though that when i'm not excersizing. i'm not complaining though... Good grief I've been hungry lately and craving like crazy. it's days like this that make me think i wouldnt survive a 1500 cal diet... though some days i have a hard time eating more then 1500 days like today make it seem impossible... i'm just so damn hungry! Its not even pms either so i have no idea what to connect it to... Luckily i'm too stubborn to budge. once ive decided something even i cant go against it, and i've decided i will not eat more then 2000 calories. this means even if i ate all 200 in the moning and i had to starve for the rest of the day i probably would... not that it would ever be that extreme, i'm just saying...
Oh and it comes as no surprise but today was my goal date i set up 3 months ago to lose 25lbs from 215 and i came up 10 lbs short of the goal... i'm not dissapointed i knew weeks ago i wouldnt make it... maybe if i would have figured out my puzzle a little sooner i'd of had a better chance. anyway i set up a new goal for 10 lbs in 2 months IMO if I can't make that goal I need to re-asses my plan
 
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