yep, i slipped on the icy path of holidays and rode it all the way down the sugar cookie slope to hey, lets put those pounds back on holler....i blew it big time..which is okay....believe it or not. this was a good fall...because i actually learned something about myself. well, alot....i was wanting to lose weight for all of the wrong reasons and with all of the wrong notions....sure i can lie and say, i'm doing it for world peace and to live longer and blah blah blah....but the truth is...theres only one reason and i never had that reason on my mind....so...fresh start and the reason i want to lose this weight...is solely for me....because i want to be the best version of me that i can be....corny i know....but i've spent years being miserable...and fat because it was easier than confronting the reasons for my unhappiness and my weight...i go back to the doctor in Feb....so we'll see how the thyroid is acting....and, instead of faking happy....which i'm so good at...i'm going to be happy and put all that baggage and bs behind me. i know that every pound on my body is a pound of my past that i'm carrying with me...because i am the center of my universe and if something went wrong it was my fault...food never let me down, it never disappointed me, so when something went wrong or someone failed to make me happy...i ate. well, things go wrong....people can and will disappoint you and its not my fault....it happens and the food that has always been there for me....has turned to fat which is killing me. 
Don't worry there are a few of us here who rode that path with ya! LOL
and truth is when you lie to people you're mostly trying to lie to yourself. because if they buy into it then it must be so right?...we're all doing it in one way or the other. 