Xenon's diary....(enter if you dare :p)

Xenon1

Xenon1

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Well I am back to the forum after a long hiatus :D Lots of life changes. I was previously under the username pink clouds, but the login problems on that ID were more than I could handle...so I started this one.

I believe the last time I was here my lowest weight was 280 or something like that. Well since I left I gained 14lbs after getting married but before getting pregnant, making my pre-pregnancy weight 294. I really ate healthy during my pregnancy and my highest weight was 312. After delivery of a beautiful and healthy boy, my weight was 295....to my relief :p I gained one true pound and the rest was all baby :D. Since then I've lost another 22lbs...and probably still more because I have not weighed myself in about a month.

My plan of attack was to cook more instead of eating out at restaurants, and to have healthier alternatives to sweets, soft drinks and other foods unhealthy for me. I'm also super busy with the baby and am about ready to begin exercising.

I plan on joining some of the competitions here for fun, but I do not want to get too scale crazy just yet. Maybe I'll put up a ticker or something...just not sure which weight to start it at, my current or post pregnancy weight. Any suggestions? See ya next update :D
 
Well, I'm excited and getting it all together now. I am going to change the way I eat further and implement some more teas, vitamins and dietary supplements (nutriment, slim fast, etc.), being that I seldom have time to eat these days. Shopping in the afternoon! Hurrah :D

Still unsure about the ticker thing...my highest weight was 312 but after I had the baby I went down to 295 so...it feels like cheating to put 312 :p Know what I mean? I think I might just start it at 295 :D
 
Welcome back! I think 295 is a good starting point since pregnancy highest weight is not really a good measure! But I also know how good it feels when you feel like you alreday lost quite a bit ;)! I came back after like a year and still left my ticker weight at my original starting weight instead of changing it, because it just makes me feel better knowing I did work hard and lose all that!

Have a great sunday, Camy
 
Thanks Camy :D Yes the way I see it...it is not loss of actual fat or anything so it is not accurate. Congratulations on your weight loss and all the best on the rest of your journey!
 
O.K. so...almost everything is bought and I think I am going to be doing the calorie counting thing. I found a cool site called calorie king which lists nutritional information for just about everything. It really feels good to have a house full of things I like to eat which are healthy. I think sometimes it is just a matter of focus...we focus on the unhealthy things we like to eat instead of the healthy ones. And in my case I did this so much I even forgot about some of the healthy things!

But the calorie counting thing is good for me because there are no restrictions really...just numbers. I like carbs so I do not have to cut those out...but I will be making healthy options :D

I really have to be mindful of my weight because I have a small frame so I appear much smaller than I am. Medical professionals always set the scale to at least 100 lbs less and on many occasions people guess my weight much lower than it is. It really makes me wonder what I will look like when I reach my goal weight! At 200 lbs I wear a size 13 or 11/12. But I will not let that be a stumbling block for me this time...I'll see what it's like when I get there :p
 
I did good so far today. I got the shake protein meal things. Also I am using sparkpeople for my calorie counting. Someone recommended it to me in 2008 when I was here. They have a good calorie tracking tool. I think I'll still use calorie king from time to time anyway :D. I still have 340 cals left for the day and am about to have dinner. Had six cups of water so far. It's been good :D

breakfast-
bowl of cereal w 1 cup 1%lowfat milk

lunch-
chicken sandwich with mushrooms, onions, green peppers and cheese
1 cup apple juice

snack-
slim fast snack bar and 1/2 of a banana

I think dinner will be the same as lunch - the apple juice :D
 
Okay so yesterday's total calorie count was 1147 :D

And omg....whole wheat pita with 1tbsp of hummus and 2tbsp of tabouli is only 125 calories!! I just had that :D

Doing good so far today.
 
I saw your journal and just wanted to say hello and congrats on having a son. Best wishes for your weight loss success :)
 
Thanks Dellarocco :D He has the cutest little cheeks! lol Sometimes I kiss them so much he gets annoyed :eek: I'm trying to cut down on the kisses :D
 
Yesterday's calorie count was 1194.:hurray:

Well I might go a little over 1200 today, but we'll see. I had cereal this morning because hubby and baby are still sleeping and I did not want to use the blender.

My husband wants me to stop at 200lbs so I'm trying to convince him it'll be ok and he may like the way I look. Honestly though I do wonder what I will look like because I tend to look thinner than I am (as I already stated), but I am trying my best not to let that fear deter me. I'll just see what it looks like and if I don't like it, I know how to get fatter again :p My goal is 123. My sister has a small frame like me, although her shape is different, and she looked ok at 125...I think she was a size 5, but still looked like she had a little fat on her. At 115 she was a size 3, she didn't look too skinny but just no fat/extremely little fat, so maybe it will be similar for me.

Anyways enough rambling :p Off to get this day started! :cheers2:
 
Why would your husband want you to stop at 200? Is he over weight too? Does he not want you to be healthy and a good role model for your son? That just sounds really odd to me. My hunnie loves me the way I am and I was even bigger when we met and he loved me then too but he just wants me to be happy and healthy so he supports me 100%. I hope he gets over his issues and becomes more supportive. That would be really hard to live with I think.
 
Hello

I just had a chance to read your diary! Looks like you have things under control. Are you exercising??? I know it's hard with babies, i have too i just like to know what other moms are doing helps me find you exercise!
 
Xenon said:
My husband wants me to stop at 200lbs so I'm trying to convince him it'll be ok and he may like the way I look.
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I was talking to my hubby about how much I wanted to lose. I told him that my goal for now was 70 pounds, but ideally, I'd like to lose about 90. He sort of laughed (I really think he thought I was exaggerating) and said "you can't lose that much, there wouldn't be anything left!" I told him that was what I weighed when I met him and he got quiet real fast. :rofl:

Do you have any idea why he said that? I know, in my hubby's case, he just didn't realize that I really did have that much to lose. But then, he didn't know my starting weight either. And I think he doesn't realize how big of a differance there is which men and women. I could weigh the same as him and he could be healthy while I'm obese.


ETA: Forgot to say congrats on the weight loss so far! You're doing great!
 
Xenon said:
My husband wants me to stop at 200lbs so I'm trying to convince him it'll be ok and he may like the way I look.
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Sounds a bit like mine. Mr S worries that I'll "overdo" things, so maybe Mr Xenon worries too. Or they may be worrying that we'll just look too gorgeous, and some other guy will want to make the moves on us! :D

I use the Aussie Calorie King to track my food. I really like it because it has all our local brands. I tried Spark People once, but the local one is much easier.

You are doing such a good job, Xenon, keep up the good work. And sneak another kiss onto your little boy's cheek just for me. ;)
 
chubbygirl said:
Why would your husband want you to stop at 200? Is he over weight too? Does he not want you to be healthy and a good role model for your son? That just sounds really odd to me. My hunnie loves me the way I am and I was even bigger when we met and he loved me then too but he just wants me to be happy and healthy so he supports me 100%. I hope he gets over his issues and becomes more supportive. That would be really hard to live with I think.
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Thanks for your passionate and caring response chubbygirl:grouphug:. Well I did not mean to paint him in a bad light. He is a great husband and wonderful father. He is also very supportive and I love him very much--he even made me some low fat low calorie salad dressing this morning because I told him about the cereal and that I may have to eat salads, but I didn't buy salad dressing because of the fat and calories. He's not overweight. He saw a picture of me at 200 and worries that if I lose more I will be too thin, it's just his preference of what is attractive. He wants me to be healthy as well, but neither of us think that being overweight makes you a bad mom or is not a good example for your children. We both hope to raise our son with respect for people regardless of their size. I also know some really super overweight moms. I guess I should have explained more!
 
Verobc said:
Hello

I just had a chance to read your diary! Looks like you have things under control. Are you exercising??? I know it's hard with babies, i have too i just like to know what other moms are doing helps me find you exercise!
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Thanks Verobc! I plan to start exercising on Monday...I'm buying some sneakers over the weekend. I only have sandals and high heels if you can imagine that!

I plan to start with walking and then pick up the pace with the crosstrainer and jogging as I build more endurance. Eventually I hope to be running again...I love it!

Ive actually been planning it out :p
week one-walking
week two-treadmill 5mins alternate with crosstrainer 1 min for 30-45mins
week three-treadmill 5 mins alternate with crosstrainer 2-5 mins for 45 mins to an hour
week four - walk 5 mins alternate with jogging 1 min for 45 mins to an hour

etc.etc.etc.
We'll see what my body lets me do though! I plan on doing this in the morning before baby wakes and while hubby is sleeping, but if not he'll take care of the baby while I'm out.

What have you been doing for exercise?
 
mizzie said:
I was talking to my hubby about how much I wanted to lose. I told him that my goal for now was 70 pounds, but ideally, I'd like to lose about 90. He sort of laughed (I really think he thought I was exaggerating) and said "you can't lose that much, there wouldn't be anything left!" I told him that was what I weighed when I met him and he got quiet real fast. :rofl:

Do you have any idea why he said that? I know, in my hubby's case, he just didn't realize that I really did have that much to lose. But then, he didn't know my starting weight either. And I think he doesn't realize how big of a differance there is which men and women. I could weigh the same as him and he could be healthy while I'm obese.


ETA: Forgot to say congrats on the weight loss so far! You're doing great!
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:rotflmao: you must be like me then Mizzie, you look thinner than you are. This is the exact same reason my husband is afraid of me going under 200 :p I'm a size 18 now and he worries I will be too thin. I remember a little before we were engaged he did not know my actual weight and he wanted to pick me up. He didn't believe me about my weight until he picked me up :p

thx for the congrats :D
 
Mrs Shadow said:
Sounds a bit like mine. Mr S worries that I'll "overdo" things, so maybe Mr Xenon worries too. Or they may be worrying that we'll just look too gorgeous, and some other guy will want to make the moves on us! :D
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lol @ Mr. Xenon lolol Yes he sounds like Mr. Shadow.

I'm worried about being too gorgeous actually :p Not trying to be cute but really this has been a big fear of mine for many years and I have the courage to lose weight now that I'm married...as if my husband will repel them or something.:blush5:

I use the calorie king to get calorie and nutrition info on certain things, but I think you have to pay to use their diary?? It's worth it, but sparkpeople is good and free :D

Thanks for the encouragement and consider the little one kissed lol

Sometimes he kisses me back and sometimes he gets annoyed :p
 
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