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Xenon1

Xenon1

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Hello old friends and new friends :) been a while. Went through a lot of changes good and bad. Managed to get down to 250 in 2013. Then gained it all back plus some. I was shocked to see 296 on the scale...just two pounds shy of my highest recorded weight ever. I have since returned to vegetarianism and lost about 11 pounds, so I am currently 285.4. Being that a little over 8 months are left in the year, I think it is reasonable to strive for a weight less than 200 pounds by the end of the year...even if it is 199.8 :D I plan to achieve this by preparing my own meals, consuming less desert type foods and having more fruits and vegetables. I bought some workout videos and intend to use those, but my ultimate goal is to start running again. I'm also going to stay away from the contests because I get a little crazy with them lol. Will try to update at least weekly. Nice to see everyone again :).
 
Welcome back. It's a great time to start a life change, weather is wonderful. I see we're the same weight, and I go crazy every time I join a contest too LOL.
 
Nice to see you Luz :):) and Mr. Vee :D nice to meet you Clarissa. glad to see someone shares the same madness as me.

Ok so the past couple of weeks have been filled with celebrations which = eating + drinking so I feel like crap naturally. stepped on the scale this morning and Clarissa, we are no longer around the same weight 293.8 is what i am now. I told all my favorite party animals that I have to chill for a while because it is affecting my health. getting the tv/dvd combo which should help my at home workout routine and looking to purchase some vegan cookbooks. Scheduling an appointment with a nutritionist to make sure i get all of the necessary nutrients...but i think i will just have to go vegan for a bit...still too loose with vegetarianism lol piling on the cheese and overdoing the ice creams
 
So last couple weigh ins:
294.6 - 5/11/2014
290.8 - 5/13/2014
getting back into the vegan swing of things and feeling good about it :)

yesterday ate
2 bananas
2 containers of watermelon
falafel buger with no bread
lettuce and tomato
2 small orders of french fries

was ill prepared yesterday but I have everything ready today :) Including chocolate soy milk! :D have a great day everyone!!
 
Looks like you're off to a good start. Keep your spirits high and don't let yourself get discouraged. And enjoy your chocolate soy milk!!
 
Thanks :) You know I did :D I love chocolate soy milk now. This is my first time having it.
289.0 - 5/14/2013
288.0 - 5/15/2013
 
286.2 - 5/16/2013

I didn't have the usual soup for dinner last night so I think some of this loss is water. Enjoying this diet :) guilt free eating.

back to being <50% fat composition lol
 
284.0 - 5/17/2014 Awesome.
you guys have no idea how happy i am n_n I have finally found a lifetime diet. I eat whatever the heck i want :D
 
283.4 - 05/18/2014

This is great. Totally stuck to my diet this weekend with no problem. Not really experiencing intense cravings and I wonder if that has anything to do with the fact that I am not consuming simple carbs. Made general tso's tofu today with Japanese style vegetables and looking forward to having that tomorrow for lunch :) Also had callalloo for breakfast and am boiling green bananas now to have that with callallo for breakfast tomorrow. I also have grapes, celery sticks, and hummus for snack :D this is AWESOME lol
 
Still on the first page of my diary...or maybe this post will land to the second lol and I have lost a total of 15lbs so far. 278.8 today and i am starting to see it in my face and legs....the two places i always see it first. In the past there was a year when I was trying so hard to lose weight and my weight was constantly 278 lol cant wait to get past this
 
Hey Xe


I am so happy to see that you are also back on here, just love running into familliar people! My weight seems to be stuck in between 198 - 201 it'S been there forever! I am thinking of going back to being Vegan but not sure that kids and hubby will enjoye that we will see! Congrats on the 15lb lost and I am looking forward to seing your progress on here :)
 
OMG Veronique! so happy to see you! Yeah i am the only one vegan in this house lol. no one else here is doing that. you'll get out of that weight range :) I'm stopping by ur diary to say hi
 
This week has been crazy. Still getting adjusted to this new job. This is the most i have ever been paid in my life and this is also the most hostile and jealous set of people i have ever worked with. I think the problem is with management though...they do not recognize everyone's talents well enough so ppl are feeling unappreciated and jealous if someone else is being recognized. the team i came from had an awesome manager who recognized the talent of his team members. the only downfall with his team was that his hiring skills of permanent people were a little off. I felt like looking for a new job several times this week but i am so new that i think other companies may not take me seriously...so i am trying to stick this one out for a reasonable time. I'm just tired of the people though.

A little disillusioned now because if i continue to pursue my astrophysics degree it will take me a long time...so i need to find a new major until i am able to do astro full time again. I really do not know what to do.

so far as weight loss is concerned i have no idea where im at...back to emotional eating and have been eating vegetarian all week. hubby bought me some vegan things today so i'm going to try and keep it straight again. typing in the dark so please forgive the typos lol
 
Hey Xe

I am not completely back to being a vegan yet....but well on my way! I know what you mean about the leader is a workplace making all the difference,,,good leader see the talent and get the flow going in a team...a bad leader just makes a team imposible... Onr place I worked team members had to send in monthly evaluation on the team lead.....we had a great boss and he worked for those evaluation!!! Hope things will get better soon on the work front!! I am working hard on the emotional eating too....I have put sticky notes on my fridge and every pnatry doors if there is food inside.....the first one says STOP....Why are you eating....are you really hungry......have a glass of water ...come back in 20 min!!!!! makes me think twice before reaching for food..... take care!!!
 
Very good idea about the glass of water Veronique :) I went on vacation and started eating everything again since 06/05. I had a frozen vegan pizza today that I did not like and my husband says "if you do not like vegan things do not be vegan" naturally I got very upset when he said this. Then when he was explaining what he meant he says "this has been going on for years. You try to do things like be vegan or vegetarian or whatever then you go back to eating whatever you want so just stick with eating whatever you want and accept yourself as you are." *sigh* He thought he was giving me good advice and i feel as if he is reminding me of all my failures and telling me to basically accept that i am a failure. I was planning on getting back on track this week and I am now feeling bothered lol I will get on track anyway but I just hope he does not think it is a retaliation against whatever he is saying. The thing is I cannot just accept myself at almost three hundred pounds and I cannot accept living an unhealthy lifestyle. I guess time will tell which lifestyle i will stick with, but for me, I feel best as vegan and i just need to go the extra mile to eat the things i should instead of caving due to emotional or recreational reasons. I was actually fine with no cravings this time until i started eating simple starches again. I have been getting recipes and planning my meals and I feel I will have success. I just have to stay focused and not deviate for a while. I think he is just frustrated and hates to see me struggle but I cannot give up on myself. So needless to say really feeling bad about this. If no one else believes in me, I believe in myself and I will do this.
 
Okay so less than 200 is not going to happen by the end of this year. I am now at 300 pounds. I have clearly not been giving much thought to weight loss and have been eating and drinking just whatever I feel but this has to change and going forward this will be my last attempt before making the decision to do something the unnatural way. I am changing my lifestyle now and will be disciplined and accountable to myself. Going back vegan--the only thing that works for me for a long period of time. I am stopping everything else now. For all of these years, I have managed to find ways to be content within myself and not make efforts to lose weight. Right now I am feeling very at peace with myself and was actually thinking yesterday that my life is finally being harmonious. For the past few weeks I have been seeing slim people and thinking...this is just not my lot in life to be slim, I accept myself as fat as I am. Although this led me to accept myself and be at peace with myself, I realise that this fatness is not myself but is hindering me from my full potential. This is not a well thought out an well planned start as it is mostly prompted by the number on the scale this morning, but I will prove to myself that I can do it this time. Self journey lol.

Plan now
-Vegan diet no simple carbs until...
-No sodas
-Exercise at least 30 mins every other day

I am now using this diary to be accountable to myself instead of trying to gain help and support from others...Although of course support is always welcome :D
 
Hi Xenon! I'm so glad to hear that you've accepted yourself for who you are. That's going to make weight loss so much easier, because you won't be beating yourself up about your body along the way. If you're looking for good vegan cookbooks, I recommend Isa Moskowitz's Appetite for Reduction, Julie Morris's Superfood Kitchen, and Denise Mari's Organic Avenue: Recipes for Life. I wish you well and please keep us posted!
 
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