3rd Times a Charm!

So, for those who mighta caught the journal I had about 8 months ago- today, right this instant actually(2:30am) it has been exactly a year since the "ordeal". (for those who didn't- stupid really. I was with a guy, big mistake, he beat me up pretty bad, left me unconcious in a parking lot. with a TSHIRT on. Psh. fat girl rule. yikes.) So yeah, in the past year, I definately had my downs- which is what I attribute that 20lb gain to, but I've had my ups, as well. Nothing like a good ass kicking to see whos really there to support you :rolleyes: lol. I kid, I kid. Strangely enuf, I feel nothing right now. No anger, no pain. You always hear about the anniversary of something really tearing people up, so naturally you just expect it to happen to you, but nope. Nada. Zip, and zilch, I might add. ALSO- I gotta say, I don't remember it... the dr's said to expect it to come back to me, but I haven't gotten a thing, so, yay!- I'm glad :) And maybe thats why, on the 1st year, I feel like me. I'm glad to be me again.. I missed me a little bit. For the most part. OTher than that damn 20lbs, psh.

Anywho- had an Amy's rice bowl with veggies for lunch today, added a piece of pepperjack cheese to zip it up a lil' bit, that was 320cals, and then had a fruit and nut bar, 140cals. Then my sister made enchiladas. *sigh* it was good eatin, lemme tell ya, lol. Then my other sister made these peanut butter bars, which were ok, but I'm not a peanut butter fan, so that helped me not pig out on those :) All in all- I say my calories ended up where they probably shoulda been.

ABBAgirl: I love plain cottage cheese! Whats wrong with you, chica?? lol. But yeah, fruit with it is pretty good too. As for the 100cal packs. I am a pack QUEEN! I've got pretty much a cupboard full of them, because like you say- the individual sizes are great, I don't keep eating em. Gonna hafta try the pretzel and cheese thing tho. Good Idea :D no yogurt tho. Bleh. One bite and the texture makes me wanna gag. Got shivers just thinkin about it hahah.

Requiem: First of all, I LOVE your dog! How frickin cute! And thanks for the support. I definately need it, lol.

Alrighty everyone, I'm off to bed, get to work at gnc in the am, woohoo! The malls been dead, which doesn't make for a good time, bleh.
Oh, and has anyone else noticed the pic of Gwen Stefani in the HP add? I would KILL to have eyebrows like that. Man.
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Wow such a tragic story. I am so very pleased to hear though that your doing better and that its not really getting you down! Keep on going your doing so well.

LOL I'm glad you like Romeo, my bulldog. He is hilarious and I love him to pieces! I'll get some more photos on my diary I am thinking of taking him to the dog park with the river one more time before winter really gets here. He loooooves to wade in shallow water.
 
Hi,

Thanks for visiting my diary. I though I would check yours out too.

I'm sorry to hear about you ordeal from 8 months ago. It sounds terrible. You seem to have recovered though which is a good thing.

Good luck with everything!
 
Hi Jess!! Glad to hear you are wearing black! black???? Who wears black? Oh yeah, I did wear black one wedding as the maid of honor. You can rest easy now, whew! Dodged that pink bullet.

Wow, has it already been a year since the attack? I still can't believe he did that to you. Girl, I wish I was there, I would have tried my hardest to really hurt him. I don't know if you are interested or not, but I took a years worth of self defense, remember? I got 4 belts in Karate. If someone tries to do that to me, they better watch their junk and their eyeballs, cuz the karate kid is going to come out of me and turn their world upside down. Anyhow, I am not sure if you suffer from PTSD from the attack, but learning self defense gave me a piece of mind I never had before. I am wanting to go back and finish my lessons, going for black belt.

YOu are so cute with your "Pepperjack cheese to zip it up a bit" comment. That rice bowl sounds good, and I am so hungry right now.

Have a great week!! I hope you lose some poundage.
 
Well- other than having a hamburger, fries, and uh, oops, a shake, yesterday was smooth. Little boring actually... I will admit that I watched a LOT of tv, lol, coulda been working out. But NOOOO, not I. *sigh* gotta get to it, man! Gotta!
Today was pretty good too, I didn't have breakfast tho, felt kinda sick this morning (probably from the giant strawberry shake from last night haha!) and I've been cleaning the kitchen, throwing away stuff we don't need in the house- little rediculous really, I hafta wait to throw things away until my sisters aren't here, OR they'll freak out about something that we coulda kept. Well- if ya haven't used it in three years, chances are you WON'T EVER. HGTV taught me that :)
Anyways, gonna get to bed a little earlier than usual tonight, peace out yo :D
 
Hey Jess!

Strawberry shake mmmm sounds good a guilty pleasure haha don't worry bout it though it'll work out.

I know how you feel about a lot of TV its like the premier weeks and all these new shows are on and I find myself probably watching more than I should loll oh well.

Hope you got some rest and all and that the kitchen ordeal, cleaning and such, is all done! Have a great day today!

PS if your still feeling sick like a cold is coming on I recommend Airborne. Stuff tastes kinda nasty but every time I start to feel a bit sick I take one and it really seems to help me avoid getting a full blown cold its almost like it supercharges my immune system I dunno lol.
 
Hamburger, Fries, & a shake? What are you doing to me? LOL I am so hungry right now, and I can totally envision that sitting before me. Yum!!! Oh, I haven't had a burger and fries all week, I am so hungry right now. Losing weight is tough business.

Great job getting clutter out of the house. I am the sister that is the pack rat. I need to rid myself of tons of stuff. It's going to be a 3 day event, once I dive into the boxes of who knows what that I've had in storage forever. I bet it is all keepsakes and gifts from the past. Not looking forward to it.

Have a great day Jess! Take care.
 
Requiem79 said:
Hey Jess!

Strawberry shake mmmm sounds good a guilty pleasure haha don't worry bout it though it'll work out.

I know how you feel about a lot of TV its like the premier weeks and all these new shows are on and I find myself probably watching more than I should loll oh well.

Hope you got some rest and all and that the kitchen ordeal, cleaning and such, is all done! Have a great day today!

PS if your still feeling sick like a cold is coming on I recommend Airborne. Stuff tastes kinda nasty but every time I start to feel a bit sick I take one and it really seems to help me avoid getting a full blown cold its almost like it supercharges my immune system I dunno lol.
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Yeah- I used airborne once, didn't do much for me, hm, but emergen-c works amazingly well for me :) I don't get colds very often, I useta get this one killer cold EVERY friggin winter, aweful hacking cough, red eyes and nose, couldn't breathe, hurt to talk, bleh. but when i started taking a multivitamin, things miraculously got better!
Yeah, and the kitchen thing? Psh. Its not just the kitchen... its the whole HOUSE. Remodeling is a bitch. I've decided that when my sisters and I are done with this, I'm NEVER doing it again. lol.
 
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Hamburger, Fries, & a shake? What are you doing to me? LOL I am so hungry right now, and I can totally envision that sitting before me. Yum!!! Oh, I haven't had a burger and fries all week, I am so hungry right now. Losing weight is tough business.

Great job getting clutter out of the house. I am the sister that is the pack rat. I need to rid myself of tons of stuff. It's going to be a 3 day event, once I dive into the boxes of who knows what that I've had in storage forever. I bet it is all keepsakes and gifts from the past. Not looking forward to it.

Have a great day Jess! Take care.
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Just re-reading my post of hamburger heaven makes me hungry for it :eek: How aweful! But your right- this IS a tough business. And I am quite obviously the slacker employee with her feet on the desk. Wish my boss would buckle down and tell me to get it together, lol.
Oh my goodness, no, I will admit that the clutter has been here a lonnnngggg time... In December my mom will be gone for four years, and we're just NOW getting things done. It made sense the first year, maybe two, that yeah, your mom dies, you don't wanna throw anything of hers away. So, we didn't. But you get my stuff, and my sisters stuff in here, and it just kept getting worse. So, I can't say that my sisters were totally to blame... Its like I said tho- we haven't used it in that long- what makes us think that our mom's 15 year old pans are gonna bring her back? lol, makes a little more sense now, than it did then, thats fershur.
(but I have been keeping an unnatural amount of "keepsakes" lol)
 
So everyone, today was a so-so day... Food was fan-friggin-tastic, got some work done on the house, watched the csi premier. :rolleyes: can't help it... I'm addicted, lol.
BUT- I had a customer who wanted to return some protein, but no reciept, and theres no proof of it in the journal tape from the day she was in. and, of course, she paid cash. bleh. SOOO, she says, well, I paid $40 cash, for a shaker and xyience protein. When I do an onhand count of the protein- says there should be two, I only have one... There are days when I REALLY don't wanna be boss. I don't wanna hafta confront that employee tomorrow and say- did you steal it? cuz, I know shes having money problems right now... and that sucks, cuz I would hate to hafta fire her over $40 stupid dollars... MORAL DILEMMA!!! AGGGHH! But, ya know what, its my job on the line, and I like my job. I'm good at it, my customers love me, and well, I like making the schedule. (mini power trip, lol) It is what it is, right?

So, something I realized today- the last coupla days I haven't been craving things later at night like usual... Tonight I was a lil hungry at bout 12, so I had a 100cal pack of cookies and a cup of 30cal cafe vienna. MMM. hits the spot :) I gotta use that trick more often.
 
Hey Jess Happy Friday!!!!

Sounds like you had a decent day yesterday sept for the stealer! Hopefully that wont cause major drama and can be resolved easily.

How long till you think your remodeling will be done? I remember having to help my pops do it a few years back it was a pain. But when your done with it I bet it will look great.

And yeah 12 days for my shoes was insane but they did come last night of course after my run argh!

Have a great Friday!!!!
 
Thieves! :eek2: That is no fun to have to deal with! Good job on getting the munchies under control... my appetite is coming back now that I am feeling better. We will see how that goes.

I didn't get to see CSI... I often watch it on re-runs. I am a big Greys Anatomy fan though, so I was watching that. I just don't know why they have to premier everything at the same time. Frustrating! I am a little upset that October Road is not on right now. I don't know if you watched the short season of it that was on last spring, but it was wonderful!

Anyways, hopefully you are having a good Friday! I need to go make myself a shake and possibly do a Carmen Electra DVD :D.
 
Tiff: Carmen Electra, huh? Is it one of the stripper dvds?? lol, I've always wanted to try that...


So, this is a real quick sign in, I've got about 20 minutes before I gotta go work at the gym, but I HADTA get on and say- I'm down 7 lbs!! AHHH! Feels great. I wanna lose 10 total before my trip to MO the end of October, shouldn't be a problem. But yep, seven pounds just with cleaning up my eating a little bit, lowering my calories. Oh my goodness... In about 12lbs I can fit back into the "skinniER" clothes that I was wearing last year. YAYYYY! I'll be back tomorrow night for a better entry, and to check on everyone :D
 
Travis: yeah, we still hafta finish our cupboards, paint the trim, and put down the laminate flooring... gotta find people who know how to do that one first tho :rolleyes: We got the windows put in the living room today, looks great :) So, hopefully not to much longer. I wanna accessorize heheh!


Arrrrgggg! Today has been quite possibly the lonnnngest day of my life, lol. I worked at the mall yesterday from 4pm to 9:30pm, then came home, got ready to go to work at the gym, worked 11pm to 8am- was only SUPPOSE to be there till 7, but the morning kid decided he didn't like the job. Whatever. SOoooo then I came home, changed into some crappy clothes, and my little sisters boyfriend came over and we put in the new windows for our living room. Soooo much nicer, I love them! However, its 1am, and I took a little bitty 2 hour nap at about 7pm, and thats it. I'm busted right now. Holy crap. Needless to say, I didn't eat a lot, but what I ate was probably TONS of calories. After my sister got off work, and we were done putting in the windows, we went to Texas Roadhouse. mmm. I got chicken strips and fries, and I did use a little trick- when it got to the table I took half the chicken and half the fries off my plate, and put em on a side plate. First of all, the chicken, eh, coulda been better. But usually I have no problems cleaning my plate... and I guess what they say is true: If you dont see it, you don't eat it. And I was FULL!!! That made me happier than it probably shoulda, lol. So about an hour ago, my other sister comes home with a big box of bagels :( annnnd I had one. Cheddar herb with jalapeno cheddar cream cheese. and it was ginormous... so I'm guessing around 700cals just for that?? Not to smart on my part, I shoulda been able to grab something healthier outta the cupboard... I think its mostly cuz I'm uber tired right now.

I saw a picture of the bridesmaid dress I'm wearing in May- actually REALLY cute. Which, definately makes me happy. And, on an exciting note, I'm gonna pack a bag for the gym tomorrow, and when I close my store at the mall I'm going STRAIGHT to the gym :) woohoo! So, I'll let everyone know how it goes :D
 
SO, good news and bad news. I'll start with the bad news :rolleyes:
When I was in the shower this morning, just STANDING there, if I may, and the very bottom of my spine made this really loud snapping sound... well, more like I felt the snap sound, than actually heard it, does that make sense??? Anyways, so, it hurts realllllly bad. Can't stand up straight, I gots me a little old lady hunch, not to much fun, lol. Didn't eat very well either. Had a giant bagel for breakfast, a chicken breast pita from Pita Pit for lunch, and then had turkey sausage after work. THEN my sister comes home and makes *gasp!* chocolate covered strawberries. And while I would REALLY like to admit that I didn't touch those things, I had ohhh, 10? 12? of them. Not smart. Not at all.
Good news: I made it to the gym :) I didn't do alot of cardio, first of all cuz I haven't done it in a long time, second of all, well, I can't stand up straight :) Do you know how hard it is to do the eliptical with a slight hunch? Lemme just tell ya. NOT EASY!! (By the way, I did a whopping 13 minutes on the eliptical *sigh* ) Then I did some weights (gotta get rid of these bingo wings if I'm gonna be wearing a sleeveless dress, right?) and now I feel like I'm in a Will Ferrell movie ("My arms are so heavy I can't lift them...." lol)... but thtas really serious- I did do a few shoulder exercises to, so thats probably why, lol, but holy hunnies! When its hard to drive home cuz your arms just wanna plop down, umm, thats probably not a good sign :)
K guys, hopefully tomorrow has better results and less back pain. Its late, bout 230am, so I'm gonna swing into a coupla diarys quick like, and then be off to bed :)
 
Thats a good trick with taking 1/2 the food off your plate. I should try that! I always end up tasting my hubby's though... I need to stop that!

Congrats on going to the gym! I am not sure what to think about the noise/feeling in your spine. Was it in your pelvis area?? I am studying these things right now, but that doesn't make any sense.

Hopefully you are feeling better today :D.
 
Hey jess! Hopefully your back feels better. Its really nothing you want to mess with. If your still in pain go have it checked out. I threw mine out playing roller hockey once and it didn't feel right for four months after or something like that. They gave me some groovy pain killers for it though lol but still being laid up that long is no fun. So yeah be careful!

Great news on getting to the gym and I agree with Tiffany as well on that removing half the food outta sight outta mind right? I should try that!

Hope your doing well and ill chat with ya again soon!
 
I am so miserable right now! I just wanna lay in bed with a gazillion blankets and just not move.
Tiff: no, not in my pelvic area, just lower back- parallel to my belly button... I do have scoliosis- every now and then it hurts real bad, but this is a new one, so I say in the next day or two if it still hurts to do anything, I'm just gonna go to the dr. and get, as Travis says- some "groovy painkillers" lol. Tho I hate taking them. I get loopy, hate that feeling, bleh.

Travis: Holy crap!! 4 months? Helllll no. I refuse to deal with that. bleh. lol.

So, needless to say, I made it to the gym ONE night, and I'm not going tonight... I'm not trying to sound like a whiny bitch, swear to God! Really bad thing tho- When I feel like crap, I wanna eat like crap. Not fun, not at all...
sorry to be boring and all tonight, but I'm gonna hit overstock.com and get a new down comforter, and then go to bed :( Hopefully I'll be better tomorrow!
 
Hey Jess,


Feeling any better today? I hope so I hope whatever happened to your back isnt serious, crossing my fingers! It is never fun being hurt so keep your head up it'll pass.
 
Ok, so I still have a titch of pain~ but I think thats mostly from standing a certain way whlie my back hurt so much... But I am 98% better! Woo~! I did take a few days there, ahem, and had three not so good(ok, downright friggin horrible) food days, but today was good. AND I went to the gym tonight. Yay! It was a little awkward tho- I'm trying to do shoulder presses and the new kid at the gym,(oh hes so cute! I just wanna pinch his cheeks lol) sat there asking me advice for his girlfriend..lol. to cute. He goes- well, its both of ours first relationship(hes 19) and shes going to college six hours away, and blah blah, lol. So- I'm tryin to listen to him at the same time I'm counting my reps, but MAN. That kid can TALK! hahaha...
Did twenty minutes on the crossramp tonight- I was sweating hardcore by the end of it, refilled my water bottle THREE times, and could hardly breathe when I was done, but thats how I know it was a good workout. And I'll be there tomorrow night, and the next etc.
So I had put in my notice at the gym, gave them a month, and still had two weekends left, and apparently they found someone, cuz last night was my last night! It was actually kinda sad, cuz after three years, I had a lot of people that I just adored in the mornings, and I think it was probably reciprocated. On the other hand, MAN OH MAN. How I look forward to not having to work EVERY Friday and Saturday night... Time to act my age, lol.

So I have come up with my long term goal for the wedding in May: 60lbs. Thats seven months away, and that breaks down to 8.5lbs per month. Totally doable. Now that I finally have my butt in gear, I think it'll happen. My SUPER long term goal is 85-90lbs by August 29th. That is a verrrry long way away, and with all you guys to help support me, I know I got it. I know that I'll hit the dreaded plateau, and I know that there are gonna be days where chocolate is the only thing that appeals to me, and now, with weekends off- I know there might be a teensy bit of drinking. (I'll uh, try to do vodka and cranberry *shiver* bleh ) :rolleyes: But I am most definately committed again, and that makes me happy!
Peace out guys :) talk to ya all later!
 
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