A couple things. Being skinny does not make someone happy, finding life’s purpose is what helps to create happiness. Also, It’s only is healthy if you do healthy things to get there. Skinny and healthy are not always the same. I hope that health is your ultimate goal to take care of your body because if it’s just to lose weight and look good, chances are it won’t last and it will never be enough.
Secondly, I don’t need a support forum to lose weight and that’s not even a super big goal of mine. I’m not entirely unhappy or happy with my body, I just happen to struggle with an eating disorder that is mostly a mental battle. It has a lot more to it than just weight loss. That’s simply a symptom of something tremendous in my life that is hard to explain. Eating disorders are more about a reaction to life stressors that make someone feel out of control (it’s kinda like another form of self harm or addiction).
Also, I do not recommend purging. It is not healthy for the body in several ways. It can become addictive and also, very very ineffective for losing weight or getting rid of calories. By the time food is eaten, the body already absorbs almost all of the calories that it won’t make a difference if you throw it up, it just makes you dehydrated and deal with soreness in the throat, cause damage to esophagus and mess with electrolyte levels that could cause really scary things to happen. It’s actually a myth that purging is what causes weight loss in people with eating disorders. Its just an added symptom, but calorie restriction is what causes the majority of weight loss and also excessive exercise.
I don’t really know why I’m still on here. I don’t need support in losing weight. I guess it’s just fun for the eating disorder to see what others think of my body, super unhealthy I know. Also, I realize you’re not being judgemental. I really appreciate your curiosity. I just have dealt with a lot of people who say triggering things out of ignorance or simply misunderstanding and I like to explain it before the questions come up. So many misconceptions about EDs which can get frustrating.