Zephyr's diary take 2 -- don't think, just do it

Week 3 Day 2

It's pouring right now in Seattle. I witnessed some lightnings and thunders.

I think I also have a cold. My throat has been raw since yesterday and it's difficult to swallow. I also did not have much of an appetite. I decided not to do cardio today and stay home and sleep most the day. I am going to head out in about forty minutes to do strength training. Don't think that's going to be much of a problem.

Food:
breakfast: slept through
lunch: 3 cups of rice with this korean side dish
dinner: 2 cups of rice with this korean side dish my mom made for me

I had to sort of force myself to eat that dinner. I gotta make sure I have something I can get my energy from for strength training. Ah man, hope I feel better soon. School starts tomorrow, too.

Bleh.
 
School started this week Wednesday and it was all about eating eating eating. Friends calling and texting me to see if I wanted to meet up for lunch or dinner.

I am losing money, gaining weight.

I'll update when I feel like I've settled in.
 
Trusylver said:
hang in there !! you can do this !
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Thanks for that, it was exactly what I needed!!!

Today, I am GETTING BACK ON TRACK.
I can't let my weight go up and down, up and down.

Right now, it has gone up, but I can bring it back down starting today.
 
Week 4 Day 3

I was so angry at myself yesterday. I weighed myself and found that I gained 5 pounds. That was such disappointing news that as soon as I got back from the gym, I went straight to the library to study and distract myself from the weight gain :banghead:

I am still pretty upset over this as I do exercise five times a day at the boxing gym. I know it's in my diet. I want to use the "first week of school, people call/text me to go out to eat" excuse, but I am no longer allowing myself to come up with stupid excuses to justify my weight gain. It could have been controlled.

My brother told me it's mind over matter. If I allow myself to come up with lame excuses, that's only going to allow me to skip out on my weight loss commitment. I have to stick to my original goal and get to it.

No more messing up.

I am going to start up my cardio again. I do have a 5k to run on the 18th this month. There really is no time to continue slacking off.
 
I'm updating this to try distract myself.

The problem right now is whether I am hungry or not. I'm trying to listen to what my body is telling me, but it's not as easy as I thought it would be. I ate rice with grilled chicken an hour ago, so I can't possibly be hungry right now.

How can you guys tell if you're actually hungry or if it's in your head? How do you get rid of the latter?

I'm going to try hold this off for about an hour. If I'm still "hungry" then, I'll have some cottage cheese. Also a good thing to eat before my work out anyway.

Hope everyone else is doing well :)
 
Week 4 Day 5

Breakfast: English muffins with peanut butter
Lunch: Thai chicken fried rice
Dinner: Grilled chicken breast

Total calories: about 1568

The thai chicken fried rice drove the number up, no doubt about that. Everything else was healthy.

Thursday ("yesterday") was strength training. I definitely feel it in my arms right now.

Today, I am going to hit the gym up to run. I haven't done that in a long time. Hopefully I don't have to start my endurance from scratch.

The food will go something like this-
Breakfast: Cottage cheese, peach tea
Snack: Egg
Lunch: 2 servings of grilled chicken breast, milk
Snack: an orange
Dinner: a serving of grilled chicken breast (maybe with brown rice?)

That's all I have to say.
 
Week 4 Day 5

My alarm went off at six today, but it took me a full 15 minutes to get myself out of bed. It went something like this:

Body: Sleep a little more
Mind: No, it's mind over matter
Body: Urgh, what if I wake up at 8:00 instead
Mind: Then you wouldn't be back home until like 10 at the latest
Body: AHHHHHRGHGHHG

--Body continuing to push back the time to the latest I could possibly push it back to. This took up a lot of time.--

Mind: Just do it, it would be nice to get it over with. You don't have to have to worry about working out for the rest of the day.
Body: Urgh..
Mind: IT'S NOW OR IT WILL STAY ON YOUR MIND ALL DAY UNTIL YOU GO.
Body: Crap, you're right.
Mind: We can go right now or we can spend another half hour arguing about this and waste both sleep time and gym time.
Body: Okay, okay, I'm up.

It was so worth it! It felt really great to get back on my cardio and feel my sweat dripping off my eyelashes. Hopefully it only takes me 14 minutes to convince me to get up next time, hahaha

I did elliptical on "Fat Burn" and my goal was to do 5k in 30 minutes. I did it in 25 minutes. I forgot my average heart rate, but my target heart rate was at least 140 and I for sure stayed over that the whole time. I also did some core work using the stability ball and (I'm not sure what it's exactly called) a bosu ball that was upright so you can lift your legs. Hmm, well, not in the mood to describe in details what it is, so whatever.

Breakfast: Oatmeal with peach tea

I am making 2 boiled eggs right now.

More later?
 
Good luck on your 5k!!!

I'm with you on the hungry thing. I often find myself thinking I'm hungry after I've eaten not long ago.

lol @ your body/mind convo. nice! I need to get my body and mind together in the AM to have that same conversation.

Keep it up! It's all about consistency. (I should tell myself that) Once you really stick w/ your plan you will be at your goal in no time.
 
Week 5 Day 1

Trusylver said:
great effort getting in to the gym :)

i like the bosu for core work
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It is great, I like it! :D

GetFitNik said:
Good luck on your 5k!!!

Keep it up! It's all about consistency. (I should tell myself that) Once you really stick w/ your plan you will be at your goal in no time.
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Thanks GetFitNik!!! I really just have to stick to it and the result will show~

So I weighed myself this morning and I am 136.6 pounds! :hurray: That really was a great surprise especially since I went to visit my mom on Saturday and didn't leave until Sunday night. This means that I did not get to exercise at the gym. Also, I ate so much food there. I guess it really helps that my mom is picky about what she eats and puts into her food. She will only eat healthy food.

Seeing the number go down again is giving me the motivation to go to the gym today. I woke up at 6am today, but unfortunately my body convinced me to sleep in so I have to go later in the afternoon :( Tomorrow though, I'm going to try harder to get up and go to the gym in the morning.
 
Week 5 Day 2

YESTERDAY'S FOOD:
Breakfast: Woke up really late :sleeping:
Lunch: 2 cups of brown rice with an egg; green tea
Pre-workout: a cup of cottage cheese; peach tea
Post-workout: protein shake
Dinner: 2 cups of brown rice with kimchi

Total calories: 1640
I went over by 272

The rice KILLED my calories yesterday. I'm going to limit myself to 2 cups of rice a day instead of four. It's going to be hard because rice is a main part of my meal. I grew up on rice! All Koreans grew up on rice! :doh: Haha, but still.. if I want to lose weight, I have to make some adjustments.

Today:
Breakfast: Apple cinnamon english muffin with peanut butter

I got on the elliptical. I did 5k in a little under thirty minutes on varying resistances for fat burn.
Average heart rate: 167

More later? If I have time.
 
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Week 5 Day 3 -- RANT.

--WARNING: RANT AHEAD--

Today as I was recording the food that I ate so far and plan to eat later, I became frustrated at myself. I couldn't help but weigh myself on the scale after I finished logging my food. I am 139 pounds. It seems like I vary anywhere between 136 to 140, so I feel like I'm not actually losing any pounds unless I get 135 or below. This is so annoying. I am working out five times a week, so IT HAS TO BE MY DIET. I am trying to watch how much I eat, but I hate how I am OBVIOUSLY NOT strict enough about it as I manage to sneak in some extra calories here, some extra calories there, some extra calories everywhere.

My day is already almost done, so I'm going to try find something that's not too loaded with calories and fit it within my ideal caloric range. TOMORROW though, I am going to WATCH what I'm shoving down my fat throat :cuss: I'm also going to quit getting the extra hour of sleep in the morning and exchange sleep for working out.

I am so tempted to buy some appetite suppressants, but I feel like that's cheating my way out of these pounds only to put them back on later. God! I am so done feeling defeated! :banghead:

--RANT OFF--

...sigh :cry:
 
Week 5 Day 3 continued

Well, at my boxing gym today, we had a fit test and I did really well, so that made up for the bad feelings earlier. I had a really annoying headache all throughout my workout though. It was like my brain was a penny bumping around like crazy in a tin can. I survived though and pushed through it.

I worked with what I could with the calories today.

Breakfast: whole wheat english muffin with a tablespoon of peanut butter
Lunch: Ramen and egg
Preworkout/"dinner": whole wheat english muffin with egg and a glass of milk
Post-workout: oatmeal with milk

Total calories: 1,450
Went over by 69 calories.

xxxxx

TOMORROW, my meals will be--

Breakfast: whole wheat english muffin with melted swiss cheese and green tea
Lunch: Tofu with rice
Snack: 2 boiled eggs
Pre-workout: Oatmeal with milk
Post-workout/"dinner": Protein shake
Bedtime snack (if needed): Orange

Total calories: 1399

Hopefully I don't have a strong urge to eat the orange before bedtime. That would decrease the calories to 1337, which would keep me in the ideal calorie range.
 
Week 5 Day 4

Today was okay. Woke up at 6:15 AM and got to the gym by 6:50ish. Did my cardio for half an hour and was going to do some strength before I realized I had to get back to do this online quiz. 5k, 25 minutes, the usual.

I did have strength training today at my boxing gym though. That went okay, too, I guess. I should have put in more effort. Next time, I'm going to concentrate on making slower movements and focus more on NOT taking breaks and just go all the way through. I always start off super strong and then I have to take mini-breaks now and then. It's disappointing.

Food was okay as well.

I meant to come back from my morning cardio to eat breakfast, but after I took a shower, I went back to bed for 3-4 more hours of sleep, so no breakfast. After I woke up from my extra hours of sleep, I went to get lunch immediately with the boyfriend, which I guess could count as "breakfast."

Breakfast: none
Lunch: Mapo Tofu
Snack: 2 boiled eggs
Dinner: leftover chinese (1 cup of rice with hardly any sauce)
Preworkout: oatmeal with milk; green tea
Postworkout: nothing

Total calories: 1109

Today was just an okay day.

I can feel some hunger coming on, but it's 11pm, so I'm just going to get off the computer, get ready for bed, and sleep it off. I have an appointment with the treadmill tomorrow morning at 6:30am.

xxxxx

Oh and tomorrow's meal plan:

Breakfast: English muffin with melted swiss cheese; green tea
Snack: 2 boiled eggs
Lunch: Protein shake; orange
Snack: ?????
Dinner: ?????
 
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Week 5 Day 5

So I didn't end up going to the gym because it was cold as hell outside and raining like crazy. I realized that I don't have to go to my boxing gym today to see my trainer, so I'm going to workout later in the day at the university gym. I seriously am thanking god it's Friday today. This week was so ridiculously long.

I am eating my english muffin right now with melted swiss cheese. It's really good. Also sipping on my green tea.
 
Lunch: Freshens Acai Energy Smoothie with protein booster
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YUMMM... I love their All That Razz smoothies... too many calories though :ack2:

Well I just read through your entire diary... you are doing really great with working out and watching what you eat. I know you are frusterated with your weight going back and forth... my suggestion is drink more water if you are not doing so! Water is crucial to weight loss! Also... try choosing one day of the week to weigh yourself... that way you won't get discouraged seeing it go up and down every day because it will do that! I'm 5'4" and 145 pounds, my caloric intake is supposed to be about 1,500 so I'm assuming for you it should be around 1,400-1,450 but there are calculators that you can use to figure out the correct number! I can get you think link I used if you would like or I'm sure you can just google it and find one yourself :) Anyways... keep it up and don't sell yourself short... you CAN reach your goal! I'm rooting for you :)
~ Sarah
 
Week 5 Day 7

hey skkroll, thanks for the comment. it made me smile ^^ ! i will definitely not give up. gotta keep on pushing through until my goal!

well, today i did the 5k run for the first time and it was actually really fun -- fun enough that i am already looking for other 5k's to do. it took me 30 minutes, 5 minutes longer than i had hoped, but in the end, that didn't really matter. i was just proud that i finished it.

i had yogurt and banana in the morning before the race and plenty of water. i think i may have actually drank a little more than i should have because i had to use the bathroom before the race even began! oh well, at least next time i'll know i'll have to use the bathroom beforehand, hahaha.

after the run, i had another banana and one whole wheat bread with peanut butter on it and of course, more water.

i felt like doing the run outside was easier than doing the elliptical or the treadmill, which i didn't expect.

anyway, i think that's all i have to say today. didn't plan out my meals, but that shouldn't be too much of a problem.
 
Week 6 Day 1

Wow, it's already week 6 out of 10! Halfway there.

I weighed myself just now and I'm 135.8 lbs.

I've learned to take the numbers with a grain of salt. Yes, the number went down, but I am not overly excited about it. I am just proud of myself. I'm not going to obsess over it. I'm just going to view it simply as a number of reference to see where I'm at. I'm not going to let it determine how I feel about myself. I am exercising. I am watching what I eat. I ran the 5k. I feel strong and THAT'S what I'm going to feel.

Also, another reason why I shouldn't let the scale rule over me -- at my boxing gym, I did a fit test on week 1 and then again on week 5. Here's how I improved!

Fit Tests (Triple Kicks, Skip Knees, Pushups, Situps)
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Fall 2009 Week 1: 25, 86, 20, 33
Fall 2009 Week 5: 30, 97, 40, 45

It's amazing to see how much I improved overall especially with the pushups. I have one more fit test on the last week: Week 10. I really hope to improve the number. 5 weeks is plenty of time to get my workout on!

Anyway, I haven't planned out my meals yet. Not sure if I have time to do so after this. I have to get ready for class, but so far, I had a nice hot cup of green tea with some oatmeal bars for breakfast that my boyfriend's mom made. It's half white flour and half whole wheat to make it a little healthier. Also cut back on the sugar and the butter. She even added crushed walnuts!

Rough meal plan though:

Breakfast: green tea + oatmeal bars
Lunch: leftover vegetable stir fry + rice
pre-workout #1 (3:30pm): 2 boiled eggs
pre-workout #2 (7pm): oatmeal + milk
dinner: apple + protein shake

There's a boxing try out at my university today, so I'm going to go to that and my boxing gym later tonight. Hence, the two preworkout meals above. I am just doing the try out for fun as the president of the boxing club said it's okay to come just for a good workout. I didn't run this morning, so might as well go to this one.
 
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