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Colleen I gave a feeling that i'm getting closer to finding work, it's either that or indigestion...




I have good news and bad news

Good news is I went to run Sunday and I was able to run a full 25 minutes (27:45). So this whole week I did 4 days of running.

Bad news is I didn't eat well at all. I was just eating out too much instead of preparing my food at home. I didn't do well today either because I was searching for more jobs and I decided to grab a bite instead of coming home and eating breakfast.

I lost 0.6 pounds this week. I'm really disappointed because I exercised well but didn't eat well. Also the fact that i'm not doing much of anything right now and I can't seem to stick with good nutritional eating. I can't even imagine what will happen when I start school and have a job. That's the only thing that has worried me, will I be able to take responsibility for it? Maybe, i'm kinda stressed of not having found a job yet and dealing with my school. It's like i'm throwing in the towel or something.

I don't feel like i'm just going to quit this and go back to old habits. I just feel like i'm not reaching my full potential by sabotaging myself. I'm just a perfectionist, and I beat myself up for things like this. I know I can do this, I know I can.
 
Hey V, just wanted to stop by and say hi and thank you for posting when I got back :) It felt good to be missed. I'll put it on my prayer list about you finding a job and one that you like. I totally feel you on the perfectionist end...I'm one of those all or nothing kind of types and really good at beating myself up when I screw up in the weight loss department. It's hard enough fighting the weight loss battle but then going through the mental battle that goes along with that can sometimes be overwhelming. From your diary though you're doing awesome and should be pretty pleased with yourself. The fact you're doing regular exercise is awesome...I need to get started on that still :X. Anyway talk to you soon, I have to head for work.
 
Aw, "V" I hate to hear you so disenchanted. It's just the unknown, and that will take care of itself. Change happens whether we want it or not, so at least you know this holding pattern you feel yourself in will morph into action very soon. You are also probably tired. And trust me, boredom and/or stress can make you tired, too, because your brain isn't engaged in what you love. So when your brain gets idle you start thinking of all the seemingly insurmountable issues, when in reality it's all good, it all works out! Trust me.

It's definitely hard to resist fast food when one is on the road or at work a lot. But once you know your schedule you can make a game plan for food. I have to, and my gosh the money I save just by bringing a salad for the fridge three times a week. You've come sooooo far. Don't sweat the small stuff. You can do this!

Ugh, now I'm gonna go back to my PMS cave. Love to you!

Colleen
 
Lisa, Thanks alot! It is overwhelming at times, no matter how hard I try to reverse that, it's just there, you know? I'll talk to you soon though!

Colleen, I never saw things that way but that's a good way to put it. I guess my brain hasn't really been challenged lately. So instead I spend my time stressing about stuff that I can't really control.

Thanks so much! I just never saw it that way.



So yesterday after I wrote that post, I went to drop off some more applications. And I stopped at this place, which is a small food factory that makes packaged food for the local stores, mexican food that is! So anyway I got there and dropped off my application and before I can leave the owner wanted to interview me! So he kinda drilled me with questions for an hour or so, i'm pretty sure he was trying to get a feel for my character. He wanted dependable people and he thought I was good guy. He showed me around the factory and offered me a job. He told me to try it out and if it didn't work out that he would still think highly of me. So he told to be there Tuesday morning at 7:00 am (work ends at 3:00 pm). Problem was, it was full time. But I thought what the heck, i'll just get evening classes at college. So I became inspired and went home and ate mexican food...

After that I went to my college and and signed up to talk to one of the counselors, it was like an hour wait, and it was packed as hell! Funny thing is when I go to places that i'm not familiar with I feel really uncomfortable and nervous, but for some reason I felt at ease there. Might be the confidence that i'm getting? There was a lot of hot girls, thought I throw that in here. So it's finally my turn to speak to a counselor and she begins to have trouble finding classes for the evening that I need because evening classes tend to be longer and there's only so many you can take in one evening. Then she tells me since i'm working full time, that I should maybe try a few classes (a few meaning 3...) and I thought to myself that's really not going to help me get anywhere in a hurry. Oh btw, one of them was mandatory orientation, the others were public speaking and math. LOL I decided to take her advice, I guess out of desperation because I wanted to have a solid schedule at least. By the time I left it was about 5:30 pm.

I go home and relax a bit. I go outside and talk to my neighbor (he'll be a senior in hs this year) for a while. Around 6:30 pm, I noticed I have one more application in my car and it is from a steak house that's located inside of a hotel. A hotel that is located on the way when I go to run in the morning. A hotel that's located at the corner of an intersection where i've been almost killed 9 times. A hotel that they're remodeling... Anyway, I decided to go, why? (I already have a job by now) I have no idea, just a gut feeling. So it's almost 7:00 pm and I get there. I get off and take it in, well guess what happens next? They're interested in hiring me but I tell them my situation, and they tell me to call them Tuesday at lunch time and let them now if I want to keep the job that I have now or work for them in the evening (which would be better for me because then I could go to school in the morning and take more classes than I could in the evening).

So I returned home and hang out with my neighbor, we go to Mcdonald's to drop his friend's truck off because my neighbor was doing some designs on it. No I didn't get anything at Mcdonald's btw. We come back home and we go to my house and listen to music and just chill. He leaves at midnight, and I thought I have work tomorrow morning at 7... or do I?

I wake up this morning, and I go to work. I get there and wait for the owner. When he gets there, I tell him I won't be able to work for him because i'm limited on how many classes I can take in the evening. I felt really bad but he understood. And he told me school is more important and that he wish me luck. I thanked him for giving me an opportunity. He told me to drop by anytime and tell them how i'm doing. I guess I made a good impression on him. :)

So I go home and mack on some cupcakes, ok I really didn't. I call the other place at lunch but the owner was out on the property. I call back in an hour but she's in a meeting but she said she'll call me back. She hasn't called but i'm confident she wants to hire me. They're remoldeling the place, so they're awfully busy but i'll call again tomorrow. Meanwhile I get a call from a local broadcasting channel in my area offering me a job! I would get to work the controls in the control room and that would be really cool! But... I had to decline because it was full time and the hours are from 7 am to 3 pm. It would have been great pay but sometimes school is more important. I think tomorrow I might put in a few applications here in there, just in case the steak house thing doesn't go through. But I feel i'm on the right track now! I'll also have to go by the college and change my classes again and add some more.. :coolgleamA:
 
I haven't exercised since Sunday. I went to run this morning and my time was 27:21. I was surprised to see more people there. Usually people go to the pond area and walk there, I usually go to the trail and I rarely encounter people. It was interesting, I guess people are trying to drop those few pounds before the school year gears up. I ran into people my age, which only happens a handful of times. And i've only had a few hours of sleep at night the last few days, so it took a toll on me when I was running but I was able to tough it out. I have tons of things to do today, might as well get started. lol
 
See, told ya! A hiring frenzy! Feels great to pick and choose, huh?

And yah, I used to teach evening classes and they are long! If you are ready to tackle school then yes, that should be your priority. I'd stay at around 15 hours though. You need to gauge the difficulty level of the school, learn to budget your time, etc. College has a lot of freedoms, but with it comes a great demand for maturity because you are basically on your own for the first time. Even if you live at home you are still the master and commander, ya know? Exciting if you don't flake out, lol. I have faith in you!

Lol on the imaginary cupcake mack. I have been getting sugar cravings this week, very odd for me! I just had one of those sugar free Rips, or whatever, just to hold them at bay. Didn't give me a rush though. Sigh.

Talk soon! Again, very proud for you!

Colleen
 
That's awesome about all the job offers, I hope it all works out with your classes. Trust me you're doing the right thing putting school first while you can though. I'm 34 and still going because I had to work full time and some life events caused me to have to stop going several years at a time. Wish now I'd gotten it done when I was in my 20's. I'm really sick of going and I'd quit if it wasn't for the fact I've gotten so much done and I have loans...and the fact I don't want do what I'm doing now for the rest of my life. Anyway I'm rambling but keep me posted how it turns out, I'm rooting for you :)
 
Well, this past Monday I weighed myself and I lost 1.8 from the previous week. Which now puts me at 1.2 pounds away from where I got stuck last year. Maybe by this upcoming Monday I may have lost them?

I have continued to run and i'm almost done with the couch to 5k program. This past Sunday, Tuesday, and Thursday I had to jog 28 minutes without stopping and I was able to do it. Now I just need 3 more runs of 30 minutes and i'm done with the program and back to the couch I go. Just kidding.

I'm not going to lie the last 2 or so weeks I haven't been eating that well. I've been a little lazy to cook, so I just buy out. Not for every meal, just for more than I should be doing. I'm still losing weight, but I think it may catch up on me if I don't turn it around soon.

As for school/work. The way I wanted to plan things didn't go quite as well as i've wanted. I went to apply for this other job Monday which involves tutoring people who are going for their GED. It's only Monday through Thursday but it pays really well,the hours wouldn't be brutal, and I would be helping other people reach their goal! It would be either morning, afternoon, and evening. I circled all 3 (to increase my chances of getting the job) and I put I can start 8/25 (which is when school starts here and the GED classes start then also). The lady told me she would speak to her advisors and they will call me 8/25 for an interview, so hopefully that goes through. If not, then I will still be searching for jobs after school starts.

I haven't finalize my schedule for school but I feel for this semester i'll have to take internet courses but I will have to limit the classes compared to if I went on campus. I don't necessarily feel uneasy taking them online but I don't want to overwhelm myself too much with too many classes at once. So i'll probably limit it to 3 or 4 because it can turn out extremely easy or extremely difficult. Doing this will give me a lot of flexibility for when I find a job and with my workouts. Then, by next semester i'll be able to be on campus! :) Since i'll have a pretty good idea of where to squeeze in my classes.

Everything is finally coming together, not as I planned at first, but coming together nonetheless.
 
So, I just read every post here and it seems like you're doing pretty well. I get pretty lazy when it comes to cooking too. That's why I really like chicken - put it on aluminum foil, put some flavor on top, and put it in the oven for 40-60 minutes (depending on the chicken, it seems). And a boneless, skinless chickcen breast is only 110 calories. Just something to think about.

Anyway, congrats on the weight loss so far. I don't think I saw this, but how tall are you? The only reason I ask is because I haven't ever been able to run 5k straight (granted, I'm thinking 5k = about 3 miles?) and I used to be in decent shape. Congrats on that! If you're looking to challenge yourself some more, try mixing jogging and sprinting, instead of jogging and walking. That should really get the heart pumping!

In regards to the job, try a temp agency and looking at jobs posted online by your local news stations. I'm not kidding. My first great college job was a data entry job I found with a temp agency. I did that for about a year. Now, I have my current job from an ad I found online on a news site and it's all kinds of great.

Good luck the rest of the way. I'll be reading along.
 
Hi SportObssesive, I eat the chicken breast too! lmao

Oh and i'm only 5'9"! I'm not sure if I can exactly run 3 miles in 30 minutes. But i'm sure it will be maybe around 2.5 miles? I've never tried it on track or treadmill in which I would probably feel I could do it faster. I want to finish out this final week though and then i'll start experimenting with pace and distance.
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So this past Friday I decided to take a day off. I wanted to go Saturday morning to walk and Sunday morning to jog but I didn't get a chance to do that. It's been raining a lot especially in the morning, so I know for sure that the trail is flooded. I planned to go early this morning but the rain kept waking me up all night and I knew it would still be flooded. I went around 9:00 AM which I really never do, for some reason there was a lot of people. Given that the storm kind of cleared out I can guess why. lol About a good section was flooded, so I had to go through a side hill and that was wet as hell also. I should of just gone through the trail. It would of saved me from the mud at least. Usually it takes me around 28 minutes to do it and today I was there for 42... so I guess you can tell it was a bit of hassle. We are suppose to get more rain today and maybe tomorrow but to be honest I hope it doesn't. As much as I like the cooler temperatures and rain (a little too much rain...), it's messing with my business.. I'll take 100 degree whether for right now. I know i'll be wishing for 100 degree weather once winter rolls around. I also didn't jog today.. so I have to fit in three 30 minutes runs this week. I wont be able to do it tomorrow because I have to go to school to take care of some more stuff. I'll probably try to do it Wednesday, Thurday, and Friday. I will probably die doing it but that's ok.

I also had my weigh in this morning and I lost a pound. Which puts me .2 pounds away of where I got stuck last year. Oh why the torture? I definitely have to go below that number! But I don't know how that happened I haven't done well and I haven't had a chance to exercise much. I keep getting lucky but maybe it's meant to be? Maybe this is suppose to happen, maybe this is destiny. I sure hope so. Losing weight is something that is really important to me, not only because of health or to look better. But to prove to myself that I can accomplish such a feat. It would do wonders for my self-esteem and confidence. I have had opportunities to be part of some great things in life and I always let my weight hold me back. I can't do that anymore and i'm not letting it. I put myself a little bit out there, especially posting a journal like this. I don't know anyone personally here, but still I don't really share my feelings with anyone. I use to be uncomfortable talking weight loss with people because I was embarrass with myself. Now, I don't mind telling people that I know, that i'm losing weight. Why should I? This is my year, nothing is going to stop me! :coolgleamA:
 
Great job V :) Can't wait to see you post you've past that number up. And sounds like a good plan on the internet courses. I did that one semester and really enjoyed it because it freed my schedule up ALOT and I didn't waste time listening to lectures I could read myself or time and gas driving. Unfortunately the college I go to now only has internet courses on the main campus for 2x the cost ;/. I start back to Kent State on the 25th too so hopefully I can time manage and stay organized enough to stick to a weight loss plan. Hope you're havin a good day, cya~Lisa
 
Thanks Lisa! I just hope I can stick with the school, i'm not even sure what to expect as far as difficulty of the classes go. I guess i'll find out soon enough!


So I walked Tuesday, and ran Wednesday for 30 minutes, walked Thursday, and ran today for 30 minutes. After a few minutes I wanted to quit because I had a bad headache and lately the muscles that are on my outer shins have been tightening up when I walk or run. So after I finish I usually have to stretch them out and walk around slowly so they can loosen up. I don't want to just climb in my car and drive home and get a cramp on the way. haha Funny thing is it just started this week. I think i'll probably take it easy next week and run intervals of 10 minutes with a few minutes of walking in between, just so I can give those muscles a break. But before next week I have to run my final 30 minutes of my couch to 5k. I can't exactly run the 5k in 30 minutes, I run out of time. But i'm pretty sure i'm around 2.4 ish miles would be my guess. I really want to try to go the whole 3 miles (I know the 5k is slightly over 3 miles..) but anyway, i'll count it as it. lol I'll see how I feel either Saturday or Sunday when I decide to run, if I have a good first 30 minutes then i'm going for it. The two 30 minute session this week haven't gone too well.. so i'll see. I'll quit rambling now.

As far as my food intake, well... that's a work in progress. lol
 
Hey V, stoppin by to say hi and see how you're doing...so how goes things? Sorry I haven't been by to post more the last week or so...school and work are kicking my ass! I'm SOOOooo tired but fighting it right now because its my only night off with hubby. He's playing his new video game for a bit though and I'm trying to stay awake to watch the movie we rented but fading fast, lol. Anyway hope all is well :) ~Lisa
 
Hi Lisa! Everything's fine, but I know where you're coming from, well a little bit at least. I started my online classes Monday, well Tuesday actually because they where having trouble getting things up in running and there was stuff wrong with my account. Then learning how to use the software. lol I'm getting the hang of it though. The only problem I have is concentrating, it's like my mind wanders off a bit. I have to find my groove, never realized being away from school for 2 years would make a difference. I was working on some math today it took me an hour to do 9 problems, this is stuff I should know really well, it should've taken me 10 minutes. I couldn't find my calculator so I was trying to do everything by memory. Although Math is my best subject I think it'll be my most challenging class. The other classes are fairly easy, I should have no problem with them as long as I do my work. But I can't wait to be on campus next semester though. lol




I never got called back from that job. :( Oh well, tomorrow a new set of jobs well show up in the paper and i'll try my luck again. Next week i'm going to set an appointment with one of the counselors and he'll make me take tests to see what fields I might be good in and what I might like to pursue career wise. I heard he helps students find jobs and puts students at jobs that would be similar to the career they're going for, to see if they will like it. So i'll be sure to ask him about that. :)

This past Sunday was my last day for my couch to 5k, I had to run the final workout for 30 minutes. Remember I said that I wanted to go for the 3 miles no matter how long it took? Not only did I run for 3 miles but I went over 3 miles and I ran way over 4 miles! I ended up running for 1 hour and 5 minutes without stopping! (I pulled a Usain Bolt as I was finishing) I was really happy that I finished the program strong. I remember within 10 minutes of running I felt like I wanted to stop, once I hit the 30 minute mark I felt so relaxed and I felt I could run for a whole lot more and I did. I remember when I first started the couch to 5k in the middle of June, I had doubt of ever running for 30 minutes (at least for the size that I am). I remember going with my dad to this same place when I was younger and I would see him run the whole 3.3 mile trail like it was nothing. And I always wished I could do the same. I use tell him that one day I would do it too and I finally did it and then some! He use to tell me if I worked hard that I could do it and that's what I set out to do from the beginning and it feels great to accomplish that.

Although, I did run for over an hour it's not something I will try to do often, at least until I drop a lot more weight. But it will always be in the back of mind that I can do it and it will push me to get better pace wise, time wise, etc..

This past Monday was my weigh in, I was .2 pounds away from reaching the weight I got stuck at last year. And I lost 2.2 pounds! I finally broke the mark, and i've reached the goal of being under the mark before my birthday. So that's something i'm proud of.

Monday, I took the day off for any exercise I was still recovering from the Sunday run, it didn't help I did like two more hours of yard work the same day in the hot sun. haha Tuesday, I only walked. And today I jogged for around 20 minutes. I've taken it kind of easy this week, hopefully it doesn't comeback to bite me on the scales next week...

Sorry for the long read, if anyone reads it. lol I was trying to get to this website earlier this week to write about it and i would get a page cannot be found and I was like wtf happened? Last night, I tried it again and I got the same thing and then I realized I was misspelling "weight" (I put "weighit) in the url bar the whole time... LMAO Oh man.. that's why I should bookmark this.

Tomorrow is my burfday, I think i'll go run in my birthday suit tomorrow.. ok maybe not. I'll be turning 20. The best birthday present is that football officially starts tomorrow.. woo!

Hope everyone is doing well!
 
Happy Birthday V!!!

Happy Birthday V!!!!:party:

And CONGRATZ on passing your stuck mark!! That is awesome, so proud of you!! For that AND for running those 4 miles. I have a messed up knee so I'm not supposed to run but I really appreciated how you posted how hard it was to run even ten minutes at first then it got easier. I'm struggling with the exercise so reading that made me feel better that I can remind myself that it does get easier. Stupidly obvious I know but sometimes when I'm in the middle of stuff I don't see the forest for the trees. Anyway happy birthday again :) Hope its a great one *hugz* ~Lisa
 
Thanks for the birthday wishes!

I think I had a little bit too much fun on my birthday... or the whole week.

I still went and ran this week but I cut down the running time to like 20 minutes but on Saturday I ran for 50 minutes.

I really really feel that my stay under my "weight stuck mark" is going to be short lived this week, meaning i'm thinking i'm back over it. :( I always felt that I probably lost water weight last Sunday when I ran an hour and then did yardwork for two hours and then I weighed myself the next day...

I'm not even looking forward to weighing myself tomorrow, I think I ran out of get out of jail cards this time. lol

Maybe I should not weight myself tomorrow and weight myself next Monday and try to work hard this week. Or should I just face the music tomorrow?
 
Well too late, I weighed myself this morning and i'm back over! :( I have to get down to business this week. lol I think I might have needed something like this, to get some motivation back.

No more purple drank for me.
 
I was about to post go ahead and get it out of the way but you beat me to it, lol. But don't let yourself get discouraged, I know thats easy for me to say. But honestly the fact that even on an off week you're still exercising at all and not blowing it all off like I do is an accomplishment. And the fact you got below that weight once means you'll be back below it in no time!
 
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