Weight Loss Journal

Onto my second donut now..... my first choice was the wrong one!!! I wanted something with chocolate! eating a boston cream now and had an apple fritter before. wont be having anymore though. Lunch today is at some pizza joint.. ugh.

Hopefully they have some healthy stuff there.

So in turn I'm not having any snack. Those were my snacks.

Bagel w/ light cream cheese - 390 cals
one apple fritter - 300 cals
one boston cream - 250 cals

Total so far.......940 cals lol.
leaving me about 560 to split through the day to give me 1500 cals. I hope I can do this!!
 
Figured i'd check in cus I'm bored. Went out for lunch with the bosses and did very well for myself... I think.

I orderded lemon chicken with sauteed mushrooms, and roasted red peppers in a white wine sauce with a salad on the side. The salad dressing was white vinegar and oil. I think they may have used lots of butter in the white wine sauce though (I only realized this after I ate all the meal and doused every bite in the sauce). The calories must have been low though because I am hungry again.

I will probably eat my other granola bar after work to tie me over till dinner time. Or I may just get a coffee.

I am taking home someones leftover pizza for whoever wants it at home, and I will take home any remaining donuts (theres two left).

I think thats all for now. I'm reallllllly bored and I'd love to just leave right now. I'm sure no one would care but meh... don't really want to. What am I going to do anyways?? Andrew won't be ready till about 3 anyways.
 
I just realized that meal was probably around 400 cals. Now I have 160 left for dinner lol. Not gonna happen.
 
Ok I'm back, but I gotta run. Just wanted to let everyone know I'm still alive and kicking. Going to meet my friend now. I'll post later this evening.
 
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Ok I'm back, but I gotta run. Just wanted to let everyone know I'm still alive and kicking. Going to meet my friend now. I'll post later this evening.
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Would that happen to be the special friend you were talking about?
 
No no special friends in my life. I've decided I don't want a bf. and If I do, I don't really want me to be kind of anticipating it when I meet someone new.

Hey MissD school is going well. Actually, a crap load of my classes have been canceled this week. I had class till 11 on tuesday instead of 6 and yesterday I started at 1:30 instead of 9. Tomorrow I start at 2:30 instead of 9, so this week is going pretty good lol.

Well I'm going to make my hardest effort to come on here as much as possible. I started school this week and I'm soo glad to be back. I've already been to the bar on 3 separate occasions, but only drank once. My friends went and grabbed a 24 after school and I kindly declined. My weight on Tuesday was 140.2. I had a really bad weekend with bad eats and no exercise and just not caring. I knew that I was going to be jumping back on the wagon so I just went all out. I drank wayy too much, stayed up till at least 10 am on two of four possible nights, and just partied my fucking ass off. Time to get serious now and focus on school, and weight loss.

I ran on monday with my mother. She wasn't able to run the 35 like I do, so we ran for 25 minutes including a 5 minute stretch in there. I jumped on the scale yesterday and it said 137, so all the water weight had left my system.

I went to the gym at school yesterday and pumped out a great workout. The weights I grabbed were 10's and they were too heavy but I didn't want to go back and grad 7.5's so I just dealt with them. I did about 15 minutes of weights, and 10 minutes of abs, and 20 minutes of running at 6.0. I seriously struggled with the run, but I pushed myself. Today the scale reads 137.4 and I know it's because I'm rebuilding my muscle from not being able to weight train lately.

Yesterday's eats were good. I had a bagel with light herb and garlic cream cheese and a yogurt, lunch was a turkey and ham sandwich made like a sub on multigrain. Snack was an apple, nectarine, and a couple artichoke hearts, and dinner was catfish w/ spinach salad and a small amount of beans. My mom made some pasta thing for dinner and I probably had more than I should have (I should have had none). So to make up for it, I went for a 40 minute walk with my mom.

I don't think I'm going to work on my lower body today (lunges, squats) because my legs are sooo sore. I will just do my upper body, abs, and my cardio.

So far today I've had fiber one cereal w/ vanilla yogurt. I will have a snack before I hit the gym, and the same sandwich I had yesterday for lunch. Dinner will be the same too. Just gotta figure out my snack for between lunch and dinner.

So I had my biochemistry class yesterday and he jumped right into the lecture. It was very interesting. He was talking about the beginning of the earth and how life could have formed from simple gases, high temperatures, and an electrical shock. The class will probably have me leaning more towards atheism than agnosticism, but that's alright. I am a science girl after all. Anyways gotta go check on the dog and grab a snack before I head over to the school. Today I have my analytical chemistry class. Been there, done that, failed it.
 
Ok so I came up with this crazy random idea that I'm really excited about. I'm going to try out for the womens varsity cross country team at the college. I'm sooo excited, I just hope I make the cut. My workout yesterday KILLED my legs to the point of having trouble walking and today they are running hills. The first tryout was yesterday, but they need more girls so I have to meet at 5, which is in 35 minutes. I was supposed to work at Pizza Hut tonight but I told them I have a mandatory WHMIS training semenar at 4:30 and I can't make it. I also had someone take my shift so I don't seem like a complete failure lol.

I just can't wait to try out. I really hope I don't get cut though. I am not nearly as fit as I was a couple weeks ago. I asked this guy what the typical length of run is and he said that next week the coach will be getting times for a 3K and the race is usually a 5K. 3K is 1.86 miles which I can probably do in 15 minutes. Hopefully my pain and lack of being fit lately don't get me cut!! :(

So everyone wish me luck today... I'm going to need it!!
 
I just got a really big knot in my stomach. There were only 5 girls on the team last year. 5 out of a whole college. I am getting nervous now..... blahhh
 
Oh you will do great Amanda!!! You are an awesome runner and would make a great component to the team!!

I'm not going to wish you luck, you will be fine!! I just know it!!

Whoot whoot!! *shakes pom poms* Rock out lady!
 
I'm a little late to wish you luck, but here's a good luck anyway.

Good Luck :party:

So, how'd it go? :bigear:
 
So I think I felt very fit yesterday leading up to that try out because it was way too intense for me. I cut myself from the team lol. We ran a 3K and I felt like I was going to collapse when I was finished. I kept up with everyone, but it was still very very hard. I told the coach that I didn't feel I was at the competitive level of running yet and I would still like to come out to the practices. But I ran 5 miles yesterday so that's quite an accomplishment.

Went out for dinner with aurora to this nice italian restaurant. I got baked chicken breast with grilled vegetables and a couple slices of potato. It was soo good. I think I had a few too many bread slices before dinner though. I ordered water at first, and then decided to get a martini since they were half price. After that we met with our other friend at another bar and grill type place. Aurora got dessert and I wish she hadn't. She got this skor brownie think with ice cream and whipped cream. And I caved. I was doing sooo well and I had only had one bite of it. Then Half of it was gone. I got another martini there too. I didn't think it would be that bad but today the scale said 139.8.

So thats it. I'm done with cheating. If it's going to make me feel as miserable as I do then I can't do it. I need to drop weight not gain. No more drinking through the week. No more indulging no more caving, no more nothing. Eat right and exercise.

I am about to leave to go to the gym at my school now. My legs are still soo sore from those damn squats, but I'll try to work them out a bit. So far today I've had a blueberry cranberry bran muffin, and aurora's leftover whole wheat pasta in basil w/ sundried tomatoes. My snack will be a protein bar and a yogurt after my workout and dinner will be catfish with spinach salad. I have noooo intention on cheating anymore. It's the 5th and I can still make it to 130 or less by the end of the month. Everytime I get tempted I'll just think of 130 or 127. I can do this I know I can!!!
 
Half price drinks is a toughie. I find that when food is cheap I will make excuses. "You can't pass up on this" or "It will be twice as much for that" or whatever. The other part is when I get something for the kids and they only eat half. Am I going to just throw it away? Now I do. I've tried to adopt the mindset that I'd rather pay not to eat something bad for me. I'd rather pay $10 to NOT eat half a pizza and get on the scale the next day dreading it. It's tought to keep in mind all the time, but that's where I'm going.
 
Yea when I see things that are good value on sale I tend to purchase them. I think my mother has given me this mindset. She is the type of person that is always looking for the best deal. I have a really hard time throwing away leftovers as well. That's why when I am satisfied at a restaurant I will probably continue eating whats on my plate.

Anyways, this weekend was alright. Saturday I did pretty darn good. I ate very well all day. I had a really bad shift at Swiss Chalet though and decided I'd go to my friends and have a couple drinks. I only had beer, so I brought 3. They had leftover food from a potluck and I had a small portion of everthing. The 3 beers turned into 3 beers, a ceasar, a shot of tequilla, and a tall can of beer....or two. Oh and sex with one of my friends.

I have added 4 guys to my roaster in one month and I'm feeling really slutty. I'm nervous that my friends are going to think less of me and think I'm a slut... so I've decided that I want to be abstinent for a little while. I also want to really cut out drinking as much as possible.

Sunday's meals didn't go so well. Because of a hangover, I had half a steak for breakfast, 2 eggs, 2 toast, and some bacon. Then I had two cookies. Then I went to my dads for a late lunch and had 1.5 chicken breasts, salad, risotto, and about 5 ribs. I wasnt planning on eating anything else, but after work I had half a steak, a little corn, and 3 cookies.

The scale today said 138.4, which is better than last week I guess. I plan on working out before my lab at 11:45. I'm done school today at 1:30, but I'll probably get out early because I think my lab may just be an intro today. I work at the Chalet tonight and that will sum up my day.

Not sure what meals will be, but so far I've had a whole wheat bagel with light cream cheese. I'll have a fiber one bar after my workout.
 
Uh oh. I just ate french onion soup for lunch with garlic bread. I didn't think it would be THAT bad because it was soup. turns out it's 410 cals without the GB. I want to barf it up lol. Oh well I guess. They gave me two soups and Garlic breads for some reason and I think I'll just give it away when I get home. It took me FOREVER to decide on lunch to begin with. I thought salad, then I figured it wouldn't fill me till 7, then I thought of a wrap but I felt that was too many calories, then I came back to the french onion soup. Soooo thats my terrible lunch.

I had a raisin bran muffin for breakfast which was 360, then I had a fiber one bar which was 140, then I had an aero singles bar which was 100. Lunch was the soup and garlic bread which was probably around 650. I bought a fruit bowl for snack which is 130, and I plan to have chicken breast with chopped veggies tonight, which will probably be 350-400. That works out to....1800 cals. Shit....

Thinking now of only eating half the chicken tonight and maybe half the fruit. that would remove 250 and give me 1550 cals for the day. A number I can deal with. Sorry I'm thinking out loud.

I don't really have time to workout today but I will try to go for a run tonight. I have a couple assignments which I need to work on right now so I don't have to worry about them. Next class starts at 3:20.... sooooo far away..

Oh I should probably mention that I had a great workout yesterday and the scale is finally moving in the right direction. I know if I eat the 1550 instead of the 1800 the scale will move tomorrow. Anyways... I'm just rambling.
 
Yesterday ended terribly. Someone in my house at my prepared dinner of chicken breast and chopped veggies and it threw my game. I started snacking right away since dinner was in the oven. My mom had made pilsbury chocolate chip cookies and I just had one.... that soon turned into about 12. I had dinner too: chicken breast w/ basmati rice and corn. After dinner I basically gave in and just had ice cream. I did not go on the scale today. I'll probably wait till friday.

Anyways gotta get ready for school
 
Man, that sucks. I know what it's like to be all geared up for something healthy and having it derail like that. You tell yourself that it won't throw of your determination, but it does. Hey, back to it today. :smash:
 
MmmmmMMMmmmmm chocolate chip cookies. If someone were to set a plate of them in front of me I would INHALE it. I have to avoid them like the plague because I literally have no will power when it comes to them.

Today's a new day! Fresh start! Good luck!
 
Hey lady just climb back up on that horse! I'm having exercise motivational issues right now which is just as bad at the eating.

How is school going? Are you enjoying your classes??? Are you totally overwhelmed yet.
 
I know this response is 2 days late but oh well. Chocolate chip cookies are probably my biggest weakness too. I've started to settle down with the ice cream cravings, but I find the chocolate cravings are still around.
MissD I am not overwhelmed at all, but I think I will be this semester. Classes are pretty good. Advanced Instrumentation lecture is soooo dry. It helps that all the stuff we are currently learning I did at my co-op in the summer.

And I have jumped back on the horse and things are going well for the most part. I have not weighed myself since the cookie incident because I am still telling myself I am 139. I want to see a nice drop when I go on the scale.

The day before yesterday went well. I won't discuss what I ate cus I dont remember. I started doing my WT and then I heard people doing what sounded like tae bo in the workout studio here at school. I dropped my weights and went into the class. It was cardio kickboxing. The class was pretty basic because of the wide range of fitness levels, but I stepped it up everytime I felt I could. Went back to the weight room and did a final set of all my weights before finishing up.

Yesterday I did a step class which was really good. It's kinda hard at first when you don't know the moves, but by the end of it I was getting that extra bounce in my step just to kick it up. Eats were good until I got to dinner. I wanted swiss chalet. Chicken breast and salad thats it. My mom ended up wanting kelseys so we went there. They, of course, wanted the spinach dip. I had less than I usually do, but still too much. I ordered the balsamic chicken w/ shrimp which is 2 chicken breast, 2 skewers of shrimp (4 each), 2 scoops of mashed, and grilled veggies. I split it down the middle with my mom, except for the veggies. When I felt satisfied, I stopped eating (about 2 bited left of mashed). I ordered wine which I shou'dnt have done. 9 oz instead of 6. Works out to 130 cals. Came home and had this 80 cal strawberry cream cheese pastry thing and stopped myself from getting another and going on a binge. I decided I needed to walk after my couple of downfalls so mom and I walked our usual. I felt much better about my caving.

Today is going well too. Fiber one for breaky, orange and fiber one bar for snack, 100 cal bag of popcorn and a pc Blue menu chicken pasta thing (210 cals) for lunch, and probably some chicken or fish and veggies for dinner from somewhere. I have to work tonight right after school so dinner has to be purchased.

I had a lab today at 9 and it was just an organizational class today. less than 1 hour. The lab has a 5 period time slot, so now I have nothing to do till 2:30. I plan to go and ship out MissD's bday present in a bit (wrote this on purpose cus I know she's going to read it haha), and then I will hit the gym. There is a yogalaties type of class for 40 minutes, and a step class right after. I am going to do both since I have sooo much time on my hands. Why not right??

So I guess that it for the update. I will probably weight tomorrow. I might not though and assume I'm still 139 until Monday so that I can stay on track this weekend easier. I have no intentions on drinking. I'm going to try my hardest to stick to it.
 
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