I'm exhausted- emotionally, physically, spiritually, etc.
Just got back after being in the car for 10 hours on the trip back from Connecticut. This weekend was the annual party that my parents attended at their best friend's house up in CT, but for obvious reasons could not be there but I was asked to please attend. My Dad's best friend said that it was becuase of what I said at the eulogy that he considered to host the party instead of canceling it because of all the tragedies.
Anyway, we made real good time going up, leaving at 6am Saturday morning and getting their before noon. The weather was great, the people great and the music outstanding. The music was provided by the people in attendance: family and friends, but in past years it was my folks who were the focal point (they were super talented people). They have bagpiping friends also, and in years past my Dad too would participate in that part. As soon as I heard the pipes heading down the street I lost it. When the arrived in the yard, they played a few more tunes. Then a gentleman spoke up and talked about how they are missing my Dad there, and he did a tribute ON my Dad's pipes: Amazing Grace- I was inconsolable.
After lots of hugs and tears, the party picked back up. There were also some funs songs we did that my Mom was famous for and had a few laughs, which she would have appreciated. The party started to wind down and we headed to the hotel room. This was the highlight of the night as in addition to myself and my sister for whom we booked the room, we also invited my other sister Shannon, my brother Patrick and cousin Missy to stay- we had an air matress. We were up till almost 1am laughing hysterically- it was like we were all kids again. Then we got a phone call and another cousin had to drive my uncle to the hotel to find a room- he was kicked out of the party- long story but things worked out by the next morning. So the cousin who drove him, well . . we invited HER to our room as well. There we were 6 of us ages 24-39 giggling in dark, telling stories from our memories and having such a wonderful time-these memories I will cherish forever. I felt like I was 15 again.
I woke up at 3 30, back to sleep. Woke up at 6 30, tried to go back to sleep but couldnt. So I went to the gym and worked out for over an hour. Got back to the house to where the party was to collect some things before heading home. I forgot a map and asked a friend of the family for an alternate route home to avoid the traffic. Oh, it was alternate alright . . .I ended up the the Jersey Shore and added about another 2 hours to the trip and then were stuck in beach traffic. I got home at 10pm after leaving CT at noon.
I made good choices then it came to eating. I can't recall it all, but I will say i allowed myself a few treats. I'm supposed to have weigh in today, but because I have work, and a school function AND have to return the car I'll have to find another time this week.
Completing the DVD's is my mini challenge:
25 days complete, 3 to go
I really feel like this next month is going to work better. The kids are back in school, no trips or barbecues, and you'll be able to get on a more stable routine. Keep it up, you are doing great.
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