Zephyr's diary take 2 -- don't think, just do it

Week 8 Day 2

Terrible day again. I am in the library typing this up. I am taking a break in between my two papers, both of which are due tomorrow. I'm not sure if I should let this stop me from going to my workout. I really don't know what to do. I have about ten minutes to make my decision of either..
a) going to my workout and coming back at 10pm to finish up my paper, or
b) skipping my workout and staying in the library to complete it.

I hate exam weeks.

The only things I am sure of right now are..
a) this week is just going so horribly
b) after tomorrow (or thursday after my doctor appointment) things will be looking up and i will be back on my workout groove
c) i will be working out twice on saturday to make up for last saturday and twice on sunday to make up for monday and tuesday (if I end up skipping)

It's really hard to make the distinction of what my priority is. Is it my education? Or my workout? People always say to make working out a priority, but in this case, it's just so difficult to make the "right choice."

Not to mention, my dad is visiting the family on Thursday and will be here for only a few days. I have not seen him for MONTHS since the US Army stationed him out of the country. I don't know how I'm supposed to be juggling my classes, tryouts, my boxing gym, and also heading back HOME home to where my family lives to see him.

I cannot wait for Friday :(
 
I know what you mean about the studying vs. the workout - I am having difficulties with this as well! I have honestly put my health first and I know it is a bad thing to be putting more time into working out than into doing homework but when you have such determination for something, it's hard NOT to want to devote all of your time to it. I guess if I WANTED good grades bad enough, I'd devote more time to my studies. However, I've always had that "I can get by" attitude... I'm also a very last minute person so I tend to put off the studying as long as possible :)

Stick to your studies. You have all week to work out - don't feel bad for missing just one. Better yet, get your homework done NOW and THEN go to the gym ;)

~ Sarah
 
skkroll said:
However, I've always had that "I can get by" attitude... I'm also a very last minute person so I tend to put off the studying as long as possible :)
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Ah man, I used to be like that in my freshman and half of my sophomore year.. but it just randomly hit me that I'm a premed student and I can't just have grades that are just "enough." Bleh.. but those days were good!

I worked out yesterday and today. Tried to do the best that I could. Went to the doctor about my foot and he made me so mad. He was behind his schedule and because of HIS schedule, i had to wait 2 hours in the waiting room AND he ONLY spoke with me for like 30 SECONDS! he said i have a bunion and ordered an xray, which DID NOT confirm the bunion issue, but he justified it and said, "it may just be at an early stage. no running or high impact activities until the swelling goes down."

i KNOW it's NOT a bunion. i am not that stupid. i questioned him as we were walking out of his office, "could it just be a cyst?" and AS HE WAS WALKING AWAY from me, he said "no, not a cyst" and then walked into another room to see another patient.

I mean, WOW. I am just trying to convince myself that my flu shot took 2 hours long because at least I got THAT out of the appointment. And it wasn't even HIM who gave it to me.

i'm going to give it a few more days and if it goes terrible, i'm going to have to find myself a specialist.

urgh, i know what kind of doctor i DON'T want to be. i miss my other doctor :( he basically knew me as a PERSON, not just a patient!

anyway.. regardless of whether or not i have bunion, i think it's good advice that i shouldn't be running. it hurts just putting my shoes on or walking around in my own room.

this week is just so hopeless, it's almost funny.
 
Week 10 Day 1

It's the final week of my goal, which was to work out for 10 weeks straight. I can't say that I lost too much weight during the 10 weeks, but I did learn, realize, and do a few things I wouldn't have 10 weeks ago.

  • learned to incorporate exercise somewhere in my schedule at least 5 times a week
  • began realizing the parts i liked about myself & focused on that rather than on those i didn't like -- i'm in love with my upper arms and upper abs!
  • switch the attitude about me from negative to positive
  • i feel stronger and more willing to hit the gym on my own time (also found a lifting buddy)
  • i walk taller in terms of confidence
  • i try to eat breakfast every day now
  • i carry around my water bottle for most of the day
  • most importantly, i no longer obsess over my numbers on the scale; i am more about doing what i do (exercise, more mindful of what i eat), everything else will follow

Seriously, as long as I continue to exercise and be a little more mindful in what I eat, the weight loss will follow.

This is the last week of my membership of my boxing gym, but my university's gym is HUGE and also has a bag room, so I will definitely be hitting that up. It's going to be weird not having instructors to train under after this week, but I think 10 weeks gave me plenty of time to learn how to push and motivate myself.

It's bitter sweet.

-Z.
 
Thanks skkroll! I'm not at my goal yet, but it's nice to know that I'm losing the pounds.

Today I woke up SUPER late because I slept way past my bedtime last night. I was falling in and out of sleep every thirty minutes and had some of the craziest, creepiest dreams. Finally got my butt off the bed at 2pm though and ate a light "breakfast" (or lunch?)

Food:
A cup of brown rice with this Korean seasoned perilla leaves.

Gym:
I still have a cyst (though the inflammation went down), so I couldn't do the treadmill.
Elliptical
5 min elliptical warmup
5k elliptical in 27 minutes
5 min cool down on elliptical
average heart rate 165

Strength (today was shoulders, biceps, and triceps)
Dumbbell shoulder press (4 sets, 10 reps)
Cable upright row (3 sets, 10 reps)
Dumbbell rear lateral raise (3 sets, 10 reps)
Barbell curl (2 sets, 10 reps)
Dumbbell concentration curl (2 sets, 10 reps)
Dumbbell triceps kickbacks (2 sets, 10 reps)
Dumbbell triceps extension (3 sets, 10 reps)

I found those workouts on this site. It's supposed to tone me up.

Post-workout:
I cut up an apple, peeled a satsuma, and prepared a protein powder + 2% milk to take with me to the gym. Ate those on my way back home.

Think it was a pretty good day.
 
I lost another pound. I am now 132.0 lbs. I'm not going to make a big deal out of it because it could just be water weight or something, but the number's still nice to see :)

I haven't been updating very much, but it doesn't mean that I've been sitting around doing nothing. I ran the football stadium stairs again along with the usual pushups, situps, and boxing with a buddy of mine.

Food could have been going a lot better, but I was out of them and didn't have time for grocery shopping until two days ago. I also spent the weekend at my boyfriend's mom's place and I ate a lot of cookies.

I'm eating Cheerios as I type this. I have 2 satsumas waiting for me on my table and the coffee maker is going right now for my green tea.
 
It's finals week this week and I have one more paper to write. I'm taking a break right now and thought it was about time I updated my weight loss journal.

Lots happened while I was away including finals week. My right foot has been in constant pain that it is incredibly hard to walk on, let alone move my toes! I went to see my doctor the first time around and he predicted it was a bunion (which I disagree with). I went to see him a second time for a reevaluation because it has been getting worse and I also have developed unsightly and very painful bubbles on the underside. He referred me to a specialist and I am going to call him as soon as I get my paper finished to set up an appointment.

The bad news is that the appointment will have to wait for after I come back from winter break because I am leaving on the 21st. I hope to see him as soon as I get back though.

For that reason and because of the finals, I have not been exercising. Walking is a real pain to do, so that's also been on the minimum. My diet has been poor: late night fast food and mindless munching on snacks as well as constant Starbucks trips for venti (when I can bear the pain) when I normally do short or tall. I have also been staying up late studying or trying to do my four papers. I have been doing bad in terms of water intake as well. I've just basically put everything on hold.

I'm still at a 132.2 pounds, I gained 0.2 pounds, but I don't see that as threatening. It's actually surprising to still see me in the 132. That feels pretty good, but I know I can't get upset if that number starts to rise until I get my foot fixed for good.

Anyway, that's what's been going on in a nutshell. I need to get back to working on my paper. The sooner I finish it, the sooner I can pick up the medications to take for the bubbles on my foot until I see the specialist.

Wow, I JUST noticed that I really need to get rearrange my priority. School is definitely taking over everything else including my health.
 
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