Ok, be prepared for a big post...
Firstly... I've done well so far today! I'm really proud of myself!
Breakfast: small mocha coffee (?200kcal)
Lunch: mushroom soup, pineapple chunks (500kcal)
Dinner: kebabs: halloumi cheese, courgette, red onion and peppers with peri chicken and rice (?cals)
I've walked to and from uni (1hour20mins altogether) AND I went swimming for an hour, which was great.
Anyway, the big news is regarding the weekend just past. So, here's the craic!
I had a v. nice weekend overall, however there was some drama and I felt like writing about it in here.
Friday, was great. I went out for drinks with some other medics once we'd finished at the hospital and it was so lovely - mostly because I never usually do that kinda thing.
Saturday rolled round, I was feeling positive, and I had a house party invitation. The house party was being thrown by a friend of a friend, who we shall call C. The friend I have in common with C is an old friend (10 years+) who I have a LOT of history with (she drives me kinda crazy but I love her too), who we will call N.
I was a little anxious of the party: I'm not great socially now a days and I didn't know anyone there but N & C. Thus I invited along two of my medic friends, who we shall call S&E (they come as a pair!).
When I got there, C was being being host and N was mostly ignoring me and talking to other people; so I did my best to mingle with others and, actually, it went pretty well. I was chatting to quite a few people and I was having a nice time!
Unfortunately, N wasn't having a good time for some reason and she was acting pretty stroppy. S&E arrived and I was talking to them for a while before I realised I hadn't seen N for a while. I rang N and she said she had left and wanted to left alone be alone. She said she felt like a joke, that no one was interesting in talking to her and that there was some guy at the party who she really didn't like (who she had only just met that night) because he had been rude to her. I said, well ok then, gimme a ring if you need me but otherwise I'll leave you alone (as per her request).
So... I went back to chatting with S&E. This guy, who shall be known as Funny Guy , joined in with our conversation. He was kinda nice looking and very funny, if a little sorta strange (which I personally like in people).
The evening progresses. I end up chatting to Funny Guy one on one, sat on the stairs together, about this and that. I have to admit I was flirting with him but I felt it was pretty harmless.
Then, through the front door comes N. I get up and say hi and ask her if she's ok now. She looks everywhere but at me, completely avoiding my eye contact, arms crossed, and repeats over and over again that she's fine even though it's really obvious that she's annoyed at me for some reason. I'm not quite sure what to do so I leave her alone and go back to talking to Funny Guy.
We talk for a bit longer until I go to the Kitchen to fix myself another drink.
N comes in and asks me to talk to her in private. I say ok, thinking she wants to chat about what's up with her. Oh no, she doesn't want to talk about her, she wants to talk about me!
She asks me what I was doing talking to that guy (and it becomes clear that he must have been the one who was rude to her earlier). I say 'well I was just talking, it was harmless'. And basically we have this argument because she begins to accuse me of betraying my boyfriend. She said some crazy stuff such as 'we know where that [talking] is going to lead, don't we?' ... Uh, I said, NO? I'm with my boyfriend, who I love, I'm not going to cop off with some guy just because we began talking!!
I tried to reason with her, foolishly, by saying 'hey well I know you like to flirt too, there's no harm in it, I know T (my bf) wouldn't be bothered by this'... And she just says 'well when I was with R (her ex), I never even looked at another guy' ... I just told her that my relationship wasn't the same as her's and that she needed to grow up and realise you can't compare these things.
At this point I just walked away because I was sick of the whole thing and I realised I shouldn't have even dignified her crazy ideas with any kind of retaliation.
She texted me on Sunday morning apologising, saying she was out of order and that 'it had come out wrong'. I said it was ok but to be honest, it kind of isn't. I've had to put up with her drama for years and I just feel like I've grown out of it now.
So yeah. I dunno, I kinda feel like I need some distance from her.
End of rant!
