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I'm hoping that starting this diary will help me be more accountable for my actions. I guess I'll start by answering the suggested questions.

I started this new weight loss goal on June 1st, which happens to be when I got engaged. I weighed 257 pounds, more than I have ever weighed. As good as it made me feel that my boyfriend wanted to spend the rest of his life with me when I was looking my worst; I can't help but feel ugly when I stand next to him. With a wedding in the future and all of the events leading up to it, I need to feel better about myself so that I can enjoy what should be the happiest time of my life.

My goal is to lose about 80 pounds from today.
I would like to lose this weight by my wedding, which is going to be late September of 2007.
I have totally overhauled my diet. I was eating junk ALL the time, and eating WAY too much. I am also forcing myself to get in some exercise.
I am hoping that my fiancee will be very supportive in this quest. He has never made me feel bad about my weight or the way I look, but I know that he will support me if he knows this will make me happier. I am also looking to this forum for support. While my fiancee and my family will be supportive, they do not understand how difficult it is to lose this much weight.
I think that this goal is extremely realistic. Spread evenly, it only requires that I lose about 5 1/2 pounds a month. I think I should be able to get the weight off in the first 9 or 10 months and hopefully continue to tone my body for the following 5 months.
Theoretically I started on June 1st. I didn't get SERIOUS about it until June 8th.

That being said, I have already lost 6 pounds, as I am down to 251. I had never seen 250-anything on the scale until recently, and hopefully after this weekend I will NEVER see it again.

I'm looking forward to your support and advice.

Thanks! :)
 
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Yay!!! You are doing so good. It's always nice to reach those mile stones. I remember the first time it really hit me was when I went to a weigh in and they had to move that big block on the medical scales over from the 250+ to the 200+ I literally jumped for joy!

And I think I know exactly how you feel about the wedding thing, and standing next to your man. My guy has never put me down for my weight but I just feel like whenever I go somewhere with him people are looking at us thinking "what is he doing with her" The good thing in my opinion is that if loves you just they way you are you know he loves you for you, and if he ends up with a wife with a kickass body that just a bonus :D

I know you can do it, you have the best motivation in the world and now all the support one person can ask for!

And thank you for the support too :)
 
Hi, valapalooza! What awesome motivation you have to lose your weight! I know you're doing it for yourself, but it doesn't hurt to have a terrific end goal to work towards. My end goal is a trip to the Canadian Rockies that I've always wanted to take. I know you'll reach your goal as will I. Just keep trying your best and know that we're all here for you. Hang in there!
 
goals

Your goals are TOTALLY reasonable, and you should be able to do that easily if you just stick to it! Who knows, you might even have to move your goal weight further down because you have so much time left when you get those 80 pounds off. :)

One request - please make your font bigger next post. :eek: Thanks!
 
So yesterday I realized just how much of an emotional eater I am. I walked in the house after ending a somewhat unfriendly phone call, and found myself directly in front of the fridge. I wasn't even hungry... amazingly, I was able to keep myself from eating something bad and I grabbed a quick healthy snack- but it sure would have been easy to slip up. I guess being aware of your habits is the first step towards correcting them, right?
 
I am totally with you. I pack healthy lunches, and if I have a stressful morning at work, I eat my lunch, and then instead of being statisfied by it, I dwell on fast food, and sometimes it takes everything I have to no run to BK and get a whopper....Mmmmm...whopper....

Anyway. Yeah, good for you. Your entry shows the importance of not having junk food in the house. I think every one has those weak times, and if your emotional eating is an apple, thats not near as bad as a quart of hagen daas. It weird. When I would emotionally eat/binge, it would be like eating a donut or something, now its like I eat a granola bar...and still feel guilty. I guess thats what improving all the time is about.

Bottom line, good for you to eat a healthy snack, don't beat yourself up. Improvement is the key. Odds are you would have had a candy bar or something emotionally, and what you did is better. Always keep moving foward. An ancient chinese proverb says, "do not be afraid of moving slowly, only of standing still".
 
Its good to see everyone compilmenting everybody else and showing moral support. I dident know this site existed until today and its a real motivator knowing that you can talk to people from everywhere and find people in the same situation as I am in.
 
Ultimate- I sent you a private message regarding the tickers... or else you can go to the Newcomers Forum and read the first thread. (It has helpful hints, including how to use the tickers)

My eating habits today have been pretty good. I just finished my 3rd glass of water. I had a bowl of healthy cereal for breakfast, I had a salad for lunch and I have a banana waiting for me as a midafternoon snack.

Speaking of my salad- I don't know if any of you live near a Trader Joe's, but they have premade salads that are actually pretty good. I just had a decent sized Greek salad, with cucumber, feta cheese, balsamic vinegarette dressing, red peppers, olives, etc. and it was only 180 calories. Yay!
 
Greek salad is the food of Gods (along with curry, spinach, mango and pineapple) I love feta cheese so much but it also goes nicely with black olives and pasta sauce *dribbles*.

You look as though you're very determined to get this weight off which is fantastic and your goal is very reasonable! I wish you every success in the future and remember we're always here if yuo need us!;)
 
Oh, I miss Trader Joes so much! I used to live in CA. They don't have them here in the Midwest. Crunchie and FatGuyTri are making me want to eat. I have found myself in a a trance eating at times. Isn't that terrible? That is how base the issue is for some. Your doing great, Val!
 
So even though I promised myself I would only update my ticker once a week, I still weigh myself daily (or a few times daily) like a fiend! The good news is that when I jumped on the scale this morning it said 248. If I can keep on track with what I've been doing, my pledge to never see the 250's again after this weekend will be a breeze! (Baby steps- that's what I have to keep telling myself.)
I did a really great job with drinking water yesterday. Plus, it's my TOM and I've been able to fight off any of my ridiculous cravings so far. Yay! What I'm nervous about is the upcoming weekend. My fiance and I are throwing a housewarming/engagement party at our new place tomorrow. We have all sorts of yummy food and I know people will be bringing more yummy food... The question is, will I be able to stay away from it all? I bought some turkey burgers from Trader Joe's (100 calories each) - and I bought a lot of fruit, so hopefully that will curb my appetite. I'm also going to force myself to drink 8 oz. of water between every alcoholic beverage so that I don't overdo my calories there. Wish me luck!;)

Yesterdays Food:
Breakfast: Bowl of cereal w/ skim milk
Lunch: Greek Salad (pre-packaged, 180 calories)
Snacks: Banana and a 100-calorie snack pack
Dinner: 1/2 an order of Pad Cashew (I wasn't super excited about going to get Thai food, but I tried really hard to limit how much of it I ate)
 
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So I did pretty well yesterday. I had my usual bowl of cereal for breakfast... a bag of steamed veggies for lunch... 2 100 calorie packs over the course of the day... rice and some homemade chicken lettuce wraps for dinner.

That being said, I am in SO much trouble for tonight. My sister is bringing over 7-layer bean dip. I love 7-layer bean dip... not to mention all the other junk that is going to be around. I am just going to have to convince myself that the turkey burger and the fruit and the cucumber are good enough... and that the bean dip probably tastes as gross as refried beans look. AHHH... Wish me luck!
 
Good luck Valapalooza!!

I know exactly what you mean about junk being around the house...and having to convince yourself of how much good your healthy option will do your body as opposed to the garbage everyone else will be eating...

Byt stay focused! You can do it! :D

- Cecilia
 
Congratulations on your weight loss so far. :D I think I am an emotional eater too, but the main emotion that makes me eat is stress. Too bad I have a lot of that! ;) Lol! :D
 
It is so hard to be good sometimes...I caved this weekend...trust me the guilt is not worth the caving:eek: . So stay as strong as you can and think of us cheering you on from your computer screen!
 
So an update for the weekend- I actually did pretty good as far as food goes during our party. My weekness was the beverages- I forced myself to drink a bottle of water between every drink for the first couple of hours (especially because it was 92 degrees outside!), but later into the evening I wasn't so good about drinking the water anymore.
Sunday was also hard with Father's Day- We went to brunch at this restaurant on the water. I made mostly smart decisions, with the exception of a piece of sausage and a bite of my niece's chocolate chip cookie. We had stirfry for dinner- but I had more rice than I needed. Oh well, at least I drank plenty of water on Sunday.

I knew the weekend was going to be tough, but I managed to get through it without too many slip-up's. Now I am back on track and have no more excuses until early July. (Fourth of July, my fiance's birthday and my younger sisters 21st birthday all in one week- Yikes!)

I did my weekly "official" weigh-in and I am down 2.4 pounds from last week- that puts me right on track towards my goal. Looking at my new ticker, I am a tenth of the way to my goal weight. Yay!
 
Congrats on your loss!!!!!! Youare doing good, and from what I read form this past weekend you did GREAT. Keep it up and enjoy you're day. Don't forget to drink your WATER
 
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