19 With a Dream; The Diary of a Fat Child.

Hey Jess! I wanted to stop in and say hi since I have been so freaking busy this last week. But I am home and ready to really focus on my diet now.....it should be fun lol.

It looks like you are still doing great. I'll probably talk to you on messenger soon.

See ya!
 
somethingnew912 said:
Hey Jess! I wanted to stop in and say hi since I have been so freaking busy this last week. But I am home and ready to really focus on my diet now.....it should be fun lol.

It looks like you are still doing great. I'll probably talk to you on messenger soon.

See ya!
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Yay! You're home now. I hope everything is well with you as well. Thanks for stoppin' in, I'm messed up! Lots to talk about...
 
Saturday May 12th 2007 10:41PM


Lately, life has been taken me over board and I feel like I can't handle anything. Working is annoying, I've been carry my ass all day and it sucks. I hope tomorrow is better. I think I'll go to bed early. One more day of working. Monday and Tuesday are going to be 'me' days... I need to get back on the tread, I need to get back on track. No wonder I'm at a stand still. Oh well, it always nice when your employer overloads you with hours and the give you a good number of days off. So many hours, too close together, makes me lagging and unmotivated in the time before and after. I don't have a hard job but, I am always working evenings lately and it actually takes a lot of work to close down a photo lab when it's busy. We have machine maintenance and close down stuff we have to take care of and sometimes....its heavy. Either way, ten o'clock closes leave me tired the next day and I don't do anything. Oh well. No, this is not a new thing to me and I understand people might assume that it's my intake and exercises and it's catching up to me. I don't think it is, it's just the hours I've been keeping. My anxiety meds got messed up this week so I've been 'off kilter'.
4 days to go! 19! 19! Yay!
:eh: I love Canada, pour me a drink and let me smoke.
I'm a nerd. I guess that's all, really. Blah...
 
My scale is such a piece of crap. My mom weighed herself a couple days ago and it said 242 and when she went to the hospital for her sleep clinic she weight 225.
I don't know what the heck is going on and now I really can't weight until my doctors appointment because I'm not believing any scale, any more. My mom is not even dieting. She hasn't lost any weight. I doubt I'm even at a stand still. Oh well.
I'm going to work really hard. Not weight myself on my Birthday and see what it says, for real May 24th at the Doctors.
I feel revived in some way. I know I've been making excuses but there is absolutely no way that my mom could have lost anyway of that weight. I'm going to make her step our scale again and see what she gets.
Happy Mothers Day lol
 
I'm sorry to hear your scale may be working incorrectly, i wouldn't step on it either, i'd be afraid it would gain me 20 lbs then i'd freak out and eat the whole world outta angerhaha kidding. You are doing a great job and i bet at your next appointment you will be soooo surprised at what your hardwork is doing for you.

I still want to know how you are doing this, my goodness you are extremly motivating for the rest of us. Keep up the great job hun! and Happy early birthday!!
 
AEL33107 said:
I'm sorry to hear your scale may be working incorrectly, i wouldn't step on it either, i'd be afraid it would gain me 20 lbs then i'd freak out and eat the whole world outta angerhaha kidding. You are doing a great job and i bet at your next appointment you will be soooo surprised at what your hardwork is doing for you.

I still want to know how you are doing this, my goodness you are extremly motivating for the rest of us. Keep up the great job hun! and Happy early birthday!!
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It's okay about the scale. Apparently the nurse sucks at weight conversion, she said 109 kg which is 240 something.. Oh well the scale sucks.
Thanks for the early birthday wishes, I'm so excited. Yayay!
I hope my next appointment is a good one. From now at this moment till May 24th, I'm kicking it into over drive. I want to be 220.
I'm happy that I'm motivating so many, you can do it! PM me your email address, we'll chat.
 
I haven't been here in awhile so...


Yesterday was my Birthday so, CAKE was involved. I went gambling today at the casino. It was soo fun. I chilled with my bestest friend ever and that's pretty much it. I'm approaching my 30lb mark/deadline on May 24th. That will be exciting. All the hard work is paying off. Mind you, I'm not really working...right now. Had a couple ooops meals but, it happens. It was my birthday.

Life is good now. I feel so alone though. I have no friends what so ever. They're all soo far away. It's scary. I've never not...had friends. Around anyway.

I'll get over it.
Later days.
 
Cheer up :)! You have plenty of friends on here supporting you.

Hopefully, you reach your goal for may! Heh. And happy belated birthday. You have to change the name of the thread. :rolleyes:
 
LOL deep green. I just turned 19. I knew I was turning 19 so I named it this..



I need to walk people. I haven't walked in so long. But I'm sure you might notice...my miles haven't moved either.
 
Dang, I'm an idiot, heh. :eek:

I like walking, especially at night. Especially when aA strong wind picks up, the moon and the stars are out, and i'm by myself. I tend to day dream about stuff...its my little "alone" time...peaceful time.

And I get pissed off when I see other people out. Its my time, why are they invading! :mad:
 
DeepGreen said:
Dang, I'm an idiot, heh. :eek:

I like walking, especially at night. Especially when aA strong wind picks up, the moon and the stars are out, and i'm by myself. I tend to day dream about stuff...its my little "alone" time...peaceful time.

And I get pissed off when I see other people out. Its my time, why are they invading! :mad:
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hahahahahah thats awesome. stupid people and their walking, how dare they!
 
Why is it that when I start doing well stuff has to creep up from now where and take me emotionally off guard. I'm so messed up right now. I'm not eating my way through it lol but I'm not losing it either. I have been so lazy lately. Boo urns.
 
I'm doing great!! down 4.9 pounds in the last week... wooot :)
How you been doing? 24th is coming sooner than you think, can't wait to see the updated ticker!!!
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Hey, hang in there! You're doing great!
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Thanks! I'm trying. I think I'm gonna go for a nice 45 minute walk.

AEL33107 said:
I'm doing great!! down 4.9 pounds in the last week... wooot :)
How you been doing? 24th is coming sooner than you think, can't wait to see the updated ticker!!!
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I've been doing so, so. I'm not really impressed with life right now as it's all falling apart but like I've said...I'm still eating right...just emotionally drained and I could really use some exercise. I haven't been on the tread in a couple days. Everything is just soo mest up right now. It's sucks. A lot. So I'm basically gonna work my ass off the rest of may till the end of June where I hope to 200 pounds. I'm half way to half way...so I'm still doing good. Just need to do a little bit better.

That's great! 4 pounds is awesome! Especially for a week. See I'm telling you, this works! Keep it up and I'll try and do the same.
 
I dare YOU to move.

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?


I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here
 
Hey! I'm finally back in town for good lol. I hope you are doing well. I will try to talk to you on messenger soon, and I'll go check the LJ. I actually gained A LOT of weight over my trip, but I know it will come off easily cause a lot of it is from the insane amount of salt I ate lol. Okay, well i'll talk to you soon!
 
Hey, welcome back. That's too bad about the weight gain. The scale is moving down again...
YAY! So I'm halfway to halfway! I'm soo excited. I can't wait to weigh less then 200. It will make my life. Plus I won't be Obese anymore. Tell me you've read our journal...oh my god Lisa...I'm telling you...SOO much crap has happened lately...
 
[TODAY IS!!!!! Wednesday May 23rd 2007. 2:36pm

I just found out my best friend is coming home from Banff, Alberta in 35 days....which is awesome because I have another reason to work my butt off. Last time she saw me I weight 250 something. Now, when she comes home I'll be 190 something. I hope anyway. I need to get the next 25-30 pounds off. I can do it. The scale has went from 231-226 since Sunday. So tomorrow is the big doctors appointment when I'll find out how I'm doing for sure and see what else we can come up with. Oh halfway to halfway! Slowly approaching the teens. Hopefully I'm standing tall at the end of may...5 pounds lighter then now and approaching my 40 pound mark by the end of the first week of June. The two weeks following that will hopefully be my 50 pound mark and 200's will be in the dust by the end of June.
July will be exciting. New body, new swim wear and clothes. Eeeek!

It's all about taking it one day at a time.
 
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