What's the new swimsuit for and where do you find one in the dead of winter?! Do you do swimming for exercise or are you going somewhere warm and lovely? When will you be in NYC again? Hope you're doing well
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The swimsuit would be for my trip to Hawaii in THREE WEEKS! THREE WEEKS PEOPLE! WOOOOOOHOOOO!... I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I am. I've not been on a vacation in seven years. Jeff and I were talking about it last night. My boyfriend is the King of Procrastination/No Focus and last night he goes to me, "So have you bragged to all your friends or are you waiting until the plans are more concrete?".... and by that he means, are you going to wait until the day before we leave when you nag me to pack my suitcase that we're definitely going. And I said, "Well my plans are concrete. I'm going on vacation whether you are or not." And he goes, "Oh, I guess that settles it." This also reminds me that I need to get life insurance so my parents are taken care of if I kick it snorkeling.
Anyway, Blancita... Target down here had the bathing suits out right after New Years. And when I went on Saturday they were already picked through! I was able to find about 6 in my size and settled on 2, but I'm only keeping one. I need to decide which one soon so I can return the other one. But I bought those tankinis that cover your belly. I look better in a two piece... that one piece business is awful for anyone who isn't skinny.
I would love to swim for exercise and I did last summer because Jeff's apartment complex has a pool, but it's clearly too cold to do that now and my gym doesn't have an indoor pool.
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So I made it back to the gym last night after almost a week long hiatus... man it sucks trying to get back in the groove after only missing a week. However I've just been in this terrible emotional mood. I'm PMSing and I thought that exercising and eating better this last month would mean that PMS wouldn't happen (in the past pms has disappeared when I'm in better shape), except it has happened and it's terrible. Since Sunday I've been overly emotional for no reason, completely happy and giddy one minute and then just bawling my eyes out the next. I also feel sad. Like,
really sad. There is no reason for me to feel really sad. And last week i was delighting in the fact that I have my own place all to myself and this week I dread going home to no one.
My mood was even apparent at the gym last night when Nick (instructor) came over to me and said, "Buck up little camper!" Last night's workout sucked. I couldn't get into it. My kicks and punches were really soft. It's also bothering me more that everyone is skinny. Part of the problem was that it used to be a handful of people and now the class is full so I feel claustraphobic and crammed in, can't move, etc. And the new people are all skinnier than the original group of girls I call "The Skinnies". I feel like such a sore thumb and when I crap out on the workout itself I just think that I can't keep doing it; losing weight is going to be impossible because I feel like I'm going to die if I have to keep doing this everyday. Clearly my period needs to come so this entire shitty mood can go away.
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That post was really a downer. I'm in a decent, albeit tired mood at the moment. I need to put together a list of upbeat music. Ok... need to get things done this morning... so much to do!
