2B135again Diary

I picked up my mother on Saturday and we went to lunch at Sweet Tomatoes. It's a salad buffet restaurant - Yum! Then we ran errands and while we were out, I locked the keys in her car. This wouldn't normally have been a problem because she carries a spare in her purse, but my sister lost her other set last week when she took the car in for a tune up. We had to wait outside of Vitamin Cottage for almost an hour until the Pop-a-Lock guy got there. Apparently it was a big day for locking your keys in the car. I felt awful because my mother has a difficult time walking and standing because of severe osteoperosis and bad hips. I asked the store for a chair for her so she could at least sit down while we waited, but it was really uncomfortable for her.

I bought my mom and I a 'Hemp I Scream' sandwich while we waited. These things are delicious, made with raw, whole grains (including the legal hemp of course) and other organic, vegan ingredients. I need to find out the nutritional content.

Sunday morning I woke up early and went rollerblading at a local skate park for the first time in months. Once I got my balance I had a blast. Of course, there were many tweens and teens flying past me, but they were shouting encouragement when I stopped to get my breath. It was very surprising because I know I looked ridiculous at first, but it made my day and I definitely stayed longer because they did that. Cleaned and worked on my web sites for most of the rest of yesterday.

What I Did Right (Weekend Edition)

- Min. 100 oz water each day
- Exercise both days
- Good food choices
- Logged food and exercise
- Slept at least 8 hrs both nights
- Time with Mom
 
Forgot that today was also my weigh-in day. I was down 1 lb for my weigh-in on Friday for the August 2-lb Challenge, but when I got on the scale this morning, I was in Onederland!!! Wahoo!!! I see more rollerblading and big, huge salads in my future! Yay!! **Doing a happy loser dance!:jump: **

Weigh In Day Today
Heaviest - 220
Start - 205
8/13 - 202
8/20 - 199
 
Thanks Miss JB. I'm really happy about it.

I'm on my way out the door to go to Beaver Creek for our international staff conference including a rafting trip tomorrow. I went white water rafting many times as a younger, thinner, me, and I'm really nervous. I think I'm most uncomfortable, though, about wearing shorts around everyone. I don't think I'll be able to write until tomorrow night or even Thursday depending on what time we get back.
 
I hope your having a great time rafting!! Oh your so lucky, I would love to be outside doing anything, then inside doing work. YUK!! Enjoy your time!
Kim
 
Wow, this weekend was a diet train wreck. My 'no' button was in the Off position all weekend. On Friday I was down another pound, but this morning I was up two. Friday evening a few of us went to the hotel where some of our international staff were staying to spend a few last minutes with them before they left. We had a light dinner, but then they wanted to go to a local bar for 'a' drink. 'Many' drinks and some greasy bar food later, I went home feeling gross. Saturday I did go for a quick bike ride early, but had to be back by 10:00 for a conference call about my web sites. Took my mother for her weekly errands, and ate lunch at Boston Market but then she wanted ice cream. I was set to just get a cone for her, but the flavor was German Chocolate Cake and I caved. Then Saturday evening, I went to a birthday party for a family friend who turned 90. This woman has more energy than I do, but did I follow her example and eat light? Of course not, because I was an eating machine on Saturday. Sunday was no better starting with my roommate arriving home with a huge bag of fast food from Sonic for lunch. The rest of the day I was craving carbs so badly I finally made spaghetti for dinner. I used quinuoa pasta, not wheat, and did manage to only have a small portion.

I brought oatmeal with dried blueberries for breakfast, and salad fixin's for lunch. Time to get back on track. I hate it when I have these weekends.
 
We ALL have those weekends every now and again, but as you did, you just RE-FOCUS and get back on track for another GOOD week. Try to remain focused and I'm sure that 2lbs will drop off by the end of this week. Do you weigh in weekly?? We always tend to go up and down on water retention, so maybe that's the main problem with your scale this week. I don't think the weekend of bad eating put so much on. I'm sure you'll do better this week, and I hope you get in some needed biking or exercise. Have a great rest of your week, I'll check in on you later gator!:jump:
Kim
 
Thanks, Kim. I know I'll have days like that here and there, but I'm much more understanding of other people's days than my own. I am so mad at myself for what I allowed to happen; those 'little' things that I'm fully aware usually trip me up, did it again. I have been bracing myself for them, reminding myself that they will happen and going over in my head how I would handle it when they did. But in the end, I decided I'd rather be overweight than pass up french fries and ice cream. Why did I make those decisions, plural, over several days? I can't figure out how I can keep doing that when I'm so disgusted with myself that I want to cry most days.

I was back on-plan yesterday and took an hour walk at lunch. My bike is in the shop getting a tire patched so I spent the evening cooking for the rest of this week so I don't have any more excuses.

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, but here's what I did right yesterday:

- 100 oz water
- vitamins
- long walk at lunch
- ate on plan all day and logged food
- 7.5 hrs sleep
- cooked so I'm PREPARED for the rest of the week
 
My day got better after I vented this morning. Still not happy with myself, but I've stopped the bashing and have moved on. I ate well today thanks to the cooking I did and got all my water in, too. Plan to go to bed early tonight and to wake up in a fabulous mood tomorrow!
 
Good Morning Sunshine!!

Are you in a better mood this morning? I hope so! I know those 'screw up' days can really get you down, but only so long as you let them. Take a lesson from it and move on to better days. A belly full of tasty food can feel good but only for so long. Keep in mind how you felt in the aftermath next time you have the urge to have another one of 'those weekends'. I feel guilty after my binges like last night at the local PF Changs. I ate until I felt satisfied, but I still wanted more chicken fried rice! :eek: As long as you keep track of what you're doing right and that outweighs your slip ups you're on the right track. Bad habits die hard so hang in there! :)
 
I sure hope your feeling better today!! It sounds like you switched it around before late last night, so that's a huge accomplishment!! It seems once I'm in a bad mood, I usually stay that way the remainder of the day, so ONE BIG HOORAY FOR YOU my friend. And on the note about would rather be heavy than give up ice cream or french fries. Who in the world told you, that you would have to "GIVE UP" anything??? The fact is, if you stay active ever day and eat in Moderation, you can eat anything you want to and still lose weight. Remember, it's a small step at a time. You don't have to say no to a dish of ice cream, if it's every now and again, like once or twice a month. And instead of going out and getting a HUGE sundae, opt for a low fat frozen custard instead with fresh fruit in it and nuts. And on the fries, girlfriend, those were one of my FAVORITE splurge foods. But, I just set my mind to the fact if I only eat fries once a month, I'm not going to hurt myself. And as it turns out, I actually have them "maybe" once every couple months. I'm not a big fan of fast food, I was years ago when my sons were small, but since they out grew the happy meal about 6 years ago, we just don't do it anymore. We try to eat more stuff like a SUBWAY sandwich or even an Arby's market fresh sandwich, OMGOSH they are soooo good. And when they ask, do you want the combo (fries and drink) I say no, and drink it with water or tea instead. It takes time, trust me, and a lot of will power. But, after a few months you will be so happy and your body just won't miss them as much. I promise you. Don't ever think you have to give up anything, because then your doing a fad diet, and well diet is a lifestyle change, not a diet fad, moderation and exercise I truly believe is the key to success. I hope your day is a good one, and I hope you got a good nights rest!
Kim
 
Kim and Emily,

Thank you both so much for the pep talk. My personal trainer said almost the same things you did. I was so sure when I joined this site and signed up with my trainer that I would be perfect this time and actually follow the plan every day and CHANGE my behaviors right from the start. It really hit me hard that I would still let myself eat like that. It was scary how easy it was to just talk myself out of good food and slip right back into old behaviors.

I guess you're right, though, Kim. Denying myself completely of certain foods only seems to make me want them more. Maybe just knowing I can allow myself a bite occasionally will help me psychologically. I have to get past this mental idea, though, that if I take a bite I've already blown it so I might as well have the rest, or more, or some of another crappy food since I've already started. I have some serious work to do on my brain as well as my belly.

Emily, I really hope I don't forget how I felt on Monday and Tuesday. I was so disappointed in myself. It was really hard to log all that junk food on FitDay.com, but I did it. I actually thought about writing chicken and broccoli down there. Why would I DO that? Nobody else sees that log. I don't think I've ever really been honest with myself or especially laid all my screw-ups out there for the world to see like I've done here. This is the hardest part, isn't it?

What I Did Right Yesterday - It was a much better day than the beginning of the week. I stuck to my diet and drank 100 oz water. I slept a full 8 hrs last night and woke up pretty happy about 30 mins before my alarm went off. Since I had extra time I popped in a power yoga DVD and tried hard to pose and breathe. It doesn't look hard but I had a good sweat going when I finished, and I know my chest and arms are going to be sore. It was such a perfect day yesterday so I went for a walk at lunch. I picked up my bike after work so I'm ready for a few more rides to work before it's too dark in the morning.
 
Donna, I used to do the same thing with food myself at the beginning. When I would eat something bad, I would FORCE myself to do some form of exercise to burn off those calories, it was insane! But, I got a hold of myself after about 2 months of that, and started changing my thought pattern. I didn't have to "punish" myself for having a bite of ice cream or pizza, I just had to make sure I exercised weekly, and that has worked for me so far. A lifestyle change is all mental. If you can work the mental out, you got it made!!! I think you'll kick this, I just have that feeling. Your so awesome in the water intake it drives me nuts, I wish I was that good. I try to drink at least 60 oz a day, but even that is a lot for me, I'm just not thirsty all the time, even though all I do drink is water 85% of the time. I have to drink at least a cup or two of coffee in the morning, or I'm the MEGA BEAST! hahahahha, well have a good day today my friend. I'll stop by later!:jump:
Kim
 
Hi Donna, just want to drop by & wish you luck with this Halloween Challenge. We are both on the House on Weightloss Hill team.

Hope you are having a wonderful day & getting ready to loss some more weight & get closer to that 135!
 
Hi Donna,

We're on the same HC team, so I'm stopping in everyone's diaries to get acquainted.

Don't worry about the bad days so much. I have found that telling myself I can't have something only makes me want it more. So if there's ice cream (which I don't buy) I will eat 1 spoonful. If I feel like chocolate, I'll have a small piece. I find that if I don't restrict myself, then I seem to crave things less. I think we always want what we can't have! lol I'm like that with sex, too. If I'm out somewhere with my H where we can't do it, I often feel a strong desire for it. Then when we're home alone in the bedroom, I don't want it as much! :rotflmao: Must be something wrong with me! :rotflmao:

Anyway, best wishes on the HC. I'm here if you need me!!:hug2: :hug2:
 
Hiyas!
I just wanted to drop by and say Hi. We're on the same Halloween Challenge team .
You sure do knock down that water each day! I need to measure my intake more closely. Especially with the upcoming weeks bonus challenge.

I'll be stopping by to cheer you on ! Best of luck to you !
Paul
 
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