Veronique's Diary

:hurray: great job over the weekend! I'm crossing my fingers for you that the # on the scale sticks till Friday - or goes even lower! You know how to do it so just stay consistent and I have no worries you will see what your looking for come Friday.
 
chubbygirl said:
:hurray: great job over the weekend! I'm crossing my fingers for you that the # on the scale sticks till Friday - or goes even lower! You know how to do it so just stay consistent and I have no worries you will see what your looking for come Friday.
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Thank you Lisa!!!! I am stoping myself every day from jumping on that scale to check lol! Even this morning I get up and take out the scale and then I told myself if you don't like the number you will feel like crap...plus I am feeling very tired at the moment so I know the number would not be what I want it to be!!! You are right if I eat well and continue my workouts then I should get the results i want to see......Come on Friday lol!!!
 
April 20 2010

Wow it's almost May! I just realized that when I typed todays date .....I am really hoping to see the 160lb before the end of next month. If I reach at least 168 i am trying on my wedding dress to see how it fits lol, I was 4 1/2 month pregnant when I whore it but still I wasn't really showing yiet. I went for a run last night and I am running faster then I was before also I am making longer distance and no more legg cramps whoo hoo now if my lungs could stop burning mabe I could join some of my co workers and do that 10 k at the end of May but they have been running for years, and I don't like running with other people plus I usually wear jeans to go running cause I don't really have track pants so I would kind of look weird running a 10k wearing jeans, so I guess time will tell. I am so tired this morning, I am guessing it's because lately I had been waking up at 6 am but now since I am taking the bus I have to be at the stop at 6:45 wich means I got to really leave my house at 6:20 so I have plenty of time to drive to the sitter drop off the kids and be at the stop a bit early incase they leave early and then I tried to get some sleep but couldn't who sleeps on a bus?? It's bumpy and I was seated on top of the heater my legs are now cooked lol the nice thing is that i get a 15 min walk each morning so that is extra exercise!

Breakfast
Kashi cereal 4pts
coffee 2pts
lunch
blue menu chicken Bangkok 4pts
diner is supposed to be 3 oz of chiken with salad or vegies and feta cheese cooked in a bit of olive oil herbs on the bbq. Point will be around 6pts
and I will update cause i am tired so I am sure to snack during the day!
I am still drinking my 80 + oz of water a day and Hubby is home again tonight so I am going to go for a run if the weather permits but it looks like it's going to be a beautiful day with a high of 19!!!!! Come on people let's get fit!!!
 
I got interupted when I was writting my post, last night the hubby and I got into an argument (nothing big) about my weightloss. He wants me to stop at 150lb cause he says that would be healthy, then I showed him my BMI at 150 lb I would still be overweight, I don't reach the the normal bmi until i get down to at least 140lb, I remember being that weight and I wasn't really happy with it. I explained to him that I am not planning to go stick thin I won't go lower then 125lb but if I get to 135 or 130 and I am happy with my size and feel healthy then that is where I will stop, also I plan on building muscle and I am a woman not a girl I want to keep some curves, one of my very best friends a few year back lost alot of weigh she wanted to weight 100lb and she got so thin she looked breakable and I think he fears I am going down the same path but she stoped eating for days at a time...what she had was an eating disorder I don't have one, I am eating healthy (most of the time) and I am working out because I like the toned look. I don't look at celebrities like Paris Hilton and wished I looked like them, I would rather have the Jlo look or Jessica Biel or Jessica Alba looks but I do realize that they are much taller then me and have different body shape. I find very frustrading that I am working out and pushing myself to be a healthy, and fit and then he compares me with someone with an eating disorder. I am hoping he will realise how wrong he is, about what my plans are, i have this pair of jeans that i am dying to get back into, they cost me lots of money when we first started dating he loved how I looked then so what is the problem with me wanting to fit back into those jeans????? I wonder if he is afraid that other guys will give me attention. Well he will have to come around cause I am doing this for me, not him so he will have to accept it.
 
Verobc said:
I wonder if he is afraid that other guys will give me attention. Well he will have to come around cause I am doing this for me, not him so he will have to accept it.
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I know exactly how you feel - when I decided to start losing weight, I wanted to get to at least 140. I told my boyfriend (at the time) about it and he told me not to go below 140. Even though my weight should be a little lower than that for my age and height! He admitted to me that it was about me getting attention from guys, he told me about how his friend's girlfriend lost a bunch of weight and broke up with him. I think it's mostly that fear that you might look better than him and that other guys will be all over you! Needless to say, by the time I got below that weight I told him I wanted to get to 125 - and at that point, he understood and saw that I could still lose more weight but not look unhealthy or "too skinny." Maybe once you get closer to your goal weight your husband will be more understanding! Keep doin' what you're doin' :)
~ Sarah
 
I was going through the same thing yesterday with discussions about how much weight to lose without looking too skinny. I agree with you that I don't think Paris Hilton looks good and I never want to look that way - actually I could never look that way so I'm not too worried but I know exactly what you mean! We are working so hard and feeling so good about ourselves and then someone comes and tries to take it away - it sucks and hurts. I love how you said "Well he will have to come around cause I am doing this for me, not him so he will have to accept it." Good for you!! I love that attitude! Keep it up Veronique!
 
Thanks Girls it's nice to know that I am not the only one thinking the way I am, I guessed I just expected him to see a difference in the methods between my friend and I he see me eating ok I cut out the junk but that is a good thing! No point on wasting time on that I made my decision I want to feel and look healthy and I am sure he will come around, it's not like he gets a vote anyways!
 
Glad to see you're still doing sooo good! Great loss for the week, fershur. You can totally get into the 160s by end of next month :)
I liked your comment about doing it for you and not for him- keep it up!
 
Jess393 said:
Glad to see you're still doing sooo good! Great loss for the week, fershur. You can totally get into the 160s by end of next month :)
I liked your comment about doing it for you and not for him- keep it up!
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Hey it's nice you too see you on here!!!! I am really hoping that I will keep the loss going!!!!!

A few years back I was being really hard on myself about the weight gain and I remember him telling that he loved me no matter what i looked like and that I should just love myself, that I looked great and that I had a rocking personality that brougth good people around me so to quite being so hard on myself all the time. I kind of listen to that way too much and I got to say that by the end of last year my weight was affecting my personality and attitude big time, I used to have energy and be fun, and for that last 5 years or so I have been less active cause I am freaking tired all the time and I am depressed and bitchy often ( I get on my own nerves when I get like that) That is why I need to do this for me, I want to get back to that energique easy going person I am, not the persone who breaks down and cries if she can't find her kids hat in the morning or her keys. I am slowly getting back to my old self and I think once i am there and my husband realizes that I still have some meat on my bones then he will be ok with it, what is he gonna do tie me to a chair and force feed me lol!!! Just got a mental picture of that!!!!
 
Wow, I wish my husband felt that way - unfortunately, he doesn't like how I look so much when I'm overweight. He tries not to say so, but I know that's how he really feels...
 
April 21 2010

Happy hump day lol!!!! Last night I didn't get a workout, I catched up on house cleaning, my mother in law comes and cleans my house on wednesday afternoon and I don't want her touching my laundry ( I think I might be ocd with my laundry) I could be that I am picky but when I do laundry I don't just do a white colour and dark load, the clothes I wear to work I wash on delicat cycle and also I will not wash sweatshirts with a silk like blouse cause they are the same colour, also on the kids clothes I pre treat stains. My clothes last much longer when I wash it myself when my mother in law does the laundry well the stains stay on the clothes and they wear out sooner ( I told you OCD) My mother in law is a great women very selfess but everything is done fast no attention to details I tend to be a perfectionist so I get frustrated so I clean my house before she comes over( as in grab all the dirty laundry and hide it if I can't wash is first) Also my husband was in such a bad mood last night, and he had kind of the right to. My husband loves hockey, His brother got ticket to go see the Sens last night and didn't even bother calling my husband he called their dad who doesn't even watch hockey to go along with him, all his life my husband wanted a relationship with his brothers and his dad and they always leave him out, seriously it hurts to watch. They always make plans and they will discuss them in front of him knowing that he can't follow all conversation in the room, his dad won't even talk to my him, when he has something to say to my husband he waits till i am there talks to me and has me sign to my husband, it just pisses me off I now tell my father in law no I will not interpret he is your son talk to him. If one of my children had a special need like in his case having to learn how to sign I would take clases along with my child in order to comunicate with my child, why would you just shoce him in a corner and forget he exist, What hurts my husband even more is that his father as basically replaced him with my sister in law's brother they make plans with them all the time they completely leave us out, I have an 11 and 13 year age difference with my sisters and we talk all the time, I was 7 when my sisters moved out but they still came by the house and made plans with me in order to have a relationship with me , I don't get why his brothers can't do the same with him they have less of an age difference and they have similar interest. Last night was very tense in my house. I was trying to get him to laugh but I know he was hurting and it wasn't really about the hockey game. I ended up watching BL with a bag of chips but I had one handfull and told myself you are not hungry just stress so in order to keep myself from eating I cleaned during the commercial breaks, so one handfull of chips really shouldn't do that much of a difference by the end of the week I was under my points value so I probably didn't go over by too much.

Breakfast
bluberry bran muffin 6pts
coffee 2pts
lunch
frosen blue menu chicken something 5pts
diner
salad with mixed beans with dressing 6pts
18pts ( ok so as of today I will go for 22pts a day since sunday I weighted unofficially at 174lb and I forgot until today that it meant lower points during the day)
ok so I may not be on tommorow until late in the afternoon I am going to school with my daugther for the school open house!!!! She gets to meet her future class mates awwww my baby is growing up......I can just picture myself next september I will be the mom crying while waving goodbye to her daughter on the school bus my eyes are watering just thinking about it!!! LOL my hubby is gonna be laughing at me I just know it!
 
I'm sorry you had a bad night but so happy for you that you were able to stop after one handful of chips! That is dedication and really getting over your emotional eating habits! Keep it up Veronique! Two more sleeps till weigh-in!
 
So sorry to hear that your husband has such a horrible father, but can I borrow the MIL on Wednesdays after she is done at your house? lol. I am happy to see you are still going strong and lower points means you are doing everything right! Way to go and keep it up.
 
Sorry to hear bout the tension with the inlaws :( quick question: has your husband always been deaf? Or did his dad/brothers just not partake in sign classes?? I agree with you- if my kids, or ANY family, was still able to communicate, why not DO it? Grr. I can understand why you'd be upset with that! Good job on the one handful of chips tho :D On a slight side note, I can't buy Sunchips anymore, because I won't even pay attention to how many I eat(yeah, I love em that much, lol) and I'll eat a whole bag in one sitting. Serious ouch. :rolleyes:
 
Jess393 said:
Sorry to hear bout the tension with the inlaws :( quick question: has your husband always been deaf? Or did his dad/brothers just not partake in sign classes?? I agree with you- if my kids, or ANY family, was still able to communicate, why not DO it? Grr. I can understand why you'd be upset with that! Good job on the one handful of chips tho :D On a slight side note, I can't buy Sunchips anymore, because I won't even pay attention to how many I eat(yeah, I love em that much, lol) and I'll eat a whole bag in one sitting. Serious ouch. :rolleyes:
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My husband's parents found out he was deaf he was about 5yrs old, at that time he was able to hear with hearing aids( his dad use to have his hair cut to hide the hearing aids) When he was 13 they found a school for the deaf in a city nearby and they sent him over there that is where he learned to sign, he doesn't sign with us because he talk really well, but it helps when people talking to him cause reading lip ain't easy, his parents and one of his brother took a signing class at the same time I did ( I wasn't even dating my husband at the time I just really wanted to learn it) they just never kept up practicing and the thing about sign language is if you don't keep using it you loose it so that is what happened.
 
Wow Veronique, I'm so sorry. Men are so hard to understand some times. Especially older men (father-in-law). They are so stuck on having issues with pride and so forth, they don't know how many people they hurt with keeping all thoses walls up. I hope things get better between them.
 
April 22 2010

ok so I didn't get a chance to log on from work and I have to make this quick so I have to to workout! Today food was not so great...this morning I had my usuall bagel for breakfast but at lunch time we where going out to celebrate a better job for a co worker today was her last day and of course she picks Robbies, an Italian restaurant I had the lunch portion of manicotti with a side salad I ate about half the pasta and the whole salad I dipped my fork in the dressing so that I would not end up with tooo many points my lunch had to be at least 10pts and diner was greek salad with salty feta cheese and some vegetable rice, yup pasta and rice in the same day plus the bagel this morning way too much carbs especially before weight in oh well what can you do it's done it's done oh also a peice of carotte cake I did remove as much icing as I could it was way too sweet! The school visit when well my daugther is all exited and wants to start school today ( I am hoping that enthusiasm ( I must learn how to spell) stays) I am off to work out catch up with you all tommorow!
 
mrskt20 said:
Wow Veronique, I'm so sorry. Men are so hard to understand some times. Especially older men (father-in-law). They are so stuck on having issues with pride and so forth, they don't know how many people they hurt with keeping all thoses walls up. I hope things get better between them.[/QUOTE

I think my father in law is mostly doesn't know how to reach my husband and their personality is soo much alike it's scary but my mother in law was too soft and raised with the men are always right mentality so she let him sulk for weeks and just basically accepted blam for everything and always agreed with him....I told my hubby when we started dating if you are looking for a I don't know it this is the correct word submissive woman, I am not it. I am hard headed and independant sulking in a corner will not work with me I will go on living my life while you waste your time sulking lol! I am so hoping he doesn't turn out like his dad!
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April 23 2010

Happy friday!!!! So today is weight in day and I am still at 178.2lb......I am wondering what happened since last sunday my eating was ok this week...until yesterday last night after my workout I should have showered and gone to bed but no.....I wanted to check the scores of the play off game, and the game was tied so I decided to watch a little to be able to tell my hubby who won when he gets home at 4 am The game was really good i was really into it and then.......I realized that i was holding a bag of doritos and I was eating, I dont even remember grabbing it :cuss: So I am wondering if the salt in those could have changed the numbers I also had greek salad last night so that could be why the number from last sunday was not showing this morning. Also I am wondering when I wake up at 5 am I am tired and I feel so heavy and streesed then I weight myself on sunday I usually sleeped in till 7 am and I feel light and relaxed so I am wondering if that is the reason my numbers are lower on sundays then on firdays??? I will keep weighing unofficially on sundays for a couple of week to see if this is the case! Has annyone else experienced that???? I did not gain so I am happy with that I did workout this week but when I did my workout I was not 100% into them I just did it cause it had to be done but that is it , so that could have affected the results to, this week end I got to get my bikes all tuned up and after baths on week night I (when it's warm enough) I can put the kids in the little bike trailer and go once or twice around the village where I live (yes it's that small lol, when I run/walk my 2 kilometer I go from one end of main st to the other and then go around back to come back home so my town is about 1long. I used to bike alot in the summer when I lived in Ottawa I miss the beautiful bike paths, oh well my life isn't the same anymore!!!
today
Breakfast
yogourt, granola, strwberry parfait 6pts
coffee 2pts
lunch
salad with dressing on the side 1pts (I will be dipping my fork in the dressing)
left over from yesterday's lunch (can't let it go to waist) 6pts
Diner Salad with dressing on the side again 1pts
3oz of chiken 3pts
wich brings me to 19pts I have 3 pts left it's friday i may have coffee in the afternoon. We will see. If not I know I went over yesterday so it will balance things out!
 
I think the time of day and eating those chips just before bed totally made a difference for the scale. On Sunday you probably didn't eat as late and then when you weighed in at 7am a lot of hours had passed since you had last eaten as opposed to last night you probably had less than 8 hours inbetween eating and weighing yourself. Plus the salt in those doritos would affect it for sure! If you had been drinking water last night it probably all stayed in your system this morning. I bet if you drink lots of water between now and Sunday and don't eat just before bed on Saturday you'll be back to Sunday's weight or less. I wouldn't worry you are doing great and eventually the results will show on Friday again! Keep it up and have a great weekend!:seeya:
 
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