Ups and Downs

Day 16-17

Friday was fairly laid-back. I went to school, ate a light lunch and then went to my fiancee's. He was really craving Kraft Dinner, so that's what I had, with a lot of winter mix veggies acting as low-cal filler in my portion. Mike seems to think that I'm consuming enough vegetables lately that he wouldn't be surprised if I turned green. I told him that if that made me able to photosynthesize, I'd save a fortune on groceries (wow, I'm such a nerd).

Saturday, we ended up skipping breakfast because he got sent home from work and had to go to the hospital and get checked out. Fortunately it was nothing serious, just an infection of the lining of his stomach, but the doc told him to rest for a couple days, avoid spicy foods etc. We had noodle soup and grilled cheese sandwiches for lunch. Next time I made the sandwiches---I swear he used extra margarine on mine, even if he did use light processed (one slice) on my sandwich :eek: I picked a bunch of raspberries from his parents back garden while he lay down to nap for a few hours (his mom said they really needed to get eaten before they all went bad) and fixed up a batch of raspberry-apple crumble to put in the oven later for dessert. We had dinner at his folks', plain baked chicken wings (no batter, just dipping sauce---I just dripped on Tabasco instead) and corn on the cob, courtesy of his dad. Delicious and not super-unhealthy.

Before you ask why I would bring a sugary, buttery sweet dish for dessert that probably is hard to justify considering my diet, let me explain something. His mom really likes crumble desserts. Mike and I planned to announce our engagement just before dessert that night. Yes I am bribing my future mother-in-law with fruit crumble LOL. She keeps hugging me now, so I'm guessing she's okay with me :)
 
Day 18

Had the typical big Sunday breakfast at his parent's house (hash browns, 2 slice bacon, 2 eggs, toast) so I kind of skipped lunch and had sushi and greek salad (the kind with the veggies chopped into large chunks, no lettuce) for dinner, with a little leftover chicken. Got close to my daily limit, but didn't go over.

Looking forward to starting yoga on Tuesday.
 
Day 19-20

Monday was not really the most exciting day. I had my lunch and breakfast at school (muffin, cheese, apple, meal replacement bar, raisin buiscuit, green tea, juice), and came home to have a quick dinner of spaghatti with tomato sauce. I went just a little over my limit, but only by 40 calories.

Tuesday on the other hand....can you define emotional eating? My fiance and I hadn't told my family yet, but mom kind of saw a text I sent him about wanting to tell her something, and then she got worried and kept asking so I had to tell her he'd asked me to marry me (but not until I had my degree and we both had more money). I ended that conversation upset and sitting on a bench at the university (she called me about it after my first class). My fiance called me to ask if I was okay after I texted him, and then he came by the house later so he'd be there when mom got home.

I for some reason felt the need to eat crap, so I went to McDonald's and intentionally ordered the worst breakfast combo I could think of (McGriddle), which I tried only once before and hadn't liked. But it was greasy and salty and sweet, so I ate it. One of mom's favorites is apple coffee cake, so I whipped some up at home. By adding up the calories in all the ingredients and dividing it by six slices I found out that cake was almost 500cal a slice. I just had to add crumble topping, didn't I?

Mike, Mom and I had a lovely awkward conversationl Mostly she just talked, and we listened. Nothing she said was really a surprise: she can't be mad at us because we don't plan on anything right away, but she isn't happy either; he shouldn't have bought a ring because now we can't just forget it and write it off as a dumb idea; neither of us have enough life experience and we're just a serious boyfriend and girlfriend, end of story.

I wouldn't feel as sad if she hadn't taken me aside after he left and started suggesting that I wanted to tell her something now that Mike was gone. When I asked her what she thought I wanted to say, she told me that just because I said "yes" there was no rule I couldn't leave Mike, and that we should see other people. "Maybe we should see other people" is what you say when you're too chicken to break up with someone. I feel horrible for putting Mike in this situation, and I don't think he's comfortable coming over again.
 
Oh yeah, if I'd skipped either the McDonald's or the cake I would have still been safely under my limit as I just had a green salad for supper. I would have preferred the cake.
 
Day 19-20

Monday was not really the most exciting day. I had my lunch and breakfast at school (muffin, cheese, apple, meal replacement bar, raisin buiscuit, green tea, juice), and came home to have a quick dinner of spaghatti with tomato sauce. I went just a little over my limit, but only by 40 calories.

Tuesday on the other hand....can you define emotional eating? My fiance and I hadn't told my family yet, but mom kind of saw a text I sent him about wanting to tell her something, and then she got worried and kept asking so I had to tell her he'd asked me to marry me (but not until I had my degree and we both had more money). I ended that conversation upset and sitting on a bench at the university (she called me about it after my first class). My fiance called me to ask if I was okay after I texted him, and then he came by the house later so he'd be there when mom got home.

I for some reason felt the need to eat crap, so I went to McDonald's and intentionally ordered the worst breakfast combo I could think of (McGriddle), which I tried only once before and hadn't liked. But it was greasy and salty and sweet, so I ate it. One of mom's favorites is apple coffee cake, so I whipped some up at home. By adding up the calories in all the ingredients and dividing it by six slices I found out that cake was almost 500cal a slice. I just had to add crumble topping, didn't I? :(

Mike, Mom and I had a lovely awkward conversationl Mostly she just talked, and we listened. Nothing she said was really a surprise: she can't be mad at us because we don't plan on anything right away, but she isn't happy either; he shouldn't have bought a ring because now we can't just forget it and write it off as a dumb idea; neither of us have enough life experience and we're just a serious boyfriend and girlfriend, end of story.

I wouldn't feel as sad if she hadn't taken me aside after he left and started suggesting that I wanted to tell her something now that Mike was gone. When I asked her what she thought I wanted to say, she told me that just because I said "yes" there was no rule I couldn't leave Mike, and that we should see other people. "Maybe we should see other people" is what you say when you're too chicken to break up with someone. I feel horrible for putting Mike in this situation, and I don't think he's comfortable coming over again for Thanksgiving in October(canadian thanksgiving is before the american holiday).
 
day 21

No more emotional eating. I was 300 cal over my calorie goal. I guess I'm not overeating enough to gain any weight, but I'm certainly slowing down my progress. I started well--small homemade bran-apple muffin, piece of cheese, apple, but I also brought a slice of that coffee cake (this was before I calculated the calories in it!) and I had a brownie. I had salad and a bowl of lipton chicken noodle soup for supper, but then I got hungry coming home from work and got a burger and a diet coke, adding another 510 calories. If only I hadn't had that sandwich I would have been about 200cal under my limit and worked at eliminating my running over/under tally of cumulative caloric difference from my goal. Thursday I'm just going to eat Slim-fast bars and drink green tea. That's it.

On the other hand, when I got home mom apologised for her reaction the other day, so I guess I feel better now.
 
Days 22-23

On Thursday I did not manage to eat just the slim-fast bars and tea. I had lunch, but probably should have not had the roll that came with the soup. Next time, I'll know to watch out for that. I had the bar for breakfast with some green tea, had soup and a bun and a donut (next time I skip the bun---donut is way tastier for same amt of calories), then had baked filet of white fish with salsa for dinner. So in the end I was still within my limit, but just barely. I'll be more careful in the future.

On Friday I had a Slim-fast bar for breakfast with green tea, and I brought another one for lunch. There wasn't enough time to grab anything between classes at all so far, so hopefully I'll be able to stick to my plan. Having dinner at dad's (he's not moving anymore!), so I'll write later to say how that goes.
 
Day 24-25

The weekend was a write-off, as is my vehicle. I rolled my vehicle and everyone was trying to cheer me up with food, so I guess I blew it.

So now I am living with dad, but he doesn't keep as much diet-friendly food in the house, so I guess I need to grocery shop :(
 
Days 26-27

So not so bad for the first couple days at dad's. I Had a lighter lunch yesterday, mostly snackable foods, which actually did a pretty good job of keeping me within the lines. We had cabbage rolls and spinach for supper, so that was pretty good for my calorie goal too.

Tues day started out good. I had a meal replacement shack blended with coffee to make it more palateable for breakfast, and all I had the rest of the day until dinner was carrot sticks, a granola bar, 1/4 cup trail mix and a nonfat pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks. Next time I hang out at the book store before catching a bus, I will NOT get anything other than ordinary coffee or tea from the cafe while I read it. Dinner was all right. Dad baked some pork chops in tomato sauce and we had rice and green peas with that. I was doing quite well except one thing: dad has a bit of a sweet tooth, though, so we had pudding (spotted dick) with custard earlier today. And I'd been doing so well too! LOL Ah well, it's not like I'm really in serious need of weight loss, so if it's a bit slow that's still okay. I was still below what my intake to maintain my weight should be, so I still lost weight.
 
Days 28-29

Kind of a mixed bag, I guess. I had a diet shake with coffee for breakfast wednesday, followed by 1/4 trail mix, carrot sticks, a small croissant and yogurt later in the day. Dinner was a pretty simple deal, just lasagna, and I made sure I only put what the box said was a serving on my plate. I ended up being just slightly under my goal :)

Thursday went surprisingly well too. I had a plain croissant for breakfast with tea, and soup later in the day for lunch. Dinner was canneloni, green peas and a broiled chicken breast.
 
Days 30-32

I really don't remember what I ate on Friday, and I'm not really sure if its totally necessary to keep track of this. The only reason I gained weight in the first place last year was that I kept repeatedly eating fast food. I dunno, I look good, I'm in pretty decent shape and if my BMI says I'm a point overweight, I have a body fat% score that begs to differ. I'll just monitor my weight, I have a pretty good idea of how much is too much food by now.
 
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