Cate's Diary

~Dynamic Range~ Thank you. How are you going?
~Mrs W~ Thank you sweets. Are you going well too?
~LJ~ Maaaate. Glad to have you back too. Thank you xo
~Thanks LaMa~ 400 pages. What a gasbag I am!
~ Cowboy~ Thank you very much.

One of the things I do like about the forum is the fact that people can come & go & it's a bit like having another home. 400 pages. I can't believe that. I hope I can stick around & make a thousand!

I will say I had a bad day yesterday which I won't share with you. It was mainly because of other people's reactions & was probably after having to put on a brave face for G each day for 18 days & having very little sleep. I'm only human & the stress was huge. G & our 2 sons & I went out to 8-ball last night, had dinner beforehand ( a nice big juicy steak for me- YUM). I had 1 glass of red wine & 1 Pernod on ice a bit later, G had a few ciders & D & R got totally smashed & played snooker half the night when we got back home. It would have done them good to be together, even with what must be massive hangovers. They cooked at about 2am I think & I had given them biscuits & cheese etc before I went to bed so they did get lots of good food into them. I know they were both petrified, just as I was really deep down.

When R eventually surfaces we'll go for a walk through the bush to clear some of his cobwebs (when he's able to).
Today I feel almost back to normal.

Thank you so much everyone for visiting my diary & for your best wishes. I appreciate that. No matter what happens always feel free to pop in & even just say hi. Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
cate said:
It would have done them good to be together, even with what must be massive hangovers. They cooked at about 2am I think & I had given them biscuits & cheese etc before I went to bed so they did get lots of good food into them. I know they were both petrified, just as I was really deep down.
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Sounds like the boys got what they needed. Even if the BIG topic is avoided, men need that dopey time together.
 
You're right LaMa & LJ. The big night was just what they needed. I'm not sure how D pulled up, but he didn't have to go to work & was spending the day with his GF. He wasn't too bad I think. We had a lovely day at home with R on Wednesday. We went bushwalking on our block & showed him places & features he has not seen before, including Wombat Hollow, which we only found accidentally a couple of weeks ago. I'll put a photo on to show you when I put it on my laptop.
I ticked quite a few things off my list yesterday, including posting Mum's ashes, seeing the Lawyer etc.
I also got a call from my Mother's sister's son's widow, who has been trying to contact me because my Aunt (her MIL) lost my number & we are not listed. We got on like a house on fire on the phone & she is now coming to Mum's wake. She had planned on making a trip to put her husband's ashes in a rose garden nearby & will now combine the 2. Most probably so will 2 of her sons. I am going to meet relis I have never met. It is growing & while I am excited I am also slightly terrified. (Can you be slightly terrified?) She has added me on FB & so has one of her sons, another of my long-lost cousins rang last night cranky with my brother & then my 94-year-old Aunt rang last night as well! It was all a bit much really. Oh, well I'm rebuilding some bridges that had been damaged a couple of generations back. That must be good, right? ;)
I hope my sister copes with the additions to the family wake. It could get very interesting. I hope I don't get too many more calls.
My brother can appear very cold & unfriendly to others & can be very annoying, but I found I didn't take too well to him being criticised by this fairly unknown cousin. I found myself defending him as I do think, in this instance he was misinterpreted. Families are a funny dynamic. It's OK for me to criticise him sometimes ;) I do love him, but I don't often agree with his views.
Anyhow. Hopefully today will be just an ordinary day. Ordinary would be nice.
Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
Wombat Hollow- on our bush block, tucked away really well. The hollow log on the right has a cosy, dry nest in it & wombat scats are nearby.
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That does look cozy, do you know what kind of building used to stand there? I love me some ruins! (Not a thing I'd say at home or my mom would get snarky about my ex's age :p )
 
No building LaMa. Just a great big old gum tree. Someone must have fallen it decades ago for firewood & that was just left to rot. Lucky Wombat :)
 
I'm sure a gum tree is as exotic to you as an oak tree is to me, but I'll just say it - "A gum tree??!! That's the coolest thing ever!!!"
 
I love gum trees. I'll take a few photos of a couple of nice biggies that were spared all those years ago. It is one very cool animal habitat down in our bush. It is out of bounds for shooters & loggers. I try to whisper down there. :D
 
Wombat poo is perfectly acceptable Jen. :D They are herbivorous, so it's never smelly & it's as cute as a Wombat. Really....It's square. Square poo!

I played 18 holes of golf today & had a lovely day, even though it was freezing & it rained lots of times. I played with G & 2 other guys & got around OK. I ached from head to toe, but that's ok too. I haven't played for weeks. When I woke this morning it felt like my shoulder had popped out & I whacked it back, before I had even really woken up. 3 weeks of being crunched & cracked should be enough in my view. I'm going to book in for a massage this week if I can & only one more visit to the chiropractor after that at most. I do feel worse than when I went to see him. That's the 1st time I have admitted that.

Had some good connections today with a few of the women. It's hard to explain, but I do feel that they don't really know me at all & somehow I got off on the wrong footing with the women at the golf club in particular. The woman who has given me the hardest time since I started golf was really nice to me today. It was the first time she has ever made me feel that she may actually like me at all. The golf day was a memorial day to her husband who died of cancer. He was a lovely guy & they were very close.

G & I were meant to go out to a fancy dress party tonight but have decided that, as we would both much rather stay at home, that we will. Because we really should be doing more of what we want to & less of what we don't.
 
cate said:
Because we really should be doing more of what we want to & less of what we don't.
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Very much so. And I would be very happy if the other women at the club would get to know you better: both for your sake, as it would make life more relaxed and pleasant, and for theirs (cause they don´t know what they´re missing).
 
I ordered a "swim dress" on Friday. I started off reading about the burkini(designed in Australia :) ) ban in France & thinking how good it would be to wear something attractive to swim in that covered my upper legs as they are what makes me self-conscious in bathers& then moved on to looking at swimwear online. I ended up ordering a swim dress & a pair of black swim pants that will match a black & white halter swim top that I have, which has a pair of skimpy pants that I am constantly re-adjusting. This way I will have 2 complete swimming costumes. If the dress is too long I will take it up, & the same with the pants. The swim dress is this one-
 
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